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Fred vs The Beach Gal

Thursday, December 27, 2012
7:21am Phil
Good Morning Sass.  Trying to figure what God is trying to tell me and have not a clue. I adore The Beach Gal but I am aware that her choices may have devastating impact. She says she chose me and seems committed. We have been here before.  I saw her in July and everything was normal, we were loving and laughing, I met her Mom and Sisters, we were talking about a future.  I found out that she was already talking to Floyd and he was hitting on her pretty hard.  That continued until October when it became a full flown relationship. He just showed up at her door.  That only happens when you give out your address, which she has done before, I watched her do it once and yanked it out of the guy’s hand after shoving him into a wall.  If she gets lonely, she ends up in the bars and she gets stupid.  She was in one the other night, hammered.  she got all upset cause my wife and I went shopping for my kid for Christmas.  She drank 20 something beers and had to be brought home. That’s how she ends up with some bar fly cause she gets flirty and they take that as interest or a player and now we have a problem Houston. I’m not going to be there till late next year or so and that’s a lot of time alone between then and now. If one of those guys had been a keeper, good hard working guy, would not have bothered me as much. Both guys were absolute creeps. Her best friend says she was paying me back for lack of attention or something and that she picks guys like that cause she knows they are not keepers and she thinks I’ll come right back. I don’t know.  I can deal with depression, I can deal with drinking, I can hold that down I think, I’ve tried in the past and failed but I can’t deal with other guys. Problem is I love her so bad it hurts. My heart says yes, yes, yes – ,my brain keeps saying you better think about this. Do you say fuck you brain and go with your heart?  What say you OH Guru of relationships.  I’ll see The Beach Gal next week. First time since June.  That will tell a lot.  Does it still feel the same, do I feel distant, does it bother me that another guy slept there, ate there as recently as a month ago. Does she still look at me the same?  Is the hug still as powerful as it always has been? Lot of questions will be answered within the first ten minutes I think.
7:29am Phil
I’m going to stop and see Fred as well.  Coffee in a very public place.  Not making the mistake of going to her place or anywhere remotely private.  Don’t trust myself in that environment and not nearly ready to open that can. I’d like to see her, see what’s there, see how we look at each other. I know she would welcome me into her bed and into her life and she’s a perfect fit for my family. She would fit right in. The Beach Gal…. I’m not so sure.  She bats her eyelashes, gets too close to the men, makes the other women uncomfortable. My brain is a dangerous thing, gets me in trouble but its also saved my ass. Life should be simpler.  Probably would not be as much fun.  
How was your evening sweet girl?
Found myself at the rainforest bar having a beer last night, I like that place, tropical and restful.  
Have a great day Sass.
8:40am Phil
I talk to that silly girl though and she just makes me laugh!  What are your plans today?  I hope something fun!
9:02am
Good morning!  My, my…so many thoughts swirling! I will think and say more later.  I’m off to meet an electrician for lunch.  Maybe I’ll get kissed.  Have a grand day!
9:06am Phil
Ooooh, have fun.  If you get kissed, I want to hear about it.
2:07pm Phil
Welllllllllllllllllllll?
2:22pm
😉
2:22pm Phil
Does that mean a kiss?
dish dish dish
2:31pm Phil
awwwwww, hope that means the fun continues.
2:40pm Phil
Have fun sweet girl!
4:42pm Phil
You not talking to me any more?
4:43pm
Hiya… thanks of asking.  Sorry…takes me awhile to figure out what I think. I will note for the record that you don’t even tell me when you are seeing your ladies and leave me alone for days to wonder!  Promise to do better on that front?
4:44pm Phil
I will do better.  I don’t mean to ignore you.
Going next week. Very excited about seeing The Beach Gal. Apprehensive about Fred.   I’m being very careful with that. There are things I will not do.
4:47pm
I am so excited for you!  It’s great that you get to have fun!
4:47pm Phil
I have enough moral conviction not to go there.  I really care for Fred, we have a good time and that’s all I plan to do. I’m very much in love with The Beach Gal so it’s two very different things. I think Fred wants much more.  I need to at least see her and see what I feel.
How was your lunch?
4:49pm
I hope you lose your morals. 
4:49pm Phil
I told The Beach Gal today that I have no intention of sharing her ever.  Men can look all they want, she can have a good time as long as she comes over and kisses me and goes home with me.  There can’t be others.
Why do you say that?
I know for a fact, she would sleep with me if I showed interest. Why lose my morals
4:53pm
I want you to try things, be bold, step out of the crap they saddled us with about guilt and b.s. and enjoy life.  Live your fantasies!  Don’t do anything that will keep you awake at night, but no one cares how many women you’ve been with… or what you do with them or how great you feel…
4:53pm Phil
My problem is I really care for her a lot.  I don’t want to lead her on, I don’t want to fuck her and leave her.  If we go there, I want it to mean something. We have been friends for so long, pretty hot for each other for as long, I know it would be very intense and very good but I’m afraid she would blow my mind
I care baby.  It’s not a guilt thing. I care about both these women, probably love them both. Will I kiss her, hug her, hold her hand, most likely.
4:55pm
What has been the key all along?  Honesty… openess… sharing… letting it out when you are so used to keeping it bottled up.  Your mind could use some explosions.
I am not advocating for either one…
4:57pm Phil
Yeah maybe but these are people with feelings and hearts.  Neither is someone I picked up in a bar and cared little about.
Fred would rock my world if I let her.  The Beach Gal already has. So did you.
4:59pm
I know that if you had stuck to straight and narrow, we would never have happened… and The Beach Gal wouldn’t have… you won’t relax around Fred. .. and we are somehow the key to your happiness.   So roll with it…
But I have always been a shameless hussy, so what do I know?!
5:02pm Phil
I’m a pretty sensitive person I think.  I’ll relax around Fred – we could always do that. I am so afraid of letting my guard down, a simple kiss turning into so much more, the touch of a hand, the brush of a hand across a breast. The girl is so frigging hot, she smolders and then that sweet southern accent comes out and I’m toast.
You a hussy?  That’s bullshit.
You are another sweetheart with a big heart and a lot to give. I did not last long around you and we enjoyed some damn romantic evenings and some pretty hot nights.
5:15pm
You are so sweet!  Thank you for saying!
You are very sensitive!  You are going to hurt people but hey, we’re big girls.  We’re taking our chances, putting our best selves out there for you.  Check it out, make your choice. 
I am trying to figure out how to help you deal with The Beach Gal’s flirting.  Don’t worry about the bar guys… they mean nothing. It’s a way of reconfirming her sexiness… acting out just like the exhibitionism, or the other high-spirited stuff you enjoy.  and playing with you.  Like… “See what you’ve got, mister?  You’ve got someone so hot she can… ”  Laugh it off.  Or invite the guy home and let him help you fuck her, whatever.
She is not a finite resource that gets stained or used up somehow by being around men.  The less you focus on it, the less she may do it.  Don’t make it a way for her to get under your skin or she will use it.
Of course… this is a “do what I say, not what I do” situation.  The one thing that makes me sick to my stomach and think of walking out is Hubby’s messing with other women.  But he does it inside our community, in public at parties etc…  bleh.
[He called me for a report on my lunch and we talked for an hour! He wanted to hear every detail about my meet with Volt, and talk about Fred and The Beach Gal]
6:14pm
Thank you for calling!  That was fun.

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Yet another woman

Year 3 Week 21
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
9:09am Phil
Got a great bottle of scotch, cologne, an awesome Team Sweatshirt! Back to work today.  Nice to be out of the house.  I hate weekends.
9:17am
I’m not working! So wonderful!  I can feel the weight of it lifting… Going to the bank to deposit checks -OMG Philip, my family is soooo generous!  Life changing!  Getting the car detailed.  Little thing that makes me happy.
9:21am Phil
Oh that’s awesome! I’m glad you had a great Christmas.  We did not have much under the tree this year but my kids did such a great job and we had so much fun giving out gifts yesterday.  I got things I really liked, amazing bottle of Scotch, my cologne, some cigars.  It was great! Glad yours was too.  My wife wanted a Coach purse, a bracelet and some small things that I bought.  It was OK.  Had an old friend pop back into my life yesterday. Interesting development. When it rains it pours.
9:52am
Would I know this old friend?  Such fun!  I commented on a blog Monday night, and the blogger emailed me.  So fun to poke around in a writer’s head.  Too bad he’s in Mississippi!  Several chatters sent greetings and we got talking… I adore hearing their storiesI  Nice that Christmas makes people reach out.
10:08am Phil
No, this is a friend from my first years in the military.  She was married to my best man. We have been friends over the years, very good friends at one point.
10:37am Phil
Where did you go?
Must have gotten busy.
Heard from all of my family which was wonderful and some wonderful old friends, also very nice
10:38am
I’m right here… wondering what “very good friends” means…
Family okay?
10:40am Phil
Family is fine.  We had dinner, drinks, had a good time together.  
Could have been more. Pretty red headed southern girl.
10:41am
So she’s divorced now?
10:42am Phil
They did the typical big family dinner and party, breakfast, the whole shebang.  I miss all that so much.  It was always so much fun and my Mom’s whiskey Sours were a holiday tradition.
Yeah, has been for many years.  My Mom loves her, they chat on the phone, exchange cards.
Never talked to my cousin, gotta touch base with him.  He is my favorite – we were always very close.
10:44am
Is he still talking about getting married?
10:46am Phil
Yeah but not sure that will happen.  He and the gal are happy as they are which is fine.
I have a boat load of admin to do and just don’t feel like it. My brain is floating all over the place. I probably need to go to the gym and sweat some.
10:50am
I should get to the bank… but I like talking to you better.
Wish I could help you sweat…
Focus your mind on my chest!
10:52am Phil
I like your chest.
10:56am
I would like to oil it and rub your back with it… then your front…
10:57am Phil
Fred (that’s the old friend, short for Frederica) was an unexpected surprise.  Good to hear from her. Fucks with my head a little bit but still good to hear from her. I could very easily have run off with that girl.
Oooooh, that sounds like fun!
10:58am
Where is she now?
10:59am Phil
She is still close to D.C.
She used to wear running shorts way back when and I’d sit across from her and could see up the shorts. I thought she never knew, turns out she knew and liked it. She never wore a bra back then and wow. I got an eye full of those apparently on purpose.  I’m so stupid, I never knew.
11:03am
Ha ha.  SO glad you got my signals eventually.
11:03am Phil
I’m slow on the up take
Never imagined any one would really want me like that.
11:04am
Trust me… most women would.  You are good looking and project a very sexy nice guy vibe that makes women swoon.
11:05am Phil
I am a nice guy I think.
I try to be any way. I have lived a fairly loveless life though and I am more than ready for that to change.
11:07am
Amen!
11:12am Phil
No lie! Not sure why this little red headed minx popped up but damn. She’s one of those girls that’s built like wow, gorgeous red hair, sweet little southern drawl. We used to play pool in a sports bar and guys would walk by me and comment, you’re one lucky son of a bitch. I wasn’t but it was nice of them to say. Always nice to walk into a place with the best-looking woman there.
11:27am
Heh… good memories.
Watch out for redheads… several of the guys in chat are playing with them and they’re HOT. 
11:28am Phil
Fred.
[photo of him sitting at an outdoor bar with his arm around a buxom red head who has her arm around his neck]
This one is too!
Buddies
11:29am
Wow!  Quite a looker.  And the gal is nice too. 
11:32am Phil
Yeah very nice. Just a sweet heart, amazing cook, owns a jeep, loves boats, shoots, hikes,
11:37am Phil
DO we look like buddies?
Been friends for over 37 years
Princess and the frog.
11:38am
Ha ha…you are drooling.
11:39am Phil
Yeah, a little bit I think
11:47am
Do you get to fool around before you settle down?
I’m sitting outside Dunkin donuts again.  H is addicted to their pancake sausage bites.
11:48am Phil
Huh? With whom?
I love dunkin donuts.  Like their smoked sausage and coffee
try not to eat that stuff but once in awhile, yum
Fred would run off with me in a New York minute if that’s what you are asking.
11:51am
Not what I’m asking.  Does she know you and your wife aren’t so hot?
11:52am Phil
Oh yeah, she has always knew that.  She figured that out 30 years ago. She talks to my Mom all the time. so she knows and we talked about it a lot.
12:03pm
Cool.  Smart woman!
12:14pm Phil
Talking to Mom?  Yeah, Mom keeps asking why I don’t date Fred.  Fred fills her head with what a wonderful guy I am.
1:25pm
Sitting @ the car wash….car is going to sparkle!
I could tell your mom the same…
2:37pm Phil
I know.  Just spent an hour on the phone.  Amazing call.
2:38pm
Who with?
2:39pm Phil
Fred. catching up.
2:39pm
Great!  I’m starting to get a complex… I think you talk to everyone in the world except me!
2:40pm Phil
[my mobile number] right? 
2:41pm
That’s my mobile!
[He called me and we talked for an hour]
3:45pm Phil
She wants to lick and suck my toes?
3:47pm
I’d start there…
3:48pm Phil
That’s what my coffee with her has turned into.
WTF?
3:49pm
Ah… the slippery slope…
Coffee… toes tantalizing… what next?!
3:52pm Phil
Something about riding me like a bucking bronco or was it fucking bronco. Not sure.
Why can’t my life be simple?
What do you say to a gorgeous red head who you have wanted for 37 years?  Here’s my big toe?
3:54pm
“Yes please” comes to mind…
3:58pm Phil
That’s what I thought too.
4:00pm
Okay… here’s my answer.  You should do exactly what you feel like doing… just be careful she doesn’t see it as a promise of some kind unless you mean it that way.  You’ve been a good boy all your life and been miserable, it’s time to live a little, enjoy… know your options…
4:04pm Phil
I really like this girl a lot, a lot. I always have. She is amazing, funny, loving, gorgeous, strong. Raised her kids on her own and they are successful, well adjusted adults
4:06pm
So why not?
4:07pm Phil
Why not what?  I know she would stand by my side through thick or thin. There would never be any bar guys, just me.
4:08pm
Is she about our age?
4:08pm Phil
Not such a bad thing. She is 56.
Girl looks good for 56
Cup of coffee will tell a lot.
4:15pm
Yes indeed.  Don’t get ahead of yourself… explore, learn, find her good and bad qualities… you say you always think the best and only find out more later… try to do better this time, ask the important questions up front.  Or just go for it, what the hell?
4:23pm Phil
I spent enough time with her to know a lot of that. stayed at her place many times.  I’m just going to look and see how we feel and how coffee goes. I know her background, know her kids, knows my entire family, we have always been very comfortable together
4:29pm Phil
many good qualities, never seen any bad. She’s just a sweetheart, got a temper though and I like it.  She’s feisty, typical red head but much nicer
4:48pm Phil
Gotta go run an errand. I’ve always been such a straight as an arrow guy, did what was expected, what I was supposed to do.  How do I find myself in a position like this?
It’s not a bad position but it gets complicated pretty quickly.
4:48pm
Welcome to my world.
4:49pm Phil
The only certainty is that I need to be out of what I’m in
LOL!
You are pretty straight and level too
It will all work out.
4:54pm
Yup.  Better life for both of us.
5:01pm Phil
I could end up with either woman and live happily ever after.  Both passionate women who love life, have a great time, and are very caring, family oriented people. One has depression issue, some drinking issues and gets stupid when she drinks a lot.  Would have to work on that. The other is sexy, likes to be naked, quiet country girl and then can dress up in 6 inch heels, something low cut and dance her ass off. I like those heels and nails. Always wanted to feel nails biting into my shoulder or back from a woman getting off.
5:07pm
Wow…
5:08pm Phil
Wow, the nails part?
5:11pm
All of this… just… a little jarring after the past couple weeks…
5:12pm Phil
The Beach Gal’s issues are what they are. I’m happy to accept them and work them. I’m crazy about that girl. Fred has always been a fantasy. Still is. When I say coffee, I mean coffee. She would take more but I’m not offering that.
5:13pm
good and bad in everyone… just depends on how you feel with them.
5:16pm
I get along well enough with Fred that it would be an easy thing to do but I really love The Beach Gal.  She does have her issues, she drinks too much and I told her we needed to fix that, it impacts the depression and when she gets drunk, she has no discretion, says and does what ever she feels like which is another reason to address the drinking. She has been doing well the past several weeks and I am thrilled by that. Have to say I am curious about Fred though. Would have been very easy to go much further than just having some fun. Be good to see her.
I’m not letting go of The Beach Gal any time soon. Can’t ever be another guy in a bar though. I will walk away.  I can’t deal with that and told her so. Has to be me and just me. She can have coffee with who ever she wants.
5:22pm
From my experience, the picking up men in the bar is just her casting about without you. If you appear, it will end.  Just as it would with me. Because you are all a gal needs.
5:25pm Phil
I think so too but she did it with me there before.  Found her outside with a group of guys around her, kissing the guitar player on break, we were together then. Can’t happen again. I can’t take that. I love her to death but she scares me a little. A little flirting is one thing, going home with them another
5:26pm
Hmmm… that is a little freaky.
5:27pm Phil
Yeah, worries me a little
Only happens when she drinks a lot
Couple beers and she is ok
5:35pm
What does chat say about that?
The other one, never left my side, all about me
Thought that book was closed though, stunned and delighted to hear from her
5:56pm
God is telling you something but I don’t know what
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Merry Christmas, Darling

Tuesday, December 25, 2012 – CHRISTMAS
7:19am Phil
Merry Christmas Sass!
9:23am
Merry Christmas kid.  Off to Sis’s for a dishwashing extravaganza!  She’s hosting 18 people!  I asked Santa for a new left foot, a new job, a nice man and $100K.  Let’s see how I do!
9:42am
I know you can sympathize with this one…
Merry Christmas, Darling – The Carpenters
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YR1ujXx2p-I
Greeting cards have all been sent
The Christmas rush is through
But I still have one wish to make
A special one for you
Merry Christmas, darling
We’re apart, that’s true
But I can dream
And in my dreams
I’m Christmasing with you
Holidays are joyful
There’s always something new
But every day’s a holiday
When I’m near to you
The lights on my tree
I wish you could see
I wish it every day
The logs on the fire
Fill me with desire
To see you and to say
That I wish you Merry Christmas
Happy New Year too
I’ve just one wish
On this Christmas Eve
I wish I were with you
I wish I were with you
Merry Christmas, darling
9:44am Phil
Hope you get all the above! 
My favorite Christmas song. Listened to it a dozen times last night.
9:44am
I want to be her when I grow up. 
9:46am Phil
Who?
9:46am
Karen Carpenter!  minus the anorexia thing…
Gotta shower… I’ll leave the curtain open a bit so you can watch!
9:49am Phil
Cool! I like to watch!
10:27am
Sent a photo to your phone…
10:32am Phil
Oooooohhh, via what?
10:32am
Text
10:33am Phil
No gots
Did not get a text
Hope you sent it to the right person
10:34am
[photo of me in the shower from above, showing my wet smiling face, shoulders, boobs and tummy]
I wonder where that text went!
Just resent to FB – see it now?
10:36am Phil
Yup! Love it! What a cool gift!
10:37am
My first shower photo!  should’ve done it sooner7
10:59am Phil
Oh hell yeah!
11:00am
@Dunkin Donuts… red velvet munchkins!
T -10 minutes to presents!
11:03am Phil
🙂
7:14pm
Home again!  Presents, roast beef dinner, dishes, brown butter pumpkin cake done!  Whee! People liked the presents I gave, and I got a laptop stand, two dark blue sweatshirts and sweat pants, and lots of cash!  Yay!
Did Santa find you?  
I hope Wet Sassy is making you smile…. I was wet inside and out!
7:16pm Phil
He did. I made out well. 
I did smile 🙂 thank you.
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Nutcracker

Monday, December 24, 2012
7:40am Phil
I love it!  LMAO
8:03am Phil
Sent this off to The Beach Gal with a good morning baby. Just out of bed and at the gym. I called and she could not stop laughing and giggling. Said I love you much and then completely lost it, snorts and all .  It’s Christmas Eve day! Hope you have a fabulous day!
[close-up photo of his face]
9:15am
Happy Christmas Eve!  It’s so wonderful to read your bouncy messages!
4:36pm Phil
Merry Christmas baby! Hope you have a wonderful Christmas Eve!
4:37pm
Thanks kid!
4:37pm Phil 
[photo of him in a winter football hat and jacket]
4:38pm
Hiaya Handsome.  Horrible football hat.  Sexy face!
You look like it’s cold out?
4:42pm Phil
It’s freezing!
Come on! It’s a sexy hat!
4:45pm
Okay then… here’s a nutcracker… think he’s sexy?
4:50pm Phil
Nuts for the cracker       
[photo of him from the side from the waist to knees with his cock and balls sticking out of his pants]
5:06pm
Yum yum yum. 
5:35pm
You going to church?  I really miss it on nights like this… the music especially.
5:58pm Phil
No, and I do miss it. Going to a party. Having a hard time this year. Not where I want to be or who I want to be with.
5:59pm
Think “this is the last time.  Next year with The Beach Gal!”
5:59pm Phil
It’s all I think about
6:01pm
Better days are coming for you!
6:03pm Phil
That’s an ugly ass nutcracker
6:03pm
Hee hee hee.  Same as the hat!
6:04pm Phil
LOL
11:59pm
Going off to bed so Santa can visit!  
Have a very Merry Christmas, kid.  Spread good cheer!
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Four cock shots

Sunday, December 23, 2012
8:33am Phil
Never got to see anything.  Got my shopping done for my kids yesterday.  Pretty happy with what they’re getting. I’m off to work out, then church, then football, then wine at the winery.  I try to fill my day so I don’t have to sit in the house, which is just not all that fun.
8:54am
Good morning!  Hoping to see The Hobbit today!  Have fun out and about
4:46pm
Sitting in the car, waiting for Hubby to finish shopping.  Wishing I could crawl into the back with you!  We’d make out like teenagers!
5:21pm Phil 
To pass the time
[photo of his erect cock in his hand with a stream of pre-cum down the side of the tip]
And another
[photo of his erect cock in his hand with the stream of pre-cum down the side]
Hmm
Getting clean. Hope this helps with the boredom
[photo of his gorgeous cock]
5:33pm Phil
Enjoy Baby! Have fun
5:44pm
Wow!  What a trio!  Damn… want to lick that clean so badly… yum.  Thanks, kid!  Home at last!
6:16pm Phil
Another
[photo of him in the shower looking down from above showing his face, shoulders, muscled chest and erect cock in his hand]
6:17pm
Hello there in the shower.  
I’m kneeling now… right in front of you… mmmm
6:22pm Phil
Mmmmmmmmm
7:12pm Phil
Lol, hope I provided some distraction
7:13pm
You provide THE BEST distraction.  Makes my mind spin off in a certain direction.  So good… thank you, kid.
7:55pm Phil
I’m glad. Good shot with the cum dripping!
Thought you might enjoy.
7:56pm
Two good shots with that sweet hot magic liquid… yum.  It makes my tongue itch to get there and lick it up, and my insides twinge!
7:58pm Phil
I licked it up and it was sweet!
7:58pm
damn… that is so hot!  I have never seen that… so want to!
9:56pm Phil
Like the taste of my cum
9:57pm
Me too.  🙂
9:57pm Phil
Ha ha
Tastes better mixed with pussy
9:58pm
Everything does, kid.
10:05pm Phil
Ha ha, how true
1:21am
this hit me as really funny… I think you’ll get it.  German sushi….
http://lolsnaps.com/upload_pic/GermanSushi-92062.jpg
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Soaked shorts

Saturday, December 22, 2012
9:08am
Good morning!  You’re so cute when you’re sleepy…
I’m off to Sis’s for a project meeting!  Whee!  Have a great day!
9:26am Phil
My shorts were soaked!   Have a great day!
12:24pm
Done with mtg, headed to Mom’s.  Were they football shorts?
9:10pm
Friend from here is at the Beach, thought you’d like to see…
[photo of the Christmas lights along the beach]

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12 hours of sexy chat

Friday, December 21, 2012
8:08am
Good morning!  Hope the exodus is going well! The radio is talking about sports stars calling military outposts for Christmas!
8:15am Phil
Morning! Going very well! Talking to co-workers, having a good time!
10:43am
How’re you doing?  Good day to fly?  I’m clearing off my desk at work…everyone else too. Construction and serious cleaning over the break, servicing the HVAC… whee!  Our stuff is moving next door so it’s easy for them to shift furniture around.  Whee!
11:29am Phil 
[photo of him in full dress uniform]
11:31am
Well, hello sir!  *Salutes
You look so handsome! Mwah!
11:46am Phil
Got clothes on!
11:47am
I would fix that if I were there…
11:49am Phil
Gonna take them off in a sec
11:50am
oh?  I’d start with the hat and kiss you
and start with the buttons and hug you
then work on the zippers and… pull on you!
11:54am Phil
I like it, I like it!
11:54am
and I’d get to the shoes and socks and rub your feet while I tell you what’s next and hear about your adventures!
Hmmm… what else… hand you a drink and healthy snacks.
Pamper… that’s the word.
Soon to be followed by FUCKING!!
11:59am Phil
Fucking is good
12:09pm
VERY GOOD!
Damn… I am revved up today.  Can feel the lady juices dripping… rawr!  ALL YOUR FAULT!
12:15pm Phil
I like lady juices dripping. Lubrication for many fun things
12:46pm
Mmmm… lubrication… man, that makes my mind race.
12:51pm Phil
How bout this?
[photo of him in his bathroom wearing a white shirt unbuttoned but covering his boy bits]
12:55pm
Holy cow… that’s *HAWT*
Damn… it makes my fingers itch so bad…
1:02pm
So is it a ghost town?
1:03pm Phil
Oh yeah
Oops
[photo of him in his bathroom wearing a white shirt unbuttoned to show his boy bits]
1:13pm
What are you trying to do to me?  Whatever it is, I approve!
1:13pm Phil
I said Whoops
3:13pm
Please make 5 pm get here…
6:21pm Phil
[photo of him close up in his bathroom wearing a white shirt unbuttoned to show his very erect boy bits!]
7:56pm
What do you think about that makes it do THAT?
Or do I not want to know?
8:47pm Phil
Hot mouths
Does not take much
Gets hard at the drop of a hat
8:49pm
Mmmm…yum.
10:13pm Phil
Just does.
Do what? That’s normal
10:14pm
Normal for you maybe.  Many men your age have trouble…
10:17pm Phil
Not I, gets hard quickly and stays that way. Always has. 
Does not go down after I cum either. I’m ready to go again
Not like it’s that tough
10:23pm
No one else can do that.  Most men your age are one and done, and have trouble staying hard for that
10:24pm Phil
I could fuck all night
10:24pm
I know… it is very special.
I hate having to choose between BJ and p-in-v
10:25pm Phil
Wish I had fucked your tight pussy and then your ass and cum in both. Used to be able to cum 5
 Or 6 times. I top out at 3 now
I can fuck your mouth and your pussy baby
Give you what you want in both
10:27pm
I remember… vividly
10:29pm Phil
I’m glad. Loved your tongue in my ass, that was hot as hell
I would gladly have let you fuck me, damn I’m hard
10:30pm
wish I had figured out toys earlier
and all the other stuff the blogs have taught me this year
10:31pm Phil
Always wanted to have my ass pounded by a girl with a strap on
[photo of him in his bathroom wearing a white shirt, unbuttoned, turned to the side to show off his very erect boy bits]
Loved the tongue though
10:33pm
It was wonderful how we could do whatever we felt like…
10:33pm Phil
Oh yeah. Very hot. Really wanted to do your ass, wanted you to do mine
My cock in your throat, man!
Unreal
Loved pumping my cum inside you, loved watching you quiver after I did
10:35pm
Felt so right…
you definitely knew how to make it hot for me
10:35pm Phil
It was great!
Came like crazy in your sweet, tight pussy
10:38pm
I go to sleep at night thinking about it…
10:41pm Phil
Cool, feeling it shoot, seeing me pulling your pants off and shoving my tongue deep in your dripping pussy?
Bet you did not expect that greeting
10:42pm
I had decided you didn’t want me, since you didn’t do anything up to that point
10:43pm Phil
Ahhh, well guess I changed that outlook
10:43pm
You were the first man ever to make me cum first…
It was divine
10:44pm Phil
Excellent. As it should be. Wanted to make love to you in high school. Same girl 30 years later. Same pussy, same ass. I still wanted you.
10:45pm
A miracle
Nuclear chemistry!
10:45pm Phil
Ha!
We should have fucked our brains out when we came back from camp
10:48pm
I think about that, too
10:50pm Phil
Had the opportunity, we should have been naked doing everything. Hell we both wanted to
10:51pm
I think about you in my bed at the parsonage…
10:51pm Phil
Me too. Would have eaten you for hours
10:52pm
I see us just kissing and rolling around, then bit by bit getting bolder
10:53pm Phil
Yup, I had already had your tits in my hands and mouth, already had your ass in my hands
Remember me with my fingers deep inside you on the school bus? I was licking them clean
Damn you smelled and tasted good
10:54pm
So many places you found to touch me… kiss me… mmmm
10:55pm Phil
Outside the cafeteria
Over by the old elementary school
10:55pm
I have a random memory… I think it was after a dance, we were under the stairs at school
you just keep going and I was thinking no, this is too much but then damn it feels so good…
10:56pm Phil
Yup
10:57pm
you were always so gentle, so careful, so sexy!
10:57pm Phil
Loved your smell and taste
10:58pm
You looked at me like I was the best thing ever… so hot
10:58pm Phil
You were.
Still taste and smell good
Still sexy
11:00pm
I could not believe how gorgeous you were… I was thinking… wow I get to look at him.  And then my mind when “duh… you can touch him too” and I nearly fainted
11:02pm Phil
Ha! Loved when your hand closed over my cock…finally
11:05pm
You were the first man I wanted to touch…
11:06pm Phil
Awesome!
11:06pm
and you made it a very good thing!
11:06pm Phil
I’m glad about that. Hot as hell
11:07pm
Oh man… my brain is frying… wanting… mmmf
11:09pm Phil
Like you on your knees sucking my cock, finger or two fucking my ass
11:10pm
Yes… I can see that… so delicious!
Licking you…
11:10pm Phil
Ummmmmm
11:10pm
massaging your balls
putting my fingers inside me to get them wet
11:11pm Phil
Oh yeah
11:11pm
sucking on you
slurp slurp
11:11pm Phil
Um I like that, use those juices in my ass
11:11pm
get you revved up then add the ass play at the same tempo
11:11pm Phil
Put a little of you inside me
Oh hell yeah
11:13pm
find that spot inside you…
suck you really deep
watch your hips roll
11:16pm Phil
Oh fuck, love fingers in my ass
11:18pm
I want to try so many things… watch what they do to you
make my hands and mouth perfect
11:18pm Phil
Mmmmm, would love it
11:21pm
You would’ve loved this restaurant tonight… so many beers, good American food
11:22pm Phil
My kind of place!
11:22pm
John Harvard’s Brew House
and my sister paid. 
11:22pm Phil
Sounds awesome!
Even better!
11:23pm
nice long tablecloths…
was thinking of you sitting there and me playing with you under the table
11:23pm Phil
Oh, I’d love that!
Love it in public
11:24pm
There was a nice handicapped bathroom
was thinking of finishing you in there…
11:24pm Phil
Nice!
11:25pm
grabbing your ass… pulling you into my mouth… mmmm
11:26pm Phil
Oh yeah, swallow my cock, take it deep
Let me fuck that hot mouth
11:28pm
Yes please… want to taste you.
You going to sleep?  Been up forever!
I’ll tuck you in and say good night, kid.  Sweet dreams.
Cum for me…
11:43pm Phil
Would love to cum for you, falling asleep.
Long day
11:43pm
Sleep now…
I’ll watch over you.  xxoo
11:44pm Phil

Mmmmmmmmjmm
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Boob Squish

Thursday, December 20, 2012
7:39am Phil
Did I say something wrong Sass?  I hope I did not upset you.  I did not intend for that. Hope you have a terrific day!
8:00am
Good morning!  Awww, kid…you say the most beautiful things!  Don’t ever worry…
Back to MGH for my annual mammogram…pray, please.
8:03am Phil
You are always in my prayers Sass, but I’m going to take a moment now.
8:06am
Thanks.  I’m pretty good at not fretting but this bit is tough…
You resting up for your wild night?
8:14am Phil
Got a very busy day!  No rest for me!
8:19am
I’ll think of you while I’m cooling my jets in the waiting room and they’re squishing my boobs!  Wish you could be squeezing them instead!
8:22am Phil
LOL.  Me too, sounds like much more fun!
8:59am Phil
[photo of him smiling in uniform in his office]
9:27am
Hey!  My favorite man in uniform!  Mwah!
9:36am Phil
Thank you! Back at ya!
10:46am Phil
[photo of him smiling bare-chested in his office]
10:49am
Hubba hubba… you are driving me crazy!  
Nice nipple action there sexy!
11:05am Phil
More?
[photo of him naked in his bathroom]
A lollipop
11:27am
Dayum… Wanna lick.  from balls to tip!  And trace around the groove and then SUCK you dry!!
11:30am Phil
Ha ha, you do that better than anyone!
Just being a bad elf.
[photo of him naked in his bathroom turned to the side showing off a gorgeous erect cock!]
You could hang off that thing
11:33am
I want to sit on that sink and have you lift my legs and find a spot to shove it, Mr. Frisky!
11:40am Phil
Ho Ho Ho!
11:57am
Hee hee hee
My hands are itching to grab that ass… before it disappears!
12:05pm Phil
You are so funny.  I love it!
2:44pm
Done!  Headed out for Chinese!
2:51pm
Thanks for giving me fun things to think about!
2:54pm Phil
Awesome! Always glad to help babe. 
Enjoy the Chinese ! Get it spicy!
10:25pm
Hey, how’s my favorite party animal?  Folks whooping it up?
10:59pm Phil
They are pretty quiet. I’m going to shut down in a bit. Up at 4:00.  
How you doing sexy girl?
11:00pm
A little worn out… emotional day.  
Going over there to the hospital is like staring death in the face again.
11:03pm Phil
Everything go ok?
Hope my naked ass at least made you smile
11:07pm
Just jousting with the “what ifs.”  They tore the skin under both breasts. Yuck.  It’s thin from radiation anyway.  Hurts. 
Oh, your gorgeous bod caused more than a smile!
11:19pm
Is it snowing?
11:23pm Phil
It was but it stopped. 
Glad I made you smile
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More than old friends

Year 3 Week 20
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
7:32am Phil
Good morning lovely lady. I hope your day is marvelous.  I’m cooking for the office My turkey pot luck. Looking forward to that.  It’s always fun. Have a great day Sass!
8:18am
Good morning!  Mmm… food!  That sounds so good!  
Have a great Wednesday, kid!
8:20am Phil
How was your phone date last night? I’m a good cook!
8:24am
It was hot!  But not like us…sigh.  But he is not into meeting, just want to talk. Sigh.  I have enough people to talk to – desperate to TOUCH!
I wish you could cook for me. 
8:39am Phil
I just cook the old-fashioned way!  
What makes it hot is that we know each other, have met, have touched, have done most of what we talk about and we have very genuine and real feelings for each other.
9:49am
Oh, I do long for regular old-fashioned turkey!  Hmmm…. you do know how to tantalize me in so many ways!
10:10am
I agree with all you said… you are such a poet these days!  There is more… chemistry, magic, that “click” when it’s “right.”  We were hot from the first moment you wrote – went from polite strangers to explosive so fast!  I don’t expect that, but it would be nice if someone wasn’t… completely odd.   I suppose being on a “married but looking” site makes it likely.  A pal said I have to expect them to be “too” something.  Too old, too young, too short, too bald, too kinky. Ah, well.  I enjoy their attention and stories, and won’t expect much more.  It falls into the “better than nothing” pile.  Maybe I will get lucky!
12:21pm Phil
Ah well.  We were hot way back when and that just never really changed.  I was never married but looking.  Not my style.  The Beach Gal just kind of happened.  Neither of us was looking for anything. I always knew I did not have a very passionate marriage. When you hold off on sex until it’s less unbearable to do it than to listen to the bitching, you got a problem.  I do know there are a lot of strange people out there, not particularly nice people and complete douche bags. I think I’m pretty normal.   I had the good fortune of meeting someone just because we were neighbors who just rocked my world.  Pretty cool.  Just be you Sass.  That should be good enough!
2:59pm
It is rather stunning how our chemistry keeps on boiling!  I so wish Hubby wanted me… I’d be a faithful married lady.  *sigh  All the online stuff is not me.  Thought it might lead me where I belong.  Had to try.  I am giving up.  I’ve stopped searching.  Will answer if they write but feel done with that too.  Will stay with chat, help people there.  Go back to memories and stop thinking about being with anyone new.
3:37pm Phil
Don’t give up girl.  There are lots of great people out there, just not on line.  I think you have so much to offer.  I would have stayed married forever always wondering why I was sad. No one ever called me handsome, no one ever called me darling, no one ever did any of the things I longed for and wanted so badly until.  Once I realized what that was like, I was done.  No one is perfect, we all have issues, it’s a matter of what you can accept and what you cant. 
I need this.  I need some happiness, some tenderness.  I don’t want to shop endlessly.  I want to go Lincoln’s Birthplace. I want to explore history, I want to do a pub crawl of some of the great American pubs, I want to go do the classic things there are to do.  I want to go camping on the beach and fuck my brains out in the surf, I want to go camping in the woods and fuck my brains out by the fire.   You see a theme starting here? I want to tour the great parks out west, ride cross-country on a motorcycle, drive my jeep and have my baby flash the occasional trucker and both of us explode laughing. I want to live in a home that reflects my taste and style, that feels like my place.
Don’t settle sweetie, life is too short for that. Lose some weight, get a sassy haircut, join a gym.  Whatever it takes.  I am well on my way to my high school size.  I am going to be tall and lean and healthy. I’m rock solid and muscular at the moment but I want to be leaner so that’s what I am working towards. You can do any of this. Get off the friggin internet and walk, go have a glass of wine in one of those great little bars.  You will meet much more interesting people. Fuck memories.  Well, in our case, we did and I’m thrilled that we did. I enjoyed every second. It was romantic, it was smoking hot and it’s a highlight of my life. Make new memories.  That’s what I plan to do.  I have wonderful memories and I will cherish them but I want to make new and different memories.  Go for it!
5:42pm Phil
Another paunchy old guy 
[photo of him naked from the hips up]
7:55pm Phil
Enjoy your evening Sass.  🙂
8:01pm
Thanks, skinny kid.
8:19pm Phil
Ha!
8:20pm
I want to put my hands on those hips creases…
8:28pm Phil
Ha ha, I’m getting there
8:29pm
I keep trying to tilt that mirror down just a bit!
8:29pm Phil
I’m such a tease
8:30pm
yummy
I like what I can see!
8:32pm Phil
Glad! Don’t want to be one of those nasty guys
No man titties for me
Heading to the beach after New Years!
8:36pm
I have enough tits for both of us.
Oooh!
8:37pm Phil
You do! Still remember opening that pic at the gym, with the spotter looking on. 
8:38pm
You rascal.
So do you get to see The Beach Gal?
8:38pm Phil
That was funny
Oh yeah, 4 days
8:38pm
OMG!  Awesome!
8:39pm Phil
I can’t even tell you
8:39pm
When did you see her last?
8:39pm Phil
July
8:40pm
Hooray!
8:40pm Phil
I’m so excited
No lobsta. We like Chinese take out, extra spicy
8:42pm
Yum.
8:44pm Phil
Got a great little place around the corner
Good Mexican place on the other corner, great margaritas
House is a mile off the beach
8:48pm
Oh, that sounds so perfect for you.
10:28pm Phil
It is. Got a great garage to turn into a bar, room for a hot tub. Small but perfect and the mortgage is affordable. Nice gardens, room for a nice patio
Feels like home to me. And it’s full of our stuff, things we both loved and bought together
10:47pm
Can your favorite dog go with you?
10:53pm Phil
No, can’t separate them. I love him but he loves my wife and his buddies. They belong together
10:53pm
Oh dear…But he waits for you!  Ah, well…
10:54pm Phil
He will be loved. My wife adores those dogs. Her babies.
10:54pm
Okay.  Sorry to ask that… should know better.
10:54pm Phil
I know, he would be miserable without the others.  I’d never take him from them
10:55pm
The Beach Gal have pups?
10:55pm Phil
Yes, one. He’s gorgeous, my running buddy
10:55pm
nice
10:56pm Phil
He’s a good boy too and I’m his daddy
Sort of
We got him as a pup
10:57pm
cool
10:57pm Phil
Yeah, he’s a horse, he needs a friend
I just throw his big ass around
11:00pm
I bet.  I can see you wrestling around with him.
11:00pm Phil
Looking forward to waking up to the smell of coffee, a loving kiss and good morning baby
11:00pm
So envious
11:03pm Phil
She treats me like a king. I should have married her four years ago instead of fucking around all this time. We would not have happened though and I wouldn’t trade that. I was not ready then, I am now
11:05pm
So glad you are getting a second chance!
11:06pm Phil
I loved making love to you, it was sexy and hot and unbelievably great. I would not trade it for anything. I loved DC and Boston. I had such a good time and we have had cool adventures since
Me too babe
I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did
11:16pm Phil
You gave me this chance. I would not have gotten there without you
Your advise was spot on
11:26pm
That’s what old friends are for. 
11:33pm Phil
We are much more than old friends Sass. Much more.  I have lots of old friends. An evening like we had at Legal does not just happen. Our incredible time in DC, that’s not friends. That’s much much more. It’s why you were able to help. 
Don’t think for a second I don’t know and understand what you did. I’ll be grateful forever and as I always have I’ll love you forever. Our kiss, oh lord. I made a bad call there too.  Don’t ever think I don’t love you. That’s what the waitress picked up on. Just wanted you to know. Nite Sass.
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Beautiful

Tuesday, December 18, 2012
8:31am Phil
Morning Sass.  Hope you have a great day! Had a terrific meal last night at a new place.  Nice. The Beach Gal had to tell dumb ass to leave her alone last night.  He came to get some tools and called her cruel for breaking his heart, professed his love, made some demands and then got thrown out when he started to get nasty.  Glad that’s done.  I did not want him near the house or near The Beach Gal. 
Get these kids out of here at the end of the week and then start working towards ending this job.  Hard to believe it’s over. My wife got to live in the big house and be the Queen Bee. I know she enjoyed that. Time for me to get myself set for the next stage.  A jeep, a beach house, couple dogs, modest stuff and a smile every day.
9:44am
So The Beach Gal changed her mind and is on board with you?
10:30am Phil
She has always been on board.  Just needed to get me to be able to walk away and allow it to happen.  She was getting my attention with a sharp stick. I got the point and it hurt. She loves me but she’s not waiting forever.
10:34am
Can you point to anything you did that was the turning point?  (Storing up ideas for the next heartbroken guy who needs advice)
10:34am Phil
My homely mug
[photo of him in uniform in his office]
Yes, I wrote down how I felt, what I thought, no bullshit, just my inner most thoughts. Talked about why I love her, what I love about her. I called her, talked to her. The flowers helped. Told me she prayed they were from me. The bracelet also helped. Everyone needs to hear it, needs to see it and I let a busy job get in the way. I shan’t make that mistake again.
10:46am Phil
Where you go?  Did you see my Sorry ass team last night?
10:47am
Thanks for the summary!  Very helpful.  And damn, kid, you are looking so HAWT!
I was at the project meeting last night…so intense w/ 2 dozen talented women!
I heard about your team not being in the post-season.  Very sad – they usually make for good opponent.  Sorry, kid.
10:50am Phil
Oh, I’ll bet.  Sounds like fun.  Sass, don’t know what the hell I’m doing.  I just know the girl excites me, loves me, makes me crazy and we enjoy one another and have fun.  That’s been missing from my life for a very long time.
10:52am
I hope having a sweet partner will make all else fall into place.  It may be a tough road but with her to share it, so much better than you’ve had!
Are you staying home for the holidays?
12:07pm Phil
I know it will be a tough road.  There will be family issues and other fallout. There will be a large financial impact.  I give up about half my pension a year.  It’s worth it to me to be met every day with a warm smile and someone who will listen and be interested and will provide the loving and gentle touch that I crave so badly.  I know there are issues.  The Beach Gal, while a gentle and loving soul, can be a handful.  I was very good in the past at limiting what she drinks and how much.  It’s not that she drinks so much but it counteracts her meds and that’s when there are issues.  We enjoy a couple light beers, play some darts, dance a little, no issues.  The Beach Gal works hard, she is independent, has made her own way. Bought a house, pays the bills. She welcomes help but does not need it. She is very family oriented, my wife is not.  We will spend a lot of times with both families.  I really like hers, good people, love her kids.  I think my Mom will love her just because she is so attentive to me.  The Beach Gal is a country girl, does not have my wife’s polish and love of the big event.  That’s fine with me.  I like the country girl and a simpler life.  
Is it so wrong to crave affection?  For six wonderful months, I looked forward to coming home every day, loved cooking meals together, was met with a warm smile, a hug and kiss, my favorite drink. I watched TV with my lady tucked in next to me, her head on my chest.  We listened to music and danced together, took long walks on the beach, bike rides.  It was everything I ever wanted and I let my brother convince me that what I was doing was so wrong, I was destroying my family, it was a sin, I was embarrassing my family. I let him and my kids insert the seed and I made the wrong call.  I should have stayed the path and stayed with The Beach Gal.  That’s where I have wanted to be all this time. I tried to fight that. She had her things; I had mine.  We tried to fight this and move on and for whatever reason, we keep ending up back together, still in love, still like high school kids.  
I know it all sounds foolish.  My more sensible friends say stay where I am, find a girlfriend for the affection I need.  That’s just not me and I don’t want a girlfriend.  I want a partner through the peaks and valleys of life.  One who will hold my hand and encourage me, give me strength and courage and cheer when I win and help me back up when I get knocked down.  That’s The Beach Gal.
Staying here for the holidays.
12:14pm
That sounds beautiful!  It’s what I’ve been hoping for you for ages.  You deserve it.  I will help however I can.
Off to lunch w/ my assistants – trying to get out more
12:16pm Phil
You are something else. <3
going to swim
1:28pm Phil
that’s a good plan!  Enjoy!  
Found a place that does lobsta rolls.  Going to try them out! 
5:06pm
Won’t be as good w/out me. 🙂
I’m off!  Another project starts tonight.  And might have a hot sex phone date…. mmmm.  Have a good evening!
5:10pm Phil
No it won’t be. Ooooh, well have fun girl.
5:12pm
Won’t be the same w/o you!
5:13pm Phil
We do it pretty well for real and on the phone girl.
I’ll never eat lobster the same again.  Every time I see one I think of you and smile.
5:40pm
🙂  That warms my heart.
I am eating Thai soup…and remembering kissing you in the shadows of Natl Harbor!
5:49pm Phil
I loved that place! That was fun!
The night we went to Legal Seafood was such a romantic evening. What fun! I hope you enjoyed the pre dinner activities cause I sure did
5:53pm
You said, “There is no better sight than a beautiful woman sucking my cock.”
5:57pm Phil
Absolutely! 🙂
No exaggeration there
6:04pm
I don’t usually feel beautiful but I believed you that night
6:07pm Phil
You were beautiful at dinner as well. Beauty comes from all of a person, inside and out and you have both.