Category Archives: Message

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Monday massages

Monday, December 17, 2012
7:05am Phil
Good Morning, Have a great week!  Be up all night Thursday partying with co-workers before everyone heads out.  Busy week for us but it’s nice to see them going home all excited.  Hope it’s a wonderful Monday for ya!
8:10am
Good morning!  Off to work – free massages today!  Then a project meeting tonight.  Whee!
8:10am Phil
Have a great day, girl!
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Five sexy gifs and a video

Sunday, December 16, 2012
10:54am
Hiya kid!  Hope you’re having a relaxing Sunday.  Football today?
3:21pm Phil
Hanging on the couch, relaxing. Enjoy your free day. My wife left to go shopping so I am having a nice afternoon. Chit chatting a bit but that’s it
3:21pm
Nice!
3:27pm Phil
Yeah it is. Love the house to myself
4:08pm
Too bad I’m not there to rub your…feet
4:17pm Phil
That would be nice. A little lotion and heaven. Feels amazing.
Got a lap full of poochies
4:19pm
Awww
4:20pm Phil
It’s nice. Getting cold, gotta build a fire. The babies like that
Nothing better than being rubbed
4:25pm
Hmmm… sucked? fucked?
4:39pm Phil
That’s good too but a proper hand job can have you writhing and moaning, begging to cum, instead, you feel a finger slide into your ass, you close your eyes and gasp enjoy the feeling and then the hand starts again or is replaced by a mouth. Damn!
4:42pm
Oh, that does sound like fun!
4:45pm Phil
Girl kneels and rides a rabbit, you can tell when she gets off, sucks harder, strikes faster. Fucking mind blowing hot
Strokes
Then she climbs on top and fucks you to a second orgasm
Sorry, did I say that out loud?
4:50pm
Nope.  Typed it to your secret confidante!
made her squirm in her desk chair…
4:51pm Phil
Ah good!
4:52pm
4:53pm Phil
Now that’s hot. I like to watch, very hot, sometimes lick her fingers, offer a tongue
Sometimes just lay back and watch, stroke my cock till she’s ready for the real thing
Love the smell of pussy and cum
4:55pm
4:55pm Phil
Nothing like both of you drenched in sweat, room smells like sex, you lay together panting, laughing
Then go sit on the porch naked and dry off
Nice, with the curtains open. Fun being watched. Did that once, guy had a birds eye view. When we were done, he smiled and waved
She was looking at the guy the entire time
 5:13pm
2-minute video with light spanking and sexy fingering
5:21pm Phil
Nice till he wiped her juices on her ass.  
He should have licked that finger clean
5:24pm
The combo thumb in her ass and fingers inside with the slurping sound… oooof…plus spanking!
Oh man… I want to touch you. Arrgh!
5:25pm Phil
It was hot! Love the thumbing her ass
5:26pm
It’s strange… some days I look around and see nothing worth sending.  Today there are so many!
5:28pm Phil
Hot
5:29pm
5:30pm Phil
Love to slip my tongue in her ass. Hear the gasp, bury a few fingers in her and fuck that ass with my tongue
5:33pm
What about tapping another spot? 
5:43pm Phil
Uh huh, spank that pussy!
5:44pm
what about in a moving limo?  
5:47pm Phil
Done that. Had my head out the roof while being sucked, waving at people
5:47pm
damn… who was sucking you?!
5:48pm Phil
My tequila girl
5:48pm
mmmf… I think I need to go lie down.  And have someone bounce on me!
5:48pm Phil
Ha ha
Sounds wonderful
5:50pm
I have to pick up Hubby.  
So nice playing… not sure how I am going to stand up!
5:53pm Phil
What part got you?
All happened
Limo blowjob was hot as hell

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Horn Dog

Saturday, December 15, 2012
8:41am Phil
Hope your evening got better.  What a horrendous thing. You seem to just give and give.  You have a sweet soul. I’m in the office early to get some admin done, get a good workout knocked out, sip some coffee, enjoy me time. Christmas party tonight.  I love it, so much fun. I have not been in the Christmas spirit.  First time ever that I can think of.  Maybe tonight.  Gotta go work out. Bike, elliptical, boxes, stairs and killer abs today! Love you!
12:44pm
Oops!  I missed the time to say “Good morning!” so I’ll switch to “Good afternoon!’  Doesn’t seem the same, but it is filled with Good!  Hope your admin rolled and you have worked every muscle! You military folk sure know a good excuse for a party… ha ha ha.  Enjoy!
12:48pm Phil
It is an excuse to drink.  You got it right! It’s nice to smile a bit.  Talked to my Mom this morning.  She told me I should dump my wife and go get The Beach Gal. Said if she makes you happy, go for it, the  wife has never made you happy.  Gotta love Moms.
12:54pm
My night got better… I stayed up wicked late (2 am!) in the chat room.  A guy has pined for a woman for 10 years and she is divorcing and he thought they’d be together but she is not ready and it’s tough.  So I listened and made suggestions and he felt better.  He’s a regular who helps others, very smart and funny, but never shared his own troubles.  He was tipsy, so I got him talking.  Chat is so cool in offering people who have no one to talk to a safe place to talk.  And it makes me feel useful!
12:56pm Phil
Well that’s very cool. Takes a talent to get people to open up like that. And it’s always a good feeling to help someone out
12:56pm
Yay Mom!  I’m so glad you’re reaching out to her.  Wow… who’d have thought the day would  come.  So you can put “would make my mother happier” to list of pros on your list.  Hee hee.
12:56pm Phil
Ha ha, yeah
She is not a fan of my wife’s – never has been.  Always thought my wife kept me around because I earn well, don’t require much out of her as far as romance or anything physical. My wife gets to be the Officer’s wife and do all the fancy shit etc.  I think in her own way she loves me.  She thinks I have no sex drive or just don’t care for it.  How can you be that clueless?  I’m a horn dog!
12:59pm
You’re a horn dog?  Really?
1:00pm Phil
I just don’t want to do it with her and I have always had a moral issue with doing it with anyone else
I’m getting over that though.
You would never know, I know
Had you naked before the door closed
It’s bad when you give in just to get someone to shut up and then roll over disgusted with yourself and grateful to be left alone for awhile again. Been like that for as long as I can remember
1:05pm
It’s good when you find out there are women who are not like her.
1:06pm Phil
Yeah it is.  Sweet, attentive, sexy women who love romance and just being with you. It is a very good thing.
1:06pm
And you found two!  God loves you, in a wacky way!
1:07pm Phil
That’s pretty cool! I have no idea why God watches over me but I’m glad.
12:59am
Hey, kid.  Looking good in the santa hat!  Hope you had fun.  Sweet dreams, dear man.
1:01am Phil
I did. Shared it with my baby. Was such a fun night. Great friends, great food .
Sweet dreams babe.
day is mine!  Bwah ha ha.
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Fountain of youth

Friday, December 14, 2012
8:12am Phil
Please understand that you are one of the most special people in my life.  I am no player. I would never sleep with anyone I was not passionate about. We live different lives but I have always loved you.  As you helped me work through all of this I understood again why.  I’m sorry I hurt you.  I never ever wanted to do that. This thing with The Beach Gal has been such a wind blown thing. I’m so sorry I dumped all of that on you. I so appreciate that you took it in and helped more than you know. The girl just has such a grip on my heart.  We have had such fun. I told you I sent her a journal of my thoughts. I’d write a bit in the evening and in the morning and as events transpired.  I got a long text last night from The Beach Gal.  All the wrong reasons, good intentions.  Her guy is a close friend but not much more. She fell into my wife’s trap.  Saw the pictures, read how my wife is never happier than when the four of us are together.  She felt like a home wrecker. Why she was all over the place. I noticed that there were no photos posted, nothing about a new guy, wondered why.
Enjoy your day Sass. I am still a conflicted bundle of emotion.  Feelings all over the place.
8:20am
Hiya kid.  No work for me today!  Except doing the payroll @ home.  I get to see the endocrinologist and the dentist!  Whee!
8:22am Phil
Oh that sounds like a joyous day. The payroll actually sounds like the best part. (yuck!)
8:27am
The best part is messages from you!  Interesting update from The Beach Gal.  I wonder if you say you are leaving, whether or not she takes you in, would absolve her and let her take you in good  conscience.
8:35am
Thank you for your sweet words…and your apology.  But don’t feel sorry for dumping on me…you know I adore helping you and knowing what is going on, and so want to see you happier!  I am in a unique spot to help.  And I know how it is – you are a good guy doing your best to work through a very tricky situation.  I look at each step and it makes sense.  You are one of the few men I know where I can say that!
8:43am
I do not understand how she can not understand that #1 thing you need is to get away from my wife, how she would choose your wife’s happiness over yours if she loves you.  She has to see you are keeping up appearances as married men have to, esp. in the military….
Keep taking deep breathes, kid.  I swear better days are coming.
8:46am Phil
I look ok for 55 don’t I? 
[photo of him in his bathroom wearing shorts]
She was not choosing my wife’s happiness.  She could care less about my wife.  It’s the kids. She thought she was doing the right thing for my kids.
She gets the appearance thing but my wife plays her game and posts pictures she knows will hurt The Beach Gal.  I have to pose for those pictures and she uses them. She knows The Beach Gal is still in the picture.  Those two can feel and smell each other.
Do I look like an old guy Sass?
No man titties, belly is fairly flat, hair is a little gray,
It’s ok!  You can tell me.  I’ll work harder.
I’m trying
8:54am
Believe me when I say I’ve been looking at hundreds of men’s photos and you outshine them all!  You know you make me wet.
You can be even better to your kids if you are happy, give them a loving, fun woman to be around, and if their mom is happier.
9:02am Phil
I know.  It took me a long time to understand that.
And thank you for the compliment.  I don’t think I’m all that but I try to look decent, I have good hygiene, take care of myself.  Always want to look good for my girl. Want her to be proud to be seen with me.
9:14am Phil
Hundreds of guys?  Holy shit! I’m glad I measure up at least. I have a young outlook on things which helps.  I’ve simply never really grown up.
9:21am Phil
Thank you.  You are too nice but thank you.
9:23am
I am not exaggerating.  I am seeing mostly bald, paunchy, ugly men’s photos.  And these are their “best photo of me I’m posting to get women.”
9:24am Phil
Ewwwww, so I’m not so bad?
I’m not going to be bald or paunchy and if I’m not ugly yet, I may escape that one too. I’m going to be one of those old guys with the constant tan up on a surf board
11:32am
Look around you at the guys on podium.  You are better looking, look at least 10 yrs younger.
12:16pm Phil
Why thank you.  Thank you very much baby.
12:48pm
You and your pal look like you’re sipping from the fountain of youth!  Must be all that scotch!
12:56pm Phil
He has youthful outlook as well. He is younger. Just turning fifty
We just believe it’s ok to have a good time, like people
6:11pm Phil
Have a great Friday night babe!
6:15pm
Thanks, kid.  Trying to console pals upset about school shooting in CT
6:18pm Phil
Oh lord, I know. What a tragedy!  Keep consoling, they need it.
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I’d Take You

Thursday, December 13, 2012
7:33am Phil
No word, nothing.  Her best friend swears she is bi-polar – I read the symptoms and maybe.  She takes meds for depression.  I see the mood swings, the hyper sexuality, drinking counteracts the meds. That’s why when she drinks, she gets so moody and will go from fun and laughing to mean as a snake. I suspect I will not hear a word today which sucks. I know she is at work, know she gets up early, seems she could have said something, anything. I am just going to dive into work, try to shift my mind from this, shove it into the background.  I have to, can not function otherwise.  I hope your day is good!
7:54am Phil
Good morning. Trying to smile. 
[photo of his smiling face in his office]
8:22am
Good morning handsome!
I’m off to PT @ 10, then work.  Whee!  I am pulling for you!
8:37am Phil
She just told me that my guess was right.  She chose the other guy.  I knew it. I’m crushed but at least I was prepared.
8:38am
Hunh.
Hugs.
When this happened to me, I had to tell myself that God had some other plan for me.  That I had dodged a bullet somehow, even though the choice had seemed so perfect to me.
I’m so sorry, kid.
Showering now, BIAB
8:50am Phil
She is not in love with the guy. I just have to move on.  This is over.
11:10am Phil
Fuck this mopey shit. Not my style! Have a great day Sass! 
[photo of him in his bathroom in a t-shit and briefs]
11:12am
Hey you skinny thing!  
Survived PT, ouch ouch.  Back at the office, waiting to see how the boss can insult me today!
11:27am Phil
I am empty Sass.  I have never felt so completely defeated in my life.  Feels like the life has been sucked out of me.  She chose a guy she does not love, is not in love with, can’t be intimate with, is a drunk, feeds her shots so she will get stupid in the bar, compares her to his dead wife and she will never measure up. He is a homely nasty looking fuck who will hang onto anyone he can possibly get and she is so desperate for attention here and now that she can’t see it.  Nothing I can do about it. I just need to figure out what the fuck to do now.  I have thought for the past four years that we would end up on a beach together. Now I don’t even want to see a beach.
11:42am
I hear you. I could blather on about options but you should chill… let things settle for a few days… before you try to figure out next steps.
12:48pm Phil
Ah Sass. Just don’t know how to act, what to do. She meant everything to me. I guess you grieve and you make your way back. I could not have been to her what she is to me.  I am going to go hunt down her boy though and tell him he better be real or He will see me again. I give this a month and then what. I can’t sit here waiting but why not. I don’t have sex with my wife and it ain’t getting fixed.
1:39pm
No pestering the other guy.  Really.  It will only make him dig in or pester you back.  As you say, sadly it doesn’t seem fated to last.  But you need to decide what you’re doing, independent of her.  Make your life good and then if she eventually wants to fit into that, yay.  People tell me this all the time.  I don’t listen but maybe you will!
2:01pm Phil
I know, I know. This is not going to last. I know that and I think she does too. You are right. I don’t know what I am doing or want to do. For the most part, I just have a good time. I like to laugh, like to be active. Have to figure out post military and I have some ideas. I’ll always want her. Those feelings never die. I had been keeping a little journal of my feelings all week and where my thoughts were. I sent that to her, told her I love her and always will and wished her love and happiness. 
I cooked a big meal over lunch. Cooking soothes me. Working out soothes me. Need to get my mind engaged in other things. I need to write my resume, start looking at where I want to live. Gotta do something about the no sex thing. I like sex a lot but it was never great with my wife. We just never clicked in bed. The Beach Gal was very different. We were very different. Who knows what the future holds. Just have to relax and let it happen.
2:23pm
You sound way too rational. 
2:55pm Phil
I’m impulsive some times, rational other times. Only way I can go forward. I have been down this road before with The Beach Gal. I will hear nothing and all of a sudden shit will fall apart. Maybe this will be different but I don’t think so. This guy is there, he is giving her the attention she craves. As her best friend says, he is a creep. I know he is a bar fly, shot after shot, messing with other women. If he gets a better offer, he will be gone. Then and only then will she consider what she’s done. I am going to throw myself into enjoying my last months here, try to enjoy the holidays and let all this sit. What else can I do?  I have moped around for weeks. Time to laugh and have a little fun again.
3:06pm Phil
This is Mr Wonderful.  What do you think?  Would you take him over me?
[photo of a scowling bald man with a white beard]
3:39pm
No accounting for taste.  Wow…he looks…old.
3:40pm Phil
He is younger than me, impotent and a boozer
So, you would take me?
He is there and he is paying attention to her, buying beer.  All that matters apparently for now.
The guy is a friggin troll. Just saying
I don’t know what women like though. I may be the troll. Who knows. I never felt I was a good looking guy at all, even back in my day.  You, on the other hand, fucking hot!
3:54pm Phil
I’ll assume you would take me.  I need a confidence boost. Her best friend wants to slap her silly.  Told her the dude is gross and a creep. I am taking the high road and saying nothing. I’m not texting, messaging or anything else.  I need to leave it be
going to the gym to try to get my head straight.  It always helps at least a little.
4:24pm
Does it matter what I think?  I probably shouldn’t say… but… since you asked… you know all that stuff you write about how she makes you feel?  The good stuff – the powerful connection, the fun, the tingles, the feeling of belonging and sexual intensity, the love?  How you would hurt other people and give up a lot because being with her is all you need?  I could write that about you.  Even though in May when I figured out about her, I felt like you do now… crying, sick, my vision for the rest of my life and all my dreams crumbling, stupid for having thought you’d want me. 
That’s how I can say I know exactly what you’re going through.  Because you put me there.  But I know I got ahead of myself… you were always very clear – passion, confidante, fun… no promises. 
You chose someone else who I think is awful for you but if you want her, that’s all that matters. 
Even though I listened to you and helped you say the things I long to hear from you?   And it hurt like hell? 
Yes, I would still take you in an instant.  I have seen what else is out there – Ivy League lawyers and professors, dance instructors, finance guy, computer whizzes… none of them caused any spark at all.  I would take you in my life, in my mouth, inside me… whisper fuck and cunt to you… be nice to you, hug you when you’re laughing or crying, rub your feet… even root for your football team!  Never the Yankees though, kid!  I have to draw the line there!
4:47pm Phil
Oh Sass, I feel so stupid, insensitive and cruel. I’m so sorry. We too shared some very romantic and pleasurable nights. The dinner in Boston at Legal was spectacular. What you say and think does matter. I would not ask otherwise. I don’t know why I feel the way I do, I just do. I know I should tell her to take a hike and enjoy loser boy.  My brain functions.  For some reason I can’t listen. A life of no passion, lousy sex, a very conservative woman has left me wanting so much more. Hugged my wife on the way out this morning. Might as well have been a tree. She hates walking on the beach. Dislikes the sand. Will not swim in the ocean. Won’t take a cab and go out and party a little, does not really like to be touched, never does anything impulsive. Has never rubbed my feet, shoulders, back, nothing. She likes her sex quick, I like it long and slow, lots of licking, stroking, rubbing, tease to the brink and start over again and again. Never had any of that until The Beach Gal. Some with you too.
4:55pm
I didn’t say any of that to make you feel bad! Just that someone loves you and wants you to be happy.  I know better than anyone that you can’t control who you want.  It is what it is.  And it’s cool.  We still have our fun and help each other find our way to a better life.  I’m still not rooting for the Yankees…ever.
5:16pm Phil
I am hoping to find my way in this world.  I have been so successful in my professional life and such a failure in my personal one.  I have great friends, people seem to like me, I have a great time.  Marriage has not been what I hoped for.  Thank god I was gone as often as I was.  My kids are disasters.  One is just a total mess and the other has the emotional feelings of her mother.  loveless, cold, calculating, using. She uses her guy to watch the dogs, keep house, and to just be company.  She has never loved him, never will, barely likes him.  My wife has referred to me as an asshole, piece of shit, wished me dead, told me she hated me and not because of The Beach Gal.  The Beach Gal is a little crazy, a lot unstable.  She is very emotional, maybe bi-polar.  She is so tender and warm though. So sweet most of the time. She is drinking a lot with ass clown and that offsets her meds and she acts stupid and irrationally. I always watched her drinking, never let her do shots, kept it to light beer and made sure she took her meds.  I’d love to say fucher and be done but for whatever reason, I can’t
11:01pm
Hey, kid.  I’ve been reading over all we wrote today.  Wow… a lot there.  It is so amazing what we can say!  Sleep well, sweet man.
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Holding his hand

Wednesday, December 12, 2012
8:00am Phil
Have a great day Sass.
8:05am
You too kid!
8:56am Phil
One of those sad, lonely mornings.
9:18am
Hey!  Time for a big dose of the Sassy magic elixir!  Take it with coffee and three deep breaths and you may not feel better but you’ll be more awake! 
9:48am Phil
Such an emotional roller coaster.  Feel good one day, not the next. I have no idea what The Beach Gal has decided.  She wants me to call tonight.  Not sure what that will bring.  Either let’s do this or I can’t do this.  Either will change the course of my life. One will lead to a carefree existence without a lot of rules.  The other will lead to respectability, the next big job, responsibility. I’ll focus on the next career, I’ll work till I’m 70 to maintain a life style.  I am sick to my stomach, so afraid it will be the wrong answer. I’m normally such an optimist and lately I am so pessimistic. My problem is I don’t think I bring much to the table. I’m not a good looking guy. I’m well past middle age, I’m not witty or funny.  I come with baggage. I wouldn’t pick me either.
1:08pm Phil
Rough day today. Really rough day. I am really struggling
2:51pm
I’m so sorry to hear this!  What can I do for you?
3:41pm
Do you need me to tell you what you bring to the table?  Sad to say, I am looking at the men in the 46-56 range and you are SO MUCH BETTER than any of them.  You are sweet and sexy and have your hair!  You are a lot of fun… you’re the guy every guy wants to have a beer with, and the one all the women want to kiss.  I am not biased.  I have done research!  I can show you photos if you want to feel better but trust me… you have it going on.  No one is baggage free at our age.  And you love her… which makes all the difference.  So go worry about something else!  You are so close… take deep breaths and be yourself and you’re golden!
4:10pm
I got to sit in staff meeting and listen to my boss thank my assistant and the co-workers for all their work on the holiday party.  I shouldn’t let what he says or doesn’t say bug me, but man… that hurt.  Why didn’t he say my name in that sentence?  Other people noticed it and that made it worse. Ugh.
5:26pm Phil
Oh that sucks.  I have had that happen to me as well and it hurts.  Well no phone call or anything tonight.  The other guy is yanking on her heart and he wants to talk. She is going to talk to him and asked me not to call or write her.  I am going to come out on the losing end of this to a guy she admits she is not in love with, admits she feels no intimacy with, who drinks too much and puts his hands on other women when she is there. She does not want to break his heart.  The dude is a bar fly, he will be upset for a moment.  I’m just sick to my stomach.  Feels like my heart is lying on the floor. He is there and I am not.  Nothing I can do about that.  This sucks.
We are both hurt tonight.  I hear you girl.  Believe me, I understand how hurt feels.
10:37pm Phil
U OK?
10:37pm
Yeah… you?
10:38pm Phil
No, not at all.
10:38pm
Oh dear…
What is it, dear man?
10:40pm
She had to talk to her guy tonight. Asked me not to text or call. Posted that she was a Happy Lady tonight.
10:40pm
Hmmm….
10:40pm Phil
So afraid I lost her
10:41pm
Don’t jump to conclusions
I don’t understand how she can side with a guy she doesn’t love… or anyone, over you
10:41pm Phil
I know
10:42pm
Tell me about the first time you kissed her.
10:42pm Phil
She is not in love with this dude but I’m afraid he did something rash like ask her to marry him.
10:44pm
Does he know about you?
10:48pm Phil
We had been watching football on my porch, all the neighbors. The Beach Gal stayed to watch the late game. We flirted but never anything. Just kind of fun. Late game ended, I walked her out to the street and she walked home. About twenty minutes later, I found myself standing in the street. The Beach Gal was walking back down. She asked what I was doing. I said, waiting for you. I took her hand and we walked back into my back yard. As soon as the gate closed, we were each other’s arms. I kissed her, she melted, her leg wrapped around my knee. We kissed for an hour. Was so powerful.
 Yeah, she told him she was in love with me.
10:49pm
Mmm… thank you.  That was hot.
10:50pm Phil
It was way beyond that. Neither of us has any idea how or why we ended up in that street.
10:51pm
That was wicked dangerous you know…
where was your wife?
10:52pm Phil
I know, she was asleep
It built from there
10:53pm
yum
10:53pm Phil
A touch, a look, a stolen kiss
10:53pm
Oh, how delicious!
Tell about sex?
10:55pm Phil
We took walks, we met for coffee, met at an out of the way park. She asked me if she ran away, would I tackle her. I did
10:56pm
In the park?
10:56pm Phil
First time was in her back yard, in the grass. It was quick, furious, oh man
Next was in her garage. We hung out there, listened to tunes, played darts.
10:58pm
Wow… you folks took risks…
10:58pm Phil
Met at a beach hotel. First time I saw her naked. Made love in every way imaginable for 13 hours
10:58pm
Yum
10:59pm Phil
Yeah we did. Did it on the kids play ground, back seat of my car, in a church parking lot,
It was always incredible
We would hug and it was soul healing. Felt like our souls were touching. Made love looking into each other’s eyes. Looking deep inside, way past just a physical thing
11:02pm
Was that her usual style or did you inspire something new?
11:03pm Phil
No, that was all new. She never did anything like that before
Made love on the beach. Listening to the surf, enjoying each other, getting off on the risk and each other
11:06pm
Wow…
11:06pm Phil
I miss her so much
Never sat across from each other in a restaurant. Always side by side, always touching, kissing, laughing
11:07pm
Philip…whatever she says about tonight, don’t take it as final.  Promise.
11:09pm Phil
Oh Sass, I think she made a choice. She needs someone there. I am not. Can’t be till after I get out of here. 
11:09pm
That is so close!
11:10pm Phil
I know but I fear I lost the one, I let her slip away
11:11pm
There are lots of ways to go at this… no matter what she says there are things to try.  Don’t give up.
11:12pm Phil
I’m just so hurt. I would have walked away from everything for her
11:13pm
Hang in there.
If she doesn’t love him, you have a big lead.
Ask her to wait one month
Not to change her mind, just give you a chance to get there, to talk in person.
11:14pm Phil
She does not. But part of this is payback. She feels I let her down
11:14pm
Apologize.  Ask her to forgive you.  Tell her you are coming to see her.
11:15pm Phil
I asked her to come to along on a trip in Jan. and offered to go to her
11:15pm
I swear… if you can touch her…
11:15pm Phil
I don’t know
11:15pm
Just wait… be patient.  See what she says.
11:17pm Phil
My girl
[photo of The Beach Gal]
Trying
11:19pm
I know this is wicked tough.  But you can do it.  And you’re not alone.
11:21pm Phil
It’s miserable. Hoping she says something tomorrow. Anything.
She has the most amazing eyes. Window to her soul.
She loved the flowers. Bracelet was delivered today but she did not say anything
11:23pm
Maybe that’s why she’s happy!
11:23pm Phil
I just don’t think so
11:24pm
Wait and see.  Don’t get ahead of yourself.
11:24pm Phil
Yeah, will see I guess
11:25pm
Did you charm the bigwigs?
11:25pm Phil
Yeah, went well. So glad that’s over
11:25pm
Good photo of you with them. 
11:26pm Phil
Where? Did not see it
11:26pm
FB
11:26pm Phil
The work page?
11:26pm
Yup
11:27pm Phil
Hmmm
11:27pm
[URL from the FB page]
Toward the end, there are two.
It’s fun that they’re all using FB now
So I get to see you a lot. 
11:33pm Phil
LOL
Awesome!
Guess I will know tomorrow. I could use a prayer babe. Nite. 
Thanks for holding my hand
11:38pm
You got it kid.  Sleep well.
11:38pm Phil
Nite Sass
by

Conundrum

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

6:50am Phil
I did!
7:45am Phil
Slept well. Still got issues but I at least feel better today. Got bigwig coming today, going to be a big one!  Off I go.  Have a great day!
7:54am
Good morning!  I’m off to the podiatrist, then running our holiday open house! Whee!
8:00am Phil
Well enjoy! Have fun with the open house. We have to talk some time. I need some serious advise.  Heard a lot yesterday that really shook me. Not sure how to wrap my head around it all.
1:45pm
Hiya kid.  I survived the sadist podiatrist.  Can’t stand him!  Useless!  My co-workers are decorating for the party and laughing up a storm.  I am trying to flash-thaw shrimp.  I am here for ya kid.  Hope I can help.
3:20pm Phil
Hey Sass,
    I find myself in a bit of a conundrum.  The Beach Gal makes the earth move for me.  Just one of those people who you meet that just does it for you.  I truly love her to death.  We shared several months together 4 years ago and it was just blissful.  I got talked into going home by kids, family, and events. I made a bad call and went home for all the wrong reasons.  I should have stayed with The Beach Gal, I know that.  She was freshly divorced at the time and the sweetest thing.  Over the past four years, we have been unable to stay away from one another and we have carried this thing on for years with very strong feeling between the two of us.  There were periods of months where we had almost no conversation or contact at all. Over the four years our lives have continued to move along.  The Beach Gal has always needed attention.  She needs to be loved.  That’s kind of a neat thing.  She likes to have a drink or two and is fine with a couple.  When she has too many, she can become unpredictable and sometimes mean and nasty.  Not so good.  I have been away up here so there was very little contact between us, mostly phone and messages.  The Beach Gal being The Beach Gal, needs the attention.  She had bought a small house and there were several little dive bars nearby.   She started hanging out in those places and met this guy who paid attention to her and the next thing you know she was all about him.  That lasted a month, was hot and heavy and then Mr. Wonderful turned out to not be so wonderful.  Back to me, then there was the episode with my pal.  Both got hammered on tequila and ended up naked.  He was unable to perform due to the amount of booze he had but it still happened and it really bothered me.  She told me nothing happened, and then slipped when she was drunk one night.  My pal filled in the blanks.  We get past that and are marching towards finally being able to do something without the military constraints.  I thought that in November, she suddenly got tired of waiting.  I found out last night that this new guy started hanging around in July and has been working it the entire time. She gave up in November.  I went on a winery tour.  Bought a shit ton of wine, stayed overnight.  Trust me it was not a romantic getaway.  It was just a trip to buy wine.  That was the turning point for The Beach Gal. The next week she called me to say she was done.  I did not know there was another guy till that night I saw a post from him saying sure do love ya.  Told me this was not something new.
    We talked yesterday and I told her, I could get over just about anything but I needed her to be committed to me. She was all about it.  Last night, Mr. Wonderful comes by and tells her he won’t let her go and he loves her.  I get the call that she can’t do it, can’t break this guy’s heart.  Tells me he is such a sweet guy. Then tells me he is impotent, has a drinking problem, buys her shots in the bar even though she does not like to do shots and then she gets hammered and ends up flashing her tits in the bar.  I guess that’s what he is into.  He hits on and touches other girls in the bar and I think if he gets a better offer, he will jump at it. She is really struggling with this and that’s hard. Either you want me or you don’t.  We have much work to do, lots of talking, lots of forgiving to move forward but she has to want me.  If I get divorced, I’m giving up about half my earnings a year, a house, most of my possessions, my friends and some family to do this.  Am I being stupid?  When we are together, it’s so relaxed, so comfortable.  We snuggle on the couch, play darts, dance, laugh, sing.  We go for long walks on the beach.  We touch and it’s electric.  It’s just an unreal feeling.   I’d give up everything to have that every day.  It means that much to me.
     My wife is reliable, a very nice woman, we get along great, we have fun together in a tame sort of way.  She keeps me in check but there is none of that intense feeling, never was, not even in the beginning.  You and I had a fire, intensity.  It was super charged.  Hell, we still do.  Never felt that even once with my wife. I can continue to live the safe, comfortable life but I want so badly to feel that fire and intensity, to want to touch every second, to sleep wrapped up around each other, never wanting to be separated enough that we don’t touch.  I want to kiss and break away breathless, heart pounding. I want to have hot, sweaty sex.  I need passion.  My wife and I don’t have it.  We are a very nice prim and proper couple.  We do what everyone expects us to. We are so fucking boring.  The Beach Gal and I were unpredictable, fun.
   She has become accustomed to going out and howling at the moon.  Not my thing.  I don’t do dive bars.  I like nice little places with good food, a nice selection of beer and wine, a band.  I go to have something to eat, dance a little, have a few drinks and go home. Will she find me suddenly boring? Sitting on the couch in my arms may not be enough.  It’s all I want but it may not be enough.  The song says, baby, you’re all that I want when your lying here in my arms.  So true.  This is so hard.  I know people who took the safe route, kept the money, the house, stayed in the bland relationship.  They found their joy in life elsewhere. Travel, golf, whatever. I know people who took the leap, left everything behind and chased happiness.  Some found it and are such joyful, fun people to be around.  Others are still looking but are also pretty happy with their life. Do what they want when they want.  What do you do?  I want this girl so much but I am so afraid I won’t be enough for her, that she will be restless, bored.  She is ten years younger as well.  Will she stay when I am not as mobile?  I expect that by 90 or so, I am going to start to slow down some.  
I need a Sass pep talk.  Maybe I worry too much.  Nothing I can do at this point.  Her call and then see where it goes I guess.  I just don’t know.  I do know, if she chooses the other guy, I will never go back.  I’ll zip my heart up and take the safe road forever.
How’s that for a mouthful?  I hate podiatrists.  That stuff friggen hurts.  Just glad I don’t have feet issues.
Enjoy the party! 
4:00pm Phil
Going to take the night for you to read this. The Beach Gal’s Girl friend says she wants us to fight over her.  She likes the fact that two guys are playing tug of war over her.  I’m not fighting anyone.  That’s juvenile.  She needs to unfuck this and make a call. easy as that i guess. Would you like two guys fighting over you?  That’s real cute till it actually happens and one of them hurts the other.  Seen that scenario play out a couple times and one of them got hurt bad.  One went to the hospital, the other to jail. Stupid, I’m not playing that game. Make a choice and deal with it.
6:19pm Phil
This just keeps evolving.  My brain says one thing, my stupid heart says the opposite.  What does it know? Distance makes things so hard and neither of us wants to hurt anyone but some times someone has to be hurt. I love my wife but she deserves a man who thinks she hung the moon, who wants to touch her every time he sees her.  That’s just not me and that’s just not fair.  She supported me through my time in the military and she will take away a nice pension for it.  She won’t be poor or destitute.  She’s a classy lady, she will find a good man who earns well and can take care of her in the style she’s accustomed. Why can I not shake this girl?  Why am I so eaten up?
8:09pm Phil
Having a beer and burger alone at the club. Nice. Hope you are enjoying the evening.
8:12pm
Hiya kid.  Party came off well.  I came home and collapsed…3 hr nap!
8:21pm
Read over all you’ve written… Hope it helps to write – I often find explaining stuff to you helps me decide what I think.  I have questions and ideas for you… but sounds like you are still processing and I should let you do that before butting in.
8:42pm Phil
I have simply decided that I love her. She makes me happy. She is quirky and kooky. She got a little lost but she has such a beautiful soul and such a wonderful heart. I let her down, we let each other down and I want to spend the rest of my days making up for it. Speak away baby. Needed to talk, vent, helps. I get it out and it’s gone.
8:51pm 
🙂
8:56pm Phil
That’s it? Or did I get it right?
8:57pm
If you’ve decided, it’s all good.  And it feels right to me.
It was good when you were together before? Then it can be again.  I just want you to be happy.
9:04pm Phil
Oh my god, I was never happier
It’s fabulous when we are together. Hard when you are separated by half a country.
What do you think?
We had so much fun.
9:07pm
Once you are together, it will be fine.  But this time, when there are problems, you’re going to speak up.  You are not going to suffer in silence.
My sister says, “I have these conversations with my husband in my head and I get really mad at what I think he’d say and wonder why he doesn’t change…”
9:09pm Phil
She was not the problem. My inability to give myself completely was the issue. She never felt I was completely devoted to her. Won’t screw that up again
Ahh, yeah me too. Get spun up over nothing
9:10pm
Oh, this is so exciting!
I was just looking at the photos of the same-sex couples getting married in Seattle… so much love, emotion… people together 38 years… there was a big group reception for them all, with the governor and the first dance was “At Last.”  Awww….
Saw a couple in uniform… thought of you.
9:15pm Phil
Got the house to myself. Got a fire going, NCIS on, nice scotch, cock in my hand. Love it!
9:17pm
Oooh, nice.
9:17pm Phil
Ha ha just feels good
9:18pm
Want to call and spread it around my way?
[He called me and we helped each other cum]
9:35pm Phil
Thank you baby 
[photo of his gorgeous cock in his hand]
Very hot,
Love it 
[photo of his living room fireplace with a roaring fire]
Had fun. Thanks babe.
 9:47pm
The naughty kitty 
[photo of my slit]
And one more because you’re so bad it’s good. 
[another photo of my slit]
9:54pm Phil
Umm, thank you . That pussy needs a cock in it
9:56pm
You are most welcome.  Yes… need it bad.
10:06pm
It’s almost criminal what your voice does to me… yummmm.
10:09pm Phil
I’m glad 🙂
by

Full-length lick

Monday, December 10, 2012
7:51am
Hey kid. Jumping into the shower – wash my back?
7:51am Phil
After laying awake most of the night crying into my pillow, I decided I was pathetic and I was hurting The Beach Gal. My little comments and posts were pulling at her heart. I would wait for a response and then be broken hearted when none came. Sat in the office sobbing as I told her I would not post any more. Was killing me and hurting her. I love her, I don’t want to hurt her and I don’t want to force her to tell me to stop. I’m not functioning. Not sleeping, eating enough to stay alive and I’m miserable. I’ll love her till I die but I have to let her be.
         
7:52am Phil
Ha! might help you out.
Hope your day is marvelous!
Enjoy the shower
8:26am
All clean except my mind
1:36pm Phil
Sent The Beach Gal flowers like you said. just wanted her to know I love her, unconditionally and I’ll leave it there. Sent the bracelet too. I know she will love it. No more notes from me though. Tears me up when she does not reply. I’m better this afternoon. That gut wrenching sob helped. Don’t believe I have ever cried that hard. Guess I needed it. How is your day?
2:14pm 
Hey kid! Wild day here. Another meeting with the boss at 3 pm. Let’s see what he can say to scare the crap out of me today. Pray!
2:16pm Phil
I will pray. Hope this one is more positive. I’ll be thinking of you. Going to cross my fingers too. What the hell, can’t hurt
3:44pm
Well, that worked! Thank you, Philip. It feels so good to have someone else pulling for me. Gives me courage. He was upbeat today!
Did you see “The Princess Bride” where the Dread Pirate Roberts talks about how the Captain would say, “Good work. I won’t kill you today. Probably tomorrow.” That’s what it feels like. *sigh
3:49pm Phil
That’s awesome! I did see Princess Bride. Fun movie. I know how that feels. Been in that situation once before. Was an absolutely miserable feeling. Hang in there, work hard and it will all work out. I’m always pulling for you!
5:01pm
I’m off to deliver papers to the project meeting. In theory I am “not working” this project…we’ll see.  I hope to be home by 7 pm if you need my expert counsel or boobs this evening.
A new guy emailed from the dating site. I tried a new thing… sent him a photo (met other guys w/o it). Means I probably won’t hear from him, but who knows?

FYI – a pal from your area said lots of your co-workers are on the “married but looking” web site! :0

6:55pm Phil
I know they are. 
You never know that. Wait and see. Have fun tonight. 
Had a good afternoon. Actually talked to The Beach Gal for an hour this afternoon. Went well. May yet be hope for me.
8:28pm
He wrote back! Twice! I am astonished. He said I have a nice smile. Awwww. Just hope he’s not wearing ladies undies like the other one! 
WOW! Hooray! YAY! Did you call her? Did she say why she’d been quiet? I should point out that right after you gave up, things changed. More patience! I told you… you’re irresistible!
8:31pm Phil
I knew he would. You have a great smile, a sweet heart, and some other intangibles. You are the only woman I know who says cunt! I loved it 😉
8:31pm
Oh, you….
8:33pm Phil
I sent a note this morning saying I was not going to bother her any more. She asked me to call. She got the flowers when she got home. She was so happy I sent her flowers. We cried, laughed and agreed we both needed a hug.
Hee hee… cunt.  You can say it more. 
         
8:34pm
Oh, my! FLOWERS! I told you.
8:34pm Phil
Going to have a scotch. Think about my beach gal
Yellow roses and blue iris

Yes you did.  Thank you.

8:40pm
Best few dollars you ever spent, right there.
10:05pm Phil
Yup!
10:28pm
So you might get some sleep tonight?
10:29pm Phil
Maybe
10:41pm
Are you watching MNF?
11:05pm Phil
Yeah, sucks!
11:06pm
My FB is lit up with Pats fans being oh so happy so I knew you wouldn’t be!
11:12pm Phil
Yeah yeah, fucking Patriots
11:31pm
A little lick to make you…. smile.   
11:32pm Phil
Love it! I’m smiling
11:51pm
Sleep well and I mean it!  Mwah!
by

Papa St. Nick

Sunday, December 9, 2012
10:01am Phil
Sorry if I was inappropriate last night. My options, head and heart are hopelessly fucked up. Riding the bike listening to Rod Stewart, tears streaming, singing along. Hope your day is good
10:21am
Hiya, kid.  Just waking up.  Slept really well due to a late night talk with an old friend.   Mmmm…inappropriate?  Oh yeah.  That’s part of the FUN!
10:28am
Damn, my mouth was filthy. Blushing now looking at that!  Ah, well…stuff after midnight is off the record!  I am back to my demure shy helpful self.
10:29am Phil
No cunt this morning? 🙂 
Awesome!
10:32am
You’re never gonna let me forget that, hunh?
10:33am Phil
Not gonna happen
10:36am
Man, the stuff you inspire.
12:37pm Phil
Thinking of you 
1:57pm
Yum.  Awww… thanks, babe!
4:18pm
Say something about football now?
5:37pm Phil
Did not see the game. Did see other stuff.  Just seems trivial at this point
I recorded it. May watch later
6:48pm Phil
How is your day?
6:55pm
Very quiet. Been sitting at my desk, prepping for another project.  I’ve also been getting into trouble on the internet, watching porn, catching up with emails to pals. Just ordered Afghan food delivered from a new place – we’ll see if it’s any good.
10:03pm Phil
How was dinner? Hope you had a relaxing afternoon. My team won 
10:04pm
The entrees were great – lamb. The rest… eh. You rock the party?
10:08pm Phil
Very quiet. Not in a party mood. It was nice though. I like lamb. Not much in the way of chow again but better
  
10:12pm
Did you have to dress up?
10:16pm Phil
Sweater and slacks
10:28pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jtyz23dC5w
Papa St. Nick from Beausoleil… rocks!
   
10:34pm Phil
 I like it!
10:42pm
Can’t sit still with that on…
10:44pm Phil
Catchy. Love that style, so much fun
10:46pm
I am dancing around the living room in my undies again!
10:46pm Phil
 LOL. Good for you
          
11:26pm
Heading to bed. Sending you good vibes. Sleep well, sweet man.
11:27pm Phil
Lying awake, head full of memories. Sleep well Sass
by

Grinding

Saturday, December 8, 2012

8:06am Phil
When you drive a fancy car in an area notorious for car break ins ………..  They left all the purses in the car under the seats.  Got the car back with just a broken window but walllets and all are gone.  Tough night. Hope you have a great Saturday!
10:44am
Good morning!  Wow… sorry to hear about their car and stuff.  Good you could help!  Scurrying  around picking up – Mom is coming over!  A rare thing… Hope your Saturday is off to a grand start!
11:12am Phil
Enjoy the time with Mom! Have fun!
5:17pm Phil
How was ur day? Nothing from The Beach Gal today. Called and sent messages.
Hope you had fun with Mom
5:23pm
Mom is good.  She played with my kitties, looked at you on FB, took me to lunch.  They had the Army/Navy game on. 
5:28pm Phil
I was watching that. Glad you had fun.
5:30pm
Did you ever go to that game in person?
5:35pm Phil
Once in Philly at the old JFK. 35 years ago.
Why is she ignoring me again? Patience, I know
5:40pm
I don’t know.  This is one of the tougher things about LDRs… why doesn’t he write?  What did I say?  But I learned that it rarely has to do with anything… just gets busy or whatever.  I know it sucks, dear man.
5:49pm Phil
It does baby. It does
[photo of him in a suit and tie]
5:53pm
You look so handsome.  And skinny!
5:54pm Phil
Thank you Sass.
[photo of him with Santa]
6:04pm
Your chin is gone!  You meet the best looking Santas!
6:05pm Phil
Ha ha, working off the chin
He is awesome!
230 pounds here I come
Heart break is good for my figure
8:07pm Phil
 I’m a little tweaked now. Spin me about your Mom being really bad and then refuse to answer. Nice little party tonight. Have to go out again around midnight. I’m a little tired
8:09pm
Now you are messaging in the wrong window? watch out for that! 
         
8:11pm Phil
That was to you silly
8:12pm
Then the second sentence doesn’t make sense.  But it doesn’t matter… I cherish every word from you kid.
            
8:14pm Phil
Talking about her. She told me her Mom was in the hospital and having heart issues. Asked me to pray. Been asking about Mom all day. Just want to make sure she is ok
8:15pm
Oh! Sorry… I get it now. A lot of hospitals block cell phones signals. FYI
   
8:17pm Phil
I know. Don’t think she went to her Mom’s. Her phone rings rather than go to voicemail. Maybe but she would have said something
Called her GF. They don’t think she is there
Like her Mom. Just concerned
8:21pm
Sure… tough to wait, I know.
         
8:31pm Phil
She loves her Ma. Who doesn’t. If she went up, it was bad
8:31pm Phil 
[photo of him smiling in his office]
8:31pm Phil 
Just now
My ugly mug
Will ruin your appetite
Wish I’d been born with looks
Least I can sing
Big nose, smile wrinkles
What do ya think
All that huh. Wow, worse than I thought
            
8:41pm
You know you make me wet every time I look at you…
All I can think about is touching you.
Sucking you.
So I am not very impartial!
Why are you in your office on a Saturday night?!
         
8:42pm Phil
LOL
        
8:49pm
Oops. Sorry. Didn’t mean to let that out!
8:55pm
Can you nap until midnight?
12:53am Phil
Just helped shut down the club. Walked in and it’s pitch black kids dry humping on the dance floor. Stopped at a light look up at the student lounge and see a guy clearly fucking some ones face. Unreal
         
12:54am
Wow…
          
12:54am Phil
Geez!
           
12:55am
Is this against the rules?
12:56am Phil
Not that I’m against fucking some ones hot mouth but not in one of the lounges and not in the fucking window!
Against my rules

Apparently you can’t dance unless you are grinding on your partners hard dick

Ain’t happening            
12:57am
I always tried to…when we danced in high school
12:58am Phil
What?
           
12:58am
Grind!
    
12:58am Phil
Ummm
You have a hot little mouth too
            
1:00am
Woulda done it in the window if you’d wanted to…
1:00am Phil
I would have. Would have done it on that balcony at your condo, in the kitchen too
1:02am
Good thing we didn’t have some officer to bust us up!
1:02am Phil
 Ha ha. We were not in the military!
1:03am
I would dance with you…
1:06am Phil
🙂
            
1:07am
I wish you could see me now…lying on my bed, naked, legs spread…
1:08am Phil
Doing what?
So show me  🙂 
Just got hard thinking about that
1:09am
🙂
            
1:10am Phil
Hope your hands are busy between those spread legs
1:10am
Thinking of your hands
One down there, one twisting my breast
1:11am Phil
Down where?
            
1:12am
Inside my pussy where you’re cock loves to be
1:12am Phil
Two fingers buried in your pussy, thrusting, twisting, hearing the squish from your wetness
There’s my hot dirty girl. I do like fucking that tight pussy and it is tight
Like pounding you, spanking your ass, running my finger over your twitching ass hole
            
1:16am
Mmmm…yes yes.yes
Damn that made my cunt twitch
1:18am Phil
Yeah baby, take that cock deep and hard
cunt, nice
Dirty term but so hot to hear
1:19am
I want you hot, hard…burning
1:19am Phil
When I get done fucking you, want you to bury your tongue in my ass and then a finger and then a toy. Fuck me like I fucked you

I want that twitching ass hole too and the back of your throat. That was fucking amazing

           
1:21am
I’ll fuck you with my stunt cock
1:21am Phil
Love shooting a hot load of cum down your throat
1:21am
Fill you up
1:21am Phil
Ummm, stunt cock
1:22am
Yes sir…9 inches of joy toy
In and out
1:22am Phil
Have to go slow with that bad boy
1:23am
Slowly, lots of lube and dirty talk!
1:23am Phil
Have had fingers before but that’s a lot bigger. Happy to try though
1:24am
Gonna film it so you can see it later
            
1:24am Phil
Not much I consider taboo. Long as both want it and it feels good
Oohhh. Never been filmed before. Interesting
1:25am
You touching my cock?

1:25am Phil

Club went from packed to empty. Be happy to go home and do so
1:26am
Yum
Wouldn’t need much film…but a hot minute of me fucking you…could look at it and cum again?
         
1:28am Phil
Oh hell yeah
1:29am
And see it from my angles, going in and out
Add to the memory
I wonder if I could suck you and fuck you…in sync
         
1:32am Phil
Why not
1:33am
Might be too much…or heaven
1:34am Phil 
[photo of his gorgeous cock]
         
1:34am
Man, you got me squirming
1:34am Phil
Would be amazing
Squirm on that
1:35am
Feed me that 
1:36am Phil
[photo of the tip of his cock with pre-cum drop]
1:37am
I want you to shove your gorgeous cock down my throat
1:37am Phil
Mmmmmm
Need that, been so long since anything
Been saving myself
1:40am
Damn…you’ve got me so revved up…
So tender, swollen, clit buzzing
1:42am Phil
Awesome. Rub that clit
1:42am
Nipples so hard
1:43am Phil
Nice!
   
1:45am
You are making me cum!
1:46am Phil
Oh yeah, love it, cum for me baby. Cum hard!
Let me suck your swollen clit to help
1:46am
Mmmm
Shit…shuddering
1:47am Phil
Yeah baby, cum on
1:47am Soaring
1:48am Phil
Whoooooooooo
Get off Sass
1:49am
You remember what I look like? Thrashing, moaning
1:49am Phil
Oh yeah, entire body
I love it! Nice distraction from where my mind has been
1:52am
Always happy to help, esp. If I get to explode!
Damn it’s fierce…feels like lava pouring out of me
Cum tickling down my ass
1:54am Phil
Oh I love that! 
now back to tossing and turning and asking why
1:55am
Wish it was mingled with yours
1:55am Phil
 Ahh, be much more and thicker
1:56am
Might have to tie you down… Have my way
1:57am Phil
I’d like that too
🙂
         
1:57am
Bite a nipple
Ride you
I’d better go to sleep… 
Hope that gives you some nasty sassy girl thoughts…. Naked, spread for you
2:01am Phil
Nite Sass 
     
2:01am
A hot tongue kiss good night Philip
2:03am Phil
Thank you. Back to crying in my pillow.
2:07am
Awww, kid. It will work out. Sleep now.
2:10am Phil
No it won’t.
🙁
        
2:10am
Lay it all on the floor, like a big stone… 
Pick it up later. I’ll help you carry it tomorrow
2:11am Phil
Feels like the stone is laying on my heart
2:11am
I know dear man…

2:13am Phil 

Nite Sass.
2:36am Phil
Wow! “Good nite love” from guess who.