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Beach gal


Thursday, May 3
7:59 am Phil
Wow, much more than I was expecting. I enjoy every second we have as well. We have chemistry and genuine feelings for each other and enjoy being together. We are very different people though from very different backgrounds. Your life is in Boston, you would miss it terribly, trust me on that. My life is in some beach town and I would miss that horribly. I’m athletic and I enjoy athletic things, I love to walk, run, play. Could we be happy together, who knows. A lot goes into living with someone and it is not always easy. 

I never told you about my entire situation. Never seemed to come up. My wife is not your Hubby.  My wife’s issues are that she is very selfish, always has been, she is also lazy, always has been. Those are two attributes I do not share and they drive me crazy. When sex becomes a chore and merely a tool to get the other to leave you the hell alone and quit bitching, it tells you something. I left 4 years ago I believe. Fell head over heals in love with my neighbor. I will tell you if you want to hear. I have a few issues that plague me and no clue where to go. Talked to one of my chaplains for a couple hours yesterday. I just needed to talk to someone before I exploded. When people look at me and ask if I’m alright, I know it is starting to affect me and to show. You don’t want to hear this. Would we fit, yeah I think so but I think other things would interfere and that’s never good. We spent a very short time together long ago and a few short interludes since and we have a tie on here but it takes a lot more than that to get to know someone to feel completely comfortable and at ease. It’s a process and not an easy one all the time. 

I liked the fun thought by the way.
8:17 am
Good morning! 46 rain bleh. Thanks for all your thoughts. I want to hear them all. Good, bad, sexy, serious…we may not have had face time,.but we have written and talked more than most couples! Have a great Thursday!
What did the chaplain say? Did you talk about me?
8:25 am Phil
I talked to Chaps about my wife and my feelings there. She was stunned by all the pent up emotion, anger. Said I had to do something before it affects me physically. I will tell you my entire past several years if you really want to hear it. Not sure you really do. I have never told anyone.
8:27 am
I want to be the one you talk to. Especially if it can help you.
8:32 am Phil
Ok. When I have time, I will tell my sordid tale.
9:02 am Phil
I need a real friend, someone to listen and offer advise. I know what I want, know where I want to be, how do I get there.
9:08 am
Can I be that? I want to
9:08 am Phil
You sure about that Sass?
10:52 am
It is what it is, right? Might as well unload it
2:16pm
A hint?  I am dying of curiosity over here.  I told you I would be your friend no matter what.  I just want you to be happy.  
3:22pm Phil
Huh? What?
Did you know I moved out almost 4 years ago and was in and out for the next year and a half?
3:31pm
Yes.  You told me.   I was not clear on the timing or the duration, but I know that you left.  And dated someone else.  You said your children convinced you to go back? 
3:44pm Phil
Married 29 years, never strayed once. Rock solid. I was a choir boy. Started to realize several years ago that I was not real wild about my wife.  She was never much of a cook or house keeper. She was always selfish. My wife always came first. The women has more jewelry than the average jewelry store. She has craft supplies beyond belief, all kinds of other gadgets.  Crafting takes time, energy and motivation of which she has none.  She has never held a real job.  She has a degree and should have been earning a nice salary and retirement. Never worked anywhere with benefits or that paid decently. She does absolutely nothing outside as far as yard work. Does not much inside. I have been the gardener, house keeper and chef for too many years. I don’t have a partner. Have felt that way for many years.  At some point she started bad mouthing me to her friends and the neighbors.  Talking about me being an asshole and just a dick and a pay check.  She did it when I could hear it and I was supposed to take it.  The good news was I was gone on deployments and travelling a tremendous amount so I really did not care.
   The last few years I was home a lot more.  Spending most of my time drinking with the guys in the neighborhood, all of us talking about our wives being bitches, not giving It up or whatever.  A new family moved in down the street and the woman and I took an immediate liking to one another.  We hung out in their garage, drank beer, played darts, listened to tunes.  We just hit it off and always seemed to end up at the same table at neighborhood events or in the same corner of the yard.  We often talked and laughed for hours.  All innocent stuff about kids, yards sports, nothing inappropriate at all. Everyone had pools in the neighborhood and I noticed that she had one of those asses you just want to take a bite out of.  I thought I was being discreet but apparently not.
4:28pm Phil
told you it was a sordid tale
4:36pm
Where is the sordid part? 
4:58pm
Heading home.  Eager to hear more.  *Pats you gently on the shoulder.*
8:39pm
Your thought for tonight is me lying naked next to you… sleeping quietly… my chest rising and falling, the curve of my hip… a peaceful smile on my face. 

11:15 pm
Is it hailing there? I’m see photos of hailstones from my Chi friends. Hope you’re safe inside somewhere!
11:47 pm Phil
Not here. Sitting out having a cigar
1:00 am
Phew. Thanks for saying. I’ll leave you in peace then.



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Jump with me

Week 38

Wednesday, May 2, 2012
8:10am
Good morning! 46 cold cloudy.  Have a wonderful Wednesday!
8:17am Phil
Good morning. What would you do? If you had two paths: 

– One that guarenteed financial security and a comfortable although boring life. With someone who is a good person who you have feelings for but are not in love with. 

– The other, loss of that financial security, risk of alienating family and friends but with a person you long for, laugh with and enjoy. 

Would you take the risk or play it safe?  Harder than it sounds. 

This is hypothetical. I have asked others who said they would stick with what they had if it was not painful. Others emphatically said they would go for it. Lot of risk in going for it. Lots of unknowns. What do you think? I told one of my young officers the other day who said he and his wife were room mates, that was not good enough. You will grow old with regrets.  There is more to it than that.

10:12am Phil
Hope your day is good.

11:14am Phil
Did not mean to freak you out with the above question. It’s hypothetical based on a conversation I had the other day. Interesting issue and I think I know what I would do. I value your judgement cause you are a very bright girl and you tend to think along the same lines as I do. The other piece of the conversation is does it matter how old you are or how much the financial loss would be. Stay safe and just muddle along in a decent, not miserable life or say fuck it and go for the gusto. My brain gives me one very logical answer and one that I have heard other people say. My heart says something completely different. I’ve never really become a grown up.  I act that way because my job requires it but otherwise I’m a pretty carefree goofball who loves to have a good time. Just curious what you think and I know you are in a life position to have perhaps thought about this.
11:22am
Hiya!  Busy – staff meeting at noon, interviewing three students who might work for us this summer, helping boss prep for trip.   Tough to do when all I want is to read over a message on FB and come up with exactly the right reply…
8:19pm
Finally home!  Whoo… crazy day.  Thank you for asking my opinion.  I am not freaked out.  I’ve thought a lot about the question over the past year.   I have three thoughts – general, personal and a story. 
8:36pm
Why did you tell that officer there should be more? 
In general, I have told lots of people I know:
1) No one can answer for you.  Too many variables, all very personal.
2) Take your time to decide. 
3) Talk to people.  Ask as many questions as you can of your new love and experts and trusted friends to know the consequences of each option.  There will still be unknowns. That’s okay.  The only things for sure in the life are death and taxes and neither of those are any fun!
4) Change is never as bad as you think.  If you don’t change, it will still be as bad as it is or worse next year.
5) If this change doesn’t work, change again. 
6) Money isn’t important.  Happiness is. 
On a personal level, go back and look at 1-6 above with your own life in mind.  What do you want to do?  How can I help?
8:53pm
For the record, it is unbelievably tough to say this in a Facebook message when it feels like the rest of my life is on the line.  But I will try.
I love you, Philip.  I want you in my life.   Do you know what it takes for me to say that?
I am not used to thinking of myself and I don’t take risks.  Before I met you, I thought, “I could never leave my husband, my family, my projects or my job. I don’t need a physical relationship.”  Now I think, “If I am with Philip, everything else will fall into place. I need someone to touch me sometimes.  And let me touch him.”
 I am ready to make you happy.  It scares the crap out of me, but I need to find out.  I want a true partner in life.  And I want to be a true partner to you.  We deserve to be happy and lead a full life.  Sex is part of it, but talking, working, living together, loving, giving each other space, being part of each other’s families, fetching you a beer… so many other things are part of it.   I don’t think either of us can quite fathom how amazing our lives will be when we don’t have to do everything ourselves! 
8:59pm
I read an amazing blog post.  (Of course, it has disappeared so I can’t just send you a link).  It was written by a married man trying to support his beloved as she considered leaving her husband and starting a new life together.  It was called “Jump with Me.”  He told her about wanting to sky dive.  It was very scary, but he wanted to fly and see the amazing view.  But more than that, he wanted someone to jump with him.  To hold his hand and experience the thrill, and then be around to talk about it later and share the memories.  

Now, I have no urge to throw myself out of a plane.  But I do want to take a big scary step and see a new life.  And I want you with me.  Today, tomorrow and forever.  Jump with me, Philip?
10:25 pm
So… that was all way too serious. Time for some FUN! Your thought for this evening is me giving you a massage…



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Shower stall


Year 2 -Week 37
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
8:04 am
Good morning! 47 gray rainy. Hope you have a terrific Tuesday!
3:39 pm Phil
Cool and foggy here too. Another lovely day. Hope your Tuesday has been good!
3:47 pm
Someone said on radio “March was May, so it figures that May is March.” HA! I’m doing okay. Everyone is out at an event. My boss is going on a 3-day trip starting mid-afternoon tomorrow and freaking out so I am doing my best to take things off his plate. When do you head out?
3:51 pm Phil
Taking off soon. I’ve decided to just enjoy myself. Days are so packed it does not matter who you are with.

3:56 pm
When?
4:00 pm Phil
Leave Sunday. May be good for me. Been angry, sad, depressed all of April. Need a change.

4:09 pm
I do hope you have a grand time. And that May will be different!
8:20 pm
Looks like you had fun today!  Great photos on Facebook. 

10:22 pm Phil
Thank you.  Good event.  Do my best to show up, have fun with the folks.
10:22pm
Oh, that’s wicked cool.  You are a good egg.

10:42pm
Your thought for tonight is me in the shower with you.  Making you very clean… then dirty!  And clean again.  🙂 

10:59pm
LOL, love it!



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Chemistry

Monday, April 30

7:21am Phil
Good morning.  An interesting weekend to say the least. I did get to sit out and enjoy the evening. Had to chase my wife back in. I just wanted me time, tunes and quiet.  Did not want to chat. Thankfully it was a little cool out and she left me to it. It is so hard to get me time. Drives me crazy. At least early in the morning, I have this time in the office with a cup of coffee.

A week to vacation. I’m sure it will be fun. Romantic, not so much. Just simply not there. I’ve tried so hard to make it be there but it’s not. Sucks. I have a dear friend going through so much right now and I am trying to be there and that is hard as well. She could have had my heart and soul but for my stupidity and life. Ah well, all I can do is be there to try to help.

I am finally down a few more pounds, waist is down. The loss has slowed down as expected but still steady. I’m determined to lose another 20 and try to maintain.  I get that tall, lean look with muscles at that size. I’m never going be thin, too much muscle mass for that. I’m just a big guy but I can look lean. Amazing what stress, diet and exercise can do for you. Hope you have a great day and a wonderful week.

8:00am
Good morning! Clear Chilly 41. Off to the office for a busy day! 
8:05am Phil
Enjoy girl. Hope it’s not too busy!
8:10am
Glad you get your me moments.  So sorry you have tough ones.  I don’t want to add bad moments to your life!  I want to make you smile and tingle, and work w/ you to have a great life.  Let go of the regrets, move forward -lots of years left!  Thought about a local solution – but no one has the chemistry, the mind, the romance, the comfort. As the old song goes “You’re the one that I want!”  Rock your Monday!
8:35am Phil
We all have our moments, our regrets. Some you can let go of, others not so much. Chemistry is instant. You feel it everywhere. I’ve felt it a handful of times. I know I could have spent life with any of them. We clicked at every level. Were intuitive, felt each others pain, joys. Chemistry is amazing.
12:38pm
Does chemistry have value?  Is it worth making changes for?
5:57pm
Another work day over!  Yay!  Rode the bus home. Eating dinner from the freezer. Did not spend any money on restaurants again!  Feeling so virtuous!  Hope you have a nice evening.  Think of me naked on my bed with busy hands, thinking of you.  
6:11pm Phil
That’s a nice thought.  Thank you!
7:29pm
Can you imagine it? 
9:21pm
Or you could listen in…
11:56 pm
Headed to bed. Wish you were here to tuck me in. And something that rhymes with that… sweet dreams, kid.
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Chores

Sunday, April 29
11:04am
Good morning! 48 clear.  Home today for laundry, bills, plants…whee! 
8:53pm
Hope you had a good day.  I was very productive! Chores aren’t fun, but feels so good when they’re done.  And I cooked both lunch and dinner, so I didn’t spend any money in restaurants for two days!  Whee! 
12:13am
Looking at those photos again… want to jump in and touch!  Sleep well, sweet man.

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Jealous?

Saturday, April 28
9:26am
Good morning! Clear, chilly 38! Off to Mom’s church for the rummage sale!  When my life sucks, I go make someone else happy!  Hope your Saturday rolls along.
9:33am Phil
At the gym. Got up early. clears my head and I feel good for awhile. No coffee in the house. Had to hold back from dropping the useless pot on someone. I swear
1:27pm
Survived the sale w/o buying.  Got gas and groceries, IMd w/ a chat denizen in crisis…guy she’s been cheating with offered her a job, said they’d have to stop fooling around, tough choice!  Hope you found coffee!
1:30pm Phil
Wow. Tough call there I guess. I did find coffee.
2:57 pm Phil: Looking my age  [sent me a photo]
2:58 pm Wanna kiss that!
3:01 pm Phil: I feel old.  Do I look old?  Do you see any difference?
3:03 pm You are not old!  Geesh.  You are the most youthful, active, funny, sexy man I know!
3:04 pm What’s going on?!
3:12 pm Phil: well thank you very much!
3:12 pm Brat.
3:12 pm Phil: trying to shave the fat off
3:13 pm I’m going to spank you… remind me.
3:14 pm Phil: long, long way to go but progress I think
3:14 pm It’s awesome and you know it.
3:16 pm Now if you could just make one other change…
3:16 pm Phil: I don’t know it.  Big nose, droopy eyes, greying hair
3:18 pm Gorgeous.  Trust me.  I know about such things!
3:20 pm Phil: ha ha ha
3:20 pm Phil: what’s the other change?
3:35 pm Phil: ok so don’t tell me
3:36 pm 🙂
3:36 pm Trying to be good.
3:37 pm Phil: oh why?
3:47 pm Don’t want to be a downer.  Want to be cheerful and fun!  Wheee!
3:50 pm Phil: ok.
3:51 pm Trying not to say “Leave your wife and marry me!” too much…
3:52 pm Ya know?
3:53 pm Phil: oh, ok.  🙂
3:54 pm Phil: No worries.  Many issues, it’s ok.
3:54 pm Phil: Sorry for the inappropriate photo
3:54 pm Where?
3:56 pm But I do want you in my bed.
3:57 pm Phil: Still sending
3:57 pm Phil: You horny thing you.
3:59 pm 7 months, no sex, kid
4:00 pm Phil: you need to get laid
4:01 pm Any suggestions on how to do that?
4:02 pm Phil: Slowly but surely

4:02 pm Phil: not at the moment.
4:03 pm Damn…your ass is so hot
4:03 pm Phil: does this help?
4:04 pm Wow!  YES!
4:07 pm Want!
4:13 pm Distance sucks
4:16 pm How will you feel if I find someone else?  Relieved?  Mad?  Jealous?  Not that anyone else would want gray chubby me…
4:53pm
Headed out for sushi in the burbs and to see a show.  Later, babe. 
4:54pm Phil
Have fun!
5:09 pm Too tough a question?
6:13 pm Phil: none of the above.  I’m not like that. Just not me.  I am here, you are there.  I have many issues.  I am not available at this point.  You might be surprised who would want you
6:28 pm Phil: I’ll give you a call and explain all that.  Maybe tomorrow.  I’m not a jealous man and I rarely get angry. I get hurt easily but that’s a different issue.  I think everyone should be happy, however that happens. That philosophy has bitten me in the ass but I still believe it.
11:14 pm Phil: how was the sushi?
11:16 pm Delightful!  Got a hug from the lead actor! And Sis paid!
11:17 pm Phil: awesome!  Checking up on the kids at the bar
11:18 pm Phil: country band
11:19 pm Driving home
11:20 pm Phil: drive carefully girl
11:35 pm Home now
12:42 am Phil: good. Sweet dreams Sass

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Slam and suck

Friday, April 27
7:40 am
Good morning! 49 and high clouds.  TGIF baby!
7:43am Phil
Weekends, bah humbug.  Off to medical for my physical. Fasting for 12 hours, no coffee. Grrrrr.  A toasty 39 degrees out. I hate the weather here. I miss the beach so much.
8:47am
I tremble in fear of writing before you’ve had coffee, but feel brave today!  Doc should be thrilled w/ your svelte self!  Maybe I can take your mind off the weather and warm you up inside? 
9:03am Phil
yeah yeah yeah 
9:16am Phil
working it pretty hard. Nice thing is the belly is so much flatter. Belly fat is melting away and face is thinner. Once the gut is flat, can work the six pack and really toning. Arms, chest, shoulders all firmed up, starting to look good again. Another 20lbs and I’ll be close to where I want to be. I feel better too.
9:31am
I am so proud of you!  This is HARD work and you are mastering it!  I can definitely see it in the photos!  Though I need a better look w/o a uniform.  
10:03am Phil
I was always good at this. Able to shape my body. I all of a sudden care again. I’ll tell you about all this some time.
1:53pm
How’d the physical go?  I’d love to hear whatever you can tell me.  Call me?  But right now I have the vapors from reading about your new body and have to go!
5:10pm Phil
The physical was ok. Apparently, I am healthy.  BP was 109 over 69 and pulse 45. Dr says I look trim and fit. I guess that’s all good. The day is over. Going to go work out for a couple of hours and then the weekend begins.  Got no plans, not really looking forward to the weekend. At least during the week, I am busy from 0530 – 1830 or so. I have no lawn to play with, no household chores to mess around with. Maybe I can clean out the garage.
7:04 pm Phil
How you doing
7:05pm
Good… home alone.
7:06pm Phil
Is that a bad thing?
7:06pm
Well… yes and no.
7:07pm Phil
Ah, Finished my workout and just sitting in the office. Gotta go home at some point
7:07pm
Is that a bad thing?
7:08pm Phil
Just not feeling it

7:08pm
I hear you
I wish you could walk in my door…
I’d give you a special welcome
7:10pm Phil
I really don’t want to be around anyone. Just like to pour a drink, turn some music on and sit, alone in my thoughts.
7:10pm
I’d let you do that…
7:11pm Phil
Instead, there will be mindless prattle
7:11pm
you know I can sit quietly… rub your feet
or go off to my computer!
7:11pm Phil
I just need some time, maybe a lot of time.
7:13pm
Can you “have a headache” and go off alone?
7:13pm Phil
I don’t want to be touched, weird for me. Normally at a time like this, I’d just like a hug, a long one, gotta go and get there
Nah, does not work. She has been alone all day cause she does nothing and I am the entertainment when I get home and I don’t want to be.
7:14pm
I’m sorry… you know I wish I could fix it.
7:15pm Phil
No one can fix it. Just is what it is
7:15pm
I know.  Me, too.
I needed so much this week and got nothing from him…
But you made me smile.
and breathe a little heavy.  Thanks for that!!
7:29pm Phil
Always a pleasure.
7:30pm
🙂
7:33pm Phil
I’m good. An old friend made me smile a bit and made it all seem not so bad.
7:34pm
Damn it, you make me want to slam you up against the wall and suck you…. go away before I say too much!
7:34pm Phil
Gonna go have a nice home brew beer and relax.
I’m off. Later girl! LOL

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Free sushi

Thursday, April 26
7:18 am Phil
The show was fabulous. Such amazing voices. Brings tears to my eyes. They sang Sherri and I just had tears streaming down my face. Not sure what that was all about but it sounded so good. I just lost myself in the amazing music for a few hours and it was fabulous. I’m sure I have a busy calendar today. Had amazing ramen at a noodle bar downtown. Exactly like it’s made in Japan, it was to die for. All made up fresh in front of you and oh my lord. Was in the Macy’s food court. Lot of sodium in that stuff but I wanted it and I enjoyed it. I’ll run 15 minutes longer today. Enjoy your day.
7:34 am
Good morning! 43 sun. Dashing to prep for cleaners! You are so lucky to see these shows!
10:21 om
Hey, kid. Busy day? Things finally got back to normal at work… thank goodness. Got free sushi tonight – had a gift card leftover from my chemo gifts calendar. Yay!

Hope you had a good evening. Sleep dreams.

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Your smile

Year 2 Week 37

Wednesday, April 25, 2012
8:09am
Good morning! 46 pretty start.  Woke up smiling with you behind me.    Have a wonderful Wednesday!
7:09pm
Come here and watch a threesome video?
10:00pm Phil
Hope your day was good. Jersey boys was fabulous!
10:12pm
Good music?
Crazy day but better… got to do triple duty at staff meeting – moderate, take notes and present!  Whee!
11:49pm
Thinking of you… about your smile.  Sleep well, sweet man.

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Let me be more

Tuesday, April 24
6:20 am
Good morning! 47 some clouds, pretty rays of sun poking thru. Please let today be better. Hope you have a good day!
7:08 am Phil
Good morning, hope it’s better too. Barely ate yesterday. Did not sleep last night. Lot of stuff bouncing around in my head and heart. No one to talk to about it. All stays bottled up inside and it’s consuming me. You apparently have some of the stuff going on, different but similar.
7:48 am Phil
Gotta buck up and stop. You doing ok kiddo? I know you had a rough day yesterday. What’s up with work? What’s up with the body thing? Your husband, I understand that part.
8:08 am
Hey, there. First – you can always talk to me. I am here for you. Let it out. Really. I want to hear it. I want to help.
Second – thank you for asking… work sucked because I have an evil assistant who has been going to my boss lying about me. And he believed her. and he wants to implement a task tracking software and interfere with hiring… all of which make it not a place I want to be anymore. But I will suck it up and go back in there.
8:10 am Phil
I don’t think I can talk about this. Just need to deal with it. Sorry to hear about work. It sucks when you don’t want to be some place.
I am rapidly approaching the 30lb down mark. Working out harder, eating smarter although sometimes not at all. That’s not smarter but sometimes just not interested.
8:17 am
I am so proud of your weight loss! That must feel so good!
You not wanting to talk makes me wonder if the problem is me… if it is, be honest. If not, some broad “about work” or about whatever would help calm my mind.
8:22 am  Phil
It does. Feel so much better, look better too. Have to eat better though. Can’t just skip. Have to get this elephant off my shoulders too. It is slowly eating me up.

It’s not you Sass. Why would it be you? Sometimes things just happen and you react badly and they change your life forever. It’s devastating and you deal with it and move along. It’s one of those type things and I am having a horrible time shaking it off. I just get worse.

8:29 am
Thank you for saying. It might be me because I’ve asked you to change your life and include me. I desperately miss you… and I am in limbo waiting to see if you will help me get away from all this. But it’s not fair to lay it on you. But if I knew I was leaving here, it would make it easier. But I know you can’t know that yet. NO pressure, just explaining where my head is. I hope I help a little. We’ll get through this… hugs.
If I visited a friend in Chicago, could you see me?
8:59 am Phil
That would be very hard and at this point I am of no use to anyone. I’m getting better. I am going to get my little place near the beach, buy my car, turn the shed or garage into a man cave with bar and dart boards, put in a couple kegs, a kicking music system. I am going to grow a garden, my yard will be a work of art, house immaculate, dark leather and wood, couple dogs running around. My dreams are simple. I’m not even sure I want to be with anyone. I broke a heart and had mine broken and I’m not sure I ever want to go back there. I have no clue what I am doing Sass or where I am going. There’s a light out there somewhere. I can stay and be very comfortable. I have paid down a mountain of debt and will free in the near future of that prison. Hard, hard, hard
1:34 am
Dear dear man… I know this is very hard, as I am struggling with many of the same issues. I’ll be your friend no matter you decide.
2:40 pm
But please think about letting me be more to you. All I want is to make you happy. Think of the amazing chemistry we have, the comfort, the partnership… I know you’ve never had it and can’t imagine what it would be like, but think of our time together as a model – us having fun, me taking care of myself while you do your own thing, sharing the costs, staying out of your way except when you want me?

2:41 pm
You deserve to be happy and have someone who will let you live your life, be there to rub your back, hug you when things are bad and laugh with you when things are great. Believe that I will be different… not a burden but a joy in your life! I believe that you can make me happy… you already do in so many ways!
Philip, please let me care for you, feed your pets when you’re away, help you with parties, plan great trips you want, love you and your family and friends. I am someone who knows how to make people happy around her! Please give us a chance! I can see it so clearly! You are smiling and relaxed and thank God every day that I am there.
2:44 pm
I promise to be nice to you. Every day. I will not to collect anything, or decorate, or argue about money, or complain about your family. I will be me. And let you be you. I will learn what makes you happy and try my best to do it.
You remind me of the guy who prays for rescue in the flood, and turns down the boat and the helicopter and the bridge. God finally says, “I sent you help! Why didn’t you take it?” I believe God led you to me. Am I nuts? Sorry to go on, but this is very important to me. If you have concerns, ask questions! This can be fun! And get us both to a much better life.
3:13 pm
In other news, you look very handsome in the latest photos! I can definitely see your new skinny face! I adore your smile…