What If Stag Night Fling

From: Sassy Girl
Subject: At the Hotel
Date: April 1, 2011 10:45:22 PM EDT
To: Phil

Hiya, kid,
Here’s another story.  You can see it by going to your google “documents” folder if you’re logged in to gmail, as I’ve shared it with you.  
This one is called “1980 at the Hotel” and the timing is a bit scandalous.  Hope the premise is not too much.  If it is, just skip to “the good part.”
No idea where it came from…just poured out of my head.  
As usual, recommended for reading while alone.  
Any comments appreciated.  
Enjoy! 
-S
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1980 at the Hotel
In the restaurant

I was starving when I finished my shift at 11:15 that warm Friday night in June.  I wanted dinner in air-conditioned comfort before heading home, so I went to the restaurant next door.  I ordered a big plate of fish and chips and sat at the counter on a stool in the big window, watching the traffic go by on the highway.  There was a steady stream of customers ordering ice cream on that hot night.   Office workers dressed in business suits sat around me, mixed with construction workers in overalls of various colors, and teenagers sharing a sundae after a movie.  I picked up a section of the Knickerbocker News someone had left behind and read the headlines. 
I was almost finished eating when a big group of guys came in, a little loud and drunk.  Not an unusual occurrence.  They lined up to order ice cream, joking and shoving.  I figured out it was a bachelor party.  The groom had on a funny hat and was taking their teasing well.  They looked vaguely familiar, but I didn’t want to draw their attention by staring.  I hid behind the newspaper.
Most of them filtered outside to eat their cones, but the groom left the group and passed me on his way to the men’s room.  There was something familiar about his walk.  I was paying my bill and trying to place him when suddenly, he sat down next to me, plunking down on the stool, facing the wrong way, looking out the window.  He pulled off the silly hat, smiled and said, “Hey, Sass!”  
I took my first good look at his face, and realized it was Philip, my first boyfriend.  I had not seen him in 5 years, but time had been kind to him.  He was fit and tan, handsome as always.  My heart melted a little.  I had always had a soft spot for him, even though he told me after three weeks of dating (and after I fell madly in love with him) that he wanted to be friends.  So I never said a word about love, and we stayed friends for two years, until he left for the military and vanished from my life. 
“Hiya, kid,” I replied, chuckling. 
“Been celebrating,” he said, slurring just a bit.
“No kidding,” I answered dryly. 
“Getting married tomorrow,” he imparted.  I felt something tear inside me.  But kept smiling.  I heard he had been dating a blond girl from our high school.  
“Congratulations!” I told him, almost completely sincere.  I thought I had gotten over him awhile back.  Maybe you never get over your first love?  Anyway, I was dating a nice guy from away, been with him for almost a year. 
“Need one more kiss though,” he said.  I stared at him.   Then looked around to see if any of his pals were still there.  None of them were inside the restaurant.  But they could easily be watching from outside.  I leaned over and pecked him on the cheek.  He frowned. 
“Do it right,” he ordered quietly.  I stared at him, nodding toward the gang outside, pleading for him to stop before they could see us. 
“Did you bet them you could do this?” I asked.  He looked wounded.  
“Wouldn’t.   You know better,” he growled.  He got up and offered me his hand.  I stared at it, then at his face, trying to figure out what he wanted.
“Come away with me,” he said.  I stared some more.  “Please,” he whispered very close to my ear.  He blew on my neck.  I closed my eyes.  I had never been able to resist him, but I thought I should try.   
“You can’t disappear,” I protested.
“I can,” he insisted.  He took my hand, pulling me up off the stool and leading me down the hall toward the back exit.   I followed him out the door into the darkness behind the dumpster.

In the parking lot

He leaned against the wall, pulled me slightly off-balance so I was leaning against him, wrapped his arms around me and kissed me full on the mouth.  Gently at first, but then using his tongue to go deeper.  I got lost in his taste…beer…ice cream…his smell, his body… forgetting where we were and everything but his lips on mine.  He put his hand on my breast and squeezed, rubbing his thumb slowly over the nipple.  Explosions went off in my mind and lower down.  I had forgotten how electric his touch was… how quickly I could forget my own name when he was close to me.  He put his other hand up under my dress and grabbed my ass, pulling me tightly against him so I could feel how hard he was.  I put my hands around his waist and caressed the muscles of his back.  I added my tongue to his, and he moaned.  Minutes passed.   I don’t know how many. 
“There,” he said, raising his head at last.  “Like that.”  I shoved his chest a bit, thinking he would let me go now.  Not sure if that was what I wanted or not.  Felt guilty that I didn’t know.  I touched my lips with my finger.  They were buzzing.  
He took my hand again, and started walking across the parking lot toward the motel where I work.  I suddenly realized he was probably staying there… it was one of the closest places to our hometown. 
“Wait… where are you going?”  I asked, dragging my feet a bit. 
“To my room,” he said, digging in his pocket for the key as he pulled me along, “to do what we should have done years ago.”  An image of the two of us, naked, wrapped around each other in bed flashed through my mind.  It had never happened, but I had wanted it so badly for so long.  Dreamed about it before I knew what it really meant.  But not like this.  My good-girl instincts kicked in.  
“But… I can’t… wait.  You can’t.  You’re drunk…. You’re getting married tomorrow…my boyfriend…WAIT!”  I stopped moving.  He turned back and pulled my face to his and kissed me again.  He held my face and whispered firmly. 
“You can.  You want to, very badly.  I definitely can.  I am not drunk.  I’ve had exactly three beers and it takes a heck of lot more than that these days to get me sloshed, and I won’t breathe a word to your guy,” he said, covering all the points except the crucial one.
“Wedding tomorrow?” I reminded him.  The prospect of being with him was almost irresistible, but not for a one-night stand.  So not my style! 
“Better tonight than tomorrow night!  Let’s not talk about that,” he said. 
“I am not going to be your stag night fling!” I insisted.  I shrugged out of his grasp and started the other way at a brisk pace. 
“I love you and I know you love me,” he called after me.  I stopped in my tracks.  He had never said those words to me before.  He caught up with me and wrapped his arms around me from behind.  “You know I do.  You can feel it every time I touch you.  I know I’ve messed things up.  But you’re the one, Sass,” he said quietly into my ear.   He kissed my neck, moving out toward my shoulder.   I shivered.  
“Say it,” he whispered. 
“What?” I asked, genuinely confused.
“Tell me how you feel,” he said. 
“Bride?” I said, clinging to the one thing that might save me from the biggest mistake of my life. 
“Separate thing,” he said, sighing.  “I know that doesn’t make it right, but she will be a military wife and move with me, and have babies and you don’t want any of that, do you?”   Though the idea of being with him had always seemed like heaven to me, the life of a military wife held no charm at all.  He had me there.  I was almost finished with a liberal arts degree from a fancy college and had big plans for a career in business.  And a boyfriend I hoped to marry next summer.  And he was right, that seemed like another world.  I hadn’t given my boyfriend a thought when Philip was kissing me.  
I turned in his arms and hugged him.  I don’t know how long we stood there.  He gave me time to think.  Of course, I could not think with him that close to me.  But what was there to decide?  I had loved him for years, he was offering… I was going with him.  There weren’t many men I would trust to take me to their hotel room, but I had always felt safe with Philip.  I’d had bad hotel room experience early on with my current boyfriend, but Philip was definitely different from him!  I kissed him on the forehead.  He took my hand and we walked silently across the parking lot to his room on the back side of the complex.
Two guys were sitting on the sidewalk in front of his room.  I didn’t know them.  But he did.  I tugged at my hand, but he wouldn’t let go.  
“Dude!  What happened to you?” one of them piped up.  He had obviously had more than three beers.  
“Chuck, Tom… shouldn’t you guys be asleep by now?” he asked.  
“But… we thought that you, well, you wanted, um…” they trailed off, staring at the two of us.

“Changed my mind,” he stated matter-of-factly.  They exchanged glances, and got up.  They shook his hand, and he said something to them I didn’t catch and they wandered off.  He opened the door to the hotel room and motioned me inside.  
In his room 

I stared at him.  I could not believe he would risk so much, letting his friends see him with me on the doorstep of his hotel room less than 12 hours before his wedding.  
“They won’t tell,” he said. 
“What are you going to say?” I asked, standing in the doorway.  
“Nothing,” he assured me.  Knowing how well he had kept my secrets over the years, I had no doubt he meant it this time.  He went into the room, turning on a small lamp, kicking off his sneakers.  
He finally noticed that I was still standing in the doorway.  He stood looking at me and smiled.  I expected him to drag me into the room, but he just stood there.  He took off his t-shirt, flexed his muscles and kept staring at me.  I was transfixed by his gorgeous chest and beautiful shoulders.  
He started to take off his jeans, and said, “Close the door so I don’t give the whole damn parking lot a show?” he said, chuckling.  I took a step inside, closed the door and leaned against it.  He continued taking off his jeans, and stood there in his white briefs.  He had gorgeous legs, too.  He tossed off the briefs and started walking toward me, very slowly.  I had never seen him completely naked.  Looking at him did things to my insides.  Good things.  Made me want to touch him.  I smiled, and he came very close to me, but veered off into the bathroom without saying a word.  He was leaving it totally up to me.  Which it turned out was even sexier than any begging or show of force.  I heard him turn on the shower, and I walked over to see what he was doing.  
He turned toward me and held out his hand.  I took it and walked into his embrace.  He held me for a long moment, then whispered, “Scrub my back?” into my ear.  I giggled and he swatted me on the ass and turned to hop into the shower.  “I need to use the phone,” I said.
I dashed to the phone and called home.  My dad picked up.  He was usually up late, watching “The Tonight Show.”  I explained that I’d run into an old friend and was going to their place, probably stay over, don’t look for me.  Well, it was true!  Bless him – he didn’t ask who, told me to be careful and hung up.  I adore my dad.  
Philip was humming loudly while I stood there, trying to decide what to do.  My good girl brain told me to run out the door and not look back.  My heart told me to stay for as long as he’d let me.  The chance to touch him and see him smile was too much to pass up.

In the shower

I shed my clothes in record time, pulled back the curtain and stepped into the shower behind him.  He handed me the soap and a wash cloth.  I dutifully soaped up his back and scrubbed it, all business.  He sighed and put a hand against the shower wall, concentrating on what I was doing.  I turned him so the water would rinse off all the lather.  Then turned him back and put my hands on his shoulders, kneading gently, massaging his muscular back.  

He sighed again as I made me way down his back, then turned and kissed me.  He grabbed my ass and pressed me the entire length of his body, wet skin on wet skin.  We fit together like pieces of a puzzle.  The kissing went on several minutes.  I can’t say how long.
He finally broke the spell and started kissing his way down my body… until he was kneeling with his hands on my ass and his mouth on my stomach.  He blew a big raspberry on my belly, and I giggled.  Then he stuck his tongue inside me and started sucking.  I thought I would collapse, but he held me upright and flicked my most sensitive spot.  I gasped and my hips started rolling toward him.  I put my fingers in his hair and pressed him even closer.  
“Oh, girl…you taste so good.  Always wanted to do this…” he sighed.  
“Yes…so good…on fire,” I told him as I started to lose my mind.  
“I want to be inside you,” he whispered.  “I wanted to take my sweet time, but I can’t wait,” he murmured.  “I want you in that bed, right now.” 
“I know…I feel it… I want you, too,” I said.  I had never said that before.  It had always seemed like it would make me sound like a whore.  But I knew Philip would understand, even appreciate knowing how I felt.  He rose and turned off the water, handed me a towel and escorted me out of the tub.  I rubbed the towel over him, and he grabbed another towel to dry me off. 
“Tell me you’re on the pill,” he said as he gently dried my chest.  I wondered for a moment what he’d do if I wasn’t, but the question was moot.  “I have condoms if you want me to use them, but I’ve been careful,” he added.  Mind reader. 
“I am on the pill, and that should do it,” I answered.  He hugged me from behind and I looked in the mirror.  I nodded my head that way and he looked as well.  What an image we made!  
In the bed

We made our way to the king size bed.  I sat on the edge, suddenly nervous.   He sat next to me.

“Second thoughts?” he asked.
“No… yes…it’s just…I want it to be good for you,” I answered.  “I’m not…I mean…you’ve probably been with a lot of women, all over the world, and I haven’t done that much.”  I didn’t tell him that the last time I was alone with a man in a hotel room, he kept me there for two days and hurt me over and over.  Because he had calmed down and I was still dating him.  And I thought that’s how men acted.  But somehow, I knew this would be different.  
“I haven’t been with anyone except my fiance,” he stated. 
“But…you’re in the military!” I joked.  
“I’m still me.  And I am only interested in you,” he confirmed.  He reached up to take down my hair.  I tried to help but he swatted my hand away.  I had braided it, then put it up in a circle around my head to keep cool.  He pulled out the pins holding it, then took off the band holding the braid, running his fingers through my long, dark hair.  It spilled all the way down my back.  It felt so good to have it set free.  He had a look of wonder on his face that made me smile.  
He pulled me down on the comforter, wrapped me in his arms and kissed me.  We were lying side-by-side.  He reached between my legs and put his finger inside me, gently testing, twisting.  I had quite a reaction to that, hips bouncing towards him…breathing a little faster.  
“You are so wet…so tight,” he sighed, kissing my shoulder.  “I have so many dreams…things I want to try, but right now I need to be inside you.  Tell me you’re ready,” he asked.  I could feel him pressing his cock against me.  Wow.  No one had ever asked me.  
“Oh, yes, do it..please do it, I want you so much, ” I moaned in his ear.  
“Tell me how you feel about me,” he asked.  “Why you’re here…” he asked, staring me right in the eyes.
“Maybe I am interested in your gorgeous body,” I sassed back, stalling.  How could I tell a guy getting married tomorrow that I loved him?  What was the point?  
“Yeah, right,” he smirked.  “How many guys have you slept with?” 
“What a question to ask me now!” I choked out.  I could barely think with him pressed up against me.  
“I just told you,” he said, very reasonably.
“Well…two,” I admitted.
“Just for their bodies?” he asked.  I pondered that.  I thought I loved them, had said so.  But this felt completely different.  My love for Philip was on a whole different level, and had been for seven years.  That made it very clear what to say.
“I love you,” I whispered in my best sexy voice.  He sighed and whispered, “I love you, too… and you’ve loved me all along, right?” he asked.  My eyes grew wide.  I thought I had hid it so well!  “It’s okay.  I have, too,” he reminded me.  “Let me show you…” 
He kissed me deeply, as he lifted one of my legs to wrap around his waist, and I felt him press up and into me.  He grabbed my ass and sunk slowly inside me.  We were still side-by-side, in a way that felt much more like us doing it, rather than him doing it to me.  He was very still for a moment, staring into my eyes, checking my reaction.  I was astonished at how gentle he was, and how perfect he felt inside me.  
“Ah…you are so tight.  So hot…. damn…,” he purred as he began to move, inching out and then quickly back in.  I gasped as he thrust deep inside.  
“This is what I dream of… at night… in my rack… with my hand on my cock… stroking… dreaming of your hand, your tits, your ass, your body and mine….” he admitted.  
“You don’t have to say that,” I told him.  
“It’s true…,” he confirmed.  “Only this…is…better,” he added, pounding each syllable inside me.
I marveled again at how we fit together.  How right it felt…how easy it was to concentrate on what he was doing.  How different it was from the others – not awkward, not hurtful.  Wow.  I held his ass in my hands, and he moved in and out, pressing me higher and higher.  
“You are so hot…so hard…it feels so right…you make me burn,” I told him. 
“Damn, girl… we are so good together,” he sighed.  His breathing began to get ragged.  He moved more quickly.  
“Oh, yeah…” I replied, unable to think much with him setting off every nerve in my body.  I clawed at his back, and started to feel something shift inside me.  My hips wouldn’t stay still…they rose to meet his thrusts.  
“Philip…I…ummmm….feel…something, oh…strange…” I panted.  I couldn’t put a sentence together.
“What?  Tell me,”  he urged, pausing for a moment in concern.
“I don’t know what… I never felt this way,” I said.  “My bones are melting…” I said, knowing that didn’t make any sense, but it was true.  He picked up the pace even faster then before.
“It’s a good thing,” he assured me.  “You feel hot… and your muscles are twitching inside and you can’t think and you feel amazing,” he listed the symptoms.  
“Yes… that’s…mmm?” I was getting hazier by the moment.
“Orgasm, darlin’…you’re coming…you know about that,” he said.  I had read about it in books, but never felt it.  How could it suddenly be happening now?  Philip picked up that this was new.  
“Damn, girl…are you telling me you haven’t… I mean… I’m making it happen for the first time?” he asked.  I nodded against his shoulder. 
“You’re…hmmmm…special….gentle…you….include me,” I struggled to explain when all the blood from my brain was elsewhere. 
“Jerks,” he whispered.  “This is the best way for both of us!” He shifted again, deeper…and I couldn’t think anymore.   
I started to tremble, and he rose and picked up my legs against his chest and pounded inside me until I was soaring… floating… and then he was still… shaking, coming, filling me .  The room seemed brighter somehow.  And he collapsed on me… breathing… resting.  I thought he had fallen asleep, but he started sucking gently on my right breast and tweaking the left with his thumb.
“Philip?” I whispered in his ear.
“Mmmm…yes…” he replied.  
“That was..how it’s supposed to be? Like you wanted?”  I asked.
“Ummmmhmmmm…yes,” he answered.  “You came… I came…you’re alright?” he asked.
“Oh, yes…I feel this…glow,” I replied.  
“That’s what is supposed to happen,” he confirmed.  
“Philip… in your dreams…what do I do next?” I asked.  
“I don’t know if I should say…” he hedged.  “It might weird you out.”
“You can say…you know you can.  I might not do it, but it does hurt to tell me,” I assured him.  He rolled us onto our sides again, but kept me close.  
I ran a finger all the way down the center of his back, then right on into the crack of his ass.  He jumped and squealed a little, but calmed down saying, “Oh, yea… mmmm…”  I reached further down and under to touched his balls, and he moaned soft and low.  I could feel him getting hard again, still deep inside me. 
“Stick your finger in my ass,“ he said. I licked my pinkie and twisted it inside his ass, and he shook.  I moved it in and out very slowly, and he moaned.  He started moving inside me to the same beat.  
“Damn, girl.  I love it when you do that,” he sighed.  “You have changed, grown up,” he whispered in wonder, panting slightly.  “And I like it… a lot,” he said.  
“Mmm…yes…learned a bit,” I teased him, pressing further inside him.  He pressed further inside me and I began to see stars.  There was something so simple about part of me inside him while he was inside me.  It made every moment more intense.  I thought I could not feel any more pleasure, but it got better and better.  I felt like I was adventuring in uncharted territory…and it set me off in a new way…hotter, higher…wow.  I began to feel a pulsing inside him…and he stopped moving.  He came inside me again… spurting over and over and making the most amazing noises.  I was pretty vocal myself, shuddering and shaking…wow.  I lay there thinking it would never be better than this.  But then I thought…it could be.  You never know what the two of us can come up with!  
We collapsed next to other and stared into each other’s eyes.  Smiling.  Stunned.  Satisfied.  
“Sass?  You okay?” he asked.
“Oh, yes…maybe the best I’ve ever been,” I sighed.
“Is there something you’d like me to do?  Something you wanted to try?”  he asked.  Wow… equal time…asking me what I want…what a concept. 
“I want you to mark me,” I said, a little shyly.  “I want to feel your mouth on my body, and be able to look in the mirror and know that your mouth was on me…and remember…” I admitted. 
“Any place in particular?” he asked.  
“Hmmmm…. any place under my clothes,” I answered, since neck hickeys were so tacky and a bit hard to explain.  
“What about your boyfriend?” he asked.  A good point.
“He’s away for awhile,” I explained. 
“Ah…” he said, moving closer again.  He kissed me deeply.  I will never get tired of that.  Then he moved lower, kissing his way down my neck, across my shoulder, out to my elbow…which I had not previously considered a sexy area but damn it he didn’t make it tingle!  Then he crossed over to my breast and latched on to my right nipple like a starving infant.  My toes curled and my hips popped off the bed as he sucked on me.  Then he bit me gently and my head started to thrash.  I had never felt like this…I felt wave after wave of heat pour through me, from my chest to deep inside me.  I had thought about what this might feel like, maybe it would hurt?  But my fantasies paled in comparison to reality.  It made me want to…want to…freeze this moment.  I tried to take in every sound he made, every nerve he was setting off… the smell of sex and cleaning fluids in the room….the sight of his head… the feel of his hair, and etch it in my memory.  
He looked up and touched the spot gently, saying, “There… that ought to last a good long while…” in that triumphantly male way of a man claiming his territory.  I was so hot…I felt branded.  And I liked it.  He rested his head on my belly.  
“Hmmmm….thank you,” was all I could manage to say in the afterglow.  
“You came again, didn’t you?  Just from my mouth on your tit?” he asked.  
“Yes, indeed,” I confirmed.  “You have quite an effect on me.” 
“Good,” he chuckled. 
As my brain started to function again, I added, “Do you need to sleep?”  
“No…not at all.  I need you, again,” he said.  He moved very fast, rolling me over onto my stomach, lifting my hips off the bed and entering me from behind on one quick move.  I had always thought of this position as rather cold…no eye contact, no way for me to touch him with my hands.  But he made it incredibly hot…the sound of his body slamming into mine, the depth he could reach…I slammed back against him and the noises that escaped my throat made it clear this was a very good idea.  I started to come again almost immediately.  He felt it and moved faster.  I spiraled higher and higher.  He stopped and filled me, pulling my hips and twisting in spasm after spasm.   He lay down beside me, and I rolled toward him, putting my head on his chest and rubbing his shoulder. 
“Oh…that was…you are…I am…. so stunned at what you will let me do,” he marveled.  “And how you much enjoy it, too,” he added, a bit incredulous.  “You shake all over when you come…it is very sexy.”  
“You make it magic, make things I thought were bad…incredible,” I said, wondering if he understood just how rare that was.  “I don’t…. I mean I’ve never felt like this with anyone,” I said, not really understanding but trying to explain.  “It’s…chemistry.” 
“I know… it’s…special,” he added, closing his eyes for a moment.  
“Tell me something else to try,” I asked.  He didn’t speak, but moved over me and turned, presenting me a lovely view of his ass, balls and cock from an angle I had never seen.  His face was at the level of my mid-section.  He put his finger inside me and began to stroke in and out. I let the pleasure pour through me briefly, then started to work on him.  I used my hand to separate his cheeks, then used my tongue to lick my way from the top of his ass to the center.  He gasped… I waited for a few seconds, teasing… then stuck my tongue inside him.  He squealed and twisted his hips.  I made little circles around the outside, then dove again.  He shoved two fingers inside me.  I thought I could not concentrate on two things at once, but I was wrong.  My brain seemed to expand as I focused on him while enjoying what he was doing.  
I squeezed his balls just a bit and then pulled them into my mouth.  I sucked gently.  He moaned so sweetly.  My hips pressed upward toward his fingers and I shifted up the bed a bit until my mouth could take in his cock.  I pumped it slowly, and stopped.  He moaned again.  I started anew, and then sucked him into my mouth.  He gasped.  
“I never…mmmm…thought…you would…oh…” he panted.  “I always wanted you to touch me,” he admitted.  It was lovely to hear him so happy.  I wondered if he understood what it meant for me to do this.  I had never done anything like it.  He twisted his fingers to a new and even more devastating position inside me, and I sucked him further down my throat until his balls were at my nose.  I breathed heavily on them.  I started to taste the sweet, thick liquid from the tip.  I had never done that before…it was easy to swallow it.  
“So good… hot…hmmm… but you should…stop…now…I can’t hold back much longer…” he warned me, losing his voice as I grabbed his ass and squeezed, and sucked him even harder, trying to make clear there was no stopping, that I wanted it all.  He used his fingers to make me soar.  I was trembling and pulsing inside. 
“You… I am going to come…understand?” he asked.  I squeezed his ass again and he started to tremble…and I could feel him pulsing and then my mouth was filled with his sweet juices.  I swallowed twice, gulping and savoring his gift to me.  He pulled out quickly and sprayed the remainder down my body, then flipped around to lick it off my breasts and belly.  He rested for a moment, panting and shaking his head a bit in wonder.  Then he popped up and started kissing me, tasting himself in my mouth.  He lay next to me again, resting his head of my shoulder and drawing little pattern on my breast, pressing a leg between mine.  
“I love it when you show me what you want,” I told him.  
“You…I have always wanted to do that, and it was hotter than my dreams,” he told me.
“It’s really stunning when you are doing something inside me and I have you in my mouth,” I said.  
“Oh yeah,” he concurred.  “I feel like you love me,” he whispered in awe.  “I always thought that, from how you react when I touch you…how much you let me do.”
“That’s the message, “ I stroked his hair.  
“Do you get it, now?  I love you, Sass,” he said.  I thought I would melt and pour off the bed into a puddle.  
“Yes…that’s what it feels like,” I confirmed.  “Just when I think I can’t possibly love you more, it gets more intense…fierce,” I whispered. 
His breathing started to get more regular and I assumed he was falling asleep.  I fought the urge to nod off.  I stroked down his back.  I focused on each point where our bodies touched, trying to store up memories.  I had the distinct feeling this would be the most amazing night of my life.  Scandalous, sexy, fun and poignant…I started to get all emotional and had to shut it out.  I could think about all that tomorrow or next week.  I wasn’t going to make sense of it all right now…and maybe never.  
Philip surprised me…he wasn’t asleep.  He moved up to kiss me…gently pressing his lips on mine, nibbling my lower lip.  I grabbed his cock, shifted my hips and pressed him inside me.  Here we were at last in the traditional position.  He moved slowly in and out with his tongue, then matched the action lower down.  I pressed his ass and moved my hips.  I raked my nails gently up his back.  I moaned softly into his mouth.  He moved a little faster.  He suddenly shifted and rolled me up until I was on top of him.  He pushed me up so I was riding him, with his hands on my hips, his hips bucking underneath me.  I began to wonder if we were going to break some world record for number of different positions in one night.  
“Ride me,” he moaned, slipping his finger into the top of my slit to flick my most sensitive spot.  Now that was a great idea!  It drove me crazy and I drove down on him, rising up and down.  It was amazing to be in control.  I arched my back to take him deeper inside.  He shoved up and stayed up.  I slammed down on him and leaned over, my long hair forming a curtain to close out the world.  He came violently, shuddering all over.  My insides clenched around him and I felt the heat pour through me yet again.  Definitely a personal record for me.  I collapsed on top of him.  
“I am so glad I ran into you…listened to you…went with you,” I told him, rolling over to lie next to him and stare at the ceiling.  He reached for my hand.  
“I glad.  But you didn’t run into me,” he said.  “I brought the gang to stay here on purpose, knew you worked here…I’ve been looking for you, waiting, hoping for a chance…” he admitted.
“What?” I asked, not believing.
“You heard me,” he said.  “I’ve been thinking of you for years…trying to find a moment,” he said.   He squeezed my hand.  My mind could not take it all in.  I thought about what idiots we were…him pining for me, me loving him with every fiber of my being and hiding it.  Oh, boy.  Him getting married in a matter of hours.  
“I should go,” I offered.  
“No,” he stated firmly.
“You don’t want me here when they come to get you,” I pointed out.
“I want you here every possible second and you can stay after I go if you want,” he said.  “I’m even trying to figure out how to get to you again during the reception,” he added.
“Philip!” I was touched, but horrified at that last bit.  
“I know…that was crass.  But I was thinking it,” he shrugged.  
“Philip…I am supposed to go out of town tomorrow.  I want you to get married and be happy and stop thinking about me.  You’ll be happier that way,” I said, though it hurt like mad.  
“Wow… you do love me,” he marveled, squeezing my hand.  “I can’t just turn it off…you know better than that.”  I rolled over, half onto his chest, so I could look him in the eye.  
“Yup.  But I also want to make it clear… since we can’t seem to tell each other how we feel at the right times.  I am not asking you for anything, but if you ever get to the point you want to see me again, I want you to find me and tell me.  I’m going to try to go on with my life – graduate, get a job, maybe get married… but I don’t want anything you hear about that to make you think I don’t want to see you.  Find me and tell me you want me, and let us work it out then, okay?”  I tried to make it very simple and clear.
“But what if you’re married and I’m still married, and I just want to fuck you,” he said, putting it crudely.  
“Please don’t get into what ifs.  Maybe I’ll need a good screw by then, too!” He chuckled at that.
“Even if you’re married?” he asked. 
“I don’t know… but I love you now.  And you’re getting married tomorrow and I can’t keep from touching you.  And I don’t think that’s going to change.  Find me, invite me out to dinner… we’ll eat, we’ll talk… and we’ll see….” I said.
“That seems reasonable,” he said.  “But what if you want me?” he asked.
“If it were up to me, you’d get on the phone right now, call off the wedding and I would never let you out of my sight again,” I told him fiercely.  “Not a likely scenario, right?”  
“Well…no.  You know that’s not going to work.  For you or me,” he pointed out.
“True.  So be happy.  But don’t forget what I said.  Promise me that one thing,” I asked.
“I promise,” he said.  He pulled me up so he could kiss me.  We kissed deeply for a long time.  I can’t say how long.  He rolled me over and pressed me into the bed, shifting his hips over mine. 
“Are you sore?” he asked.  I smiled at his considerateness.  He was a gentleman like no other.  
“A little, but don’t stop,” I replied.  He put my hand on his cock, and I stroked him, then circled him and pumped him.  I could not believe he was still hard and raring to go again.  I ran my fingers under the tip and found a spot to press.  He moaned.  I shifted my hips and pressed him inside me.  He looked a little surprised, but smiled and closed his eyes and started to move slowly, in and out.  He pressed deeper and was still.
“I don’t want to hurt you there,” he said, starting to move away.  “We can play other ways,” he pointed out. 
I grabbed his ass and held him in place.  He twitched inside me.  “Fuck me, Philip,” I whispered.  He growled in my ear.  His cock jumped inside me.  My hips bounced up to meet his.  And we were off again.  
“I love it when you talk dirty to me.  Is it alright if I use some rougher words?” he asked.  
“Try it,” I winked at him. 
“I want to pound your pussy so hard that you crack in half,” he whispered.  
“I want your cock so far inside me, you can feel my back teeth with it,” I replied, without any idea where that phrase came from.  Who was this foul-mouthed woman?  Hee!  
“My pleasure,” he growled and started to go wild again.  He kissed me, sitting up and pulling me up into a kneeling position with my knees on either side of his hips.  He held my hips and bounced me in the air with every stroke inside me, our chests sliding past each other.  Wow…wow…wow…
I shuddered and arched back, which drove him even deeper.  We both came very quickly.  We collapsed again, lying next to each other, holding hands.  
“Damn it, girl.  You are the most passionate….we…I..mmm…..” he was lost in some fugue of pleasure.
“Yes, I know,” I agreed. 
“I don’t think I will ever stop wanting you,” he told me.  I rolled over on to his chest and played with his nipple.  I listened to his heart beating.  He rubbed my back.  It was so comfortable.  
He grabbed my hand and pulled me upright.  “Let’s take another shower,” he invited.  
“Okay… sounds good,” I said.  I walked that way and turned to catch him staring at my back side.
Back in the bathroom 

“I’ve always had a thing for your ass,” he said, chuckling and grabbing it again.  I twisted out of his grasp and ran to the bathroom.  I sat on the toilet and heeded nature’s call while he started the shower.  I marveled at how I felt completely comfortable naked, in the bathroom, taking care of something so private…no idea why.  Was that part of what really loving someone was about?  
We got into the shower again and he pulled me into his embrace under the water.  He took the soap and washed me all over, getting me clean and completely revved up again in the process, paying attention to my tits, my ass, my legs…mmmm. He handed the bar to me and I returned the favor, making sure to spend time all over his body and then finish with his beautiful manhood. We rinsed each other off.  He pressed me against the shower wall and kissed me.  I stored up each touch, each sound and smell to take out later to cherish.  We carried on that way for a very long time.  I can’t tell you how long.   
We finally climbed out of the tub and toweled each other off.  He shaved while I watched.  He used the razor to cut a few strands of my hair and put them in his wallet behind a piece of paper.  I looked at it, and realized it was a photo of us dancing from his yearbook.

“How long have you been carrying that?” I asked, astonished.

“Ummm?  Ah… hmmm… five years,” he admitted sheepishly.  It boggled my mind.

Farewell

I sat on the bed and watched as he dressed in jeans and a t-shirt, packed up all his stuff and pulled a tux bag out of the closet, draping it over the chair.  He put his watch on.  

“There, that should do it,” he said.  He sat down next to me and kissed me again, fondling my breast.  I stroked his back slowly.  
“I love you so much, girl,” he said.  “It won’t be long now. Tom is picking me up.”
“I love you,” I replied.  I thought I’d be bawling my eyes out by now, but he made me so happy, I was saved from that indignity.  “Don’t forget what I said,” I reminded him.
“Got it,” he said. “Just because you don’t hear from me, don’t think it means I’m not thinking about you,” he added.  
I got up to gather all my clothes, and straightened up the bed a bit, so it looked like only one side had been slept in.  I went in the bathroom to get dressed and tie back my hair.  
There was a firm knock on the door.  I gently closed the bathroom door and turned off the light.  And held my breath.
I could hear Philip chatting with someone outside, gathering his stuff.  And then it was quiet.  I waited to hear the door click, but it didn’t happen.  About two minutes later, the door to the bathroom opened and he folded me into his arms and kissed me deeply and desperately.  He looked into my eyes.  He smiled.  “Thank you for making my dreams come true,” he whispered. “For showing me what it can be like,” he added.  He held me so tightly.  
“Be happy,” I told him.
“Will you be okay?” he asked.  
“Yes.  Go!”  I shoved him away. 
We smiled.  He swatted me on the ass, and was gone.  The door shut firmly this time.   
I turned to smile into the mirror.  And closed my eyes.  I ran over every moment of the evening.  There would be a lot to write in my journal.  I got dressed and drove home in the dawning light to start living the rest of my life, smiling as I had never smiled before.  Wondering if I would ever see him again.  Knowing I had just had the best night of my life.  I was 20 years old, but if I lived to be 100 there would never be another night like this one.  Love certainly is strange and wonderful!  I knew that if he ever returned, even if I was married, I would give him whatever he asked for.  It would take me a long time to make sense of all that happened, but I can’t tell you how long.  
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What If Phil Was My Second

From: Sassy Girl 
Subject: Another revisionist history moment
Date: March 28, 2011 5:47:18 PM EDT
To: Phil

Hiya, kid,
Here’s the URL for another story.  This one is called “At the House July 1977”
and has a happy ending.  🙂
You can also see it by going to your google “documents” folder if you’re signed in gmail,
as I’ve shared it with you.  
As usual, it is recommended for reading while alone.  
Comments appreciated.  
Enjoy! 

-S
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At the House
July 1977 
Why does the doorbell always ring when I am washing dishes?  I had my hands deep in the soapy water one warm July afternoon right after I graduated from high school.  I grabbed a dishrag to dry my hands and ran to the other end of the house.   I flung open the inner door, and stood staring in amazement. 
Leaning against the doorjamb was Philip, my first boyfriend from four years ago.  He smiled sweetly and tapped on the screen door. I opened it and stepped back, waving him into the house.  He brushed past me into the living room, sighing at the cool air in the old house. 
“Howya doin, Sass?” he asked.  (Almost everyone called me Sassy.  He was the only person in the world who called me Sass.  So it made my insides tingle.)  I stood there dumbfounded.  
I could not believe it was him.  If I could wish for anyone to show up, he would be the one!  Even though he dumped me after we dated for three weeks and broke my heart in a million pieces, I still adored him.  Seeing him was always a double-edged sword.  On the one hand, it was great to be near him. He made me feel so alive!  I wanted to fall into his arms.  But on the other hand, he’d made it clear he didn’t want that, so I had to hide all that and be his pal.  It hurt to be near him and not touch him.  Arrgh!  I always hoped he’d change his mind, tell me he’d been a jerk and he wanted me back.  But everyone knows that never happens, right?  We stayed friends, until he disappeared to the military 18 months ago.  
He looked so gorgeous!  Even in well-worn denim shorts and an old Yankees t-shirt, he made me weak at the knees.  The military made him keep his hair too short, but he was still stunningly handsome.  He had grown a mustache!  I stared into his brown eyes, then took in his gorgeous shoulders and muscled chest.  I know he’s good looking, but it still hits me every time.  No other guy ever made me melt the way he did.  
“You alone?” He asked, looking around. He stared me up and down, taking in my very short shorts and tight top, and smiled.  
“Yup.  They went shopping,” I replied.  And then wondered if that had been wise.
He whipped around and asked,  “How about a hug for an old friend?” but he didn’t wait for answer.  He hugged me tightly, lifting me off the ground just a little.  I expected him to drop me with a bounce and back off, say something funny about how I’d grown.  He set me down very gently.  And he didn’t let go.  He kept holding me, breathing on my neck.  When I tried to lean back, he put his hands on my head and pressed me to his chest.   I closed my eyes, wrapped my arms around his waist and waited, glorying in being close to him.  My brain brought up the words it always did when we were close, “wow…we fit.” 
He ran his hand down my long pony tail and cupped my ass, pressing me closer to him at the waist.  I shivered when I realized he was rock-hard, pressed against the top of my leg.  I felt this heat start to build inside me.  I waited… wondering if he was teasing me, or if something had changed.
He finally raised his head and stared into my eyes.  I raised an eyebrow, and he said, “Hi.”  If I didn’t know better, I would’ve sworn he was nervous.  But he was never nervous around me.   
“Hi,” I responded, smiling.  He stroked my face with one finger, and came even closer.
“Kiss me,” he whispered.  My eyes got very wide.  I closed them and pressed my lips against his.  He sighed and threaded his fingers into my hair, pulling it loose from the tie.  He pushed his tongue into my mouth. Oh!  It felt so amazing!  I sucked on it.  He moaned.  I pushed my tongue into his mouth.  He moaned ever lower.  He put his hands inside the back of my shorts and squeezed my ass, kneading my buns like fresh dough.  We carried on like that for quite awhile, dueling tongues, bodies angled together.  I never wanted it to end.  
He finally let me get a breath.  “Oh, girl… you are the best kisser…mmmm,” he murmured.  
He held me close, staring at me, gauging my reaction.  I learned long ago that I could not look interested.  Whenever I reached for him, he disappeared.  So even though ever fiber of my being was screaming for more, I shrugged my shoulders.  
“When will they be back?”  he asked.  I wondered whether I should tell him or not, without knowing what was up.  But I had never been able to keep anything from him.  He read me like book.  And I felt safe with him.
“After dinner,” I answered.  He pressed his forehead against mine.  He took my hand and pressed it between his legs.  “Touch me,” he whispered.  “Feel what you do to me.”  I squeezed him and pressed, and his eyes rolled back in his head.  I had never touched him when we were dating, thinking nice girls didn’t do that.  But I had learned a lot since then.  I could show him how I feel about him, even if I couldn’t tell him.  It was a great way to make him happy.  I unzipped his fly, and circled him with my fingers.   His knees began to buckle, so I stopped. 
“Don’t stop… so good… dreamed of this,” he panted.  He kissed me again and again.  I kept working on him with my hand, trying different things to see what reactions they caused.  I had no idea what to do and was very worried about hurting him, but each time I tried a slightly different angle, he moaned, so I kept going.  I was thinking about using my mouth on him when he spoke.  
“Are you still a virgin?” he asked, jumping ahead about six steps.  I leaned back to see the look on his face.  Was he teasing me?  I’m sure I looked a little shocked.  But he was completely serious and silent, awaiting an answer.  Being a virgin and staying that way had been a big deal to me when we were dating.   I did not want to answer, especially not before I knew what he wanted.  I turned away so I could think.  He stood just behind me.
“Why?” I asked. 
“Because I want to be the first one,” he whispered in my ear. That surprised me.  When we broke up, I thought it was because I wasn’t very good at the physical side of things.
“Why?”  I asked, feeling like an inquisitive three year-old. 
  
“Because I love you,” he said.   He put his hands on my shoulders and turned me around into his arms again.  My mouth was definitely hanging open at this point.  It was the one thing in the world that I had always wanted to hear from him, and the last thing I ever thought I would hear him say.
“I could never find a way to tell you – you were dating someone, and then I went away, but all I could think about was getting home and taking you in my arms…” he stopped.  “Say something,” he begged.  
“I’ve always loved you,” I admitted for the first time.   It felt amazing to say it out loud at last!  But I was still afraid of his reaction.  He smiled the most brilliant smile I’ve ever seen.  He kissed me again, long… deep.  Oh, my.  This afternoon was certainly turning out to be very special.  
“I thought so.  Why didn’t you tell me?” he said when he finally came up for air.   I looked at him indulgently. 
“Maybe because you dumped me?  and told me you were in love with someone else?” I snarked. 
“I was a jerk.  I am so sorry.  Please forgive me?” he said the magic words.  He hugged me.  I could not believe it.  I wondered if I was dreaming.  Wouldn’t have been the first time….
“What do you want, Philip?” I asked. 
“I want to love you.  To make love to you, to show you how I feel, to make you feel good,” he said.  “You are the only one who makes me ache to be inside you.” My insides spun.
“You know I’m going steady, right?” I said. And I thought he was engaged.  
“I know.  So am I.  But none of that matters right now.  She’s right for me in a lot of ways, but not this way.  All I can think about at night is you,” he sighed.  “I can keep a secret, if you’re worried about your guy,” he volunteered.  The revelation that he had been thinking about me, that way, was so glorious, I almost missed the downside of it all.  He was not making any promises or “coming back to me.”  Was that something I wanted?  I started to ponder whether it would be worth it, or wreck everything, to grab this chance.  And what it said about me that I would even consider cheating on my boyfriend like this.  
“When are you leaving town?” I asked.
“Tomorrow morning.  24 hour pass.  Drove straight here, “ he told me.
“So… what’s all this mean?” I asked, probably pushing my luck.  
“Damned if I know,” he said.  He kissed me again, and started to lift my t-shirt.  I stayed his hand, trying for a few more moments to figure this out.  
“Let me touch you…please,” he whispered in my ear.  “You have such perfect tits…” he said in an almost-worshipful way.  I had wanted this for so long… it felt so right, like a big piece of the puzzle of my life falling into place.  He had said what I wanted to hear, and I couldn’t hold back any longer.  I pressed his hand under my shirt, placing it on my breast over my bra.  He sighed, sensing that I’d made up my mind, and kissed his way down my neck, to the line of the cup.  He exposed my nipple and put his mouth there.  He tugged with his teeth.  It felt like a direct line to my core.  I thought my knees were going to buckle.  He steadied me, whispering, “Can you show me your bed?”
I took his hand and led him up the front stairs.  He stopped me at the landing, pressing me against the wallpaper for another kiss.  He put his hand inside my shorts, dipping inside me briefly. 
“You are so wet,” he marveled.
“All your fault,” I said.  He growled under his breath. 
“You never answered my question,” he stated.
“Which one?” I stalled.
“Am I going to be the first?” he repeated.
“No… I wish you were,” I finally answered, worried that he would be disappointed or even angry.
“I figured.  Me neither.  I did it in February,” he admitted.  I was a little weirded out, because that’s when I had done it too. 
“Yes.  Me, too.  February, but it wasn’t… spectacular,” I admitted.  He raised an eyebrow, getting the oddness of the timing, even though he was two years older.
“Yeah.  Same here.  Not like what I feel right now, just standing here.  We will make it fabulous…I swear,” he said.
“I know.  You are always magic,” I admitted.
“I have condoms… I can protect you, and I’m clean,” he assured me, ever the gentleman.  
“Well, I’ve been on the pill since April, so no worries on that front,” I assured him.   Then worried that I had just told him I have sex all the time now. 
“Wow…things really have changed since I left,” he said, chuckling. 
I kissed him, tired of all these details, wanting to quit wasting the little time we had.
I dragged him up the stairs to my bed and sat down on the edge, staring at my bare toes, suddenly very shy. Philip sat down beside me and took my hand. 
“Nervous?’ he asked, picking up on my mood as usual.  I turned to stare into his eyes.  
“A little, “ I replied.  He stroked my arm.  
“You know I’d never force you to do anything, right?” he asked.
“I know.  It’s not that.  It’s just… I don’t think I’m very good at all this,” I confessed. 
“I don’t believe that for a second,” he said.  He leaned over to kiss me gently…. Once, twice, three times, light pecks on the lips.  Then he wrapped his arms around me and pulled us down onto the bed, deepening the kiss.  He was beside me, with his leg between mine.  I could feel him hard against my hip. 
“I want three things,” he explained, trying to reassure me.  “I want to taste you, I want you to touch me, and I want to be inside you,” he said.  
“Wow…” I said, my brain already losing the ability the strings words together. 
“Can you tell me what you want?” he asked.  I was stunned.  I had cuddled with a lot boys, and gone all the way with one, but no one had ever asked me what I’d like to do.  I just followed along.  Often unwillingly, enduring whatever the boy tried.  I thought I wasn’t supposed to think about it or talk much about it, that it would make me sound like a whore. 
“You okay?” he asked. 
“Yes.. I just… I’m not used to being asked,” I said.  “I want to make you happy,” I answered, thinking that’s what boys liked.  
“I want to make you feel good, too,” he said.  Now that was different.  “I want to help you cum,” he said.  I wasn’t sure what that meant, but was too afraid to say.  But he picked up on that right away.  
“You don’t know what that is, do you?” he asked.  I shook my head.  “What kind of selfish jerks have you been with?” he growled.  I balked at him calling the sweet boys jerks.
“Maybe they didn’t know…” I offered in their defense.  He scoffed.
“Okay. Here’s the short version – we touch each other.  We tell each other what feels good, so we can hone in on what’s best.  And make our bodies react in a way that sets off a chain of events.  For me, you know what happens, right?”
I nodded, lost in the image on him pounding into me and collapsing as he came.  He chuckled.  I swear the kid can read my mind!
“Good.  Well, something similar goes on inside you.  I’m no expert, but I hear you get very wet, and then the muscles start to twitch and then there this… high,” he said.  “Maybe you can tell me more about it in a few minutes, okay?” he said. 
I smiled at him.  It was boggling my mind how sweet he is.  “I haven’t felt that,” I admitted.  
“I’m sorry…but, you know what? I’m not sorry.  At least I will be the first for that,” he concluded.  
“You think you can make it happen?” I asked.  
“Yes, ma’am,” he chuckled.  “I’ve listened to a lot of guys and gals, and I’ve read a fair amount,” he added.  “And I also know that the emotional connection we have, which makes a big difference, is very special.  The mind has more to do with it than anything else,” he stated.  
He moved down my body, spreading fire wherever he touched.  He undid my shorts and rolled them off me, taking my underwear with them in one swift move.  Before I could fret about him looking at me, he leaned over and started licking me, flicking his tongue on my most sensitive spot.  My hips bucked at the contact and I squirmed.  He put his hands on my hips to steady me and dove in deeper, making a humming sound that send little vibrations into my core.  I started to go wild, running my fingers through his hair, trying to press him closer.  He raised his head a bit and I protested.
“Done that before?” he asked.  I shook my head, half in answer and half because he was driving me wild!  I’d never let anyone do that to me.  Another thing I thought nice girls didn’t do.  But it didn’t seem to matter anymore.  It was so… intimate.  
“Oh, I knew you would like that,” he said, chuckling.  “You are so hot.  You taste so good, just like I remember,” he sighed and went back to torturing me with his tongue.  He had tasted me on his fingers before.  I’d been a little grossed out by it at the time, but he seemed to like it a lot.
“I… it’s never been… you’re good,” I said.  He smiled against me, and started to move up my body, kissing my navel, then my tummy, taking my shirt and bra off as he went.  I was now completely naked.  He stared me up and down and I wanted to roll over, but he was half on top of me. 
“Don’t ever hide your gorgeous body,” he said, making his opinion clear.  “You are even more beautiful than my dream,” he said, sounding astonished. 
“You, sir, are way overdressed for this party,” I said as I began to take his shirt over his head.  I stared at his muscled chest, tanned from long hours in the sun.  It was the most amazing caramel color, the skin smooth and firm.  He rolled a little more on top of me, pressing his chest against mine and moaning a bit as our skin slid together. 
“Mmmmm… you drive me insane, you know,” he whispered very close to my ear.   I slid my hands onto his ass inside his shorts.  He shivered as I trailed a finger between his cheeks.  He rolled off me and shed them in one easy move.  
He rolled on top of me, spreading my legs with his knee.  He moved to the side a little, putting a finger inside me.  My hips bucked up and he smiled.  He pressed higher and I moaned.  He pulled out a bit and I whined.  He purred in my ear, “relax, concentrate on your center, feel my finger inside you, think about what else will be inside you soon,” in an almost-song-like rhythm in time with finger.  Just as I got used to this, he pulled out and pressed in again with two fingers.  I twisted in pleasure and moaned.  
“Good?’ he asked.  
“Oh yeah… so… so… amazing,” I panted.  He used his fingers to make me crazy.  I felt like I was on fire.  And that was a good thing. 
“This should help make it easier…You feel ready for me, are you?”  he asked.  I smiled.  I was very wary of taking this step, but it felt like the most natural thing in the world this time. “Tell me what you want,” he coached.
“I want you… inside me… way inside… all the way,” I intoned.  I had never said that to any boy…but somehow he made it okay.  
“When?” he teased me.
“NOW!” I shrieked.  “Please…” I begged… realizing he had gotten around all my taboos on not letting on how much I liked what he was doing.  
He put my hand on him again, and moved it up and down to show me what would please him.  I copied his movement, then added a slight pause to the beat.  He gasped when I started again.  I established the pattern… then paused longer.  He moaned… understanding my actions and how they were taking him higher.  
“That… making me wait… that is.. HOT!” he stated.  “I can’t believe you’re touching me… I have wanted this for so long,” he moaned.  
“Put me inside you…” he instructed, “control it,” he said, making it a joint effort.  I did as he asked, sliding him inside.  He pressed with his hips and was at my core.  He waited a long moment as the realization of where we were and exactly how close together we were dawned on both of us.  
“You are mine now, forever.  No matter where life takes us, it won’t change this,” he said.  “You will always be my girl,” he said.  It sounded ominous.  I decided to think about it later.  
“And you are mine, kid,” I added, bucking up toward him.  He didn’t speak but used his body to answer me, moving in and out, in and out, faster and faster.  
“This may take longer than you’re used to… because I want to wait for you to cum first,” he said.  “If you get sore or it stops being good, say so, okay?” he said.  I couldn’t concentrate on the words, but I got the spirit of them and nodded.  We rocked together, him thrusting inside me, me meeting his thrusts, moaning, thrashing… until suddenly I felt like I was exploding… or flying or… something was breaking free inside me… it was totally new… totally spectacular!  I felt flushed and started to sweat in a different way, and felt a coiling and uncoiling inside me… was this what he had been talking about?  All I could think was “wow…wow…WOW!” 
“Yea, baby, that’s it,” he said, answering my question without me voicing it.  Damn mind reader… I stopped thinking and started feeling… only him, him…. moving… moaning… he went completely frantic.  
I started chanting to him, “Do it.  Give it to me.  Let go… FUCK ME!” and he made one final grand push inside me and I felt three strong pulses, then he stilled.  I watched his face, so beautiful.  He collapsed on top of me.  He whispered, “Oh man…. oh…. mmmmmm…. I am so… you are so hot… damn, girl…I do love you,” and then he was quiet.  I lay there listening to my heart and his heart and trying to pay attention to everything going on in my body.  So many new sensations!  The first time I’d had sex, I lay there waiting for the boy to finish, thinking, “What that it?”  I was wondering what the big deal was, and why the adults kept this from the kids.  And why everyone wanted it.  Now, I began to understand.  
“That way was better, huh?” Philip asked.  Damn mind reader.
“I suppose,” I kidded him, winking.  He stared at me.  
“We’re magic, you know,” he said, in awe.
“Oh yes… I know,”  I said.  I started to get a little wistful, wondering why I would get to know that fact and likely never be here with him again.  He sensed my sadness and leaned down to kiss me… slowly, deeply… deeper… not at all the usual “I’m about done and taking off now” kiss.  He shifted slightly and I realized he was hard again.  I had not experienced that before. 
He rolled me on top of him and asked, “Ready for more?”  The surprise must have shown on my face, because he quickly added, “Are you sore?”  
“No…no….I’m fine, just…I haven’t, I mean..” I did not want to admit this was uncharted territory.
“You’ve never done it again right after?” he asked.  I looked away.  This was somehow just too much to discuss.  I wasn’t sure what the point of doing it again was… the guy had his way and that was it, right?  
“Um…. why do it again?” I asked, trying to get around my sudden shy spot.  Philip giggled.  
“Oh, man… why have two desserts?  Why see a double-feature?”  I still looked puzzled.  
“We’re going to try something different… it still feels good.  Why not feel good again?” he asked, being very patient.  He lifted me slightly and urged me to sit astride him, then pressed inside me again.  He moved his hips up and down, letting me ride him.  
“Can you, I mean… I thought,” I wasn’t sure how to ask if he could climax a second time.  
“Oh, yes… I can go all night,” he boasted.  He smiled in supreme self-confidence.  
“Use your knees,” he instructed, “to control the pace however you want.”  I did as he said, and then felt an incredible power wash over me.  I had been on top before, but only for a short time.  I had never done the last part except flat on my back.
“Can I stay here… I mean… can you finish with me up here?” I asked.  
“Oh yeah, baby…” he murmured, clearly already caught up in the magic again.  It was odd for me to have to think, to plan, to control the movement.  But I got used to idea, especially when I saw the look of absolute bliss on his face.  He lay there briefly, reveling in my moves, then started using his hands to up the ante.  He toyed with my breasts, distracting me just a little, then pressed a finger at the top of my slit at my most sensitive spot.  That shot fire throughout my body… I could not concentrate!  I focused and kept moving, stopping now and then to reset the pace.  He thrashed a bit and I settled back down on him, leaning over so that my hair formed a curtain around us.  He looked around in wonder, watching our bodies move together.  
“You… make me… feel… so… so…” he couldn’t finish his thought as I twisted slightly, driving him even deeper.  
‘So wet… so tight… so hot…” he chanted.  He grabbed my hips to steady me and rose off the bed to get closer still.  I sat straight up, tilted my head back, sank down on him and stopped… feeling my insides churn.  He pulsed and came again, filling me with his juices.  I had never felt so alive.  
I straightened out and cuddled against him, breathing loudly.  He stroked my back.  
“Understand now?” he asked, grinning against my cheek.
“Maybe,” I teased him.  “But you might have to explain again.”  
“Believe me when I say it would be my pleasure,” he answered.    
“What time is it?” I asked, coming back to reality with a thud.   I twisted around to look at the alarm clock on the nightstand.  “Eeek….it’s nearly 7 pm.  You have to get out of here.  They could be back any moment,” I shrieked, jumping out of the bed and pulling on clothes.  
“Go to dinner with me?”  he asked.  “Stay with me…” he begged.  
“Can you be seen with me?” I said, aware of how small our town is, and how people talk.
“We’ll figure it out,” he said, as he finished dressing.  We ran down the stairs.  I grabbed a pencil and paper and wrote a note at the kitchen table – “Philip showed up.  Going out to eat.  7:00 pm. “ 
As we went out the door to his car, my dad turned up the street headed to the garage.  I waved.  We ran out to the car, and hopped in, then sat there laughing at our escape.  He pulled me across the seat, gathered me into his arms, and kissed me.  
“You should drive right now,” I said.  He started the car up and took off.  He drove around the end of the block, across the street and up the driveway of the elementary school, then pulled around back, into the slot between the wings.  He turned the car off and grabbed me again, kissing me soundly.  I was astonished that he had not gotten tired of me.  
“I will never get tired of you,” he said as he held me, breathing hard. My mind reading man!  

What If Phil Was My First

From: Sassy Girl
Subject: What If
Date: March 19, 2011 9:58:09 PM EDT
To: Phil
Hiya, Philip. 
While you were gone, I got lost in a “what if.”  I time-traveled back to the night before you left for the military.  Wrote it down.  Had to get it out of my head.  
Stored as a google doc that only you and I can view.  You have to be logged in to gmail, I think.  Only open if alone…
It is scary for me to share it, but you usually react well to what I send, and it feels like part of us now somehow, so I thought you should know about it.  
Hope you enjoy it. Please say something after you read it?  Whatever your reaction is, I want to hear it.  
 -S

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Back to Camp
1975
Where do you think I am on a random Monday afternoon during a school vacation?  I’m lounging on the couch at home, watching “General Hospital,” of course!  
It was a cold December afternoon, a few days after the craziness of Christmas, in that quiet week when school is out and the days are short and there isn’t much to do (if you’re not a bargain shopper).  The doorbell rang.  I bounced up to answer it, and was astonished to see my friend, Philip.  He was off to the military in a day or so.  I thought we’d said our final good-bye at church yesterday.  He stomped his feet to shake off the snow and smiled sweetly at me, with his best “lost puppy, let me in, lady” look.  I opened the door and he breezed past me into the living room.  
“Hiya, Sass.  Wanna go for a ride?” he asked.  
“Hi, yourself.  Where to?” I asked. 
“I want to go to camp one more time before I take off,” he told me.  
“Ah… sure.  Anything to get out of the house!” I answered.  “Let me grab my coat,” I added, heading off to the closet in the dining room.   This day suddenly got a lot less boring!
Let me explain about camp and Philip.  It’s a rustic camp in the woods with a motley collection of cabins, a big meeting hall, a pond and a gorgeous outdoor chapel in the birch trees.  It also happened to be where we had our first kiss.  We dated briefly when I was a freshman in high school and he was a junior.  I had been watching the tall, dark and handsome athlete at church for awhile, hoping he would notice me.  He decided that the tall, dark-haired, busty girl was cute, funny and sexy.  We had a lot of fun.  
After a few weeks, he told me he was in love with someone else, and asked me to be friends.  I was madly in love with him by then, but managed to be his pal, pining for him all the while.  But I had given up, and dated other boys.  None of them lived up to the chemistry we’d generated, but I had moved on.  So had he.  We saw each other at church, sang in the choir and went out with the church gang, but had not been alone for a long time.  
I was surprised he’d want to spend one of his last afternoons with me, and go back to a place with such romantic ties to our past, but I had learned not to question to him.  If he was in a good mood, I rolled with it.  I tried to shake his hand on Sunday at church when he was saying good-bye to a line of folks, but he had surprised me there, too, grabbing me into a big hug and giving me a deep, quick kiss.  
I bundled up, left a note on the kitchen table for my parents, and headed to the car with him. It was his parent’s big old Buick.  He opened the passenger door for me, then raced around to hop in and drive off into the hills.  He put on my favorite radio station – WTRY – and we sang along to the top 40’s tunes.  After we were up over the big hill and out of town, he reached for my hand.  He smiled at me, and then dragged me across the bench seat to sit next to him so he could put his arm around me.   I cuddled against him and reveled in the closeness I longed for.  So it was going to be like that, eh?  
“When do you actually leave?’ I asked, dreading the answer more than I thought I would.
“Tomorrow.  Early flight, first time on a plane,” he answered. He sounded really excited. 
“Wow.  At least it will be warm,” I offered. 
“Yeah… I get to see to the world!” he marveled.  “I am so ready to be gone from this dead-end town,” he admitted.  I looked out the window, so he wouldn’t see my face fall at the prospect of him being away from me.  
We sang some more, and I gave him directions as we cruised down the country roads and through the little town, then up the hill to camp.  The road had been plowed, so he pulled in near the big hall and parked.  He took my hand and pulled me out the driver’s side.  It was eerily quiet and white, unlike the rush of campers and lush greens of summer camp, or the riotous color of the autumn retreats.  It was still beautiful in the late afternoon winter sun.  
I longed for him to kiss me, but he took off to the big building.  We strolled around, peering in the windows at the huge stone fireplace and the industrial kitchen.  We joked about him winning the pancake eating contest at the retreat two years ago.  The path to the chapel was snowed in, so we walked down between the girls cabins and took the lower road to the pond.  We looked out at its frozen surface.  
“Remember the retreat, when all the guys jumped into the water?  Man, was that cold,” he waxed nostalgic.
“I thought you were nuts,” I told him.  
“Probably right, but it was fun,” he chuckled.  “We warmed up at that camp fire later,” he said, staring beyond the pond to the hill beyond.
“We certainly had a warm weekend,” I said, letting on that I was lost in the memory, too.   He stood behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist and pressed himself against my back.
“I will never forget that first kiss,” he whispered in my ear.  I blushed, wondering why he was bringing all this up now, wondering why he didn’t kiss me again, and glad he couldn’t see my red face.
The snow was too deep to go beyond the pond, but we didn’t need to.  Those memories of an October night were strong – the camp fire, sitting in a big circle with all the kids singing and telling scary stories.  We ended up on our backs in the grass, looking up at the stars, a little ways from the group.  And it seemed like the most natural thing in the world to roll into each other and exchange a passionate kiss, nervous and excited by the electricity flowing between us as our tongues danced in each others mouths.  I never told him that was my first grown-up kiss.  We walked up the path hand-in-hand, then found a dark corner to kiss some more.  By the time the weekend was over, we were an item.  That meant holding hands in the hall at school, sitting together at lunch, going to the football dance, and stealing a kiss here or there.  
The light was fading, so he turned to go and took my hand to lead me back to the car.  I had hoped for more, but I guess he just wanted to reminisce.  As we passed the cabins, I noticed the path to a smaller nurse’s cabin was shoveled.  I turned in, and tried the door.  It was open!  I pulled Philip inside – it was warm!  Someone had been there, had a fire in the fireplace, and then gone off without locking the door.  There was a note on the table.  
“Dear Sam, couldn’t wait.  Meds in the bureau.  Call if you see this and we can try again tomorrow.  2 pm 12/29”.   I checked the bureau and there was nothing there, so Sam must have come and gone about half an hour.  
I took off my gloves and warmed my hands by the dying fire.  It was glorious, casting a mellow glow over the small outer room.  I peaked into the back bedroom, and there was a real double bed, unlike the nasty cots in the girls and boys cabins!  Philip was behind me, gazing over my shoulder.  I turned to him in the doorway, and he wrapped his arms around me for a big hug.  
I couldn’t believe we were here, alone, and he was touching me.  Finding anywhere to be alone was a challenge for teenagers, so this private place with a real bed was nothing short of a miracle.  I had dreamed of a moment like this for two years, without any hope of it happening.  I wondered if it would play out the way my dreams had…still no clue if he was my friend today or had other thoughts.  I was tempted to kiss him if he didn’t do it soon.  
He leaned back slightly and stared into my eyes.  He put his palm on my face, and used the other hand to grab my ass and press me tightly against him.  He was rock-hard against my thigh.  Aha!  He was having other thoughts!  I took a deep breath and licked my lips.   
He kissed me, lightly at first, gauging my reaction, but very quickly pressing deeper and deeper with his tongue.  I let him explore a bit, then added my tongue to his.  He moaned and pressed me against the doorjamb.  
When we came up for air, he murmured, “Oh girl, you’re the best kisser,” reverently.  
“You are magic,” I whispered back in awe.
“I want to finish what we started out here,” he stated earnestly.  My eyes grew wide.  I was not sure if I was hearing him right.   
“What does that mean?”  I asked.  
“I want to go all the way,” he clarified.  “I brought protection,” he added.  
“Oh!”  That was clear enough.  He definitely wanted to be more than friends today!  
“I don’t want to force you into anything or make you uncomfortable,” he assured me.  He had never pressed me like other boys.  I spent many of my early dates fighting off boys who wanted to do more than I wanted physically, but I always felt safe and comfortable with Philip.  I wanted him in a way I never wanted them, but it wasn’t cool to admit that.  And I did not know much about sex.  I tried to explain.  
“I know… I just… I don’t know.  I haven’t…” I stammered, not sure how to continue.  
“Neither have I,” he said, understanding.  “But I’ve thought about it, with you.. a lot,” he admitted.
“Really?” I asked, astonished.  “When you broke up with me, I thought I turned you off somehow, that you didn’t want me that way at all,” I admitted.
“Nothing could be further from the truth,” he whispered.   He kissed me again, deeper and deeper until I thought I would melt into a big puddle.  My knees were weak and only his arms around me kept me upright.  
“I’m not sure,” I told him.  Even though I wanted him very badly, I just didn’t know enough about the actual act to give him blanket permission up front.  
“It’s okay… you stop me if you need to, okay?  I can stop at any point if you ask me,” he assured me.  He had always been good about that, better than any other boy.  I trusted him.  I really didn’t know if I could do it.  
He unbuttoned my wool coat, and dropped it on the floor.  I unzipped his jacket and rolled it off his shoulders to join mine.  I pulled off his t-shirt while I was at it, and ran my hands down his chest.  He has such gorgeous skin!  I had always been drawn to his massive shoulders and muscled chest.  He pulled up my shirt and raised my bra so he could see my breasts.  I was self-conscious, but he smiled and dipped his head to take my right nipple into his mouth.  It shot a signal straight between my legs and I relaxed into it, running my fingers through his hair and moaning.

He whisked off my top and bra, then pressed our naked chests together, skin on skin.  
“Mmm…you feel so hot,” he said.  “I love the feel of your skin on mine,” he said. “You are the only girl I’ve ever touched, the only one I want,” he admitted.  I was shocked to hear that and beamed at the thought that he wanted me in a special way!  He was so special to me; it was amazing that he felt the same way.  
He walked me back toward the bed and we fell onto it, rolling together until we were on our sides, facing each other.  
I suddenly realized that I had already made a decision… without really thinking about it.  I always thought it would take intense planning and thought.  Or that the guy would force it on me.  But we were hurtling down a path that felt like it could change our lives forever.  And that didn’t bother me.  It seemed completely natural and right, if a bit daunting.  Just one more step on a smooth path.  He picked up on all that somehow.
“You okay?” he asked.  He made little patterns on my hip with his finger.  
“Oh, yes,” I assured him.  “I just…don’t know what to do,” I admitted.  
“What do you want to do?” he asked.  I’d never heard that from a guy before.  They usually ran the show and I put up with it.  It wasn’t considered cool to admit I thought about sex much, or was interested in any particular move.  That could get a girl called a slut.  But Philip never told anyone what we did, and he seemed fine with whatever I said or did.  We had not done much in our brief romance, but I was definitely ready for more. 
“I’m not sure… this is all such a surprise,” I admitted.  “What would make you happy?”
“I want to taste you, the right way.  Okay?” He asked sweetly, running his finger down my belly to between my legs.  I had never let a boy go down on me.  But for the life of me, I could not remember now why that was not allowed.  It was so good of him to ask me first.  
“Yes, please,” I told him.  He went into action, pulling off my jeans and underwear in one swift move.  I had never been completely naked with a boy, and started to roll over to cover up a bit. 
“You are so beautiful… don’t hide it!” he said, smiling at me.  He began kissing his way down my belly and I forgot about being self-conscious when he pressed his tongue inside me.  My hips shot up off the bed and I worried that I would break his nose!  He put his hands on my hips to match his movements to mine.  I put my fingers in his hair and pressed his head to me.  He licked and sucked, and I started to thrash as he worked on my most sensitive spot.  
“That’s it,” he said, taking a brief break.  “Roll with it, baby,” he intoned.  
“You… are making me… crazy!” I told him, panting.
“Good,” he chuckled, going back for more.  “You taste so sweet, just like I remember,” he said in awe.  My mind flashed back to the night he had put his fingers inside me then licked them, on a wild ride home on a school bus from a field trip, with us huddled together in the back row.  It seemed like the height of sexiness and grossed me out at the same time.  He had begged to be able to put his mouth on me, but that just was not done.  Why I had resisted?  This was incredible!  
He kept using his tongue and sucking in my juices as I got wetter and wetter, and hotter and hotter.  I began to feel flushed.  Then I felt the muscles inside me begin to clench.  I wasn’t sure what was happening.  
“I feel… strange… hot,” I said.  He raised his head to look at me and got a huge smile on his face.  
“Do you feel something inside?” he asked.  
“Yes…. um… the muscles are tightening,” I said, struggling to describe it. 
“That’s awesome… it means your coming,” he explained.  I didn’t know girls did that.  
“It’s kind of like what happens to me, only inside you,” he explained further.   “It’s a good thing!” 
He went back to licking me, deeper and faster.  I stopped thinking…. it felt like all the blood in my body was rushing to my center.  My hips would not stay still.  He rode them, like a man rocking a bronco.  I felt something break free inside me, like I was flying!  Wow.  
“Oh, yeah, girl…that’s it, cum on my tongue” he said in a sing-song way.  I whimpered and felt a pulsing, and wondered what had just happened.  I felt so good!  
“It’s an orgasm,” he told me.  “It’s what it’s all about,” he said.  “Have you felt that before?” he asked.  I shook my head.

“I just gave you your first one,” he crowed!  He hugged me, keeping me warm and dropping little kisses along my neck.  He kissed me quickly on the lips and I tasted my juices there…an odd sensation.  He seemed impressed that I didn’t balk at that.  

I smiled great big.  I felt amazing!  I wondered what would happen now.  
“Can you touch me?” he asked.  I had never touched a boy down there.  I thought nice girls didn’t do that.  But today was different.  I nodded and reached down to undo his jeans.  He rolled away for a moment and gave back completely naked.  He lay back and said, “Have your way with me.”  
I stared at him…I had never seen a completely naked boy before!  He was beautiful.  Looking at him did things to me.  He was completely erect, standing at attention in between his legs.  
“What do you call it?” I asked.  He looked puzzled.  “I mean, what word do you use?  Dick?” 
“Cock,” he said, chuckling.  I repeated the word quietly and his hips popped up.  Hee! 
I had no idea what to do.  I was curious, but very worried about hurting him.  He took my hand and showed me what to do, leading me to circle my fingers around him and pump gently.  His eyes rolled back in his head and he let out a low moan when he let go and I continued.  
“Oh, girl, that feels so good…you don’t know how many nights I have dreamed of this, touching myself and wishing it was your hand?”   I stopped momentarily, enchanted by the image of him alone in bed masturbating with an image of me in his mind.  
He whined at the lack of action, so I started again, a little faster.  He watched me in awe for awhile, but then his breathing got ragged and he closed his eyes and his head rolled back.  When I felt him start to lose control, I stopped to let him cool off a bit, then started again in a slightly different way, to see what he would do.  
“That is sooo hot,” he moaned.  “The way you take me to the edge and then let me down a bit, only to start again….mmmm..wow!” he exclaimed.  
“I want you to put me inside you…” he said.  “I have a condom,” he said.  They were tough to get… he must have been planning this for awhile.  He rolled away to get it from his pants pocket.  He ripped the foil, and rolled it down the length of his manhood.  
He put my hand back where it had been, and waited.  I touched the latex, a new experience.  
“Philip, I’ve heard stories about um..bleeding and pain…” I looked away, embarrassed.  
“I know… I’ll go slow.  I hear it gets better after the um.. first moments.  We’ll deal,” he assured me.  “Just be sure to tell me what’s going on, okay?  You can tell me if it hurts, or if it feels good. This is for both of us.”
He got up momentarily and grabbed a towel from the bureau, spreading it out on the bed, shifting me over it.  His consideration melted my heart anew.  He was so different from other boys!  I was so glad he was going to be the one. 
He settled lightly on top of me, shifting his weight until our hips were together and he cuddled me and kissed me.  I tried to take in all the places our bodies were touching, feeling his hands on my back, his legs entwined with mine, his nose next to mine… we fit together.  I couldn’t figure out where the comfort and the excitement split, but suddenly I was aching for him, frantic to have him inside me in a way I had never wanted another boy.  
He dipped his finger inside me, and I bucked toward it.  
“Mmmm… you are so wet,” he marveled, moving slowly in and out, testing, twisting.  “That should make this easier,” he explained.  I looked down his body and wondered how he could possibly fit inside me, how my body would react.  
“Don’t think you’re the only nervous one,” he said, smiling softly.  I nodded, trying to thank him but beyond speaking right now.  I took some deep breaths.  
“Just do it,” I begged, “I want you to…” I told him.  I closed my eyes, steeling myself for the moment to come.  
“Are you going to tell me now?” he asked.  My eyes popped open, scanning his face, trying to figure out what he meant.  
“What?” I replied, confused.  Had I missed something?
“How you feel about me,” he coaxed.  “You’re about to give yourself to me, and I can only think of one reason you’d do that,” he explained.  He stared right into my eyes and I felt like he could see into my head, my heart… I looked away.   He put a finger on my cheek to steer me back into his gaze.  
“You can say it,” he reassured me.  “You know you can tell me anything.”  I worried my lip with my teeth.  He was right, of course.  There was only one reason I would let him take my virginity.  How could he know?   
“There could be lots of reasons,” I stalled.  
“Maybe for another girl, but not you,” he stated.  Damn it, he knew me too well.  I closed my eyes and swallowed hard.  He had hurt me so badly when we broke up… I didn’t want to let on that he had my heart.  It would be much worse this time.  Why couldn’t he just have his way with my body already?  Did he need to know about my heart, too?
“I need it all,” he said, reading my mind.  I smiled wistfully, realizing this was the right way.  That he was making it so it would be even better than the physical connection.  
“I love you,”  I admitted.  He smiled and nodded.  
“Oh, girl… I knew you did.  I love you, too,” he said, hugging me tight.    
“But it doesn’t really matter… you’re going away, and I won’t…” I couldn’t go on.
“It matters,” he declared.  “It will always matter.”  
“You knew? I tried so hard to hide it.  To stop.”
“Yes.. I always knew.  The way you looked at me.  The way you let me touch you… the way you kissed me back, is very special,” he said.  “It’s not something you can control.”  
“But when did you.. you said you didn’t,” I asked, confused. 
“I can’t claim to understand it, but I did from the beginning… I just couldn’t make sense of you and the other girl and… I wanted to be fair, but it’s way more complicated than that, and I’ve regretted our break-up every day since,” he explained.  
He put my hand back between his legs and said, “Guide me,” and I took him in my hand and pressed a bit.  “Open your eyes!’ he commanded.  He grabbed my ass and thrust deep inside me in one quick move.  He was staring at my face, searching for my reaction.  We stared into each others eyes as he settled, both a little overwhelmed at the line we had crossed.  
“I love you so much,” he whispered fervently.  
He had not hurt me!  Relief flooded through me and I smiled.  He didn’t see any wincing, so he began to move slowly out.  I closed my eyes again, wanting to concentrate on the sensations.  He moved slowly in and out and I began to relax.  I put my hands on his back, caressing the muscles there.  It felt strange and wonderful to have him inside me, similar to his finger but a better fit, obviously the part of his body that was meant for this task.  He began to move a little faster, go a little deeper and I moaned in pleasure.  My hips began to rise to meet his thrusts, and he growled, low and sexy.  
“Mmmm….you okay?  This feels..so incredible,” he said in awe.  “I didn’t know… it’s so good… you were made for me,” he marveled. 
I could not answer… my brain had quit working, but I sighed in pleasure and pressed his ass a little tighter.  He moved in and out, trying different angles and rhythms, repeating anything that got a reaction from me.  I had been afraid to let on to other boys that what they were doing made me feel good, but Philip made it okay.  
He began to shiver and closed his eyes, as all the sensations piled on and blood rushed from his brain to other areas.  I began to feel the flush again…and then the clenching of the inner muscles.  He felt it, too and increased his pace.  My breathing got a bit ragged.  I started to tremble all over.  
“You’re coming again,” he whispered in awe.  “Do you feel it?” 
“Oh…oh yes,” I whispered back, twisting my hips higher so he could press deeper.  He moaned as he felt it, and my insides clamped around him.  It was even better this time.  A feeling of wholeness… rightness…and warmth all over poured through me.  It was all I could do not to say “I love you” about 20 times.  I chanced it once more.
“I love you, Philip,” I whispered.  
“I can tell.  You are so hot, so tight…” he told me. “That is what every guy wants,” he explained as he rocked in and out.  “I can’t…. hold back… much longer,” he panted.  
“Let go,” I told him.  “Fuck me!” I screamed.  
That set him off… he pounded into me and I rose to meet each thrust.  I don’t know how I knew to do that… it was some instinct kicking in.  I wasn’t thinking anymore, just feeling.  Suddenly he stopped and I could feel him pulse inside me.  He shook as the juices poured from him into the condom.  Then he collapsed on top of me.  He shifted slightly to the side, but we were still connected.  He ran his hand over my face, looking concerned.  I opened my eyes and gave him my most brilliant smile.  
“Are you okay?” he asked. 
“Yes… I am great!”  I replied.  “Are you okay?” 
“No…,” he said, but with a twinkle in his eye that told me he was teasing, “I am fabulous!”  
then he got a very evil look on his face.  “And I am a MAN!” he crowed.  
“You certainly are,” I sighed.  I was thinking about all the secrecy and whispers about this act, the dire warnings from adults, the pressure from other boys, and how it had not felt right with anyone else, but so right with Philip.  I thought it meant something… but I wasn’t sure what.  
“And you are a quite a woman,” he sighed, pressing his forehead against mine.  He held me and kissed me gently. “Thank you, Sassy,” he sighed.  “I am so glad you were the one.”  
“I never wanted to do it with anyone but you,” I admitted to him.  “What were you planning to do if we hadn’t found this door open?” 
“Back seat of the car,” he admitted. “This was way better!”
“I’ll say,” I replied.  
“Sore?” he asked.  
“No… there was some…pressure at the very first, but nothing bad,” I assured him.  He rolled me toward him and looked at the bed.
“There is a little blood,” he reported.  “But not much.”   I tried not to be weirded out that such incredibly personal details were being discussed so openly…he was so matter-of-fact that it almost worked.  I didn’t want to move, but I wanted to clean it up before he could focus on it much more.  
He hugged me and kissed me deeply… it seemed like he didn’t ever want to stop.  
“I could do this all night…” he sighed.  “I want to say things, make promises, but it’s not fair… with me going away,” he added.  “I don’t know where I will be or what will happen, and I’m not much of a letter writer,” he said.  
“It’s okay. I understand,” I told him.  Even though I didn’t.  I had already made up my mind that I would never love anyone but him.  I buried my face in his neck and hugged him in a different way, trying to get all that across somehow.  
“You’ll always be my girl… nothing will take this time away from us, ever!” he said.  I knew I would cry if I tried to speak, so just nodded against his face.  I was begging God to let him come back to me, and soon.  But something told me it would not be that way.  But I pushed all that away, not wanting to muddy our time together with such dark thoughts.  
“I should get you home…” he whispered.  “But I don’t want to move,” he added.  
“Yes, you’re right,” I said, not moving.  He started kissing me again in a desperate, hungry way, as if we had just started instead of having been together for hours.  He started to move inside me again!  I didn’t know that was possible… but he was just as hard and hot and I stopped thinking again and held him close and moved with him.  
“Oh girl… you… you make all my dreams come true!” he marveled.  
“I want you to be happy,” I told him, as I had so many times before.
“You do… oh, my god, you do.”  He confirmed, punctuating each word with a quick thrust inside me.  
“Why?” he asked suddenly, touching my face, looking straight into my eyes. 
“Because I… because of… how you make me feel,” I said, hedging.
“Say it!  I  need to hear it again… so I can remember,” he begged.  I looked away, but he pressed into me again and turned my face back to him for a long kiss, then waited… staring… 
“I love you…” I whispered, smiling a little sadly but sweetly, holding my breath.  
“Love you too,” he said.  I stared and sighed.  He began to move again, building up for another climax. I held him and wondered if there would ever be another moment so perfect in my life.  And then all thought disappeared as the chemistry took over and we soared together.  
We lay there for a long moment, then I gave him a shove, grabbed the towel and scooped up my clothes.  I went out by the fireplace and started cleaning up, dressing, rinsing the towel with some snow, busying myself with the details of getting ready to go.  He came out completely naked and hugged me again, then swatted me on the ass and went about getting dressed and erasing all signs of us being there.  
We walked hand in hand back to the car.  He was opening my door and I tapped him on the shoulder.  He turned and I pressed him against the side of car, kissing him with all the passion I could muster, trying to show him how special this day had been for me.  He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me back.  He broke away and I thought he’d hand me into the car, but he spun around very quickly, reached in to unlock the back door, shut the front door, opened the back door, and climbed in, reaching out a hand to pull me in!  He reached around me to close the door, then we sprawled across the back seat, me on top of him.   
“Forgive me, but I’ve been thinking about making out in the back seat for ages and I can’t resist seeing what it’s like,” he whispered in my ear.  He kissed me deeply, and I added my tongue.  He moaned sweet and low, then grabbed my ass and fit me into the cradle of his hips, so I had doubt he was ready to go again.  I had no idea he would want me again so quickly.  It was reassuring that this was not just about taking my virginity and being done with me.  
He broke the kiss to help me shed my jeans and underwear, then took off his own and settled me back on top of him.  I thought he would roll me over, but instead he put my legs on either side of his hips and raised me a bit, saying, “I want you on top of me this time…so I can cushion it, not hurt you with my weight on you, let you control it more,” he explained.  I was so touched that he had thought of all this, and intrigued at the idea of having some control.  Though the idea of having to think, to plan the action, was a bit scary.   
I looked down at his body, his long brown hair falling around his head, his beautiful shoulders and chest, and his erection nestled in the hair at the juncture of my legs.  He held my hips, squeezing them gently. 
‘Wait… I almost forgot,” he said as he reached for his jeans and pulled out another foil packet.  He handed it to me and showed me how to roll it down his cock, leaving some room at the bottom for the liquid that would fill it.  I was so blown away at his thoughtfulness.  Even as I had an incredibly sweet vision of growing big with his child… this was not the time in our lives for that step.  I had always been terrified of getting pregnant, and was taken aback that it could seem like a good idea for a few seconds.   
I shifted a bit and pressed him inside my swollen lower lips.  He moaned as the moisture touched the latex.  He watched intently as I rose up a bit and then sank down slowly with him inside me.  He closed his eyes in intense pleasure, biting his lip and exhaling slowly.  
“I think I’m further inside at this angle, no?” he asked.  I twisted just a bit and sank a little more and he gasped.  
“Oh, yes…definitely,” I answered as my body and mind began to react.  My breathing was already ragged, but I struggled to focus and make this incredible for both of us.  I moved up and down a couple of times and he sighed.  I established a rhythm, but then stopped.  He opened his eyes, smiling now, knowing what I was doing.  I started again faster, turning my hips a little, and he started panting.  He put a hand on my breast, teasing my nipple and then filling his hand with it.  I moved a little faster, and he let go, grabbing my hips again. 
“Oh, girl, you…you…we are so good together…better than I imagined.  You…mmmm…you..make it..so right,” he declared. 
I was suddenly reminded of my summer days on my grandfather’s farm, riding my cousin’s huge, tame stallion…cantoring along the sandy lanes between the fields in afternoon sun…the heat, the bouncing, the movement between my legs, pressing with my knees to get him to turn…the power of being in control of another powerful being…and somehow Philip became that horse and I rode him like a storm was coming and I had to get back to the barn in seconds flat!
Philip sensed the change, felt the muscles inside me start to clench, and whispered, “Where… did you….go….in your mind?” 
“Grandfather’s farm…riding the horse,” I told him, unable to say more as the explosion started in my mind and inside me.  His hips rose and he thrust up to meet me.    
“Oh, yeah, baby…. ride me… be my cowgirl…ah…mmmmm,” he sang to me as I got more and more frantic.  He pressed his finger at the top of my slit, flicking my most sensitive spot.  I went wild, arching my back.  My head hit the roof of car and I sank down on him as I soared off into space.  I felt him pulsing inside me.  And we were still, breathing fast.  I fell down on his chest.

“I love you,” I whispered fervently against his neck.  
“I love you so much,” he replied, stroking my back.  He turned to look into my eyes and kissed my nose.  “Now I really should get you home,” he said, breaking the spell.  He lifted me gently off him and turned me to the inside of the seat.  He grabbed his clothes and got out of the car to dress.  I scrambled back into mine and crawled over into the front seat.  
He popped into the driver’s seat, and I nestled next to him as he drove us back to town, humming quietly to the radio tunes, trying not to listen to the lyrics about love and loss.  I wanted to stick my head out the window like a puppy and scream, “HE LOVES ME!”  I had never wanted to stop time so much!  
We made it back to town much too quickly.  He turned in at the parking lot across the street from my house, where we could pull around to park and not be seen from the street. He grabbed me and kissed me.  I knew this was good-bye and thought, “Don’t cry, don’t cry” as he licked my nose.  But he surprised me, leaning me back until we were sprawled across the seat, and he was on top of me, wedging his leg between mine.  I was on fire again.  
“I want you again… I don’t think I will ever stop wanting you,” he told me.  
I couldn’t speak.  I kissed him with more passion than ever.  He undid my jeans and put his finger inside me…moving in and out until I was completely wild!  I felt the waves of heat start to crash over me…dripping, soaring again.  Wow.  I reached for his fly and slipped my fingers inside his clothes, circling around him, wanting him to be satisfied as well.  I wanted him to have another special memory, something spectacular. 
He sat up quickly, saying, “No…might get messy…and I don’t have another condom,” but I had thought of a way around that already.  I put my head in his lap and took his cock in my mouth.  He moaned and shifted his hips…”Oh, my god, girl… I never thought you would.. oh, damn, that’s so hot…,” as he watched me in wonder.   I had no idea what to do, but tried different things… licking the edge, sucking slowly and then with more force.  He seemed to like it all!  I was so afraid I would hurt him, that my teeth would cause some damage, but he was making the sweetest sounds, so I kept going.  I began to taste something very sweet and thick…mmmm!  I’d heard about boys leaking a little early on when they got excited.  I had thought it might gag me, but it tasted good!  He began to move his hips, holding my head and fucking my mouth, deeper and deeper.  I put my arm around him, and a hand under him and gently stroked his balls, and he growled in pleasure.  
“Girl, you better stop.  I’m not sure I can control…” he warned me as he got more frantic.  I stopped for a moment to make my intentions clear.  
“I want you to cum in my mouth.  I want to swallow it.  I’m not sure if I can, but I want to try,” I stated.  He looked astonished and incredibly pleased.  I went back to work, building up the pace, and he wove his fingers through my hair, thrusting deeper and deeper.  He trembled, stopped moving and twitched, then there was cum spurting into my throat.  I swallowed hard…once, twice, making as loud a gulping noise as possible so he’d hear it, and felt the most amazing rush of power, that I had been able to do that!  
Philip was panting…he pulled me up and kissed me, tasting his juices in my mouth.  He looked at me in awe.  I smiled at him and stroked his face.  
“You are the most incredible girl,” he marveled.  “I never thought there would any reason I would find it tough to leave here, but you have screwed that all up,” he sighed, pressing his forehead against mine.  “I love you so damn much.”  
“Good,” I said, feeling triumphant he has finally figured out how good we could be together.  “I love you a lot, too,” I added. 
“There a good reason your name is Sass,” he said, righting his clothes and pecking me on the check.
“You know it!” I replied, going back to my own side of the car.  I thought the sadness would break me in half, but the glories of the past few hours kept it at bay.  My head was full of the look on his face when he came, the feel of his skin, the taste of his mouth and our juices, and the sound of our bodies moving together and his moans.  Maybe some of that would stick with him, bring him home to me again.
He drove over across the street to my driveway and got out of the car to escort me to the front porch.  We hugged for a long time.  He opened his mouth to speak but I shook my head, pressing a finger to his lips, warning him that I was right on the edge and he’d better not say anything more.  He understood.  He smiled, smacked me on the ass, and headed back to the car.  I stood there, watching him drive away, the tears flowing freely down my face, my heart aching.  I said a quick prayer that God watch over him.  And went into the house.  
I never saw him again.  
  

His Desk

From: Sassy Girl

Subject: Desk story link
Date: February 19, 2011 4:12:54 PM EST
To: Phil

Chemo drugs make my imagination fly.  
[Desk story link]
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His Desk 
He is sitting at his desk.  It is solid, big… just right for all the paperwork that piles up.  It’s been a long day.  He hears the office staff packing up in the outer office, saying their good-byes.  All is quiet.  Good.  He can concentrate, get more admin done. 
Suddenly he hears something.  Someone walking through the outer office.  Maybe it’s his assisant.  He thought he left, but sometimes he pops back in if the light is still on.  He sees a figure in the door but can’t believe his eyes.  He must be dreaming.  Maybe he’s fallen asleep at his desk?  
It’s her.  His high school sweetheart.  She has on a long, dark coat.  And high heels.  She sashays into his office and sits on the edge of his desk.  How the heck did she get in here?  This area is supposed to be secured.  Then he remembers – it’s her… she has a way of talking people into anything, finding things out and getting in places… usually to make his life more interesting.  
“Well, hello,” he says, chuckling.  She’s been in his sights 10 seconds and he is rock hard.  
“Hiya, handsome,” she answers.  Oh, he had forgotten how soft and sexy her voice is.  It’s been too long. 
“Cold night out?” he asks.  He knows it is, but he can’t think what else to say with her sitting so close to him.  
“Yup.  About to get warmer, I hope,” she coos.  She smiles at him and his heart melt a bit.
“Going to light a fire?” he asks.  She smiles her most evil smile.  
She gets up and goes back to his office door.  She shuts it and locks it.  He swallows hard.  She strolls around to his side of the desk – tall, gorgeous, and sexy beyond belief.  He wonders what she has on, or doesn’t have on, under that coat.  She stops within arm’s reach of him.  
“You want to help me take off this coat?” she asks.  
“Yes, ma’am,” he replies.  He reaches up to undo the top button.  She grabs his hand, kissing his palm with some tongue, then places it along her cheek.  He caresses her face, tracing her lips with his finger.  She flicks it with her tongue.  Vixen.  
He undoes another button.  All he can see is her smooth skin.  The next button unveils her cleavage.  Damn, she has the most amazing tits.  He sees her bra now… black lace with a rose in center.  Oh, man… he puts his face in her cleavage, licks the edges of the bra, kisses the rose.  She moans… 
He tackles another button… he can see her navel now.  He kisses it.  He hurries to undo another button and is rewarded with the sight of black lace panties, mostly see-through.   There is a little rose in the middle of the waistband… he kisses it.  She shivers and takes a deep breath.  His breathing is getting a little faster.  
He opens the last button and spreads the sides of the coat apart.  He looks her up and down.  Sexy underwear and thigh-high black sheer stockings, with black patent leather pumps.  Damn.  This isn’t fair.  She is a sexy wench in old blue jeans and t-shirt.  But she has upped the ante by a substantial amount.  She told him she’d lost weight, but he wasn’t prepared for how that would make her body even more enticing.  Damn.  He wants to do about 35 things with her, and can’t decide where to start.
“Where should I start?” he asks.  She smiles.  
“Take off my shoes,” she says, “they’re killing me!”  He chuckles and does as she asks, stroking her ankle and calf.  She sighs in relief and wiggles her toes.  She places her foot gently between his legs and presses, curling her toes around the side and wiggling them again.  
She kneels between his legs, licks her lips very slowly and seductively, and reaches for his belt.  He gasps.  The sound of the buckle and then rasp of the zipper excite him beyond belief.  She urges him to raise his hips and he complies.  She lowers his uniform pants and underwear below his knees and settles him back into his chair.  She trails her fingers down his legs, then across his hips to his center.  She circles him with her hand and pumps him gently.  He moans and his head falls back.  He would summon the energy in a moment to watch but right now he can only feel.  She squeezes him and pulls a bit… then licks the head, running her tongue around the edge of it and into the slit.  Damn.  She stops and he opens his eyes.  
She sucks him into her mouth.  He moans…there are very few sights in life better than this view – a beautiful woman with his cock in her mouth.  She sucks and pumps him, setting up a rhythm and moving him lower into her throat.  He watches her until his eyes roll back in his head and he’s lost in the pleasure.  She stops again.  He was able to look at her face.  
“I want you to cum,” she says, “in my mouth.”  He had told her to make that clear, so he would know whether she really wanted it.  He couldn’t believe her directness… he was used to women having so many hang-ups, it was hard for him to believe she would do this, and as the first part of their being together.  But then she was constantly surprising him.  He realized he was probably supposed to speak now.  
“Yes, ma’am,” he said.  
“If I’m not doing enough to help you do that, tell me what to do,” she said.
“Oh, you’re doing just fine,” he assured her.  She put him back in his mouth and picked up the pace.  She was going to drive him over the edge, and perhaps completely out of his mind.  And he welcomed it all.  He watched her as long as he could, cementing the sight in his mind to take out later when she was gone.  It could keep him warm at night.  
She sucked him, deeper and deeper, then pulled back to lick him, pumping him and squeezing at just the right spot… damn… he had to close his eyes and put his head back again.  Over and over she took him the edge then stopped…agony…esctasy… he went higher and higher and then just when he thought it couldn’t get any better, she used her other hand to massage his balls, and then reached even further under him to press a wet finger into his ass!  He soared so high… suddenly he couldn’t hold back anymore.  He let go…  and felt the tightness and the pressure and saw stars… and pulsed inside her throat…spurting over and over like a geyser!  
Damn if the woman didn’t swallow it all, making these incredible slurping and gulping sounds that reverberated in his brain like rockets.  It sounded like she thought it tasted like nectar from the gods!  Incredible.  The feel of her swallowing… he was sure he would never forget it.  He was breathing so fast, he thought he was going to pass out.  He sat there panting…finally opening his eyes.  
She was grinning from ear to ear…looking triumphant and oh, so sexy.  She licked her lips.  He was staring straight down her cleavage.  He wanted to kiss her, taste his juices in her mouth.  He pulled her face up to his mouth and kissed her deeply… oh, man… so sweet to taste her and himself in her.  
Now it was his turn to make her burn… he pulled her up and pressed her against his desk. 
(PHILIP – MAYBE YOU CAN WRITE SOMETHING?  Here’s a photo to inspire you)

The View

From: sassy
Date: 1994/7/23
Subject:  the view

Just as I was finishing my last meeting of the day yesterday,
gathering my papers off the marble table in the conference
room on the 36th floor, the sound of sirens wafted up from
the expressway below.  Everyone else had left the room, so
I took a minute to lean over the marble counter and stare
down at the roadway.  There was a horrible wreck of mangled
metal and shattered glass, several cars and a tractor trailer
twisted together.  The traffic was stopped behind the mess,
and the cars on the other side barely moved, rubbernecking.

Suddenly, I heard the door close. I straightened up, but before I
could turn, I felt your arm around my waist, and felt the heat of you
on my back through my dress.  You were already hard, pressed
tightly against my ass.  I started to speak, but you put a finger
on my lips and teased a corner.  I licked your thumb, and you moved
your hand down to unbutton my dress.  Just enough to slip
your hand inside and tease a hard nipple.  I moaned and let my head
fall back against your shoulder.  You bit my neck and ran your
tongue across my skin.

You slipped your hand under my skirt and inside my underwear,
teasing my most sensitive spot.  You pressed a finger inside,
unsurprised at the moisture gathered there.  I was startled
as you lowered my underwear.  I felt like my knees would
buckle, but you tightened your grip and spread my legs to
balance me against the counter.  I panicked when I heard
the rasping sound of your zipper, but before I could form the
words in my mind to stop you, I felt you hot and hard against
my skin, and a low moan was all that escaped my lips.  You
shoved it inside me, and your breathing grew ragged as you
watched yourself slide in and out.  You kneeded the flesh of
my hips as you moved, then reached around me to rub the top
of my slit in time with your strokes.  I was trying to be
quiet, but could not hold in all the gasps of pleasure as
you thrust deeper and deeper inside me, your balls slapping
against me.  You felt the trembling start inside me, and
the clenching around you.  You felt the pulsing, the searing
heat and suddenly lost control, pounding me into the wood
and stone, spurting up inside me over and over.

The only sound was our uneven breathing and the whirring
air conditioning.  You pressed your cheek to my back and
whispered, “What a view…”



Crazy idea #37

Crazy idea #37
Between Phil and You
December 27 at 5:24am
Hey, kid. Hope your day is off to a good start.

I want to ask a favor. This may be nuts. But… here I go anyway. I couldn’t sleep, so I wrote a short story. Involving a threesome. First time my imagination has gone there. So…

1) Do you want to read it? and tell me what you think? Can I email it to you? Maybe read it the first time with FB chat open, type reactions as you read it? It’s not very long.

2) If you are inspired, will you edit it, add to it, fix it? Give me the benefit of a male perspective and your vast imagination? Or give me ideas of ways to refine it? It’s rough right now, definitely first draft. But I’m stuck.
I know you are busy. But it’s short. If you want to, and there is a time, let me know. Maybe early morning? or late night? If not, I understand. Just… could use your help. Thought it might be fun.
December 27 at 6:53am
Phil Fire away. 19 hours into the trip. Had to do almost all the driving with an annoying noise coming from the passenger seat. Have a great day! Glad to hear you are feeling better.

TEXT
10:44 am Me: [photo of the parking lot covered in snow.]  
White world!

December 27 at 10:46am
Good morning! Hope your drive is going well. It’s a white world here. 28 degrees. Looks like we got about a foot of snow, but with 50 mph winds, it’s blowing! Still snowing lightly…not supposed to get much more. Roads look fine. There is a 30 foot high pile at the base of the lot! Coffee shop and grocery are open. Very quiet out there. Sent you a photo.
December 27 at 10:51am
I can’t believe you started driving yesterday! Eep! Hope the roads weren’t too bad. So sorry to hear about the “annoying noise,” hoped that maybe things would be different.  Tell me where you are now and then. Like to follow along.
December 27 at 11:29am
My surgeon called – woke me up about 9:30 am. Mostly good news. But she needs to go back in to snag a tiny bit more. Can do it quickly, under sedation, so no anesthesia, same incision.
Not sure how much you want to hear…Could bcc you on detail email to family, but figure not to, because you have enough to worry about… not keeping secrets. But if you are worrying and details would help, say so. I’m getting lots of support on the cancer front, so I don’t want to burden you with that crap. We have more fun stuff to talk about. 🙂
TEXTS
12:10 pm Phil: [photo of a big pile of snow in a parking lot] 
1:02 pm Me: Wow, that’s quite a pile!  Take care…
December 27 at 1:51pm
Are you there yet? 😉
I cooked! (don’t faint) I made breakfast. At noon. Ham and cheese omelette, English muffins with raspberry jam. OJ. All four food groups! Yum.
December 27 at 4:43pm
Would you read some of my other stories before I show you the rough draft of the new one? Get a better sense of my style. There are four that I think are representative… 3 very short and one longer. They are not high art, but were written awhile ago to get the stories out of my head, to inspire a guy far away who was lonely, as a prompt to get his mind spinning in a good direction and make his body go wild. I itch to edit them now, but they were effective as they were. Maybe they will be a bright spot in your hard days… Don’t open them unless you are alone or have amazing control!
December 27 at 7:23pm
Hiya! Hope your day is ending well. Watching football tonight?
Sent the four stories – The View, The bum, The diner, and The Trade. Hope they warm you up a bit. And you don’t think they’re awful. They should give you an idea of my style. Though they all feel a bit out-of-date. And unfinished. Trying not to be nervous about you reading them… if you have time to comment, that’s fine. If not, just consider them background reading.
Reading them inspired me to try again on current one, “The Flat Tire” so I will wait a little to send that. See if I can make it 2nd draft material before I show it to you. At least I’ve graduated to a three-word title. 🙂
December 27 at 10:49pm
Hiya, kid. Hope you’re having a good evening. Quiet time here. Did some more writing – sent you the latest draft of the tire story. Help! 🙂
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10:55 pm Me: Email bouncing… New address?

December 27 at 11:43pm
Last story bounced… said you aren’t a customer anymore. Figures, with you moving…. send new address? Headed to bed… sleep well, sweet man. Stay warm.
Tuesday, December 28
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7:29 am Me: [photo of the parking lot the day after the big snow.]
The morning after

Tuesday tubes
Between Phil and You
December 28 at 7:42am
Good morning! I hope your day is off to a great start. Another gorgeous sunrise. Very cold and clear here – 20 degrees – and windy. Brrr…. Quiet in the lot. They got it cleaned up quickly. Have a wonderful day!
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8:52 am Phil: Looking better.  Need a new email address.  I never even thought about that. 

Phil December 28 at 9:43am
Been to the gym. Sitting on the floor with a dog on my lap since I have no chairs yet. Gotta go buy are rugs today. Floors are freezing! Have a great one.


TEXTS
10:34 am Me: Whatever server you get, you might want a gmail address, so you don’t have to change it ever.  It’s free and they give you huge storage, search features, access via browser.  If you need an invite to get it, I have extra.

11:18 am Me: checked, gmail is open access now, just go to gmail.com and sign-up.  It auto-syncs with Android, has great calendar etc
11:43 am Phil:  I have a gmail account. Gotta figure out the address

December 28 at 12:41pm
Found a way you can see my stories without using email. Much safer, I think, uploaded as Google Docs. In theory, you click on this URL for first short one, “The view.” Let me know if it works, and I will do them all.

December 28 at 10:10pm

Hey, kid. Hope you had a good one and found nice rugs. Missing you… can it be only been two weeks since our lobsterfest? Call me sometime? Would love to hear your voice.  Weird day here. Hubby was in a a complete funk. Sucked. Hope tomorrow is better.

Phil December 28 at 10:59pm
Got great rugs, had a good day. Shoveled snow, threw salt down, chipped ice, had a nice Italian dinner, sipping scotch by the fire now. Winding down.

December 28 at 11:04pm
Ah, what a picture you paint… Fire, scotch, handsome fella… I’m tucked in bed, but not sleepy… Listening to mushy music. Sleep well, sweet man.