Category Archives: Message

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Which Brit?

Wednesday, July 23, 2014
9:15am 
Good morning! Back at work!  
Have a wonderful Wednesday!

12:30pm
Took another silly quiz on Facebook.

Which Member of the British Royal Family Are You?

http://www.playbuzz.com/rebeccam16/which-member-of-the-royal-family-are-you

“Congrats, you are Camilla, Duchess of Cornwall! Even though it has taken a long time to show the world who you really are, you are a warm and friendly figure to all you meet. Although you may be judged harshly for your past actions, you always come out on top. You are happy to be a loyal and supportive figure to those you love, placing others before yourself.”


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Gonna take time

Tuesday, July 22, 2014
8:48am
Good morning Philip!  Had a fantastic day at Lake W yesterday – see too many photo on my wall.   Hope you have a terrific Tuesday!

8:50am 
I enjoyed the lake – cruised on the mail boat!  And the food.

But I had too much time to think and saw too many things that reminded me of Kris, so that was tough.  And I couldn’t keep from comparing the day with Hubby vs. Kris… *sigh.  Ah well… I’ll get over it… just need some time.  Mwah!

9:02am Phil 

I know. Easier said than done. It’s hard. Time helps but it’s gonna take time. Enjoy the day!

1:12pm
Took Mom on a drive out into the countryside.  We’re having lunch at the Red Raven Gastropub in Acton!  The food is strange and expensive, but the view of the Nagog Pond is beautiful.

My groovy bacon cheeseburger 
with a bunch of stuff I took off before eating it!

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Saw it coming

Monday, July 21, 2014
6:57am Phil 
It’s not gonna help. The damage is done and can’t be undone. She will never take him back. Just my feel on things. I’m sorry but I saw it coming out that way once he was caught.

The church friends may turn their back too. I have not found a lot of forgiveness and compassion from church friends. Just self righteousness and judgement. Got the same from pastors. Ah well. I’m sorry

7:37am 
Good morning!  I agree but he has to try. And if it doesn’t work he’ll find another good Christian woman to marry.  I’m off to Lake Winnipesaukee with Hubby.  Have a great Monday!

7:49am Phil 

Enjoy your day! He’s going to find the same issues with the next good Christian woman, no fun, uptight, conservative. Not that you have to be any of those things to be a Christian or love God but seems to be the trend. I guess good Christian women don’t flash their tits on the back of a Harley. Shame too. 

Enjoy the lake! I’m working at home with a shit ton of admin to get done!

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The right path

Sunday, July 20, 2014
8:13am
Good morning!   Here’s to a sunny Sunday!

8:19am Phil 

You too!

Loved the doggie video, thank you

9:34am Phil 
[PHOTO of him smiling showing off his beautiful naked shoulders and chest]
9:36am
Mmmm… shoulders.  
10:23am 
Kris just called… he wants to take me to the White Mts today!  
Fickle boy… so one more chance to be with him.  Yipppeee!

11:12am Phil 
Cool, pretty up there
Take what you can get!

12:58am

Kris shared dim sum this morning with Hubby and me at my favorite Chinese place

Crab rangoons, peking ravioli, small steamer buns, suan la chow show, 
crueller and shrimp shumai at Mary Chung’s

He gave me a fantastic adventure to the top of Mt Washington, and a delicious Thai dinner.

We talked a lot as he drove.  He says he is going to confess to three male church friends and ask them to help him walk the right path and get his wife back.  He says he can’t do that and keep seeing me and lie to them.

Then he said good bye.  I said thank you.  I asked him to let me know how things go, maybe the first of every month or whenever something big happens.  He hugged me.  It feels very final.  *sigh.

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Doggie race

Saturday, July 19, 2014
10:11am Good morning!  Hope you had fun last night.

Kris had a bout of “I need to get things done.  I am too stressed to be good company” so I sat alone.  He got his divorce papers yesterday… too real.  *sigh 

Have a super Saturday!  I’m off to Mom’s as usual.
1:58pm
Such a beautiful day!  Mom and I ate outside at Blue Ribbon BBQ!  I adore their NC pulled pork sandwich with cole slaw.

6:44pm 
Here’s a fun dog video – take a minute to smile!  
http://deadspin.com/disabled-dachshund-named-anderson-pooper-runs-in-weiner-1607762258
Disabled Dachshund Named Anderson Pooper Runs In Weiner Dog Race

This is the sweetest goddamned thing. A Washington radio station holds an annual Wiener Dog rally and this year’s race took place last Sunday. We don’t know who won the race, but Anderson Pooper, chugging along in his little doggie wheelchair, has won our hearts.

7:46pm Phil 

I had a very enjoyable night! Stayed with Fred.

Kris is gonna have to come to grips. It’s tough. Sorry girl

7:48pm 

No word from him today.  *sigh. 
Glad you had fun!

8:02pm Phil 
[PHOTO of him smiling with his beautiful naked shoulders and chest]
8:02pm Phil 
[PHOTO of him smiling with a bicycle in the background]
8:02pm Phil 
Something to make you smile

8:03pm
Oh yeah!  That’s the ticket!  Drool.  Thanks kid!!

8:59pm Phil 

My pleasure baby. Anything I can do to bring a smile

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Good or evil?

Friday, July 18, 2014
8:31am 
Good morning kid! Had a fun time at Hubby’s project event last night.  
Happy Friday!

11:18am Phil 

Aww, cool! Still away on business but leaving soon.

Tough week, long ass hours and forced to spend a lot of time in Beach Gal’s neck of the woods which just hurts my heart. I’ll get over it sure but it will time, she was everything and I just did not see it. There were issues but there always are.

On a happier note – Going to have dinner with Fred. Trying to figure out exactly what that is, fun for sure. Enjoy your day!

4:30pm
Kris got served his divorce papers today.  He called to me he won’t be visiting tonight.  *sigh

8:14pm
Took another Facebook quiz – How Good or Evil Are You? 

http://www.brainfall.com/quizzes/how-good-evil-are-you/2277m1/

It says I’m 74% good and 26% evil! That makes me a “Pretty Darn Good Person.”

“No one is an angel. (Well, except the people who scored above 85%, but they were probably lying anyway.) The important thing is that you seem determined to leave the world a better place than you found it. That sure does mean a lot to the rest of us!”

Phew! Was worried they’d label me a goody goody. 🙂

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Vacillating Man

Wednesday, July 16, 2014
8:40am
Good morning Philip!
Kris stopped by last night!  A low key back rub escalated to using the silver bullet on him – his first vibe ever! Whee!  Have a wicked good Wednesday!

10:08pm Phil 

Sounds like fun!

10:09pm 

How you doing handsome?

10:18pm Phil 
I’m ok, had some long text talks with Beach Gal. Was nice but also sad. Miss her so much. Been working 15 hour days too

10:20pm 
Beach Gal huh?  You are the most vacillating man!

10:24pm Phil 
Never stopped loving that girl. Never will I guess.  I’m a fool, I know but she melts my heart.

Never claimed to have a lick of common sense

10:26pm 

Awww… I know sweetie… part of your charm.

10:28pm Phil 

Yeah yeah. I’d give up everything I have for the chance to try but she seems happy and I’d live in a cell rather than do anything to upset that

Again, a fool

10:36pm Phil 
Why do fools fall in love as the song goes

10:38pm 

that’s where all the fun happens!

10:40pm Phil 

Yeah?

10:43pm 
Roller coaster for sure… but I’ve learned the ups are worth the downs

10:48pm Phil 

The ups were amazing. Downs suck but yeah all worth it. 
Love her kids like my own. Wrapped up in memories. All good

10:50pm 
I was very bad last night.

10:50pm Phil 

I’ll never learn. Oh?
Silver bullet sounds fun

10:51pm
Kris popped by “just to talk” and I dragged him into my bedroom

10:52pm Phil 
That’s not bad. He probably needed a distraction

10:52pm 

That’s what I thought

10:52pm Phil 

10:52pm

Never done that before!  Half of me feel evil for not taking no for answer, the other half felt righteous giving him some relief from his troubles

I don’t know if it will make him more or less likely to come back

But I thought about what I needed for once!

10:54pm Phil 
Good for you.

I just care about what she needs but I love her

Strange emotion, love

11:00pm
You need to quit thinking of the women and look after yourself a bit!

11:00pm Phil 

I’m sure it did Kris some good
 Not my nature
11:00pm
Everyone else is being shitty to him… seems like I should be nice

I know kid… you know I’m the same

11:00pm Phil 

I agree.

She loves me, I know that but I hurt her and she just wants be number one for someone. I’d run to her and never look back given the opportunity. Fred is wonderful in so many ways but she’s not Beach Gal.  No one is.

I just bury myself in the job, eases the pain and keeps my brain occupied

11:04pm 

Why was she so ticked about the rose?

11:06pm Phil 
She thought it was from her guy and almost called him to say thank you. Then it dawned on her that the rose is much more something I would do than he would do and she checked.

just spooked her

Now I think she sees it as it was intended

11:11pm Phil 
called my bitch wife who has no reason to be tired and she was pissed.  I did not have two seconds to call all day, we have been so busy. I hung up on the bitch.  She can sleep in, she has no reason to be tired. So sorry I bothered with that. Sometimes I cannot stand that women.  I know I don’t miss her one little bit.

11:14pm

Surprised to see her so much thinner and actually smiling in a photo

11:19pm Phil 
She has lost 20lbs, done nothing for her personality though
Bitched until I took that picture

11:30pm 

At least you were smart enough to try other women… know that is not the way we all are!

11:33pm Phil 

Self indulgent, selfish, snobby little bitch most of the time.  Selfish, clueless in the sack too. I know that’s not the way it should be.  I have been pampered and loved and I liked it a lot

My daughter is just like her.  The boy, very much like me

11:36pm 
He doing better?
11:37pm Phil 
He is doing so well.  I’m so proud of him

12:07am Phil 

Nite girl, sweet dreams
12:08am 
Good night dear man

12:08am Phil

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Silly stickers

Sunday, July 13. 2014
10:16am
Homemade breakfast!
De Wafelbakkers blueberry pancakes, maple syrup, kielbasa and OJ!  Discovered the frozen pancakes from Shaw’s on Instacart – microwave for 1 minute and nom!

           

11:22am Phil 
Enjoy the afternoon!

11:58am

You too kid!  I wish I was beside you at the beach!  
Thanks for calling back… I had toddled off to shower by then.  
Thought of you and let the water pound me!

11:59am Phil 

Ha ha

12:02pm 
I am so sad today… you know that’s rare for me!  But I feel like I’ve grown a bit.  I want to help Kris, hate to see him suffering… but if he can’t help me, sees touching me as some moral failing?  I can’t be someone’s bad habit.  Or help a guy who won’t help me with the one thing I need.  Is that bad of me?

12:10pm Phil 

I have been there. Kids, friends all treating me like some creep. Beach Gal used to call herself my dirty little secret. She got so depressed and angry and sad, it ruined what we had. I needed time to sort it out. It’s not bad of you! This is hard.  Help if you can. His world just fell apart. He needs to talk and he has no one he can talk about this too. Sex is the last thing on his mind.

12:12pm 
Thanks for that perspective… it makes things make more sense.  I’ve worked really hard to make our time fun, a break from the rest of his crap,  not to mention my side… so you get to hear it.

12:16pm Phil 
12:44pm Phil
I’m always happy to listen. I’ve been down this road and I get it

12:51pm Phil 

I am sitting on the beach with a cold beer, nice breeze blowing, oysters coming, surrounded by lovelies in bikinis!
1:19pm 
rough!  I just braved the grocery!  Whee! 
They changed owners so I couldn’t find anything!

1:40pm

Taking Hubby in to Boston to help out on a project,  then run the monthly project meeting, then BBQ, then back to get Hubby.  Whee!

1:40pm Phil 

1:51pm Phil

[11-second VIDEO of the beach and the ocean from the deck of a restaurant]
2:28pm Phil 
[PHOTO of him smiling, wearing shades and sitting on the beach]
2:50pm Phil 
my favorite beach bar

2:51pm Phil 

[PHOTO of his toes in the sand with the beach, the surf, the ocean]
2:52pm 
Mmmm….toes!

3:13pm Phil 
[PHOTO of the beach with houses and vendors under umbrellas]