Friday, May 4
7:23 am Phil
Morning. Warm and damp today. At the gym starting my day. Well an hour ago anyway. Finishing up. Hope your day is good
8:05 am
Good morning! 51 rain. Bleh! Off to interview students for summer work. Thinking of you, trying to understand…hugs!
8:40 am
What can I do to help you smile today? Pick from the Sass menu. Silly? Sexy? Nostalgic? Amazing dreams of a brighter future? What’ll it be kid?
8:43 am Phil
Not sure I understand. I know the future will be different than what I thought. Coming to grips with that.
9:16 am
Are there household tasks you would gladly stop doing if I would do them? I find it makes me smile to think about it, but maybe I’m weird
1:00 pm
Done with two big accounting projects! Whee! Hope you’re having a fine Friday.
1:06 pm Phil
Cool, tired but recovering. Thinking about my neighborhood buddy. We were such a great fit, had a blast, enjoyed the beach, beach music, football, the races, a love for music
1:06 pm
Did she know how you felt?
1:09 pm Phil
Should have seen it through. She was willing, still is
she knew, we were an item for 6 months
1:11 pm
Is she married still?
1:11 pm Phil
No, she was divorced almost 4 years ago
1:12 pm
So she jumped and you didn’t?
1:14 pm Phil
Yep, I separated, moved out, we made plans, and I let family, friends, kids drag me back to the exact same thing I left. I did not have the fortitude to follow through and have regretted it ever since
1:14 pm
I hear this a lot in the chat room. Have you kept in touch?
1:35 pm Phil
oh yeah
close as ever
1:36 pm
So you’re planning to go after her?
1:37 pm Phil
There would be no going after.
1:37 pm
Explain
1:42 pm Phil
She would take me today. She has been waiting for me to wake up and see the light
1:43 pm
So that’s your plan?
1:43 pm Phil
I have no plan. Lot of thoughts, lot of what ifs, lot of questions
That’s why I needed someone to talk to
1:45 pm
Very interesting.
1:46 pm Phil
Can stay and hope maybe it gets better, explore other options, hard
interesting?
1:49pm Phil
why interesting
1:59pm
That there is someone who could make your life better. I want that for you, no matter who it is. You could have said earlier, you know. I am used to men with multiple options/partners.
2:14pm
Can’t blame you… I have secrets too. Have you had sex with her lately? (I ask from a health perspective). Does she know about me? Could I be her friend also to help you both?
2:41pm
Just a few other questions – so I know where I stand, if you have any clue. I want you happy and not uncomfortable. Am I an option you’re considering or should I stop thinking you’d want me? Do you want me to be your friend? with benefits? Let me know so I don’t make an idiot of myself, okay? Would she do a threesome?
2:52pm Phil
I don’t have multiple partners. She came back into my life very recently. Drifts in and out. Whose health are you concerned with? Secrets? I have been moving through life in a bit of a daze. Realized I was not happy and started looking. Found you and rekindled a friendship which I enjoy very much. She and I have talked back and forth, her not interested in looking for anything new; me, not sure what I wanted. She went from married, to me, and has not been with anyone else until several months ago. She met a guy, and tried dating again. Did not work out. We were not exclusive, did not ask her for that. I could not make up my mind what I wanted. I am still a long way from doing anything. I know I need to do something and we were very good. I don’t really have a lot of secrets. I don’t like them much.
I don’t know if I will leave. It’s a big step. I’m not a multiple partner person. Not my thing. I don’t jump from bed to bed. I’m going to call you.
4:24pm
Thank you very much for explaining, and for calling! Sorry I could not talk more, but no privacy at work. Arrgh! I hope we can talk tomorrow… feels very productive.
4:50pm
I am in the same spot (w/out a 3rd option). I want to leave – I want to be with you. I am trying not to cry because I desperately need rescuing, and you feel like the man to do it. But I also hear you saying someone else is your first choice, so maybe we leave for different people and help each other do that.
5:09pm
But dammit, Philip… You’ve used up enough of your life being unhappy, dreading going home, untouched, unsupported. Don’t jeopardize your health! Get away from your wife! When you move, send her somewhere else. Start living your life. Spend time alone, spend time with (I need some nickname? Neighbor Gal?), time with me… explore your options!
Headed home… have a good evening, my dear dear man.
11:29 pm
Hey kid. Your thought for tonight is my breasts. Your mouth on one hard nipple, your fingers twisting the other… and me moaning… hips rolling… mmmm. Sweet dreams.
12:21am Phil
That’s a sweet thought. You are such a friggin sexy thing.
