Distracting him

Friday, April 25, 2014

1:42am Sassy

Jonathan Carroll shared this music…
thought of you… coffee, whiskey and memories. 
“I Just Don’t Think I’ll Ever Get Over You”
by Colin Hay 
I drink good coffee every morning
Comes from a place that’s far away
And when I’m done I feel like talking
Without you here there is less to say
Don’t want you thinking I’m unhappy
What is closer to the truth
If I lived till I was a hundred and two
I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you
No longer moved to drink strong whiskey
I shook the hand of time and I knew
That if I lived till I could no longer climb my stairs
I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you
A face that dances and it haunts me
With laughter still ringin’ in my ears
I still find pieces of your presence here
even, even after all these years
I don’t want you thinkin’ that I don’t get asked to dinner
Cuz I’m here to say that I sometimes do
And even though I may seem to feel a touch of love
I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you
If I lived till I was a hundred and two

I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you


7:01am Phil

Thank you. I do ok at work and I rode the bike for two hours and was good there. Going to try dinner with friends tonight. I think I am literally starving myself. Maybe a winery tomorrow. I’m tearing myself apart and I need to find an outlet. Working out to extreme, no food, barely drink, and severe heartache all a bad combination. Beach Gal’s kids are supposed to be up this weekend. I know she’s excited. Like the rest of us she is often disappointed that they don’t have much time for Mom and I’m sure she wants them to meet her new man. On the last one, her son said, Mom, what the fuck are you thinking. Maybe this one is a great normal guy

8:25am Phil

Morning Sass. Hope your day is good.

8:50am Sassy

Good morning kid!   Happy Friday!
I’ve done the payroll and am going back to bed!

9:11am Phil

Well enjoy. I’m eyeballing the roof. Probably just cripple myself. God’s going to make me suffer for my stupidity

10:42am Sassy

Muster your courage. Say it out loud. Put it into the world. Tell me… What are YOU gonna commit to change #startingtoday!
By: Jillian Michaels

“The first step to getting anywhere is 
deciding you’re not willing to stay where you are”


11:04am Phil
I know, I know
11:06am Sassy
A world in which there are monsters, and ghosts, and things that want to steal your heart is a world in which there are angels, and dreams and a world in which there is hope.
—Neil Gaiman

11:27am Phil

Sass, I have been through so much with her, shared everything. Just a touch or a smile made a bad day a good one. I have never been closer to another person. I love her completely. I am also very aware that we had issues. She can be mean and even cruel, there will be other men, she is going to have issues from a life of heavy smoking, she will break my heart down the road. My brain tells me that and more. Why won’t my heart listen?  I’d give everything I have for a year of happiness. I should let go, let her go but it’s like there are chains pulling me.  I have dreams and hope and I believe in angels. I just thought she would be a part of it. I can not believe how bad I am, my mind is going WTF, let it be. My poor foolish heart though is so in love, so conflicted, so hurt. Why can’t I just wish her love and happiness and walk away.

11:28am Phil

This just fucking hurts. I feel like I have been sentenced to life in jail.

12:05pm Phil

I’ll be ok Sass, one way or another, I’ll be ok

1:30pm Phil

Thank you for always being there

[photo of him at his desk in a dress shirt with the collar unbuttoned]
1:31pm Sassy
Hiya Handsome!  My pleasure.  You certainly keep life interesting!

1:31pm Sassy

Dachshund Meets New Friend….Himself
This puppy is astonished to find that his new friend copies everything he does, and he even kind of looks similar…Get this puppy a playmate, quick!

1:59pm Phil

Ah well. I’d rather not be all that interesting other than maybe getting my ass bit by a crab while naked and getting laid in the surf or getting tossed out of a bar for fucking in the rest room. I’d much rather be interesting for fun stuff rather than being miserable. A friend is reading the book, you can begin again, no matter what, it’s never too late. Chose to take it as a sign and just motor on

5:41pm Phil

Have a great evening!
[photo of him looking tired but happy, wearing a dress shirt with the collar unbuttoned]
6:01pm Sassy
Thanks! Sorry I missed your call – am at the airport picking up Sis and niece just back from Disney

6:05pm Phil

Oh cool!

8:57pm Phil

Wonderful dinner but all I thought of was the girl. This is ridiculous Sass. I did eat though and it was wonderful

8:58pm Sassy

Those chops looked delicious!  I’ve never had lamb chops.  Will have to look for them.  What were they crusted with?

9:30pm Phil

Herb crusted and amazing

They were so good. Had shrimp and calamari in a spicy red sauce too. Wow!

9:31pm Sassy

Wowzers!  What a feast.  I had an elegant repast of a Big Mac, fries, and chicken mcNuggets with bbq sauce!

11:27pm Sassy
Another magic moment from “Britain’s Got Talent.”  Wow.  Dreams do come true kid!  Such beautiful harmony – this literally gave me chills.

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