July 2014
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Good morning Philip!  Hope you have a terrific Tuesday! 
We’re headed to the 90s!  It’s July for sure!

8:06am Phil 
Us too! Good morning! Long days for me but long weekend coming!

Dinner with Mom at Pizzeria Uno’s in Burlington.  Their chicken parm is pretty good.  

9:10pm Phil 
Dinner, drunken noodles
Ooh! That seafood looks delicious!

9:43pm Phil 
Was wonderful!

That on Uncle Sam?

9:44pm Phil 

Yeah man! Uncle Sugar

Where are you tonight?

10:27pm Phil
Away for work

My rock

Monday, June 30, 2014
Good morning kid!  Thanks for calling!  And for the tips for Kris.
You are my rock. 
Have a marvelous Monday!

10:55am Phil 

You too!
Amazing Italian lunch with my sister and one of her best pals from college @Toscano in Harvard Square

 Pasta e fagioli soup
 Caprese salad with local burrata, Beefsteak tomatoes and basil
 Rigatoni Toscano with 
double-smoked bacon and tomato cream sauce 
Tried another new restaurant with Hubby – Dumpling House.  Tasty – not as good as Mary Chung’s but they have dim sum every day!  
 Mini soup dumplings and a spring roll 
 Peking ravioli
Yu shiang pork

Reading the letter

Sunday, June 29, 2014
I woke up about 8 am and went out to greet Kris.  He was re-potting a plant on my balcony!  
I thought he had to leave at about 8 am to get to church but he decided it was better not to go.  He did want to get home to find out what was in his mailbox.  I was amazed he had held off so far. 
I made breakfast – ham and eggs over-easy on cheese toast with half an English muffin with raspberry jam and grapes and OJ.  We ate and planned the day.  
We decided we’d go up to NH – he’d drop me at a Panera and go to his house to get the letter, then we’d go up to Lake Winnipesaukee for dinner.  He questioned whether I wanted to go… said he might not be any fun, couldn’t stop from talking out whatever was in the letter.  I considered it carefully, but it’s not often I get a front row seat to such crucial moments in a man’s life, and I didn’t want him to be alone on such a tough day. 
I showered and dressed, grabbed my hat and we left around 12:45 pm. He dropped me at the Panera. They have good food and free wifi.  I ate lemon chicken orzo soup and half a ham & cheese sandwich washed down with an iced green tea.  I thought he’d be gone about 30 minutes but it got to be much longer.  At the hour point when I began to think something really bad had happened, he texted saying he’d be there soon.  
A chat pal texted me and helped me pass the time.  It’s so wonderful to have a bunch of folks I can call on to distract me. 
Kris popped in to the restaurant and told me the letter was 4 pages hand-written and angry.  He said she was moving far away for the summer, filing for a legal separation and wanted no contact with him.  He said he had a lot of hard thinking to do, but he didn’t want to start now.  He wanted to go out for dinner, if I could deal with him talking too much about it.  We both didn’t want to waste a beautiful summer evening, so we headed north to Lake Winnipesaukee.  
He said he had only skimmed the letter, and wondered if I would read it aloud to him as he drove.  I asked him if he really wanted me to see it.  He asked if I wanted to.  I said I did, and if I’m going to help, I should know what was said.  He also pointed out it would reassure me that this is all about him – there is no mention of me.  I read it out.  I was surprised she is going so far away physically and legally without ever talking to him.  And that she’s so angry about the motorcycle rather than his affair.  And that she quit her job over this.  And tossing away all the good years with this one episode. And throwing religion in his face. And saying odd things like “Half of everything is mine.  Do not destroy my stuff.”  WTF?  But it is good to know where she stands.  It hit him hard.  
I texted my chat pal back with a brief summary of the letter, thanked him again for hanging with me.  And I told Philip.  They were very kind to listen to me through all this.  
He took me to my favorite lakeside restaurant – the Town Docks in Meredith.  We found parking three cars from the restaurant – quite a feat at the height of the summer season.  We walked right in and got a table in the shade on the second floor about 5 pm. I had their deliciously thick clam chowder, a bite of his caesar salad, then we shared the fried fisherman’s platter with calamari, scallops, clams and fish with fries.  It was much better than Woodman’s!  We looked at the lake and the people around us, listened to live music from the beach bar, and he mostly stayed in the moment.  
He talked about three options:
  1. take her at her word, separate and divorce and start a new life.  That will be expensive and painful.  
  2. buckle down to do all the right things to win her back: cut his hair, sell the motorcycle, do lots of church work, cut off contact with me, hang out with friends and family who will report back to her that he is doing good works.  He wonders if any of that will change her mind, or is worth the effort.
  3. look like he’s buckling down but learn better ways to hide his activities and carry on.  He doesn’t know if he can lead that double life. 
He talked about having his fun for the summer and then being good.  Heh.  That doesn’t seem viable.
Each option has pros and cons, and is hard in different ways.  I pointed out how special it is that he gets to choose.  He argued with me a bit, said everyone can makes choices.  I said that many men don’t feel that way, and never reach a moment where they’re required or allowed to do it.  He is very torn, as so many men are, about doing what makes him feel alive and young, such as the motorcycle and seeing me, or doing what is best for his wife and family.  He doesn’t know who he is anymore, or who he wants to be.  He feels like two people in one body.  I certainly know what that feels like!  
I’m very glad he doesn’t ask me what he should do.  I don’t know what to tell him.  
We finished dinner about 6 pm.  I paid this time.  We strolled off down the boardwalk.  We took a seat on a stone bench near the boat launch and watched the parade of boats in and out of the lake.  We saw a car boat with the license plate H20CAR.  Hee!  It was such a treat to just sit and people watch and boat watch and relax.  I realized how rare a thing that is for me!  
Philip called!  Kris went to the bathroom while we talked.  He has been right where Kris is, when he left to live with Beach Gal for 6 months, and talked to many of the military men around him with marital troubles.  I was touched that he called and gave some advice and best wishes!  
We noticed the time about 8:30 pm and decided to head back to his house for some alone time.  I was leery to go back there, but he convinced me it was completely low risk now.  We could only stay there about an hour, so I took the risk.  I desperately want to hug him and use my physical skills to soothe him. 
So we got to his place about 9:45 pm.  The kitty talked to me!  She usually hides the entire time I’m there.  She must be really lonely.  
We settled in his bed and cuddled and talked.  He made me cum with his finger.  He was not able to get hard… completely understandable.  I made him stop trying at 11 pm and we were dressing when his phone rang.  He dashed downstairs and I could hear shouting.  Ugh.  I finished dressing, packed up my stuff and went downstairs.  
He was talking to his daughter..  I thought he was handling it well except for his volume.  I am so unused to people shouting at each other, but he said it’s what they all do.  He was getting across the basics very clearly:
  • He loves his wife
  • He wants to talk with her with their minister to begin the reconciliation process
  • He is sorry
  • He will tell her the truth.  He is NOT going to discuss it with his family before he talks to her. 
  • Divorce will not be a good option for either of them. 
I hope his daughter can get through to his wife. 
She wanted to go on about how this hurt her and he apologized, but said it is between him and his wife first and he needs to deal with that and then the family.  She was giving him a heaping of shame, so he pointed out that when she came to him unwed and pregnant he treated her with kindness and grace and love, and hoped for some of that from her now.  Wow.    
He did get her to confirm that his son hacked into his email.  It is not clear what he did with that info, as his wife didn’t mention it.  He explained the financial stresses he faces right now that have to be dealt with right away and are pressing him to make decisions fast. 
It got to be after midnight, so he finally hung up and took me home.  He vented about the conversation then was quiet for a long time.  I stroked his knee, trying to pour my strength into him.  He would pat my hand and say, “that feels good” now and then.  We sang along with songs on the radio.  He got a text from his wife asking if he paid the mortgage and the phone bill and whether he was ever going home.  He was puzzled, as she never concerns herself with their finances, and how would she know if he wasn’t home?  This was a little shocking as it could mean she was still around there or had people watching the house.  Where I just was.  Eep.  
We pulled up at my place at 1 am.  We talked about how to correspond now.  He doesn’t want to text or use his Yahoo email anymore.  We talked of a mischief phone.  I said I could research that for him.  He puzzled over whether he could use his work cellphone or landline or a new Yahoo email address and we decided that is a bad idea.  I suggested a gmail account, which has “no history” chat.  He said he would set one up.  I offered to help. 
I am conflicted about whether or not to keep corresponding.  He has to decide.  I don’t want him to be alone.  But if he needs to stop, he should tell me and go.  I don’t think I will be torn up, just sad and miss having someone.  And I hate to think of starting again.  I do think in retrospect Kris will turn out to be the best AM man I have been with or ever will be.  But I am oddly unemotional about it.  And I have told him not to worry about hurting me or factoring in my needs.  He is at a huge turning point in his life and I am not.
I worried about him driving home so late so I offered to let him sleep on the couch again.  He declined, said he was wired and needed to wake up at home and get going on his day right away.  I was so tired I could not think anymore, so I sent him on his way with a quick kiss at 1:15 am.

The last letter

Sunday, June 29, 2014
Good morning kid!  Another bunch of great photos yesterday!  I had a fun lunch with Mom and my niece. Then my guy came over and hung out.  He makes me smile. Have a great Sunday!

9:38am Phil 

He doing ok? I know how hard that is
Glad you are having a good weekend


He is doing incredibly well.  He got a text saying “check your mailbox” so he’s thinking that can’t be good.  Trying to decide if I can go with him to find out.  Hubby is being a great sport about having him around.

Amazing to have a guy around who picks up after himself and does stuff around my place!  And touches me…

9:42am Phil 
Hubby has his girl around there so you should be able to have your guy, right? 
I’m guessing the mailbox contains divorce papers

Nice when it’s a partnership.

If she went right to that without ever talking to him?  Wow…

9:47am Phil 

Some women are like that.  She doesn’t sound like a real stable one


I dunno.  I can understand.  
If her son handed her a pile of our email?  ugh.

9:50am Phil 
That would be all she needs to make a case. Kids always pick a side but expect you to remain neutral where they are concerned.
*sigh  I am so lucky to have friends like you who get it…

10:04am Phil 

I’m the last person to be judgmental. 
Too many people trapped in marriages they no longer enjoy

He loves her, wants to stay with her… figures he’s the one who gets caught.  Most of my online pals wouldn’t mind getting out.

10:16am Phil 
That sucks

10:39am Phil 
Never go to the house


I learned that lesson last weekend!
No more closets!

1:05pm Phil 
There you go. Learn lessons along the way.


We’re driving to NH. Think good thoughts for him and me.

7:42pm Phil 
How did it go?

Mailbox had letter from wife. She’s moving far away to live with daughter, filing for legal separation, wants no contact.

He stayed calm, took me out for supper on Lake Winnipesaukee.  

He has some big decisions to make.

7:47pm Phil 

That’s what I thought. Sorry it worked out that way

Tough to know what to do.  He let me read it.

Meet #19 Two O’s

Saturday, June 28, 2014
Me: Hiya hot stuff! Leaving Mom’s. Eta 3:15 pm. You headed my way? 2:42 PM
Kris: water cocks… I mean phlox. I’m bringing u a bigger flower pot with heavier soil (from the sacred ground of my veggie garden) so water will be in soil longer. poor little cocks. I mean phlox…dying of thirst…all alone and neglected. don’t worry little cocks…I mean phlox…Uncle Kris will try to save u from mean Sassy…who’s too busy with sex to even give u a little drink now and then. but dont worry little cocks…I mean phlox. 2:42 PM
Me: You are a strange and wonderful man 2:43 PM
Kris: there’s that “strange” again. don’t understand. 😉 2:45 PM
Kris: home. doing laundry. WATERING PLANTS. will text when I leave here with eta there 2:46 PM
Me: Okay. 🙂 2:47 PM
Me: I’m home. Took my niece for frozen yogurt! 4:11 PM
Kris: fun! leaving home now. eta 5:30. will be late now by time done work. still want me to come? 4:14 PM
Me: Yes! Stay again if you like? 4:21 PM
Kris: you sure? please make sure it’s ok with Hubby. tell him I wanted u to check 4:24 PM
Me: He says, “Sure!” 🙂 4:24 PM
Kris: k…will stay but have to leave by 8 to go to church. I will b “questioned” about it…..need to “show” 4:28 PM
Me: Hubby’s gone! Where are you? 6:20 PM
Kris: eta 6:45 6:25 PM
Kris: 5 min away 6:40 PM
Kris: here! 6:45 PM
Me: Holding the door open – roll on in! 6:45 PM


Part 1
I woke up about 7 am and went out to the living room.  Kris was still here!  He was reading the Bible.  We talked seriously about scripture and its historical underpinning.  Whee.  How do I end up with these religious men?!  Good thing my minister’s daughter upbringing lets me keep up. He seemed much calmer this morning.  
I made him breakfast.  Yes, I actually cooked!  Ham & cheese omelets, English muffins with raspberry jam, OJ.  He was impressed.  I have this feeling he won’t eat when he’s alone so I want to make sure he has one good meal!  
He continued his work to pare down his expenses, being on the phone with Verizon for eons to cut off his son’s phone and get rid of other extras.  He got a message from his mother – she can’t lend him more money right now. His panic ratcheted up again.  He called her back. I went into the bedroom to give him some privacy. He found me there when he finished his call.  He said he got lots of support but no money.
We had a nice cuddle in my bed before he had to leave.  I thought he was going to leave without doing anything, then he leaned over me sucking on my left breast and fingering me to two orgasms!  That’s a first! 
He said he had a lot of work to do today.  I invited him to grab his computer from home and return to work here, to hang out while Hubby goes off to a project meeting tonight.  I wonder if he will come back? I know he hates being all alone in their big house.  
I walked him to the garage and saw him out on his motorcycle, then headed to my Mom’s to take my niece and her to lunch.  
Part 2
Kris returned at 6:45 pm!  He had to buckle down and do work, so he set up on my living room coffee table where I could see him from my desk.  His laptop computer was acting up, which made it tense.  I downloaded and installed his remote access software on my laptop so he could use my computer if necessary, but right after I did that his computer behaved.  Ha!  I made myself supper – two hots dogs and chips.  
He got a text from his wife – “check the mailbox.”  That made him a bit crazy.  I thought he might take off right away for home but he had to finish his work to get paid and he needs the money, so he continued, stopping now and then to look at me and smile, then ask for help concentrating. 
He finished his work around midnight.  We went into my bedroom and cuddled a while.  He made me cum with his finger!  I’ve figured out a way to think very sexy thoughts about some p0rn video or other scenario that puts me over the edge when I’m close.  It feels slightly traitorous to “leave the scene” in my mind and get inspiration elsewhere, but whatever works!  I rolled onto my stomach.  He pulled my ass up and went in doggie style and came pretty quickly.  Hooray!  Orgasms for both of us!
I sense a certain desperation – trying to get the most out of every moment together.  Neither of us knows when the last time will be.
I tucked him back in on the sofa about 1:30 am.   I watched him for awhile.  It is so tough to leave him there to sleep on his own and go to my bed to sleep with the man who won’t touch me.  *sigh 

Definitely busted

Saturday, June 28, 2014
Whoa… that’s a bunch of beer!  You had fun?  How’s your pal down there?  Is he retired too now?

My guy is definitely busted – his son hacked his Yahoo account.  Ugh.  Told his entire family!

Have a great Saturday!

Had a great lunch at McDonald’s with Mom and my niece.  She adores the playground there.  And McNuggets.  Heh.

Meet #18 Ramp up meets?

Friday, June 27. 2014
Kris:  I did get home easily. up early…reality 5:01 AM
Kris:  ….meant to say…reality is hitting and it’s scary. 5:04 AM
Me: Good morning! Mwah! 7:15 AM
Kris:  Not so good here…but your sunny greeting cheers me on through hard time. 7:39 AM
Me: Have you told her you love her? 7:44 AM
Kris:  Yes…she just contacted me. She is not willing to meet alone…wants to meet with senior pastor of church we attend. 8:07 AM
Me: That seem okay to you? 8:08 AM
Me: Not a lawyer! 8:08 AM
Kris:  Yes…much better than a lawyer. The pastor is a very savvy, compassionate, strong leader of one of the largest churches in NH. He knows me well (or used to…before I “strayed”). This is serious “crunch time” for me…in terms of “telling the truth.”. Strangely…there’s now more risk in lying than coming clean. which could effect you and me…(more in next text) 8:18 AM
Kris:  Telling the truth is risky but getting caught in a lie at this point would be much worse. and lying takes a toll after a while. anyone in the EMR world who won’t admit it is kidding themselves. you don’t have to lie, so at least that’s one less stressor for you. (more > 8:24 AM
Kris:  But I want to repeat loud and clear – under no circumstances will I be willing to disclose who you are. it’s totally irrelevant to issue between me and my W. I promise u will be safe. 8:26 AM
Kris:  as far as “us,” don’t know, but there will be no “silence” if we have to end. 8:28 AM
Kris:  unless we’re having sex – then there will be silence (with loud groaning when I cum). 8:31 AM
Me: Thank you very much. I understand. I appreciate you saying. I want what’s best for you. Focus on her. 8:31 AM
Me: Ha! You are too funny! 8:31 AM
Me: Hubby said, “You two looked so cute cuddling on the sofa.” 🙂 8:32 AM
Kris:  It was extremely comforting. like it as much as u seem to like sex (if that’s possible. 😉 8:34 AM
Kris:  If I come clean with W, think she might agree to let me visit u just for cuddling on the sofa? 8:58 AM
Kris:  …maybe not. Incorrigible Alfalfa 8:58 AM
Kris:  plus we never seem to “just cuddle”…can’t seem to keep our hands to ourselves no matter WHERE we are…street, parking garage, restaurant, hotel room, your bed, your kitchen, your SOFA, my bed, my house, boat, trucks, cars… and your “lusty humming in pleasure” is unforgettable.  whatever happens… 9:08 AM
Me: All we did was cuddle. You are much too nervous about std’s for much more. 9:11 AM
Kris:  Ha Ha! 9:12 AM
Kris:  Maybe we should ramp up meets?  last fling if I’m forced to stop? before I decide if I have to come clean with W. never got the promised “bj/toy on my cock/something in my ass combo” (they should put that combo on 99 Restaurant menu–might be a hit!) 9:22 AM
Me: Oh my. I’m game! 9:45 AM
Kris:  Why am I not surprised? 9:55 AM
Me: You have taught me to say Yes and puzzle out the details later. Not to be afraid. Not to require everything figured out before I affirm… to trust and it will be fun! 10:14 AM
Kris:  I taught u that!? Not fishing but curious…how? (did I teach u that)? 10:36 AM
Me: Lots of ways… fisher. Consideration – getting to know me so your plan kept my likes in mind, Care in every detail, coming up with fun plans that kept me safe and happy, pushing me but monitoring so it was at a pace I could take, making me feel pampered… trust. 10:52 AM
Me: I’d better stop with that… crying at the prospect of ending. Not going there and messing things up until we have to! We’re all about FUN! 10:54 AM
Kris:  She called me a fisher! (Oops!…on to me!). Don’t stop there! Reeling in one compliment after another…thanks! You’re sweet…it’s ok to cry but we still have some fun to do, so “one day at a time”. Cross that bridge when we come to it (or is it cum before we cross it–I get confused.
😉 11:31 AM
Me: How’s your day going? I get out at 4. Can’t wait! 3:13 PM
Kris:  Ok. canceling all medical, dental, and life insurance policies to reduce deductions from pay and increase cash flow. 3:46 PM
Me: Please don’t! 3:47 PM
Me: Are you sure wife quit work? 3:48 PM
Kris:  Cashing in 401K because I’m 63 and can! Advantages to being in my “dotage.” 3:49 PM
Me: When do you meet with her? 3:49 PM
Me: Wanna play? 3:50 PM
Kris:  Don’t know but she’s not helping so forced to. 3:50 PM
Me: Wait until you know! 3:51 PM
Kris:  She’s making apt with pastor. dont know. 3:51 PM
Kris:  Sure…when? 3:52 PM
Me: Now? 3:53 PM
Kris:  Can’t right now. later tonight! 4:00 PM
Me: Okey doke. 4:01 PM
Kris:  Where will we be? H? Don’t know if I can keep up with your hot mama sex drive…being in my dotage and all. On my way to mom’s. eta your place 8. 5:13 PM
Me: Awesome! Repeat last night? Sofa? Bed? Toys on you and lubed finger in you? 5:17 PM
Kris:  Omg…I don’t know if I can keep up! H ok with it…really? I don’t mean cuz of sex, just “in his space” in general. 5:25 PM
Me: Sofa is fine. You started fingering my slit! He’s fine – glad to see me happy. He’s mired in prepping for a show, doing exactly what he would be doing anyway. 5:27 PM
Kris:  Watcha mean I started fingering your slit? 5:38 PM
Me: I was sitting there on the sofa, stroking your hair, when suddenly there was a hand down my pants! 6:06 PM
Kris:  Oh. THAT. I was hoping you were practicing playin 7:27 PM
Me: You heading my way? Let me know when you’re close so I can move my car. 7:29 PM
Kris:  delay…unbelievable family SHIT happening….tell u when I get there….eta 8:30 (should be right with rush hour past). 7:35 PM
Me: Big Hugs waiting for you here. 7:40 PM
Kris:  here! 8:59 PM
Me: Be right down! 9:00 PM
Friday June 27, 2014
Kris heard from his wife.  She texted to say she wants to meet him with their minister.  This seems like a good sign to me.  Better than a lawyer!  He is thinking he has to confess. Ugh.  And stop seeing me.  Double ugh! He promises to protect my identity.  *sigh  I think I am about to witness the 17th way an AM deal can go bad.  Bleh. 
He knows he is going to have to stop seeing me soon.  So he wants to see me a lot until that happens.  Yay?  Can’t decide how I feel – all mixed up.  He has been very good to me… sex is finally getting good.  I don’t want to start again.  But… I can’t have another day like Sunday.  I don’t want to help him mess up his entire life. And I don’t think I’ll miss him, just… having someone.  Then I think of never seeing him again and I cry. 
Our first for tonight was… not doing anything sexy. Kris showed up about 9 pm.  He’d been with his mother asking for money.  She told him his son hacked his Yahoo account, told Kris’ wife, children and mother he’s having an affair.  *sigh  So now he knows he will have to tell the truth, and stop seeing me.  He talked and talked about the wonderful things he has learned and how fantastic it has felt to stretch his wings on the road and in my bed.  Then he talked about the betrayal by his son.  Thanksgiving should be interesting at their house! 
He had the munchies.  He ate the remains of some onion rings I had disdained. Then he ate a bowl of cereal. And another bowl of cereal. And a banana.  And a lot of coffee!
He fell asleep on our couch at midnight.  I covered him with a blanket and left him there.  I crawled into bed with Hubby.  I tried to convince him to sleep on the sofa so I could cuddle with Kris, but he was already ensconced and dozed off.  
I worried that I wouldn’t sleep, having Kris so close but untouchable… but I dozed off too! 

Friday lily

Friday, June 27, 2014
Good morning!  TGIF!

Been busy listening to Kris – looks like his wife found out.  Ugh.

8:13am Phil 
Good morning. Oh boy, that’s not such a bad thing if he’s prepared to leave. Not good if he’s not. You doing ok? 

I’m very happy to be back near the beach this week for work.  Just glad it’s Friday. 12-14 hour days wear me out! Have a great Friday!

Here’s a lily for your Friday!  Stunning color!

10:53pm Phil 
Just a small beer
[photo of him with a HUGE beer stein]

Meet #17 Sit on my face

Thursday, June 26, 2014
Me: Good morning! Thinking of you. I want to write a lot but I’m thinking it’s safer if I go to back to response mode. Hugs! 10:02 AM
Kris: You can write as much as you want. Email if you want to say more. I’m deleting everything immediately. W not around to check anyhow. Silence is deafening over here. Calm before a BIG storm, can feel it, smell it in the air. know W – this time it’s going to be bad. in survival mode…cutting services….maybe even dropping all benefits including health insurance. need cash for basic survival – housing, food, bills. thanks for not running 10:12 AM
Me: Hiya sugar lips. Crazy day but I am DONE with performance reviews! Whee! I am in your corner. Praying with my fingers crossed that it is too bad. You are smart and strong and you will survive and thrive! 4:24 PM
Kris: Not feeling so smart…but glad u r in my corner. 🙂 4:29 PM
Me: Heading home. Taking a moment to smile in your direction. Not much but something! I wish I could pat your leg… pour my strength into you. 5:03 PM
Kris: U r sweet. these messages encourage me. in spite of her shortcomings the thought of my wife actually leaving me is terrifying at moments. surviving. glad to have a friend in u (and more… 😉 5:12 PM
Me: Where are you? 5:13 PM
Kris: Just got out of work….why? 6:05 PM
Me: Just wondering. I want to hug you. Probably a dumb idea… just know that I do. 6:06 PM
Kris: I could use a hug and don’t have anything better to do. but where would we meet? don’t know I’d be much good to u (even less spectacular than usual–sorry, worth the quarter)…but if there was a place to get a little tlckle from u….why not? 6:14 PM
Me: Hmmm… Revere Beach near Kelly’s Roast Beef? Or there’s a park in along the Mystic River near Margarita’s at Wellington Circle. Or somewhere you like? 6:27 PM
Me: You can come here if you like. Hubby is here but working in his studio and says it’s fine if we go hang out or go in the bedroom and hug or whatever. 6:30 PM
Kris: Knew you were plotting…been on my way while u thought. brain’s mush. give me a physical address to put in gps. got a sweat shirt a skinny Santa can borrow? 6:32 PM
Me: Come to my place. [address]. I can move my car and get you into the garage. Let me know when you’re close. 6:34 PM
Kris: Eta 6:50-7:00 6:37 PM
Kris: Btw…that address I have in Favorites in gps. 😉 6:48 PM
Kris: No need to hide it now 6:48 PM
Me: Headed to move my car. 6:49 PM
Kris7: 10 min 6:51 PM
Kris: Once in city gps eta always wrong. 7:10 now 7:03 PM
Me: No worries 7:04 PM
Me: I’m sitting outside by the garage enjoying the cool air 7:04 PM
Kris: 🙂 7:08 PM

Kris still had not heard from his wife or his children.  He said it was the quiet before the big storm. He expects to get a letter from a lawyer or served with divorce papers by a constable.  He is panicking financially… he was depending on his wife’s summer earnings and it appears she has quit.  He was talking about turning off all his deductions at work, including health care.  I begged him not to!  
I wanted to hug him so badly!  I know it’s a bad idea, but I invited him down to my place.  This was a first for me, having him here while Hubby was home!  Hubby was fine with it – he was working in his office and not paying any attention, as usual.
Kris arrived around 7 pm.  I met him in the garage as usual and gave him a big hug.  We took the elevator up, holding hands.  He said Hi to Hubby as he entered my place, thanked him for letting him visit.  
He said he was not feeling frisky.  We sat just on the sofa and cuddled.  I sat up this time and he put his head in my lap.  I rubbed his head and listened to him worry aloud.  I hope it helped him to talk.  It felt so comfortable.  
After awhile he started squeezing my chest and putting his hand down my pants!  I told him we should shift into the bedroom.  We cuddled in there for awhile.  Then he snuck out to grab my toys.  We played with the tiny rabbit and the silver bullet.  I came hard and he said he could feel it this time!  
I hoped if he could cum it would take his mind off things for a little while. I wanted him in my mouth, so I talked him into “sitting on my face” which is actually me flat on my back with him kneeling on either side of my head, his hands on the bed bookshelf.  I can look up his chest into his eyes – very sexy position!  A first for me!  He came pretty quickly.  Yum. 
There was an added urgency to everything we did, not knowing if we will see each other again.  
I tried not to think about it, not mess up now because of what might or might not happen in the future.  
He didn’t have to work tomorrow, so he could stay late.  We cuddled a bit more, and I let him sleep for a few minutes.  He took off for home about 12:15 am.  


Me: Thanks! Hope you got some safely! 1:08 AM


Wednesday, June 25, 2014 
Me: Good morning! Happy Wednesday! 8:43 AM
Kris: Same to you! Mwah! 9:13 AM
Me: Busy day? Hugs with groping. 9:26 AM
Kris: Pretty busy…not too bad. You? 11:01 AM
Me: Writing performance reviews for two people. Bleh. But making good progress! Can’t wait for it to be over! Hugs! 11:39 AM
Kris: “Rolling along” as u say…eah? I’m not sure “my performance” 😉 eval by u would be such a good one. (Ok…owe u another quarter.) 12:55 PM
From: Kris
To: Sassy
Sent: Wednesday. June 25, 2014 4:48 PM
Re: Birthday wishes
Hi Sassy!
Thanks again for writing so much.  You have a great capacity for “attention to detail”…in MANY ways 🙂  Looking forward to checking off more items on the list!
Honestly, I’m a little stressed about Wife’s recent high level of suspicion.  I also suspect she’s getting fed crap from kids that’s feeding her suspicion–and now have at least 2 out of 4 of them pissed at me—-maybe 3 out of 4.  Our “talk” (to take place on Friday) is going to include me insisting that she eliminate them as “support” for her gripes against me.  
She’s never been able to “contain anxiety”—which is the main driver of that behavior.  She’s not necessarily trying to directly hurt me.  She just can’t “keep it to herself”—and ends up venting to the wrong people.  I told her if we can’t work things out (mostly around my lying about the bike and money in general)—I’d consider going to a marriage counselor.  But I’m NOT going to admit to having an affair.  I’ll have to get caught red-handed with indisputable evidence.  And I will NEVER “out” you—–EVER!!!!!
Me: Eating grapes. Thinking of you. And a boat. And.. yum. 9:30 PM
Kris: W not responding. Something bad is happening. just went to her work and they asked me to leave. She must have instructed them to not allow me there or quit job. May have been caught, but don’t know how. 9:38 PM
Me: So sorry to hear this. Try to stay calm. Hugs. Delete these texts. 🙂 9:47 PM
·       Jun 25 9:47 PM Kris: You there?
·       Jun 25 9:48 PM Sassy: Yes
·       Jun 25 9:48 PM Kris: been deleting all texts for past few days…moot point since she’s not around to ask to see them
·       Jun 25 9:49 PM Sassy: But she might at any time… better safe than sorry.
·       Jun 25 9:49 PM Sassy: I know it’s a pain.
·       Jun 25 9:50 PM Kris: least of my worries. f I’m caught I don’t know what she’ll do…
·       Jun 25 9:50 PM Sassy: Can you say there is confidential client stuff… better she not look?
·       Jun 25 9:50 PM Sassy: Don’t get ahead of yourself. Stay in the present. Deal with right now.
·       Jun 25 9:51 PM Kris: I am…but I’m pretty sure I’m caught. do you remember when I accidentally sent a text meant for you to my son?
·       Jun 25 9:51 PM Sassy: yes
·       Jun 25 9:52 PM Sassy: what did it say?
·       Jun 25 9:52 PM Kris: it didn’t have a lot of “really juicy” stuff, but enough to incriminate me, and my son told my wife about it, who asked me about it. at first my answer was believed – just a “joke” meant to send to wife but accidentally sent to son. they believed it before, but not now…
·       Jun 25 9:52 PM Sassy: it doesn’t prove anything
·       Jun 25 9:53 PM Kris: no, but given the present circumstances my credibility is zero with my wife, son, and at least one daughter—maybe all if they’re “talking amongst themselves”.
·       Jun 25 9:53 PM Sassy: I’m sorry. I know this is scary.
·       Jun 25 9:54 PM Sassy: Try not to let the “what ifs” get to you
·       Jun 25 9:54 PM Kris: I pretty much know how this is likely to play out, since I’ve been through it before….
·       Jun 25 9:55 PM Sassy: yes?
·       Jun 25 9:55 PM Kris: well, sort of. if she reacts the way she has in the past. but hard to say for sure.
·       Jun 25 9:57 PM Kris: my biggest fear right now (other than losing my wife who I actually still love) is the increased financial stress this puts on me, since I was looking forward to her weekly  contribution to our bills over the next 8 weeks, which is now gone.
·       Jun 25 9:58 PM Sassy: You don’t know that
·       Jun 25 9:59 PM Kris: I know my wife – something very serious is going on. I think my son and one of my daughters have convinced her to “not let me manipulate her” and to separate from me and recruit people to confront me. that’s what she’s done in the past.
·       Jun 25 9:59 PM Sassy: How can I help you? I don’t have money but I’d like to ease your mind somehow
·       Jun 25 9:59 PM Sassy: over a motorcyle?
·       Jun 25 10:01 PM Sassy: Can you tell her you love her? Want to stay? Will do what it takes?
·       Jun 25 10:01 PM Kris: the text I sent my son had your nickname in it….”Sassy girl”…..that doesn’t put you at any risk but it betrays that I’m not talking to my wife..  My son must have shared that with one of my daughters because she texted me and said I was “disgusting”. when I said she didn’t know what was going on she texted back: “HI Sassy girl.”
·       Jun 25 10:01 PM Sassy: Uh oh
·       Jun 25 10:01 PM Sassy: Still doesn’t prove anything
·       Jun 25 10:02 PM Sassy: Take a deep breath.
·       Jun 25 10:02 PM Kris: no, but it’s more than a little suspicious. I just checked my phone bill to see if there was anything incriminating there. the total texting I do is not much more than my son’s and the rare times I talked on the phone to you are buried in hundreds of other calls, mostly to my wife
·       Jun 25 10:03 PM Sassy: Who can see your phone bill? Is it paper or online?
·       Jun 25 10:04 PM Kris: online. my son has access to it but I told him last week that I was taking him off because it was time for him to get his own plan, but he could access it now but there’s nothing incriminating on it
·       Jun 25 10:04 PM Sassy: Will it work for you to get all hurt, offended that they would think such things, etc?
·       Jun 25 10:05 PM Kris: no. screwed up too bad, starting with the bike, then the high speed chase the other night. my “story” is only believable if you’re an idiot, which no one in my family is.
·       Jun 25 10:06 PM Sassy: You can’t whine to them, say she is over-reacting?
·       Jun 25 10:06 PM Kris: no, they’re on her side now. I’m in the dog house and in deep shit.
·       Jun 25 10:06 PM Sassy: You had no idea the bike would be such a big deal, you will sell it… etc?
·       Jun 25 10:07 PM Kris: if I’m caught with you the bike becomes small potatoes.
·       Jun 25 10:07 PM Sassy: What worked last time to get you back in good graces?
·       Jun 25 10:08 PM Kris: it was different – the issue was my drinking. that’s not an issue now. I fixed that by stopping drinking, went to AA, went to marriage counseling.
·       Jun 25 10:08 PM Kris: now I’m just FUCKING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!
·       Jun 25 10:09 PM Sassy: Oh honey…
·       Jun 25 10:09 PM Kris: you’re sweet to call me that…
·       Jun 25 10:09 PM Kris: and I’m also a liar…
·       Jun 25 10:10 PM Kris: and a cheating betrayer of my marriage vows…
·       Jun 25 10:10 PM Sassy: Has anyone said that?
·       Jun 25 10:10 PM Kris: not yet.but I “feel it in the air”
·       Jun 25 10:10 PM Kris: my daughter’s text “HI Sassy girl” pretty much said it
·       Jun 25 10:12 PM Kris: imagine the reaction of devout, conservative Christians. all but one of my kids are in that camp. They will be hurt, angry, indignant, outraged, and completely take my wife’s side for betraying her in such a horrible way.
·       Jun 25 10:13 PM Sassy: How can they know you have done anything?
·       Jun 25 10:13 PM Kris: I don’t know. I’m wondering if my son could hack into my Yahoo email account or yahoo messenger somehow…
·       Jun 25 10:14 PM Kris: I deleted all the conversation history in this chat.
·       Jun 25 10:14 PM Sassy: Good
·       Jun 25 10:15 PM Kris: and I deleted all but the last two emails from you…and ones I sent you…did you read what I wrote today?
·       Jun 25 10:15 PM Sassy: Yes.
·       Jun 25 10:15 PM Kris: so I’ll delete those too…later
·       Jun 25 10:16 PM Sassy: Good. It has to be a constant thing, sadly, the deleting
·       Jun 25 10:16 PM Kris: I know…and I may close the accounts altogether and create new ones.
·       Jun 25 10:16 PM Sassy: Good
·       Jun 25 10:17 PM Sassy: Use a different browser also
·       Jun 25 10:17 PM Sassy: Not the one she uses
·       Jun 25 10:17 PM Kris: but first I need to find out what my wife is actually thinking…and what she knows, that she can prove .I’ll deny anything she can’t prove but if she has hard evidence? I’m screwed.
·       Jun 25 10:18 PM Kris: at least the cops aren’t here to escort me out tonight the way they did the last three times. LOL
·       Jun 25 10:19 PM Sassy: Would any of your kids tell you?
·       Jun 25 10:19 PM Kris: then it was always after a “domestic incident” when I was drunk and intimidated her somehow.
·       Jun 25 10:19 PM Kris: tell me what?
·       Jun 25 10:19 PM Sassy: What’s going on?
·       Jun 25 10:19 PM Kris: no…my son has definitely gone silent.
·       Jun 25 10:20 PM Kris: and one daughter said, “I don’t want to have anything to do with you until you tell mom the truth.” the one who texted: “HI Sassy girl.”
·       Jun 25 10:20 PM Sassy: Wow. Your family is very different from mine.
·       Jun 25 10:20 PM Kris: you think?
·       Jun 25 10:22 PM Sassy: So lay low… stay quiet. Even when they start talking.
·       Jun 25 10:22 PM Sassy: Listen hard.
·       Jun 25 10:23 PM Kris: no one’s talking to me so I’m listening hard to silence right now. but that won’t last. my guess is I’ll get a visit from “ambassadors representing my wife”. maybe someone from the church…not sure.
·       Jun 25 10:24 PM Sassy: Ugh. I can not imagine airing family stuff to other people
·       Jun 25 10:25 PM Kris: I told her I would be willing to go to marriage counseling but that she needed to contain who she talked to. but she fears that by saying that I’m trying to cut her off from support and manipulate her.
·       Jun 25 10:26 PM Kris: the senior pastor she talked to was actually very moderate and reasonable in his advice to her.
·       Jun 25 10:26 PM Sassy: You say you like danger… is it worth all this?
·       Jun 25 10:26 PM Sassy: Oh?
·       Jun 25 10:27 PM Kris: wait…go back to your question. is it worth all this…what do you mean?
·       Jun 25 10:27 PM Sassy: This seems like a bad time for you… I wonder if our good times and the rides on the bike etc. balance it out?
·       Jun 25 10:29 PM Kris: the bike is forgiveable and if I sold it that would go away eventually. An affair is on a completely different level. I don’t want to lose my wife and I never wanted to hurt her either. my plan was to have an affair. not get caught, not lose my wife.
·       Jun 25 10:30 PM Sassy: What did the minister say?
·       Jun 25 10:30 PM Kris: he knew about both the bike and the car chase.
·       Jun 25 10:31 PM Kris: he told her to take a step back. calm down and try to talk to me and see if we could work things out before doing anything drastic.
·       Jun 25 10:31 PM Sassy: That seems very fair.
·       Jun 25 10:31 PM Sassy: Why isn’t she doing that?
·       Jun 25 10:32 PM Sassy: What does she think happened with the car chase?
·       Jun 25 10:33 PM Kris: if it was only about the bike I think she would. but if someone’s been “whispering in her ear” or she has hard evidence that I’ve been having an affair…..she wouldn’t  be able to handle that alone. and I wouldn’t expect her to.  I told her we might not be able to resolve simpler things (like the bike or money in general) and if we came to a stalemate I’d be willing to go to marriage counseling but that she needed to stop talking to “just everyone”…including our kids.
·       Jun 25 10:34 PM Kris: she doesn’t know for sure…but she said she thought she saw someone in the truck and my whole story doesn’t make sense for the way I behaved (which it doesn’t).
·       Jun 25 10:34 PM Sassy: If there is some proof, can you say it’s over, you made a mistake, forgive me?
·       Jun 25 10:35 PM Kris: I would have to. if there was any hope to not end up divorced, but I don’t know if I would or keep trying to get away with it, after a while.
·       Jun 25 10:35 PM Sassy: Did you take the chair out of the closet?
·       Jun 25 10:36 PM Kris: no but I will right now. give me a sec .be right back…
·       Jun 25 10:36 PM Kris: back… chair is gone
·       Jun 25 10:37 PM Kris: hiding stuff is a full-time job
·       Jun 25 10:37 PM Sassy: Yes.
·       Jun 25 10:37 PM Sassy: How did the truck owner react?
·       Jun 25 10:39 PM Kris: not good but not “ballistic” – I’m paying a friend who’s a semi-retired, professional mechanic and auto body man for probably over 50 years to fix it good as new. will return it in better condition than I borrowed it. not sure what it will cost. guessing $400-500. called friend and he was thankful…returning truck to him tomorrow.
·       Jun 25 10:40 PM Sassy: phew
·       Jun 25 10:40 PM Kris: how does this effect how you feel about us?
·       Jun 25 10:41 PM Sassy: I feel like it should but it doesn’t
·       Jun 25 10:41 PM Kris: what do you mean?
·       Jun 25 10:41 PM Sassy: Are you worried I’ll run screaming?
·       Jun 25 10:41 PM Kris: no…you’re too unflappable
·       Jun 25 10:42 PM Kris: but everyone has their limits. I’ve worked hard to convince you I won’t put you at any risk. if you trust that, that’s most of what should concern you…I think.
·       Jun 25 10:43 PM Kris: if I get caught I know for a fact I will take 100% of the blame…and no one will be remotely interested in who you really are.
·       Jun 25 10:45 PM Sassy: Worry about you.
·       Jun 25 10:46 PM Kris: why?
·       Jun 25 10:46 PM Sassy: I appreciate your reassurances.
·       Jun 25 10:46 PM Kris: what do you mean “worry about you”?
·       Jun 25 10:47 PM Sassy: I worry about you. wish I could do more.
·       Jun 25 10:48 PM Kris: there’s nothing you can do…except what you’re doing. be someone to talk to and be here for me for now. don’t know what’s going to happen for sure…but having a serious feeling it’s not going to be good.
·       Jun 25 10:48 PM Sassy: Might be able to say it was just online flirting… nothing physical… depending on what they know
·       Jun 25 10:49 PM Kris: I’ll lie if I can get away with it…but I’m anticipating a “little game” of “who blinks first” in terms of people telling what they know or don’t know. do you know what I mean?
·       Jun 25 10:50 PM Sassy: Yes
·       Jun 25 10:51 PM Kris: when you say you feel like this should effect us but doesn’t…can you explain that a little more?
·        Jun 25 10:53 PM Sassy: In theory this is messy, not fun, inconvenient, maybe dangerous… a sensible woman might back away
·       Jun 25 10:53 PM Sassy: but I don’t feel like it
·       Jun 25 10:53 PM Sassy: Maybe because my marriage is open, not much risk except they could get nasty
·       Jun 25 10:54 PM Kris: who could get nasty?
·       Jun 25 10:54 PM Sassy: your family
·       Jun 25 10:55 PM Sassy: but I am not really thinking about that… more about you
·       Jun 25 10:55 PM Kris: no…they will NOT care who you are. it will be ALL on me. I know them well enough to say that with 100% confidence. I will sadly, voluntarily “cut you loose” in a second if I thought anyone would do anything vindictive directed at you…NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
·       Jun 25 10:56 PM Sassy: I have a feeling it will work out.
·       Jun 25 10:56 PM Sassy: There will be a rough patch here… but in a bit it will calm down
·       Jun 25 10:57 PM Sassy: You love her. She loves you. You want to be there. She needs you.
·       Jun 25 10:57 PM Sassy: You are human.
·       Jun 25 10:57 PM Sassy: She has forgiven you for worse. She will again?
·       Jun 25 10:57 PM Kris: hope so but you and I also now have some complicating factors. that does change things that we’ll need to deal with.
·       Jun 25 10:57 PM Sassy: Try very hard not to talk much.
·       Jun 25 10:58 PM Kris: ME? “TALK MUCH”? What on earth are you talking about?
·       Jun 25 10:58 PM Sassy: Apply your pro skills here.
·       Jun 25 10:59 PM Kris:  I may simply become “too much work” or “not available enough” or “too dangerous” for you.
·       Jun 25 10:59 PM Sassy: We’ll cross that bridge if we have to
·       Jun 25 10:59 PM Sassy: I haven’t seen Philip since Sept. 2011…
·       Jun 25 10:59 PM Sassy: I am still talking to him every day, listening to him…
·       Jun 25 11:00 PM Kris: that’s different. I know you like me but not like that.
·       Jun 25 11:01 PM Kris: not fishing, but it’s true.
·       Jun 25 11:02 PM Sassy: We have been very sloppy… if things calm down and you want to continue, we can be a lot more circumspect and still have fun
·       Jun 25 11:02 PM Kris: you haven’t been sloppy. how do you think I have?
·       Jun 25 11:03 PM Sassy: We have taken a lot of risks we don’t have to keep taking
·       Jun 25 11:04 PM Kris: like you staying at my house, which led to the “car chase”…and almost getting caught when she came home?
·       Jun 25 11:05 PM Sassy: Let’s not worry about us now. You worry about you and your wife and making peace.
·       Jun 25 11:05 PM Sassy: Lean on me. I’m here.
·       Jun 25 11:06 PM Sassy: You can think about a morning BJ when you need to .  : )
·       Jun 25 11:06 PM Kris: I appreciate that. I’m going to start having “little nightmares” jumping up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night not able to sleep. worrying about money. lack of her income. mind will be racing.
·        Jun 25 11:07 PM Kris: I don’t know, might get “shut down” altogether. although it would be the first time if it happened. since you’re BJs never failed to get me off.
·       Jun 25 11:07 PM Kris: the biggest stressor right now is not knowing…
·       Jun 25 11:08 PM Kris: what she really knows…what she’s thinking…
·       Jun 25 11:08 PM Kris: what she plans on doing…
·       Jun 25 11:08 PM Kris: my guess is a temporary separation with the goal of eventual reconciliation…
·       Jun 25 11:09 PM Kris: if she flat out divorced me right now…that would completely surprise me….after over 30 years of marriage.
·       Jun 25 11:10 PM Kris: and I HAVE been faithful to her for the last 25 years, until you. (though “faithful” and “unfaithful” don’t fit your “world view”).
·       Jun 25 11:11 PM Sassy: I can’t see how I am worth all this angst
·       Jun 25 11:12 PM Kris: I knew what the stakes were. I took the risk .if I have to pay for it that’s my decision, not yours. you’re not the cause of my angst, you’re the source of my “illicit, exciting pleasure”.
·       Jun 25 11:13 PM Kris: I went too far….with risk taking not necessary. liking danger is one thing – being stupid is another. need to be smarter.
·       Jun 25 11:15 PM Sassy: When are you supposed to see her? Tomorrow?
·       Jun 25 11:15 PM Sassy: If she is not at work, where is she?
·       Jun 25 11:17 PM Kris: don’t know. she might have quit…couldn’t handle the stress of her anxiety. or she could be working and asked the director to tell me I couldn’t visit but I doubt that. I think he wouldn’t want her working there under those conditions, since she would be a “liability” to him at that point. she was an idiot and told him some of what was going on.
·       Jun 25 11:18 PM Kris: she could be staying at a friend’s house, but I don’t know whose.
·       Jun 25 11:18 PM Kris: she was supposed to come home tomorrow night and return late Friday or early Saturday.
·       Jun 25 11:19 PM Kris: not happening now I’m 99.99% sure.
·       Jun 25 11:19 PM Kris: want to come over?
·       Jun 25 11:19 PM Sassy: You are so bad.
·       Jun 25 11:19 PM Kris: LOL
·       Jun 25 11:19 PM Sassy: I was wondering if you should come down here.
·       Jun 25 11:20 PM Sassy: Disappear.
·       Jun 25 11:20 PM Sassy: Probably not. Need to stick to the high ground.
·       Jun 25 11:20 PM Kris: I could do whatever I want, but my stress level is going to effect my libido. even your famous BJs may not be enough.
·       Jun 25 11:21 PM Kris: it doesn’t matter where I am. if I’m not with her…or she doesn’t want to be with me.
·       Jun 25 11:21 PM Sassy: It does matter.
·       Jun 25 11:21 PM Kris: at some point I might have to decide. can I keep doing this….or not? if I want to keep my wife.  but as you say, we’ll cross that bridge if we have to if/when we come to it.
·       Jun 25 11:22 PM Kris: why does it matter?
·       Jun 25 11:22 PM Sassy: You need to work on your “How can you THINK THAT?!”
·       Jun 25 11:22 PM Sassy: “I LOVE YOU! I’ve loved you for YEARS! I will always love you!”
·       Jun 25 11:24 PM Kris: Yes. and she’ll say you’ve cheated on me before and now you’ve just replace the craziness of your drinking with acting crazy sober. you’re a “dry drunk” who’s just as crazy as if you were drinking – buy a brand new bike and hide it, listen to loud rock music and dance around the house, grow your hair long, out late all the time with who knows who doing who know what. blah, blah, blah…
·        Jun 25 11:24 PM Sassy: Will she be better off with you or without you? Does she like being alone?
·       Jun 25 11:25 PM Kris: No….she can’t stand being alone but she might consider “replacing me”. but I doubt it.
·       Jun 25 11:26 PM Kris: but she can live separated from me for an extended period of time…if she feels “unsafe” or really hurt…as she does now.
·       Jun 25 11:26 PM Sassy: I don’t see how any of this makes her unsafe. I know women who are unsafe… she’s not in the same galaxy
·       Jun 25 11:27 PM Sassy: But you know her.
·       Jun 25 11:28 PM Sassy: I can’t believe all this woohaa over a motorcycle
·       Jun 25 11:28 PM Kris: emotionally unsafe because a man she thought would always tell her the truth, be sexually faithful to her, love her…has lied to her, been sexually unfaithful to her. not acted in a way that real love acts. that’s in a world that’s not so “unreal”. right or wrong it’s the world most people live in…which is proven by how hard people who have affairs have to work to hide them (who are not in open marriages like you).
·       Jun 25 11:29 PM Kris: if old flame told you the truth about women he was with, you might have been a little hurt…but what hurts more is being lied to…right?
·       Jun 25 11:30 PM Sassy: So you made a mistake. You are very sorry. Why is she at Defcon5 over it?
·       Jun 25 11:31 PM Sassy: Why is she betraying your confidences to the entire family, church and probably the convenience store clerk?
·       Jun 25 11:31 PM Kris: You make me laugh.  I think you pretend to not understand other people just to make the point that you violently disagree with the world they’ve created…that you disagree with. so you make me laugh…
·       Jun 25 11:32 PM Sassy: I was totally horrified by her on Sunday. I wouldn’t stay with someone who yelled at me that way. They could do it exactly once.
·       Jun 25 11:32 PM Kris: I’m laughing again…
·       Jun 25 11:33 PM Sassy: I mean it. I am shocked that you put up with that. Totally disrespectful, mean…
·       Jun 25 11:33 PM Kris: I’m not so calm myself. always nice to you…but give it right back to her…in ways I wouldn’t with you…mainly because you don’t give me any reason to even think about it (plus I still want a BJ). LOL
·       Jun 25 11:34 PM Sassy: I so should not have said any of that. I need to stay out of the middle of this, just be on your side.
·       Jun 25 11:35 PM Kris: I don’t mind. I think it’s amazing you even are willing to invest any time in any of this at all, since you basically just want a good fucking every now and then (which you’re still waiting for).
·       Jun 25 11:35 PM Kris: do I owe you another quarter?
·       Jun 25 11:36 PM Sassy: Does crying work?
·       Jun 25 11:36 PM Kris: ME crying?
·       Jun 25 11:38 PM Sassy: Yes
·       Jun 25 11:38 PM Kris: you mean to elicit sympathy from my wife?
·       Jun 25 11:38 PM Sassy: You may have to break out the big weapons here
·       Jun 25 11:38 PM Sassy: Yes
·       Jun 25 11:39 PM Sassy: Silence. Crying.
·       Jun 25 11:39 PM Sassy: Looking shocked, hurt and offended
·       Jun 25 11:39 PM Kris: omg…it’s never happened…ever. I’m either pissed off or scared and quiet. I don’t do “crying”. she would NEVER believe that and there’s no way I feel like it. I feel genuinely sorry for things, but don’t cry much. very rare…..couldn’t fake it.
·       Jun 25 11:40 PM Kris: no, that would be too much…just quiet denial and lying is as much as I can muster…”stories” I hope she’ll believe…
·       Jun 25 11:40 PM Sassy: You need to react like a wronged man, accused unfairfy
·       Jun 25 11:41 PM Kris: I did a little…but you can “over play” that hand so that it’s obvious…and I need to know what hard evidence she has first.
·       Jun 25 11:41 PM Sassy: RIght
·       Jun 25 11:41 PM Sassy: “Why would you think that?!”
·       Jun 25 11:42 PM Kris: it’s like in MacBeth: “Thou dost protest too much…” familiar with that line?
·       Jun 25 11:42 PM Sassy: Sure
·       Jun 25 11:43 PM
Kris: so no…loud protesting is in itself “suspect” and telling of guilt
·       Jun 25 11:43 PM Sassy: Not loud protesting. Quiet. Shocked looking. About to cry.
·       Jun 25 11:43 PM Kris: can’t do it.
·       Jun 25 11:44 PM Kris: I can deny and lie but not cry.
·       Jun 25 11:44 PM Sassy: It will get them to tell you what they think they know
·       Jun 25 11:45 PM Kris: I’ll do it by asking questions, not faking crying. I’ll say things like, “what are you accusing me of and why? I know it was wrong to buy a bike and hide it for two months but now you’re jumping to all kinds of conclusions about all kinds of other things for no reason” blah, blah, blah….
·       Jun 25 11:46 PM Kris: I’ll keep pressing it…”playing dumb” trying to get it out of them that way.
·       Jun 25 11:47 PM Kris: for example…I know for a fact that my son forwarded the text that was supposed to go to you to my daughter… but I won’t say anything. although if they’re talking to each other (which they probably are) they know I’m smart enough to figure that one out. not exactly “rocket science”…..
·       Jun 25 11:48 PM Kris: I’m sorry you have to engage me in this ridiculously stressful conversation. not what you signed up for.
·       Jun 25 11:49 PM Sassy: Don’t worry about that… I like helping you if I can
·       Jun 25 11:49 PM Sassy: Maybe I’ll learn something!
·       Jun 25 11:49 PM Sassy: And I want things to calm down
·       Jun 25 11:50 PM Kris: omg….you just keep making me laugh. “learn something”? you’re a riot. maybe you don’t undestand my weird sense of humor. are you catching on?
·       Jun 25 11:51 PM Sassy: to what?
·       Jun 25 11:51 PM Kris: my weird sense of humor.
·       Jun 25 11:51 PM Sassy: Glad you can laugh.
·       Jun 25 11:52 PM Sassy: Can you sleep? You’re going to need your wits about you.
·       Jun 25 11:52 PM Kris: probably not well but it’s getting late. should probably let you go. you’re great comfort. thank you.
·       Jun 25 11:52 PM Sassy: You are most welcome. I’m on the edge of my chair wondering what will happen.
·       Jun 25 11:53 PM Kris: you’ll find out soon enough I suspect. nite sweet Sassy. Mwah!
·       Jun 25 11:55 PM Sassy: Mwah!