7:06am Phil

Good morning!  Slept well, up early to hit the gym and three Christmas parties!  

Going to do some reports in between.  Busy day.  Hope you have a relaxing one.

4:18pm

[reacting to photos of him he posted on FB at various parties]

Wow!  You are looking so trim and delicious.  Let me suck on your candy cane?

5:06pm Phil

Ha ha! Thanks

7:27pm Phil

Much better day today. Adjusting slowly and finding the heart to be mysterious thing.

7:28pm

Phew.  It takes time.

8:56pm Phil

Gonna take a loooong time. Happy then sad. Wonder of You came on the radio, I burst into tears. Having beers at a bar I like

Much better

8:57pm

Some say it helps to listen to music, get the emotions out… dunno.  Yay for beers!

11:03pm Phil

Music kills me

11:04pm

Found anything that helps?

12:07am Phil

No. Nothing helps.

Heard the Wonder of You today and just burst out in tears. Song says it all

12:13am

Awwww… sorry babe.

12:42am Phil

Music was our thing and music tears me apart. Beers are good though

Music kills me. Was our thing. Beers help but I’m so hopelessly hung up

12:43am

When did you find out?

12:43am Phil

What?

Find out what?

12:45am

About The Beach Gal and your pal?  Trying to figure out when you might start to feel better….

12:50am Phil

Oh lord. I don’t care about her with my pal. Lonely, don’t care. I should have made a move. Military makes it hard. She misinterpreted my intentions.  I wanted so badly to find a little beach house and live happily ever after. Military makes it impossible. Need to be out. She thought I was unwilling to do what needs to be done. I was so ready.

Not sure I’ll ever feel better

12:54am

I hear you.  I wish there was something more I could do. But I am sure you will feel better… So she’s mad that you have to wait a year?

12:57am Phil

I don’t know. It’s been a long time. Lives with her six months. Happiest time of my life. Got suckered by kids and family. I went back and left the best thing I ever had.

1:00am

Can it be again?  or are you looking through rose colored glasses?  Only you can answer that.

But you can think about it tomorrow… relax, rest… remember better times.  Sleep.

1:05am Phil

No rose colored glasses. I pray for another opportunity. There were issues but there was such passion, such love

1:09am

Better days will come… I feel it in my bones.  You deserve it and you will get it.

1:14am Phil

I hope so.

1:14am

Decide what you want and go after it.  Make a plan. I will help you however I can.

1:26am

I’m off to bed… sleep sweet man.