I was very sad… thinking of him dealing all alone, and for myself not having his smiling face around. But I don’t think it’s up to me to be his sole support. If I loved him and wanted to be with him when the dust settles, it might be different. But the last thing I need is another man who needs so much and won’t touch me!
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Kris left before I got up this morning, let me note that amounted to “I’m going away, putting on my big boy pants, going to deal with all the crap I have to deal with to sell the house and get back in at church and salvage my relationships with my children.” Well then.
I made breakfast for Hubby and me – a comforting plate of blueberry pancakes and kielbasa. Yum.
I called Kris to check on his plan for this evening, since I will be in and out all day – he said not tonight and seemed eager to get off the phone. He said he was going to try to deal alone but this wouldn’t be our last conversation. Okay then.
I shudder thinking of starting again, so I will wait until I am so desperate it seems like a good idea. Kris has really spoiled me with the trips and the dinners and wanting to be part of my life… don’t think I will see that again. But who knows what adventures are around the corner? 🙂
Phillip called! He was driving to the beach. He is very sympathetic, has been where Kris is.
I got organized, went to the grocery store to pick up bbq supplies. I got cocktail shrimp and the ingredients for a caprese salad, and some big jugs of iced teas. I took Hubby to work on his project, then zoomed out to the burbs for a project team BBQ. I was very early but texted the host who invited me in to motivate her to make the final preparations. I sliced tomatoes and mozzarella and elegantly displayed the shrimp on a platter while she finished setting up the back yard.
I wandered outside to hob knob and catch up on whatever project any particular person is doing. Our alums are involved in so many things! Someone brought a huge white bird – a cockatoo! I had fun talking to the bird, who talks back!
It got too hot so I ducked inside to bask in the a/c. Several others joined me in the living room and we had a lively conversation.
Too soon it was time for me to leave to pick up Hubby in Boston at 5:30 pm. He wanted Chinese, so we popped over to a new place, Dumpling House, and he ordered take-out. Sadly they were swamped, and it took 45 minutes! I caught up on Facebook sitting in the car. We finally made it home at 7:30 pm. I had yummy chicken corn soup and peking ravioli. I chatted with another blogger. Nice to have a sympathetic ear!
Not a word from Kris… I wonder when I will hear from him again?