Category Archives: Message

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Oysters and Lobster Rolls

Saturday, April 26, 2014

8:56am Sassy

Good morning!
Off to a gay wedding at my old church.   Whee!
Have a great Saturday Philip!

9:34am Phil

You too sweet girl!
[photo of him at home fresh out of the shower.. ah, those shoulders!]

12:17pm Sassy
Here’s photos of the seafood buffet at the weekend.  Fabulous and delicious! Oysters, sushi, lobster rolls, shrimp, crab, scallops wrapped in bacon! And cake pops!

4:52pm Phil
I want to be so bad. Want to be covered in pussy juices, fucked, sucked, stroked, used and abused. I want a tongue in my ass while my tongue is in an ass, fingers, dildos, strap-ons, lube and more. I’m in a mood

4:53pm Sassy

Woo hoo!

I’m off to dinner with NC cousins.  They’re here helping their daughter decide which college she’ll go to.

4:56pm Phil

Enjoy!

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Distracting him

Friday, April 25, 2014

1:42am Sassy

http://handcraftedinvirginia.tumblr.com/post/83626139383
Jonathan Carroll shared this music…
thought of you… coffee, whiskey and memories. 
“I Just Don’t Think I’ll Ever Get Over You”
by Colin Hay 
I drink good coffee every morning
Comes from a place that’s far away
And when I’m done I feel like talking
Without you here there is less to say
Don’t want you thinking I’m unhappy
What is closer to the truth
If I lived till I was a hundred and two
I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you
No longer moved to drink strong whiskey
I shook the hand of time and I knew
That if I lived till I could no longer climb my stairs
I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you
A face that dances and it haunts me
With laughter still ringin’ in my ears
I still find pieces of your presence here
even, even after all these years
I don’t want you thinkin’ that I don’t get asked to dinner
Cuz I’m here to say that I sometimes do
And even though I may seem to feel a touch of love
I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you
If I lived till I was a hundred and two

I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you

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7:01am Phil

Thank you. I do ok at work and I rode the bike for two hours and was good there. Going to try dinner with friends tonight. I think I am literally starving myself. Maybe a winery tomorrow. I’m tearing myself apart and I need to find an outlet. Working out to extreme, no food, barely drink, and severe heartache all a bad combination. Beach Gal’s kids are supposed to be up this weekend. I know she’s excited. Like the rest of us she is often disappointed that they don’t have much time for Mom and I’m sure she wants them to meet her new man. On the last one, her son said, Mom, what the fuck are you thinking. Maybe this one is a great normal guy

8:25am Phil

Morning Sass. Hope your day is good.

8:50am Sassy

Good morning kid!   Happy Friday!
I’ve done the payroll and am going back to bed!

9:11am Phil

Well enjoy. I’m eyeballing the roof. Probably just cripple myself. God’s going to make me suffer for my stupidity

10:42am Sassy

Muster your courage. Say it out loud. Put it into the world. Tell me… What are YOU gonna commit to change #startingtoday!
By: Jillian Michaels

“The first step to getting anywhere is 
deciding you’re not willing to stay where you are”

      

11:04am Phil
I know, I know
        
11:06am Sassy
A world in which there are monsters, and ghosts, and things that want to steal your heart is a world in which there are angels, and dreams and a world in which there is hope.
—Neil Gaiman

11:27am Phil

Sass, I have been through so much with her, shared everything. Just a touch or a smile made a bad day a good one. I have never been closer to another person. I love her completely. I am also very aware that we had issues. She can be mean and even cruel, there will be other men, she is going to have issues from a life of heavy smoking, she will break my heart down the road. My brain tells me that and more. Why won’t my heart listen?  I’d give everything I have for a year of happiness. I should let go, let her go but it’s like there are chains pulling me.  I have dreams and hope and I believe in angels. I just thought she would be a part of it. I can not believe how bad I am, my mind is going WTF, let it be. My poor foolish heart though is so in love, so conflicted, so hurt. Why can’t I just wish her love and happiness and walk away.

11:28am Phil

This just fucking hurts. I feel like I have been sentenced to life in jail.

12:05pm Phil

I’ll be ok Sass, one way or another, I’ll be ok

1:30pm Phil

Thank you for always being there

[photo of him at his desk in a dress shirt with the collar unbuttoned]
            
1:31pm Sassy
Hiya Handsome!  My pleasure.  You certainly keep life interesting!

1:31pm Sassy

Dachshund Meets New Friend….Himself
This puppy is astonished to find that his new friend copies everything he does, and he even kind of looks similar…Get this puppy a playmate, quick!

1:59pm Phil

Ah well. I’d rather not be all that interesting other than maybe getting my ass bit by a crab while naked and getting laid in the surf or getting tossed out of a bar for fucking in the rest room. I’d much rather be interesting for fun stuff rather than being miserable. A friend is reading the book, you can begin again, no matter what, it’s never too late. Chose to take it as a sign and just motor on

5:41pm Phil

Have a great evening!
[photo of him looking tired but happy, wearing a dress shirt with the collar unbuttoned]
6:01pm Sassy
Thanks! Sorry I missed your call – am at the airport picking up Sis and niece just back from Disney

6:05pm Phil

Oh cool!

8:57pm Phil

Wonderful dinner but all I thought of was the girl. This is ridiculous Sass. I did eat though and it was wonderful

8:58pm Sassy

Those chops looked delicious!  I’ve never had lamb chops.  Will have to look for them.  What were they crusted with?

9:30pm Phil

Herb crusted and amazing

They were so good. Had shrimp and calamari in a spicy red sauce too. Wow!

9:31pm Sassy

Wowzers!  What a feast.  I had an elegant repast of a Big Mac, fries, and chicken mcNuggets with bbq sauce!

11:27pm Sassy
Another magic moment from “Britain’s Got Talent.”  Wow.  Dreams do come true kid!  Such beautiful harmony – this literally gave me chills.
http://www.reshareworthy.com/bgt-collabro-sing-stars-les-mis/#9M2lDCwQGtGVdWEO.01

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Distracting him

Friday, April 25, 2014

1:42am Sassy

http://handcraftedinvirginia.tumblr.com/post/83626139383
Jonathan Carroll shared this music…
thought of you… coffee, whiskey and memories. 
“I Just Don’t Think I’ll Ever Get Over You”
by Colin Hay 
I drink good coffee every morning
Comes from a place that’s far away
And when I’m done I feel like talking
Without you here there is less to say
Don’t want you thinking I’m unhappy
What is closer to the truth
If I lived till I was a hundred and two
I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you
No longer moved to drink strong whiskey
I shook the hand of time and I knew
That if I lived till I could no longer climb my stairs
I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you
A face that dances and it haunts me
With laughter still ringin’ in my ears
I still find pieces of your presence here
even, even after all these years
I don’t want you thinkin’ that I don’t get asked to dinner
Cuz I’m here to say that I sometimes do
And even though I may seem to feel a touch of love
I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you
If I lived till I was a hundred and two

I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you

============

7:01am Phil

Thank you. I do ok at work and I rode the bike for two hours and was good there. Going to try dinner with friends tonight. I think I am literally starving myself. Maybe a winery tomorrow. I’m tearing myself apart and I need to find an outlet. Working out to extreme, no food, barely drink, and severe heartache all a bad combination. Beach Gal’s kids are supposed to be up this weekend. I know she’s excited. Like the rest of us she is often disappointed that they don’t have much time for Mom and I’m sure she wants them to meet her new man. On the last one, her son said, Mom, what the fuck are you thinking. Maybe this one is a great normal guy

8:25am Phil

Morning Sass. Hope your day is good.

8:50am Sassy

Good morning kid!   Happy Friday!
I’ve done the payroll and am going back to bed!

9:11am Phil

Well enjoy. I’m eyeballing the roof. Probably just cripple myself. God’s going to make me suffer for my stupidity

10:42am Sassy

Muster your courage. Say it out loud. Put it into the world. Tell me… What are YOU gonna commit to change #startingtoday!
By: Jillian Michaels

“The first step to getting anywhere is 
deciding you’re not willing to stay where you are”

      

11:04am Phil
I know, I know
        
11:06am Sassy
A world in which there are monsters, and ghosts, and things that want to steal your heart is a world in which there are angels, and dreams and a world in which there is hope.
—Neil Gaiman

11:27am Phil

Sass, I have been through so much with her, shared everything. Just a touch or a smile made a bad day a good one. I have never been closer to another person. I love her completely. I am also very aware that we had issues. She can be mean and even cruel, there will be other men, she is going to have issues from a life of heavy smoking, she will break my heart down the road. My brain tells me that and more. Why won’t my heart listen?  I’d give everything I have for a year of happiness. I should let go, let her go but it’s like there are chains pulling me.  I have dreams and hope and I believe in angels. I just thought she would be a part of it. I can not believe how bad I am, my mind is going WTF, let it be. My poor foolish heart though is so in love, so conflicted, so hurt. Why can’t I just wish her love and happiness and walk away.

11:28am Phil

This just fucking hurts. I feel like I have been sentenced to life in jail.

12:05pm Phil

I’ll be ok Sass, one way or another, I’ll be ok

1:30pm Phil

Thank you for always being there

[photo of him at his desk in a dress shirt with the collar unbuttoned]
            
1:31pm Sassy
Hiya Handsome!  My pleasure.  You certainly keep life interesting!

1:31pm Sassy

Puppy!
http://blog.theanimalrescuesite.com/dachshund-meets-new-friend-himself
Dachshund Meets New Friend….Himself
This puppy is astonished to find that his new friend copies everything he does, and he even kind of looks similar…Get this puppy a playmate, quick!

1:59pm Phil

Ah well. I’d rather not be all that interesting other than maybe getting my ass bit by a crab while naked and getting laid in the surf or getting tossed out of a bar for fucking in the rest room. I’d much rather be interesting for fun stuff rather than being miserable. A friend is reading the book, you can begin again, no matter what, it’s never too late. Chose to take it as a sign and just motor on

5:41pm Phil

Have a great evening!
[photo of him looking tired but happy, wearing a dress shirt with the collar unbuttoned]
6:01pm Sassy
Thanks! Sorry I missed your call – am at the airport picking up Sis and niece just back from Disney

6:05pm Phil

Oh cool!

8:57pm Phil

Wonderful dinner but all I thought of was the girl. This is ridiculous Sass. I did eat though and it was wonderful

8:58pm Sassy

Those chops looked delicious!  I’ve never had lamb chops.  Will have to look for them.  What were they crusted with?

9:30pm Phil

Herb crusted and amazing

They were so good. Had shrimp and calamari in a spicy red sauce too. Wow!

9:31pm Sassy

Wowzers!  What a feast.  I had an elegant repast of a Big Mac, fries, and chicken mcNuggets with bbq sauce!

11:27pm Sassy
Another magic moment from “Britain’s Got Talent.”  Wow.  Dreams do come true kid!  Such beautiful harmony – this literally gave me chills.
http://www.reshareworthy.com/bgt-collabro-sing-stars-les-mis/#9M2lDCwQGtGVdWEO.01

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Hey girlie

Thursday, April 24, 2014

7:35am Phil

Hey girlie, have a great day!

7:37am Sassy

Hiya kid! Same to you!
I fell asleep at 7:30 last night – wide awake now!

7:55am Phil

[photo of him grinning at his desk in a shirt and tie]
3:15pm Phil
Another hour and a half! I’m pooped but tomorrow is Friday!

3:33pm Sassy

I am soooo ready to leave here.  I am plotting to be out tomorrow… here’s hoping this afternoon flies by!

4:00pm Phil

It’s getting there, almost done

4:02pm Sassy

My boss just left so I am not working any more!

4:17pm Phil

Well there you go!

4:33pm Phil

I’m done!

4:33pm Sassy

Happy Trails!

4:34pm Phil

: )

6:04pm Phil

[photo of him at home, dress shirt unbuttoned, undershirt showing, sweet smile]          
       
7:34pm Phil
Lonely tonight

7:41pm Phil

This just sucks.
Missing the one ingredient for the perfect life.
Got everything but what I want most

8:25pm Phil

I have destroyed my life, such a moron

8:38pm Sassy

There’s still time to fix it.  Or mess it up more.

9:15pm Phil

No fixing this.

10:07pm Phil

Plenty more to mess up.
Gotta start eating. I think I like hunger pain. I am completely fucked up. Wow, just wow. Will I never learn?

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Hey girlie

Thursday, April 24, 2014

7:35am Phil

Hey girlie, have a great day!

7:37am Sassy

Hiya kid! Same to you!
I fell asleep at 7:30 last night – wide awake now!

7:55am Phil

[photo of him grinning at his desk in a shirt and tie]
3:15pm Phil
Another hour and a half! I’m pooped but tomorrow is Friday!

3:33pm Sassy

I am soooo ready to leave here.  I am plotting to be out tomorrow… here’s hoping this afternoon flies by!

4:00pm Phil

It’s getting there, almost done

4:02pm Sassy

My boss just left so I am not working any more!

4:17pm Phil

Well there you go!

4:33pm Phil

I’m done!

4:33pm Sassy

Happy Trails!

4:34pm Phil

: )

6:04pm Phil

[photo of him at home, dress shirt unbuttoned, undershirt showing, sweet smile]          
       
7:34pm Phil
Lonely tonight

7:41pm Phil

This just sucks.
Missing the one ingredient for the perfect life.
Got everything but what I want most

8:25pm Phil

I have destroyed my life, such a moron

8:38pm Sassy

There’s still time to fix it.  Or mess it up more.

9:15pm Phil

No fixing this.

10:07pm Phil

Plenty more to mess up.
Gotta start eating. I think I like hunger pain. I am completely fucked up. Wow, just wow. Will I never learn?

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His letter to her

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

8:26am Phil

Morning!  Saw this early this morning. So true

Quote: “There’s a difference between who we love, who we settle for… and who we’re meant for”
8:30am Sassy
Good morning kid!

8:31am Phil

I slept very well in case you are wondering  ^_^

8:37am Sassy

Hee hee hee.

8:38am Phil Came all over the boxes, the rug and of course my hand, first couple shots hit the wall, guess I needed that

8:45am Sassy
: )

8:47am Phil

Be glad you were not kneeling there. Would have been messy

Would you read a letter I wrote? Not sure I should send it. I was going to send an e-card and enclose the letter in an email but again, afraid it might be the wrong thing to do. I have to at least try

10:32am Sassy

Glad to help.

2:13pm Phil

Probably a bad idea that’s going to be taken the wrong way. Why I want a women’s perspective. I kind of feel like I should leave it be and see how things work out. Why leave a guy she just met and is happy with for a promise from me? Not like I’m any big catch for her. I’ll email it to you. Please be honest – sappy, stupid?  
       
4:24pm Phil

Dear Beach Gal,

            Babe, I think you got the wrong idea about where I was or maybe you did not.  I get the impression you believe I gave up on us, that I no longer wanted to be with you.  I want to clear that up.  You are my world, my everything.  You are my best friend, the only person I want to spend my life with.   I still think we are soul mates, meant to spend life together.  We get each other, always did.  We are a little volatile but that’s part of us.  I get a little sideways some times and lose focus.  It was never that I did not want to be with you, good god, that’s all I ever wanted.  I did not know how to do it without turning someone else’s world upside down and I thought I could find an easier and gentler way to do it.  I know now there is no easy way.  You just have to pull chocks and go and let it all settle out. I got all twisted up with bad advice, worried about a job, income, transition.  The reality is, none of that turned out to be an issue.
Beach Gal, I adore you, I have since I laid eyes on you.  The feeling has simply grown as time went by.  I put money away for the lawyer, so I would be ready.  I had so many ideas for the house, wanted to plant iris everywhere out back, a garden on the side,  put in the patio, make the garage into a place we could hang and relax. Play with the kitchen a little and maybe the bath.  All I want is to spend life with you, listening to the music down at the park, beers at our favorite places, long walks on the beach, your head on my shoulder.  You are the perfect fit, your hands perfect in mine.  Damn, I miss walking the beach with you.   I just want to be with you.  You are my one, you are my true love.  Without you my world is empty.  I just feel lost and alone.  My best friend is also gone, my buddy, my lover, my confidant, all gone.
            I think too much.  I let people convince me that I was too old for you that when you are my age, I’ll be 70 and she won’t want you then.  Watched Mom go through that and it scared me. All I needed was reassurance and a big hug.  I wanted so badly to come see you in January but my phone went off constantly all weekend long to ensure I stayed where I was supposed to be.  She was taking no chances.  I should have just chucked the phone out the window.  She had me by the balls until my  retirement date. There are no more leashes now. I am free to do as I please.  If you still wanted me, I’d be there tonight.  I think of you every day, all day. I pray for you every night. I dream about you.  I remember everything.  I miss you so much.  The happiest I have been since early December was when you called me about your job.  No one was more excited than I was for you.  It was so good to hear your sweet voice and you called me sweetie when you hung up.  If that’s the last time I hear your voice, at least I have that.
             I never misled you Beach Gal.  I took a long fucking time to get where you needed me to be.  I never wavered from wanting a life with you to spend every single day with my love. It’s all I dreamed of and wanted.  I still want to vacation in Italy but not without you.   I love you more today than I ever have.  I got spun up about things that I now realize don’t matter.  All that matters to me is your head on my chest watching TV, sitting out back with you, hanging out on the front stoop naked, dancing and holding each other when a good song comes on, waking up next to you every day.  Those are things that matter.  The rest is bullshit. 
            The problem is I’m not sure you love me anymore.  That kind of ends the dream.  Life without you just sucks. I’ve been miserable since I got here.  The happiest times of my life were with you.  You make me laugh, make me smile.  You just melt my heart.  The last time we were together was romantic and fun.  I loved that picture..  Everything I do reminds me of you.   The damn squirrels on base remind me of you when we were here.   The Starbucks on the corner where we got directions reminds me of you. Everything about the Beach or your town reminds me of you.  Every time I step into WaWa, I think of you.  You fill my mind and my heart, always have.  I just miss you Beach Gal and I always will.     
         I want to be with you, I want us, forever but only if that’s what you want. Ask me to come home and I’m there for good.  I read a thing this morning that rang so true, “there’s a difference between who we love, who we settle for and who we were meant for.”  I believe with all my heart that we were meant for each other.
         I’ve been a horse’s ass, made the wrong call for none of the right reasons.  I sit out back in a yard that’s not mine and listen to our songs and just smile and remember or cry a little.  I’ve been so damn sad.  I was trotting around a grocery store this weekend thinking about you laughing at me while I did it. I walked by all our places at all of the beaches.  It’s like I can feel you there next to me.  I have amazing memories but I want so desperately to make new ones and spend every day of the rest of my time with you.
           I don’t know if that’s possible.  I don’t know how you feel about your new guy.  He may be your one, your love, your soul.  I don’t know.  I know I was all of that once but I’m no longer sure that’s the case.  I want you to be happy.  I’d prefer that be with me but if it’s not, I need to get over it somehow.  I have no clue how to do that or if I even want to.  I want to hold onto you in my heart forever, to cherish the memories. I’m forever yours babe and I’ll always be here if you ever want or need me. I love you so much.  I want this back, “Baby, can I fix this? Will you give me the chance to prove to you that you ARE the one, you are my heart, my soul, my love, my choice”. . What’s meant to be will be and I firmly believe we were meant to be.

4:27pm Phil

Too sappy?

5:32pm Phil

Long winded for sure

5:48pm Phil

A smile for you

[photo of him with a big smile wearing a t-shirt]
            
5:50pm Sassy
You look so good.
            
5:57pm Sassy
Re: letter – she likes it when you go on, right?  Only thing I’d do is end with a specific question, like, “I am leaving her.  For real.  When can I come to you?” Or whatever you want her to answer.

6:08pm Phil

Yes she does. Good idea. Did I express my feelings?

I look like your typical 60 year old dude but thanks

I imagine she found a good looking guy

6:22pm Sassy

She never has before, except you!

6:39pm Phil

I don’t see it at all

I don’t think ugly but very plain

6:52pm Phil

I always wanted to be one of those hot dudes. I was always happy any woman paid attention to me.  I do appreciate the compliments though

I think I have a nice smile and I like my eyes

9:28pm Phil

Thank you Sass

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His letter to her

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

8:26am Phil

Morning!  Saw this early this morning. So true

Quote: “There’s a difference between who we love, who we settle for… and who we’re meant for”
8:30am Sassy
Good morning kid!

8:31am Phil

I slept very well in case you are wondering  ^_^

8:37am Sassy

Hee hee hee.

8:38am Phil Came all over the boxes, the rug and of course my hand, first couple shots hit the wall, guess I needed that

8:45am Sassy
: )

8:47am Phil

Be glad you were not kneeling there. Would have been messy

Would you read a letter I wrote? Not sure I should send it. I was going to send an e-card and enclose the letter in an email but again, afraid it might be the wrong thing to do. I have to at least try

10:32am Sassy

Glad to help.

2:13pm Phil

Probably a bad idea that’s going to be taken the wrong way. Why I want a women’s perspective. I kind of feel like I should leave it be and see how things work out. Why leave a guy she just met and is happy with for a promise from me? Not like I’m any big catch for her. I’ll email it to you. Please be honest – sappy, stupid?  
       
4:24pm Phil

Dear Beach Gal,

            Babe, I think you got the wrong idea about where I was or maybe you did not.  I get the impression you believe I gave up on us, that I no longer wanted to be with you.  I want to clear that up.  You are my world, my everything.  You are my best friend, the only person I want to spend my life with.   I still think we are soul mates, meant to spend life together.  We get each other, always did.  We are a little volatile but that’s part of us.  I get a little sideways some times and lose focus.  It was never that I did not want to be with you, good god, that’s all I ever wanted.  I did not know how to do it without turning someone else’s world upside down and I thought I could find an easier and gentler way to do it.  I know now there is no easy way.  You just have to pull chocks and go and let it all settle out. I got all twisted up with bad advice, worried about a job, income, transition.  The reality is, none of that turned out to be an issue.
Beach Gal, I adore you, I have since I laid eyes on you.  The feeling has simply grown as time went by.  I put money away for the lawyer, so I would be ready.  I had so many ideas for the house, wanted to plant iris everywhere out back, a garden on the side,  put in the patio, make the garage into a place we could hang and relax. Play with the kitchen a little and maybe the bath.  All I want is to spend life with you, listening to the music down at the park, beers at our favorite places, long walks on the beach, your head on my shoulder.  You are the perfect fit, your hands perfect in mine.  Damn, I miss walking the beach with you.   I just want to be with you.  You are my one, you are my true love.  Without you my world is empty.  I just feel lost and alone.  My best friend is also gone, my buddy, my lover, my confidant, all gone.
            I think too much.  I let people convince me that I was too old for you that when you are my age, I’ll be 70 and she won’t want you then.  Watched Mom go through that and it scared me. All I needed was reassurance and a big hug.  I wanted so badly to come see you in January but my phone went off constantly all weekend long to ensure I stayed where I was supposed to be.  She was taking no chances.  I should have just chucked the phone out the window.  She had me by the balls until my  retirement date. There are no more leashes now. I am free to do as I please.  If you still wanted me, I’d be there tonight.  I think of you every day, all day. I pray for you every night. I dream about you.  I remember everything.  I miss you so much.  The happiest I have been since early December was when you called me about your job.  No one was more excited than I was for you.  It was so good to hear your sweet voice and you called me sweetie when you hung up.  If that’s the last time I hear your voice, at least I have that.
             I never misled you Beach Gal.  I took a long fucking time to get where you needed me to be.  I never wavered from wanting a life with you to spend every single day with my love. It’s all I dreamed of and wanted.  I still want to vacation in Italy but not without you.   I love you more today than I ever have.  I got spun up about things that I now realize don’t matter.  All that matters to me is your head on my chest watching TV, sitting out back with you, hanging out on the front stoop naked, dancing and holding each other when a good song comes on, waking up next to you every day.  Those are things that matter.  The rest is bullshit. 
            The problem is I’m not sure you love me anymore.  That kind of ends the dream.  Life without you just sucks. I’ve been miserable since I got here.  The happiest times of my life were with you.  You make me laugh, make me smile.  You just melt my heart.  The last time we were together was romantic and fun.  I loved that picture..  Everything I do reminds me of you.   The damn squirrels on base remind me of you when we were here.   The Starbucks on the corner where we got directions reminds me of you. Everything about the Beach or your town reminds me of you.  Every time I step into WaWa, I think of you.  You fill my mind and my heart, always have.  I just miss you Beach Gal and I always will.     
         I want to be with you, I want us, forever but only if that’s what you want. Ask me to come home and I’m there for good.  I read a thing this morning that rang so true, “there’s a difference between who we love, who we settle for and who we were meant for.”  I believe with all my heart that we were meant for each other.
         I’ve been a horse’s ass, made the wrong call for none of the right reasons.  I sit out back in a yard that’s not mine and listen to our songs and just smile and remember or cry a little.  I’ve been so damn sad.  I was trotting around a grocery store this weekend thinking about you laughing at me while I did it. I walked by all our places at all of the beaches.  It’s like I can feel you there next to me.  I have amazing memories but I want so desperately to make new ones and spend every day of the rest of my time with you.
           I don’t know if that’s possible.  I don’t know how you feel about your new guy.  He may be your one, your love, your soul.  I don’t know.  I know I was all of that once but I’m no longer sure that’s the case.  I want you to be happy.  I’d prefer that be with me but if it’s not, I need to get over it somehow.  I have no clue how to do that or if I even want to.  I want to hold onto you in my heart forever, to cherish the memories. I’m forever yours babe and I’ll always be here if you ever want or need me. I love you so much.  I want this back, “Baby, can I fix this? Will you give me the chance to prove to you that you ARE the one, you are my heart, my soul, my love, my choice”. . What’s meant to be will be and I firmly believe we were meant to be.

4:27pm Phil

Too sappy?

5:32pm Phil

Long winded for sure

5:48pm Phil

A smile for you

[photo of him with a big smile wearing a t-shirt]
            
5:50pm Sassy
You look so good.
            
5:57pm Sassy
Re: letter – she likes it when you go on, right?  Only thing I’d do is end with a specific question, like, “I am leaving her.  For real.  When can I come to you?” Or whatever you want her to answer.

6:08pm Phil

Yes she does. Good idea. Did I express my feelings?

I look like your typical 60 year old dude but thanks

I imagine she found a good looking guy

6:22pm Sassy

She never has before, except you!

6:39pm Phil

I don’t see it at all

I don’t think ugly but very plain

6:52pm Phil

I always wanted to be one of those hot dudes. I was always happy any woman paid attention to me.  I do appreciate the compliments though

I think I have a nice smile and I like my eyes

9:28pm Phil

Thank you Sass

by

Again and again

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

7:29am Phil

Hey girl, enjoy the day

1:19pm Phil

You not talking to me anymore?
[photo of him in a conference room with suit and tie and big smile]
1:20pm Sassy
Ha ha.  You wish?  Sorry… hectic morning – out early for the cleaners and then work has been nutty!  I was thinking of you and your handsome face and heavy heart.  Hope you’re having a terrific Tuesday!

1:26pm Phil

Thankfully it’s been very busy.  I just know the course of my life has been forever changed. Not sure I believe in love anymore. I used to love it, loved the romance and all the associated feelings.  I like that part, this part sucks. I literally feel like I’ve been kicked in the chest. It’s the weirdest feeling. I was asked about something that I really wanted, a cool toy or whatever. I don’t want anything. Nothing. Isn’t that odd.

1:28pm Sassy

Sounds very familiar.  But I still believe the ups are worth the possible downs.

1:31pm Phil

I wouldn’t trade a second. The joys were so worth it. I’d do it again over and over and over if I could. Best feeling in the world but not looking again. I’ll keep the memories, they are all I have

1:32pm Sassy

I keep thinking I am done but life and the universe have a way of laughing at that.

1:35pm Phil

Maybe. I had never been with anyone else besides my wife. Beach Gal was unique, different and fun. Then there was you, also unique, different and fun. I have like zero experience, no hookers or anything like that. Who knows

You were who I went farthest with back then.

Lots of situations that could have developed into much more but I was always a good boy

Until I met a really bad girl at the beach.

Problem with bad girls is they have been bad with lots of people and will be bad again

1:39pm Sassy

Not true of them all.

2:21pm Phil

True, I guess you can’t give up completely. I need a girl that will flash her tits when I’m there not when I’m not, one who loves riding in the jeep with the top down and music blasting, one that can match me shot for shot at the tequila bar, likes to fuck outside, where do you find those

2:21pm Sassy

Good question!

2:22pm Phil

I know where one of those lives

2:23pm Sassy

Trick is… she found you?

3:16pm Phil

She did and I let her slip away

May be in New England in August. Lobster?

3:17pm Sassy

Sounds great.

3:23pm Phil

[photo of him at the office in a dress shirt and tie]
            
3:24pm Sassy
I want to run my fingers through your hair… and kiss that naked upper lip!

3:42pm Phil

I thought you didn’t like it!

3:48pm Sassy

I don’t but if it’s there, I am kissing it!

3:53pm Phil

Probably have the stache back by then anyway

Why can’t I get over this girl? I’m sitting here flipping through photos. Why is this so hard. I know she’s rocking another dude’s world. That should be enough but I’d scoop her up in a second if I could. What’s wrong with me?!   

       
3:59pm Sassy
You are a nice man… with deep feelings.  There is nothing wrong with you.  It is going to take time. You need to make up your mind.  Either leave your wife and call her to ask her if you can stay with her, or decide you are done, close that door.  Stop torturing yourself.  Jump down on one side of the fence.  Quit having it up your butt!

5:49pm Phil

I am a nice man with deep feelings. My problem is I have always taken care of everybody else. I don’t believe she would welcome me. I can stay in what I have, buy my jeep, buy a nice beach house, travel.  But I don’t get to sit at the bar making out with a sexy little wench. I thought I could call and ask if she loved him. Not sure I want the answer to that. In my dream she simply says he’s good to me and when I ask if she loves me, she just says how can such a smart guy be so stupid and I jump in my car and go. In my dream.

5:54pm Phil

Better

[photo of him at a bar toasting the camera
            
6:30pm Phil
Maybe a cigar in my future

7:14pm Sassy
Mom wanted KFC for supper.  Whee.

8:32pm Phil

And there was

9:11pm Phil

Riding the bike

[photo of him all sweaty in an old sweatshirt]
9:26pm Sassy
Just got home.  Sorry I missed your calls – was with Mom.  Adored hearing your voice on the message you sexy beast.

9:31pm Phil

I’d rather work up a sweat doing something else

9:32pm Sassy

I hear that!  And raise you one long BJ…

9:35pm Phil

ooh hell yeah, and I’ll give you sweat dripping on your back

As a hard cock pounds your pussy

And hot cum erupts inside you filling your pussy to over flowing

And then let you lick our cum off it

9:40pm Phil
Lick it clean

[photo of his gorgeous cock about half-mast]
9:40pm Sassy
Oh my… hello Mr. Frisky!  Yum…

9:40pm Phil

Make it shoot again down your throat

9:41pm Phil

A little harder

[photo of his very erect cock from above]
9:41pm Phil
Swallow it babe

9:42pm Sassy

Want that…

9:43pm Phil

Shoots again and again

In your pussy, in your mouth, on your tits, in your ass

Want you to fuck my ass with your toys

Make me cum again and again

9:46pm Sassy

I am happy to do all that.  And more.

9:46pm Phil

Mmmmmmmm

9:47pm Sassy

You can forget everything else for a long while… relax and fuck.

9:48pm Phil

I need that at this point.

9:48pm Sassy

I need your hands on my ass, pulling me onto your shaft.

9:48pm Phil

Like to wake up with my cock raw, my ass a little sore

I’d like that, buried deep

9:49pm Sassy

Nah… we’ll use lots of LUBE!

Makes that wonderful squishing sound…

9:51pm Phil

Oh hell yeah, love to be slippery

[another cock shot looking down from the top]
9:51pm Phil
M Mmmmm yeah

9:52pm Phil

Put it here

[photo of his ass]
         

4/22, 9:54pm Sassy
oooh… hot ass!

I’m gonna get a piece of that!

9:56pm Phil

Mmmmm

9:57pm Phil

Fuck my ass

9:57pm Phil

Shove that toy deep

9:57pm Sassy

Gonna fill you up…

 9:57pm Phil

Mmmmmm

I’m in a mood

Want to be used

Sorry if this is way more than you wanted to see

9:59pm Sassy

Put me in charge… I’ll make you soar

9:59pm Phil

Oh hell yeah

9:59pm Sassy
No way… I adore every inch of your gorgeous body from your toes to you ears

10:00pm Phil

Mmmmm, just do me, all of me

Grind your pussy and ass on my face

10:02pm Sassy

Get you all wet.

10:02pm Phil

Feed me those big beautiful tits. Stick a nipple in my ass

Cover me in those juices

Bury my tongue up your ass

Hope your pussy is dripping

Hope your fingers are sticky

Licking pre cum off my fingers

Love the taste

10:06pm Sassy

You are making things happen over here, mister

10:06pm Phil

Love it

10:06pm Sassy

Cum for me kid

Let your thighs tingle

Revel in the explosion!

10:09pm Phil

Oh yeah  
       
10:10pm Phil
Kneel down.
I’m gonna shoot all over your face

10:11pm Sassy

Give it all to me… don’t hold back…

10:12pm Phil
[photo of the tip of his cock with a big drop of cum]
10:13pm Phil
Damn

Awesome

Hope you at least got a little moist

10:17pm Sassy

Holy moly… you got it going on over there!

Oh yes… some dripping here…
with ragged breathing and my imagination running wild.

10:17pm Phil

Ha ha

Well good

You said cum, I came

10:18pm Sassy

Hope that helps you sleep.

10:18pm Phil

Maybe

by

Again and again

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

7:29am Phil

Hey girl, enjoy the day

1:19pm Phil

You not talking to me anymore?
[photo of him in a conference room with suit and tie and big smile]
1:20pm Sassy
Ha ha.  You wish?  Sorry… hectic morning – out early for the cleaners and then work has been nutty!  I was thinking of you and your handsome face and heavy heart.  Hope you’re having a terrific Tuesday!

1:26pm Phil

Thankfully it’s been very busy.  I just know the course of my life has been forever changed. Not sure I believe in love anymore. I used to love it, loved the romance and all the associated feelings.  I like that part, this part sucks. I literally feel like I’ve been kicked in the chest. It’s the weirdest feeling. I was asked about something that I really wanted, a cool toy or whatever. I don’t want anything. Nothing. Isn’t that odd.

1:28pm Sassy

Sounds very familiar.  But I still believe the ups are worth the possible downs.

1:31pm Phil

I wouldn’t trade a second. The joys were so worth it. I’d do it again over and over and over if I could. Best feeling in the world but not looking again. I’ll keep the memories, they are all I have

1:32pm Sassy

I keep thinking I am done but life and the universe have a way of laughing at that.

1:35pm Phil

Maybe. I had never been with anyone else besides my wife. Beach Gal was unique, different and fun. Then there was you, also unique, different and fun. I have like zero experience, no hookers or anything like that. Who knows

You were who I went farthest with back then.

Lots of situations that could have developed into much more but I was always a good boy

Until I met a really bad girl at the beach.

Problem with bad girls is they have been bad with lots of people and will be bad again

1:39pm Sassy

Not true of them all.

2:21pm Phil

True, I guess you can’t give up completely. I need a girl that will flash her tits when I’m there not when I’m not, one who loves riding in the jeep with the top down and music blasting, one that can match me shot for shot at the tequila bar, likes to fuck outside, where do you find those

2:21pm Sassy

Good question!

2:22pm Phil

I know where one of those lives

2:23pm Sassy

Trick is… she found you?

3:16pm Phil

She did and I let her slip away

May be in New England in August. Lobster?

3:17pm Sassy

Sounds great.

3:23pm Phil

[photo of him at the office in a dress shirt and tie]
            
3:24pm Sassy
I want to run my fingers through your hair… and kiss that naked upper lip!

3:42pm Phil

I thought you didn’t like it!

3:48pm Sassy

I don’t but if it’s there, I am kissing it!

3:53pm Phil

Probably have the stache back by then anyway

Why can’t I get over this girl? I’m sitting here flipping through photos. Why is this so hard. I know she’s rocking another dude’s world. That should be enough but I’d scoop her up in a second if I could. What’s wrong with me?!   

       
3:59pm Sassy
You are a nice man… with deep feelings.  There is nothing wrong with you.  It is going to take time. You need to make up your mind.  Either leave your wife and call her to ask her if you can stay with her, or decide you are done, close that door.  Stop torturing yourself.  Jump down on one side of the fence.  Quit having it up your butt!

5:49pm Phil

I am a nice man with deep feelings. My problem is I have always taken care of everybody else. I don’t believe she would welcome me. I can stay in what I have, buy my jeep, buy a nice beach house, travel.  But I don’t get to sit at the bar making out with a sexy little wench. I thought I could call and ask if she loved him. Not sure I want the answer to that. In my dream she simply says he’s good to me and when I ask if she loves me, she just says how can such a smart guy be so stupid and I jump in my car and go. In my dream.

5:54pm Phil

Better

[photo of him at a bar toasting the camera
            
6:30pm Phil
Maybe a cigar in my future

7:14pm Sassy
Mom wanted KFC for supper.  Whee.

8:32pm Phil

And there was

9:11pm Phil

Riding the bike

[photo of him all sweaty in an old sweatshirt]
9:26pm Sassy
Just got home.  Sorry I missed your calls – was with Mom.  Adored hearing your voice on the message you sexy beast.

9:31pm Phil

I’d rather work up a sweat doing something else

9:32pm Sassy

I hear that!  And raise you one long BJ…

9:35pm Phil

ooh hell yeah, and I’ll give you sweat dripping on your back

As a hard cock pounds your pussy

And hot cum erupts inside you filling your pussy to over flowing

And then let you lick our cum off it

9:40pm Phil
Lick it clean

[photo of his gorgeous cock about half-mast]
9:40pm Sassy
Oh my… hello Mr. Frisky!  Yum…

9:40pm Phil

Make it shoot again down your throat

9:41pm Phil

A little harder

[photo of his very erect cock from above]
9:41pm Phil
Swallow it babe

9:42pm Sassy

Want that…

9:43pm Phil

Shoots again and again

In your pussy, in your mouth, on your tits, in your ass

Want you to fuck my ass with your toys

Make me cum again and again

9:46pm Sassy

I am happy to do all that.  And more.

9:46pm Phil

Mmmmmmmm

9:47pm Sassy

You can forget everything else for a long while… relax and fuck.

9:48pm Phil

I need that at this point.

9:48pm Sassy

I need your hands on my ass, pulling me onto your shaft.

9:48pm Phil

Like to wake up with my cock raw, my ass a little sore

I’d like that, buried deep

9:49pm Sassy

Nah… we’ll use lots of LUBE!

Makes that wonderful squishing sound…

9:51pm Phil

Oh hell yeah, love to be slippery

[another cock shot looking down from the top]
9:51pm Phil
M Mmmmm yeah

9:52pm Phil

Put it here

[photo of his ass]
         

4/22, 9:54pm Sassy
oooh… hot ass!

I’m gonna get a piece of that!

9:56pm Phil

Mmmmm

9:57pm Phil

Fuck my ass

9:57pm Phil

Shove that toy deep

9:57pm Sassy

Gonna fill you up…

 9:57pm Phil

Mmmmmm

I’m in a mood

Want to be used

Sorry if this is way more than you wanted to see

9:59pm Sassy

Put me in charge… I’ll make you soar

9:59pm Phil

Oh hell yeah

9:59pm Sassy
No way… I adore every inch of your gorgeous body from your toes to you ears

10:00pm Phil

Mmmmm, just do me, all of me

Grind your pussy and ass on my face

10:02pm Sassy

Get you all wet.

10:02pm Phil

Feed me those big beautiful tits. Stick a nipple in my ass

Cover me in those juices

Bury my tongue up your ass

Hope your pussy is dripping

Hope your fingers are sticky

Licking pre cum off my fingers

Love the taste

10:06pm Sassy

You are making things happen over here, mister

10:06pm Phil

Love it

10:06pm Sassy

Cum for me kid

Let your thighs tingle

Revel in the explosion!

10:09pm Phil

Oh yeah  
       
10:10pm Phil
Kneel down.
I’m gonna shoot all over your face

10:11pm Sassy

Give it all to me… don’t hold back…

10:12pm Phil
[photo of the tip of his cock with a big drop of cum]
10:13pm Phil
Damn

Awesome

Hope you at least got a little moist

10:17pm Sassy

Holy moly… you got it going on over there!

Oh yes… some dripping here…
with ragged breathing and my imagination running wild.

10:17pm Phil

Ha ha

Well good

You said cum, I came

10:18pm Sassy

Hope that helps you sleep.

10:18pm Phil

Maybe

by

Bite that shoulder

Monday, April 21, 2014

8:01am Sassy

Happy Patriots Day! Pray for an uneventful Marathon!

8:23am Phil

I love lamb and lobster bisque. I broke down and had an amazing bowl of she crab soup here. I think I did well watching my diet, ate everything in moderation. Feel refreshed and ready for the week. I still miss my girl so bad but I am at least dealing with it. I don’t think I ever want to stop missing her. Keeps her close to my heart.

My new position will keep my mind occupied. I just got promoted which means a lot of study and travel. No more just sitting in front of a computer. My head had way too much time to think. Now more action. A lot of hotel nights but I’m ok with that. It’s when I sit at home and realize I’m so unhappy that it really gets me. I hate the house. Was my least favorite but was my wife’s choice.  She has had me out looking at half million dollar homes that I have zero desire for. Better for me to travel some, clear my heart and head. Have a great day kiddo

8:23am Phil

Thank you and I will.

8:29am Sassy

Bigwig?  Cool! Give it time,  kid.  I know great things are in store for you!

10:17am Phil

I’m trying girl, I’m trying. If my personal life matched my professional life, wow. My personal life is living in the shelter. Gotta get out of this funk. I’m no fun for anyone like I am

3:15pm Phil

Just out of the gym

[photo of him just out of the shower… beautiful shoulders!]     

3:56pm Sassy

I swear you get better looking all the time!  I want to bite that shoulder so badly!  Nom nom nom

4:26pm Phil

Not true but thank you . I’m just me, ain’t all that

4:29pm Phil

[photo of him in a t-shirt, looking tired]
            
4:53pm Sassy
I’m gonna start sending you photos of other men… I am not shitting you!

5:10pm Phil

Oh stop! I wished the girl Happy Easter and she blocked me. I was asking for answers. Guess that’s clear enough. Wow!

8:53pm Phil

bummed, really bummed but now I understand. She wants no part of me. It’s over, and I need to come to terms with it.  Try to remember the good and forget that she will do anything physically possible to keep this guy happy and keep him with her. Hard image but a necessary one. Sucks, just sucks.

8:54pm Phil

nite girl, just want to curl up with my pillow and hold it tight and maybe cry a little.

8:54pm Sassy

Sorry Philip.  Hugs.

9:04pm Phil

I know. Dream over

I’m going to tuck my heart away and leave it buried where nothing can hurt it again. I can’t do this. I’m not good at it and I fucked it all up and now I just have pain. Ok is good enough, no pain there. I’m not reaching for that golden ring again.

I’m done

10:24pm Sassy
There are still amazing people in this world.  Check out these photos from today’s Boston Marathon of four people carrying a guy over the finish line who fell 100 feet from the end.  Boston Strong!

http://www.fitbie.com/2014/04/21/most-beautiful-moment-2014-boston-marathon-photos