What’s kinky?

Kinky sex.

That’s the August topic for Prowling with Kat‘s blog chain.  When I saw it, I thought “Well… I don’t know anything about THAT!”

So… what is kinky sex?  A lot of people think my cyber sex adventures are kinky.  The only time Philip ever used that word was during a sexy chat in April when I suggested pulling a strap-on out of thin air (I’ve never seen one) and shoving it up his ass.  That caused quite a reaction!  

In truth, I don’t know what’s considered kinky anymore.  I used to think sex meant 3.5 minutes in the missionary position and anything else was kinky.  Now I’ve read lots of sexy blogs, and seen tumblrs and videos, learning a lot while making my way from there to

  • “sex can be FUN!” through
  • “ways married couples can have fun!” to lots of
  • “have sex with someone who’s not your spouse!” to a 
  • dom’s blog
  • sub’s blog
  • swingers
  • hotwives and cuckholds 
  • lots of people with ropes, nipple clamps and whips
  • a woman who adores anal sex and being fisted
  • a man helping a friend with her abduction fantasy
  • public sexual humiliation
  • a bi curious married man, and most recently 
  • a gay married family man who’s a top having sex with men who are bottoms for money!  

Is kinky “what other people do?”  Or “what I haven’t tried yet?” or “what the media get all hepped up about” or “what sex Hollywood shows the murderer having!”  Yes, I checked wikipedia and it has lots of interesting info but explains that “Because of its relation to “normal” sexual boundaries, which themselves vary by time and place, the definition of what is and is not kink varies widely as well.”

I’ve learned a lot and still have a lot to learn.  I like to read and try to understand, even if I decide it’s not my thing.  I am still relatively mundane, but don’t judge – you should do “whatever turns you on!”  And not worry about labeling it or classifying it.   Though that can help find you a like-minded person.  [Do check with your playmate(s) to be sure it’s consensual.]    

I often wish there was a short-hand term for “the kind of sex I like” but it is still evolving!   When Philip found me, he asked what I like to do in bed.  I replied, “I don’t know,” because it had been so long I had no clue.  Now I can go on for six paragraphs, but it boils down to “Men” and “Sex.”  That’s good for a laugh, anyway.

Due to the wonders of a long-distance relationship,  I don’t have sex very often, so my fantasies are stuck on the basics like “it would be nice to be kissed” or “wow…. I wish Philip was around to touch me.”  Different varieties of sex seem like impossible dreams!  

But I know you came here for some kinky sex, so tune in tomorrow when I give you a link to the blog chain and you can read where other bloggers go when they write about kinky sex.




Texting a Story Part 2

[For parts 1-4, see Texting a Story Part 1]


Saturday, July 16
8:16 am Good morning!  70 sunny, 90 later.  Busy day for  Hubby – two events.  I’ll hobnob around. Envy your Irish breakfast.  Have a stupendous Saturday! 
8:36 am [Part 5] He moved up to kiss her, pressing the massager between them so they shared the vibrations, as he put his tongue in her mouth. She thought of another body part he could put in, moaned. He kissed down her body as she squirmed. He removed her clothes, diving into her wet core w/ his tongue, tasting her.
10:39 am [Part 6] He used the massager on her ass as he flicked her clit with his tongue. She thrashed and he shoved a finger into her, feeling vibrations and the muscles tighten. She squeaked and shook, soaring. She pulled him up for kisses, then grabbed the toy and put it beside his balls with her mouth on his cock.
1:30 pm [Part 7] He moaned as she sucked him down her throat, pressing the massager into his ass. He held her head, watching her fuck him with her talented mouth. He moaned. She stopped. He took a deep breath; she started deeper. He gasped. “Damn girl!” She wiggled the toy in his ass, and hummed. It made him go wild
5:32 pm [Part 8] He told her how hot it was, better than he’d thought, how she made him burn, how tough it was to hold back, how to move her hand to make it even better, how incredible she was, that he was going to cum. Mmm… he peaked, shivered and she tasted the sweetness. He jerked away and shot on her tits
9:08 pm [Part 9] She smiled. It warmed his heart. He pounced on her and rolled around, hugging her, laughing and kissing. He tasted himself in her mouth. They talked of everything and nothing. He slipped inside her. She wrapped her legs around him and pulled him deeper. He moved in and out. So tight, so hot, so wet.
10:07 pm Eyes won’t stay open, off to bed.  Wish you could tuck me in… sweet dreams, kid.

Texting a Story Part I

Friday, July 15, 2011

7:28 am Good morning!  68/82 perfect!  Zap #19 and no work!  Yay!  Have a fabulous Friday, kid!
12:32 pm [Part 1] He had a sore shoulder, a terrible knot in the muscle. I sat him on the bed, and got the vibrating hand massager. Whirrrrrr. Pressed it gently on the spot, kneading it. He sighed as the vibrations and pressure began to relieve the pain. He thanked me and went to get up but I moved it lower
9:32 pm [Part 2] I gently massaged his lower back, pulling the tension of the day away. He sighed, stretching across the bed, almost asleep. I pressed lower, at the top of his legs. He murmured “so good” as vibrations got to his sensitive areas. I pressed up into his ass, and his hips twitched. He rolled toward me
10:33 pm [Part 3] Brookstone mini massager [photo of the massager]

11:33 pm [Part 4] “Give me that” he demanded. She handed it over and he pressed it to the top of her slit. Mmmm… Now her hips shifted toward him. She shut her eyes. He squeezed her breast w/ his other hand, undid her top to expose her ample cleavage. He put his mouth there, sucked as she moaned, til he’d marked her
11:57 pm Hope you have a nice night.  Sweet dreams, kid.

Blog Chain Fun – Outdoor Sex

Hello Readers!

We interrupt our regularly scheduled sexy Sassy and Phil conversation for the second round of Prowling With Kat‘s Blog Chain, a fun monthly exercise in posting on the same topic with a bunch of sexy bloggers.  It’s a fun way to see what bloggers with different styles think on a topic, and show us new blogs to read!  Yay!  

If you missed last month’s entries, pop over to the first blog chain post in June about “Firsts.” There will be a new topic each month on the 10th!  

Many thanks to Kat and Ryan from The Ashley Madison Adventures of a Regular Guy Gone Bad for their work on this project!  If you haven’t read their blogs, go to the beginning and read every post!  Amazing sexy stories!  And advice!  Consider adding them and all the chain bloggers to your blog roll so you won’t miss a post.  If you blog, please join in with your own ideas next month when the topic is kinky sex!  (I need to learn more about that!) Kat makes it easy and fun.  Here’s how it works

It’s summer time here, and the temperature is HOT so go read about Outdoor/Summer Sex!  
There are eight smoking hot entries this month.  Leave juicy comments!  Enjoy!

-Sassy

Blog Chain Fun

Hello Readers!

We interrupt our regularly scheduled sexy Sassy and Phil posts with this breaking news bulletin!

Big news!  Sassy is joining the chain gang!  No… not with a bunch of prisoners, but a blog chain!

It always make my day to get email from bloggers, but a message from the handsome, talented and obtuse Ryan Beaumont from The Ashley Madison Adventures of A Regular Guy Gone Bad is something special!  He invited me to participate in Prowling With Kat‘s Blog Chain, a fun exercise in posting monthly on the same topic with a bunch of bloggers.  It’s a fun way to see what bloggers with different styles post on a topic, and show us new blogs to read!  Yay!  I feel like one of the cool kids!

It set off a creative frenzy – I wrote several posts about my past I’ve been meaning to pull together, and about my 6-month blogiversary in less than two hours!  Whee!

The first blog chain post went up today about “Firsts,” and there will be a new topic each month on the 10th!  Many thanks to Kat and Ryan for their work on this project!  If you haven’t read their blogs, go the beginning and read every post!  Amazing sexy stories!  And advice!  And consider adding them and all the chain posters to your blog roll so you won’t miss a post.  And if you blog, join in with your own ideas!

Click here to see what this project is all about and leave juicy comments.  Enjoy!
http://shackledkat.blogspot.com/2012/06/sex-blog-chain-first.html

-Sassy

Erotica

Here are all my erotic fiction stories that I’ve shared with Phil
in one place for your viewing pleasure.  Enjoy!

The View
An interesting afternoon in the office
http://samesassygirl.blogspot.com/2012/03/the-view.html

His Desk
Sneaking into his office
http://samesassygirl.blogspot.com/2012/03/his-desk.html

Stormy sex
How to make a thunderstorm less scary
http://samesassygirl.blogspot.com/2012/05/stormy-sex.html

The Fan
(with Phil’s comments interspersed)
A writer and a fan hit it off
http://samesassygirl.blogspot.com/2011/12/fan-chat.html

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What if Phil had found me again at a different point in our lives?

What If Phil Was My First
http://samesassygirl.blogspot.com/2012/03/what-if-phil-was-my-first.html

What If Phil Was My Second
http://samesassygirl.blogspot.com/2012/03/what-if-phil-was-my-second.html

What If Stag Night Fling
http://samesassygirl.blogspot.com/2012/03/what-if-stag-night-fling.html

What If In A Boston Bar
http://samesassygirl.blogspot.com/2012/04/what-if-in-boston-bar.html

What If In California
http://samesassygirl.blogspot.com/2012/04/what-if-in-california.html

What If London
http://samesassygirl.blogspot.com/2012/04/what-if-london.html

What If At Fenway
http://samesassygirl.blogspot.com/2012/10/what-if-at-fenway.html

Stormy Sex

From: Sassy Girl
Subject: The storm story
Date: May 7, 2011 9:04:24 PM EDT
To: Phil
Hi, Philip. 
There were thunderstorms this afternoon that inspired me to write a quick 2-page story.
You should also be able to see it in the gmail documents folder.  If it doesn’t work, let me know.
Enjoy!
-S
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The Storm
He made it inside just as the first thunder clap sounded.  BANG!  It started to pour as he walked past the living room windows.  Wow. That was close.  He loved thunderstorms!  He was very tempted to stand outside to watch the storm.  Maybe even dance in the downpour.  But there was something more important he had to do.  
He knew where to find her.  He shed his clothes as he made his way to the bedroom and sure enough, there was this lump the size of a person under the blanket. He rubbed where he thought a leg might be, and a slight whimper filtered out through the covers.  There was a crash of lightning and another big boom, and she shrieked.  
“It’s okay.  You’re okay.  I’m here,” he said calmly, trying to be soothing.  He crawled into the bed next to her.  She clung to him and wrapped herself around him, burying her head in his chest, trembling.  He couldn’t believe she was still such a wuss about thunderstorms.  She was so brave about almost everything else.  
But he knew how to distract her.  He put his hands on her back and rubbed gently.  He explored up and then down, surprised that she was naked.  He pressed her ass so that she fit tightly against him.  She moaned sweetly when she felt him hard against the top of her leg.  She shifted her head up and grabbed his head with her hands, kissing him frantically.  He slowed her down a bit, pressing his tongue into her mouth at a leisurely pace and making more soothing noises.  
“We have plenty of time…” he pointed out, squeezing her breast and teasing the nipple.
“Fuck me,” she whispered fiercely.  It sent a shock wave through him.  He loved it when she talked dirty to him.  Everyone else saw her as an ultra-polite, demure lady.  Only he knew about the wild girl inside.  She was turning the intense fear into another emotion, putting it to good use.  Smart girl.   
“Yes, ma’am…” he chuckled.  He hugged her, pondering which position would be best.  
“Fuck me now,” she urged him. She wasn’t going to let him go slow today.  She flattened him onto the bed, straddled him and pressed him close, shifting her hips to rub him against her.  He could feel her dripping already.  It made him a little crazy.  He shifted slightly and she took him inside her and began to move.  Up and down she went.  He put a hand on her hip and one on her breast, twisting, teasing…
He knew her inside and out, as much as any person can know another.  But it never stopped surprising him how tight and hot she was, how he fit inside her like a sculptor had made him to be there and made her to make him feel so incredible every single time.  When he first touched her as a green boy, he realized that she was different.  He had felt an emotional connection for ages, but when they finally kissed, he felt a physical connection to her that he never felt again in his life.  Special, comfortable, exciting… and at times, inflammatory.  Chemistry.  That had never changed.  He thought he would get tired of her, stop thinking about her, stop wanting her… but it never happened.  Sometimes it drove him crazy, when he couldn’t get to her.  When he could and he couldn’t get inside her fast enough.  But it was the best kind of crazy… it made him feel alive.  Kept him young.  Made them both happier than anything or anyone else.  And the most amazing thing was that she felt the same way.  He marveled over that every day.  
She stopped moving… sensing that his mind had drifted.  He snapped back to her body and what she was doing, putting a finger at the top of her slit and flicking her most sensitive spot.  She sighed in pleasure and started moving again, rising up, arching her back and driving down on him again, shoving him so deep inside…. and then out again.  Her tits looked amazing when she did that!  It was the sweetest form of torture… so hot, so wet, so…. hmmmm.. he could not think when she was like this.  He could feel… oh, man could he feel!  Every nerve in his body was on fire.  And he craved the heat.  She kept turning up the temperature… taking him closer and closer… and then stopping.  She was panting.  She leaned over and kissed him again, sucking his tongue, twisting her hips… damn.  He felt the magic start.  He wasn’t going to last long if she kept this up… it was as if every muscle inside her was trying to squeeze him, milk him… whoa, baby.  What a woman…he thought she was going to make him peak.  But when he thought he couldn’t take it another moment, she stopped, flipping over onto her back on the bed. 
She lay there breathing loudly.  He tried to figure out what she was up to.  She turned to him and kissed him, wrapping herself around him on her side.  She stroked him, then put her hand lower, caressing his balls, pressing the spots she knew would send him soaring.  His breath grew ragged.. what would she do next?  
She pressed a finger inside his ass.  Oh, wow… she was really trying to push all his buttons this time!  His hips rocketed off the bed.  She pumped in and out, whispering in his ear.  “You like it when I fuck you, don’t you, fella?  Like it when I give your ass the love, eh?”she said, making a little sucking sound.  He moaned.  She knew just what to do.  She moved down his body, putting her mouth where her hand had been, licking his cock and sucking it deep into her mouth, then kissing his balls and sucking them and finally sticking her tongue in his ass!  He moaned and trembled.  She could be such a vixen!  
That was it.  He rolled over, pulled her legs up to his shoulders, and dove back inside her, pumping, deep, long strokes while she moaned and then screamed, her head thrashing from side to side.  He watched her shake, felt her hips crashing up against him.  She opened her eyes and the look… the look nearly made him explode.  So many words popped into his head… lust, passion, fire… love.  No one loved him like she did.  Her mind, her body… it all went together to make him know… mmmm…. 
There was another big thunderclap and she jumped.  He went wild on her, his hips thrusting in and out, hearing the slap of his balls on her skin and her moans… he let go, let his body take over, let the pulsing inside her trigger the flow…. he filled her, shooting over and over inside her, grunting and moaning and… exploding.  He collapsed beside her, feeling his heart beat, listening to her breathing… smiling. He did love thunderstorms!  And her…

What If London

From: Sassy Girl
Subject: 2001 London
Date: April 25, 2011 8:52:27 AM EDT
To: Phil

HI, Philip. 
In honor of the Royal Wedding this week, I finished a story – “October 2001 in London.”  
Photos, Chinese food, theater… and LONDON! 
Enjoy!  Comment?
You should be able to see it in the gmail documents folder.  If it doesn’t work, let me know.
It’s the 6th recent (1975, 1977, 1980, 1990, 2000, 2001).  
Have a great week! 

-S

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October 2001 in London
– What actually happened 
  email from Sassy to a friend – Wednesday, 10/24/2001
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We took a cab into London and saw the Crown Jewels at the Tower of London.  They are spectacular!  The crowns are the best – huge gems…gold, platinum…and then all the orbs and sceptres and rings and tankards and 36 gallon gold punch bowl!  The cobblestones were murder on my broken foot, so we didn’t go on the other tours.  We went downtown and had lunch at the Dome Pub.  I am amazed how the pubs are not just glorified bars the way they are in the U.S.  They are more like “Au Bon Pub” with fancier food and decor.  We shared potato garlic soup, caesar salad and a turkey club.
We toured St. Paul‘s Cathedral.  It is massive but much more a modern, working church than Westminster Abbey.  They stop everyone on the hour and say the Lord’s Prayer together.
We took a cab home and rested before going to the tube and the Theatre.  We went to the Theatre Royal Drury Lane for “My Fair Lady.” We were in the third row on the floor in the back section – “the stalls”.  They charge for programmes!  And they not only let you have food in there, they sell food inside the theatre!  A nifty thing is that every other seat has a pair of binoculars you can rent for 50p!
Jonathan Pryce was Henry Higgins!  He was marvelous!  Good thing – the rest of the cast was mediocre.  But we had fun.  It ran over 3 hours!  So we didn’t get to dinner until 10:45 pm.  We had French cuisine up over Covent Garden.  I had escargots in garlic butter, then a mixed grill of sausage, beef, chicken and lamb with bernaise sauce.  It was ok.  The waitress was asleep.  We took the last Tube train home and I fell into bed.
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– What I wish had happened 
In the Pub
I was sitting in the Punch Tavern at 99 Fleet Street in London, down the street from St. Paul’s Cathedral, with my feet up.  After doing a lot of sightseeing, I was worn out.  My sister was in the loo.  We had just finished a delicious late lunch and I was longing for a nap.  
http://www.punchtavern.com/ 
A man strolled in wearing a football sweatshirt.  Hmm… American?  My goodness, he’s tall, dark and  handsome!  I hadn’t seen many Americans this trip.  In the aftermath of September 11, few people from the U.S. were flying, especially not overseas.  Most of the tourist places we visited were less crowded than usual, and filled with German, French and Japanese accents.  
The football fan sat at the bar, and ordered a drink with an American accent.  He looked at the door, probably waiting for someone.  Then he glanced around.  There were only a few other people at this odd hour.  He stopped when he got to me and stared.  I looked away.  When I looked back, he was still staring.  I wondered if there was something about me that shouted “American” to him or what.   Being 42 and rather plump, I was not used to men noticing me at all, much less staring.  He came over to the table!
“Sassy?”  I was astonished to hear my name pop from his mouth.  “It is you, isn’t it?” he asked, sitting down beside me.  I could not figure out how he knew my name.
“It’s me, Phil.  Philip from home,” he told me.  
“Wow!  What a blast from the past!” I replied, smiling. 
I was flooded with memories of a beautiful boy with long brown hair – singing, laughing, kissing… my first love.  Though I never told him that.  I did a quick calculation – we dated…28 years ago, when I was a freshman in high school.  Yikes.  How could it be that long ago?  Looking at his smile, it seemed like yesterday.  
“Why are you in London?” I asked.  
“I’m still in the military, working in Cornwall, here for a meeting,” he said.  “What about you?”
“Visiting my little sister, you remember?  She lives here,” I explained.  
“Damn…she was in kindergarten the last time I saw her,” he said.  
“She’s in her thirties now.  Her husband works here,” I said.  
At that moment, she returned to the table.  She stared at the man, then at me, giving me the “I’m not gone 5 minutes and you get into trouble,” look.  Philip stood up to let her have her seat back.
“Sis, you remember Philip from church?” I said.  Her eyes widened.  She obviously did.
“Yes.  Yes, of course.  Small world!” she exclaimed, pleasantly shaking his hand while shooting me her “I can not believe you are talking to the guy who broke your heart” look.  I prayed she would not voice that particular thought.  God granted me that much.     
“Can I take you two out for dinner?” he piped up.  We stared at him.  
“We just finished lunch,” I said.  
“And we have theater tickets,” my sister added.  But then she got this fiendish look.  
“Philip, why don’t you take my ticket and take Sassy to the show?” she asked.  “I can see it later and I’m sure your two have a lot to catch up on,” she added, smiling sweetly at me.  I gave her my “I am going to strangle you with my bare hands,” look.  
“Oh, I’d love that,” Philip said.  I felt as if I wasn’t there.  They both finally looked at me for approval.
“Sure.  Sounds great,” I said, nodding, wondering what on earth I had just agreed to.  
“You’ll make sure she gets back to my flat?” she added sternly.
“Of course,” Philip agreed immediately.  
“You are welcome to crash with us, too, if you like,” she offered.  “We have lots of room.”
“Thank you.  That’s very kind,” he said. 
She pulled on her coat, rooted in her bag for the tickets, and handed them to me.  I could not believe she would leave me alone with him so quickly.  She was probably sick of me after a week of showing me around.  She gave me a hug, whispered “You have cab fare, right?” in my ear and I nodded.
“Right then, I’ll be off home.  Have fun, you two,” she said.  And she was gone.  Rat fink.  
Philip and I stared after her, and then turned back to stare at each other.
“What an interesting girl,” he said.  “I like her,” he said, chuckling.  He settled into the chair next to me again, pulling it closer.  
The second she was out of sight, he threaded his fingers through my long hair and kissed me gently on the mouth.  I was so surprised, I gasped.  He nibbled my lips and rubbed his nose on mine.  I sighed and he pressed his tongue deep into my mouth.  I should have pulled away, but it felt wonderful.  I was lost in his taste – a faint trace of scotch – and the electricity flowing between us.  He explored my mouth and I reacted on instinct, sucking gently.  His tongue went deeper.  I added mine and he moaned, soft and low.  I wanted it to go on forever.  It didn’t make any sense, but I felt completely at ease with him.  I started to think this was the best kiss I’d ever experienced.  
“Oh, girl…I’ve wanted to do that forever,” he said in awe.  “You always were the best kisser,” he sighed, when he finally let me catch a breath.  “I’ll never forget our first kiss.  Do you remember?  At camp?  It was the most memorable and electric kiss of my life.”  I didn’t remember anything about that.  Oh, dear.  
He took my hand, looking at the gold band on my ring finger.  “Where is your husband?” he asked, stroking my palm with a finger.  
“Home, in Boston.  He doesn’t fly,” I answered.  I realized I had not given him a thought while Philip was kissing me silly.  Oops.  
“When did you get married?” he asked.  
“1996,” I answered.  “It’s five years, next week,” I added.  “You?”
“You remember Sally?  We’ve been married over 20 years, have two kids,” he said. 
“Wow,” was all that I could say.  He had married the pretty blond from high school.  And stayed with her all these years.  Then I realized I should say more.  “How old are your children?” I asked. 
“They’re teenagers,” he replied.  “You have kids?”  
“No.. cats!” I replied.  
“Ah.  I’m more of a dog man, myself.”  He smiled.  “Do you work outside the home?” he asked.

“Yes.  I’m an office manager for a big company in downtown Boston,” I answered.  He looked impressed.  I shrugged.  “I work too much,” I added.  
He was quiet for a moment.  “I’ve thought of you a lot over the years,” he stated.  I stared at him, astonished.  “We don’t have much time, so I am going to be very honest.  Okay?”
“Of course,”  I replied, very curious now.  
“Well, I… I always regretted breaking up with you.  I was just a kid and I didn’t understand… we weren’t done,” he tried to explain.  I was flabbergasted.  I didn’t remember much about dating him, except that he broke my heart.  When he left, I know I thought, “He’ll regret it and come back someday, saying he’s sorry,” but conventional wisdom says that never happens.  It took awhile, but here he was!   
I patted him on the arm and said, “Thank you for saying that.  It’s incredibly sweet.”  He smiled.  
“I promised myself that if I could find you, if I ever got the chance, I would make it very clear that you are very special to me, and that I’d give anything to…um… be part of your life again,” he finished.  He smiled again, but looked a little nervous about how I would take all that.  
“What do you mean?” I asked.  He took a deep breath.  
“I want to finish what we started as teenagers.  I want you.  Right now.  I want to be alone with you and make love to you every way we can think of.  I haven’t been with anyone other than my wife, and she doesn’t… well, she isn’t a passionate person.  I’ve always been faithful to her anyway, and I’m not looking to leave her, but… this feels separate.  I don’t know how much you remember, but we were magic together.  Even as green kids, we had this…”
“Chemistry,” popped out of my mouth.  I didn’t have many memories, but somewhere in the deep recesses of my brain, there was something.  “Safe, sexy…and fun,” rolled out too.  
“Exactly!” he said, inordinately pleased that I was following his line of thought.  “We always had fun, and we were able to talk, and I think it’s the same now,” he said.  “I know this is fast, and I would never do anything to make you uncomfortable, but… I want you alone in my hotel room as fast as our feet will carry us,” he admitted.  
“Wow,” I said, having a little trouble taking this all in.  I was lost in a mixture of how amazing it would be to touch him, and have him touch me, and all the ways it could be a disaster.  What if it was great and I never saw him again?  What if it was awful?  What if he was an axe murderer?  
I think he saw the confusion on my face, because he said, “But if that’s not something you can do, we’ll go to the theater and talk, just like the old friends we are.”
I stared at him and it was crystal clear to me that I wanted to go with him.  That I trusted him.  I could not believe that this handsome man wanted to be with frumpy old married me!  I had never cheated on my husband, but it felt completely right.  Truth was, he probably wouldn’t care, might even be happy for me.  We were good friends, but he had given up on the physical side our married life two years ago and told me that he wasn’t interested in me that way anymore.  I struggled with how to explain that.  
“I can’t believe you want me.  I’m not 14 anymore,” I said wistfully.  
“You are beautiful, because you’re you.  It’s mostly about attitude, you know,” he said. “You’re husband is a lucky guy,” he added. 
“Hmmm…well.. see…um.. I don’t know why I can tell you this.  I haven’t told anyone else.  But we don’t, I mean, he doesn’t…want me that way anymore,” I spit out the sad truth in a rush.  
“What?” Philip asked, incredulous.  “You don’t.. aren’t.. physically involved?”  I nodded, looking at the floor.  It was incredibly hard to admit that.  He put a finger under my chin and said, “You are a very sexy woman.  You deserve to be ravaged regularly!”  I giggled at that.  He kissed me deeply to punctuate his statement.  
“I’m not even sure I know what to do anymore…” I admitted.  “I’ve been faithful, too, so I haven’t been with anyone in so long,” I said.  “I’ve… turned off all that.”  
“I hear it’s like riding a bicycle,” he said, leering at me.  “I have some definite ideas on what we could do.  I’ve had a long time to think about it.  I can turn you on, Sass.”  I smiled at that.  I had forgotten his pet name for me.  He was the only one who ever called me that.  It made me tingle!  
It brought back a very clear memory of his beautiful brown eyes, very close to mine, while he was pressing me against the cement wall of the choir room at church, the sunshine pouring in from the small rectangular window above my head as he held me, pressing me close with his hand on my back.  
“This is unreal…Philip,” I said.  “I wish I remembered more,” I sighed.  
“We had a lot of fun, but we never…you know we never…did it, right?”  
“Yes, I know.  I was a confirmed virgin in those days,” I assured him.  “I didn’t go all the way until senior year,” I admitted. “And it wasn’t that great.” 
“Hunh… I waited too, and it was… awkward,” he said.
“I wanted you to… I think it would have been… better with you… but I wasn’t ready and in such a small town… it was such a fishbowl for me,” I explained.
“Well… we can’t change the past.  But we could do something about it now.  I’ve played out our adventures in my mind to their um… natural conclusion.  A lot.  At night.  While I was alone.. well, you know…” he said, struggling where there was no polite term.  
“I was your jumping off point for masturbation all these years?” I asked, going right to the big word.  I was flattered.  And astonished.  Both that it was true, and that he would tell me.  I could not believe that while I was lying cold and alone in my bed all these years, he’d been somewhere out there, thinking of me, wanting me.  How strange life is!  
“Yup,” he confirmed.  “I can’t believe you’re taking this so well,” he added.   
“I want to go with you… but can we start slower?  Maybe head to the theater district for dinner and see the show, see how it goes?” I suggested.  
“Sure… that’s fine.  Really,” he assured me.   We rose together and were standing face to face for the first time.  I was impressed with how tall and substantial he was.  He hugged me.  
“I can’t believe I found you in a pub, 3,000 miles from home,” he marveled.  “I knew it was you right away, Sass.  You kept your hair long.  And your smile.  And your round granny glasses.  And your… chest,” he leered at my ample bosom.  My friends had always kidded me about how I never change the way I look.  It was paying off big time right now!  
“I need to run to the loo… don’t go away, okay?” I asked.
“Not a chance,” he replied.  
In the Loo
I went down the back hall to the facilities.  It was a single – an open space with a toilet and sink, very modern and luxurious for a pub.  I took care of business and washed my hands, staring at my reflection in the mirror.  It was so odd that I didn’t look different.  I felt completely different.  Alive.  Sexy.  For the first time in years!  
I opened the door and Philip was standing in the door frame.  He was so gorgeous, I went a little crazy – I pulled him inside and locked the door!  He wrapped his arms around me and leaned back against the door.
“Ever made out in the ladies loo before?” I whispered in his ear.  He looked around at the floral artwork and pink wallpaper.  
“No, ma’am, but I am happy to try it,” he chuckled.  He put his hands on my ass and pressed me against him.  He was hard against my belly and it made my insides ache for him.  I wanted him in a way I had never wanted any man.  Sex had always been something a man did to me, but I suddenly had ideas of my own!  
“If you don’t want to fuck me right here, you should let go and walk out that door,”  I warned him.  He growled and held me tighter than ever, pushing his tongue into my mouth.  I moaned.  He pressed me against the sink.  
“Sass, I… I am usually slower… I mean, I love foreplay, but this first time… in this place… I just want to be inside you so bad… I… tell me it’s alright?” he asked, panting.  
“Sounds good to me!” I told him enthusiastically.  He put his hand under my skirt and ran his finger along the edge of my panties.  I spread my legs a bit more and he stuck a finger inside me!  
“Oh yeah.. you are so wet… you are ready to go,” he said.  “Mmmmm….” he sighed as he moved his finger in and out of me.  It made me want him to hurry even more!  He rolled off my underwear.  
I worked on his belt and zipper, getting my fingers around him.  I stroked him gently.  He got the most amazing look on his face and his breathing quickened.  
“Feels like you’re all set, too,” I observed. 
“Oh, girl, I have been waiting for this since I was 16 years old… ‘ready’ doesn’t begin to describe it,” he assured me.  He kissed my neck in that spot guaranteed to drive me wild.  
“I’d better put you inside me, then, eh?”  I pumped him a little faster.  
“Mmm… ah… oh, you have good hands.  Wait… two questions.  Do you want me to wear a condom?” he asked.  “I can’t get you pregnant… had a vasectomy.  And I don’t have any diseases.”  
“Ah…thanks for asking.  No, you don’t have to.  I’m clean, too.  Always been careful,” I told him.   “What’s the other question?”  
“You going to tell me why you’re willing to do this with me?” he asked.  I looked him in the eye, trying to figure out if he was ready to hear a secret I’d kept since 1973.
“I think I know why… you can tell me,” he insisted when he saw me hesitate.  
“I love you,” I said, very quietly, terrified about how he’d take hearing that, despite our current position.  I had forgotten a lot, but not the most important thing.  
“I love you, too, Sass,” he whispered, smiling.  “I’ve always loved you, and I was pretty sure you felt the same,”  Relief and joy washed over me.  I was convinced at this point that I was dreaming and my alarm would go off at any moment.  
“Never thought I’d hear that from you.  Especially not in the ladies room!” I giggled.  He chuckled and spanked me on the ass.   
I kissed him then lowered his jeans and underwear, and pulled him toward me slowly.  He lifted my leg and wrapped it around his waist, pulling us together.  He rubbed against me.  My body reacted in a way I’d never felt before…keening toward him.  I had this odd image of being a big lock, and he was the key, about to open up a new world to me, set me free.  We stared into each other eyes.  I took a deep breath, twisted my hips and pressed him inside me.  He moved slowly deeper.  
“Wow, girl.  You are so tight,” he murmured.  I shifted slightly and he pressed even deeper, moaning.  “Damn, you feel so good around me,” he told me.  “Are you alright?” he asked.  
“I have never felt better in my life,” I sighed.  “You are so…perfect inside me.”
“Mmmmm…. I have dreamed of this for so long… and it’s better than I imagined!” he told me.  I put my hands on his ass and pulled him even further inside me.  “Oh, baby, I love it when you touch my ass,” he sighed.  “Anything you do down there is going to set me off.  If you’re okay with it…”  
“You can ask me for anything,” I assured him.  
“Hmmmm… not used to that,” he admitted.  “I have a vivid imagination…” he hesitated.  “I may not have much experience, but I’ve thought about some… wilder things,” he admitted.
“You can tell me.  There’s no harm in asking,” I insisted.  “I’ve done some…interesting things, and I am willing to try more to make you feel good.”  
“Hmmmm… I’d like to hear about what you’ve done,” he whispered.  “Storytelling can be sexy.’
I ran a finger down the crack of his ass and teased around the rim… matching the rhythm he was setting moving in and out of me.  When I stuck my finger inside him, his hips slammed into me and his breath grew ragged.  The sound reverberated in the small space and bounced around my brain, and I started to feel the heat in every part of my body.  It made me so hot to be able to make him happy!  I could not recall ever heading toward a climax so quickly!  
“Damn, girl.  That’s hot,” he panted.  
“Philip… you are… I… mmmmm… you are making things happen.. inside me….” I tried to explain.
“Yeah, babe, I can feel it,” he said.  All the muscles inside me were clenching, trying to hold him inside me and make it better for both of us.  He moved a little faster, pounding me into the porcelain.  I met each thrust, moaning softly in his ear when the pleasure had to escape somewhere.  He kissed me over and over, then stilled… pulsing,  panting.  I felt so hot, so high… I wanted to freeze this moment, put it in a little bag I could take out and hold when I was alone.  I had never felt so satisfied!  
There was a tap on the door.  “Allo?” said a distinctly French female voice.  Crap!  
“Just a moment,” I answered calmly.  We started giggling, and righting our clothes in a big hurry.  I flushed the toilet, washed my hands again, and then, checking to be sure Philip was covered, opened the door.  We walked out past her, and I could hear a faint, “Ooh la la” as we made our way out to the bar again.
“Damn, girl, you are one cool customer,” he marveled.  
“Yeah, well… not much else to do!” I shrugged and we chuckled again.  He dashed off to the loo to clean up, then returned to the bar area.  He offered me his arm, and steered me out to the street.

In the cab

He hailed a black cab and handed me into the back.  We went down to the West End, sitting close together.  

“Do you feel like eating Chinese?  I asked.  I know a great little family-owned place.”  
“Sure.  Sounds wonderful,” he replied.   I gave the driver the address in Soho.  
“Where are you from, mum?” he asked. 
“Boston,” I replied.
Philip said the name of a beach town on the East Coast.  I was glad to know that.  
“Ah, I thought you were Americans!  So good to see you over here!” he said.  “Are you having a good time?  Spending lots of money?”  he joked.
“Oh, yes.  London feels like home to me.  I’ve watched too many BBC dramas, and I love the elephant jokes,” I sassed back.  
“Ah, elephant jokes.  I’ll tell ya my favorite,” he offered.  
Q: How many elephants will fit into a Mini?
A: Four: Two in the front, two in the back.
Q: How many giraffes will fit into a Mini?
A: None. It’s full of elephants.
Q: How do you get two whales (to Wales) in a Mini?
A: Along the M4 and across the Severn Bridge.
Q: How do you know there are two elephants in your refrigerator?
A: You can hear giggling when the light goes out.
Q: How do you know there are three elephants in your refrigerator?
A: You can’t close the door.
Q: How do you know there are four elephants in your refrigerator?
A: There’s an empty Mini parked outside.
I had heard them before, but they made me laugh anyway.  Philip chuckled along.  It was the perfect way to ease a little of the sexual tension between us in a space where we shouldn’t do much about it!  
I took him to Y Ming, a lovely corner spot on Greek Street just off Charing Cross Road near Covent Garden.   
At the restaurant

My sister had taken me there earlier in the week.  I loved the blue storefront, and the white table clothes in the intimate dining room.  
I introduced Philip to the owner, Christine, and we ended up at a quiet table in the back corner.  He charmed her.
He pulled out a chair for me, then settled in to the one across from me.  He took my hand and rubbed my wrist with his thumb.  We ordered drinks and stared at each other.  He turned to me as if he was going to say something, but put his hand on my face instead and leaned over to kiss me.  He stopped a breath away from my lips.  
“I can’t keep my hands off you,” he murmured.  “I’m sorry… I’m usually more of a gentleman,” he sighed, pressing his forehead to mine.  I flicked his lips with my tongue.  His eyes snapped open and he glared.  
“You are not helping!” he chuckled.  I winked at him.  The drinks arrived and we started looking at the menu.  
I put my hand on his arm.  He put his hand on my knee under the table and rubbed in a small circle.  It set off such sparks inside me!  I sat there smiling like a loon, trying to take it all in.  
“I’ll order a few things and we can share, okay?” I suggested.
“Sounds wonderful,” he told him.  “I love getting to try dishes.”
“Soup?  Dumplings? Scallops?  Prawns? Lobster? Can you eat spicy food?“
“Yes,” I said.  “I can eat anything.  I love seafood.  The hotter the better.”  The waiter came by and I ordered.  Philip nodded in approval.  I chose 
– hot & sour soup, 
– steamed fresh scallops in the shell with the zesty black bean dipping sauce, 
– meat dumplings fried, 
– sizzling prawns with ginger and spring onion, 
– dry cooked beans szechuan style for a vegetable, and 
– fresh garlic lobster tails!  
It was probably too much food, but we were going to share.
“So what’s the play?” he asked, striving for some bit of normal conversation.  
“My Fair Lady,” I answered.  
“Oh, wow!  I love that music!” he said, smiling.  
“I know every word of the tunes,” I admitted. “It will be tough not to sing along!  I loved Drama Club in high school.  Do you remember the cast party for “Up the Down Staircase?” I asked.  I had an image of him sitting on my lap that night, and wondered if he recalled more details.  He gave me a very hot look, but the waiter set down the soup and we set to eating.  
The hot and sour soup was perfect – just the right balance of vinegar and meaty broth.   Philip told me about his favorite Chinese restaurant at the beach, with amazing stir-fried seafood noodle dishes. 
The scallops were gorgeous to look at and even better to eat!  When the menu said “zesty” they were not kidding around!  I admired Philip’s ease in using chopsticks.  
The dumplings were perfectly cooked – cripsy and filled with more meat than most places in Boston use.  Philip had a blissful look as he bit into a juicy dumpling and rolled his eyes in pleasure.  I wondered if I would see that look later in another context and had to squirm in my seat. 
The prawns were a little tricky to get out of the shell, but the ginger infused with the shrimp was delectable!   Philip closed his eyes and took a deep breath… the scent was almost better than the taste.  We decided to skip decorum and peel them with our fingers, giggling at our gauche behavior in a classy restaurant.  He told me about places at the beach with all-you-can-eat peel-n-eat shrimp.  I want to go there! 
The green beans were crispy and tangy.  Philip talked about how he loves to cook and that this dish is so easy to make at home, add some zing to a vegetable side dish.  I admitted that I don’t like to cook, but make really good reservations!  He chuckled but shook his head, emphasizing how much fun he has trying new recipes.  
Last and best was the lobster tails.  It made for a beautiful pile on the plate, and the garlic was subtle enough that the flavor of the lobster came through.  He said this dish tasted good, but admitted that he likes lobster better simply dipped in butter and I had to agree. 
We fed each other bites of each dish, talked about old friends from church and school, my family and his family, football and baseball.  He was a very serious football fan.  He told me his team had gotten off to a rocky start, but they were going to turn it around and make the play-offs.  I tried to overlook the fact that he was still a Yankees fan and looking forward to them being in the World Series on Saturday.  I had long since matured into a Red Sox fan.  We talked about our love of bacon.  And lobster.  And places we had traveled.  He was so easy to talk to, and listen to.  I marveled at how I could say anything, and he got it – another new thing for me with a handsome man.
Philip insisted on paying, and took my hand to lead me out to the street.  We strolled over to the Theatre Royal Drury Lane.

At the theatre

My sister had gotten amazing seats – in the stalls on the orchestra level.  

We settled in and Philip put his arm around me.  I was glad I already knew the show, so I didn’t have to pay much attention.  I amazed that I was able to concentrate at all with him that close to me, but the music was delightful!  

We stretched our legs in the lobby during the interval, marveling at the gorgeous old theater and people-watching.  I made up silly stories about this person or that couple and had him chuckling. 
He pulled me behind a column for a long kiss. 
When the show was over, we made our way out with the crowd and strolled a little way down the block arm-in-arm, chatting about the show.  He stopped and turned toward me, holding both my hands. 
“Now what?” he asked, more casually than I would have thought he’d manage for such a major question.  
“What are the options?” I asked, trying to get a clue where his thoughts were going.
“Dessert?  A stroll along the river?  Roll around on the bed in my hotel room? It isn’t far from here,” he joked, but I knew he meant it with every fiber of his being.  
“Once wasn’t enough?” I asked him, mostly in jest.  
“Not by a long shot,” he replied.  “This is not a one-night thing… I’m headed back to the states soon… I’ll be working in Virginia… I can…,” he started to promise before I pressed a finger to his lips to cut him off.  
“Don’t get ahead of yourself,” I cautioned, appreciating his reassurance, but knowing that life has a funny way of messing with anything that seems like a plan, especially for high school sweethearts trying for a second chance.  “I’d love to see your hotel room,” I answered.  
He hugged me, kissing me until I was so hot I thought I’d melt into a puddle on the sidewalk.  He took my hand and we strolled to the Radisson Edwardian Kenilworth on Great Russell Street.  It figured that his hotel was less than a 15 minute walk from the theater.

At the hotel

We made our way past the modern registration area, rushing to the elevator.  He pressed me against the side of the elevator, kissing me again until the doors opened, then stepping back to let me exit in front of him.  
“I love watching your ass when you walk,” he said as he came up beside me.  I poked him gently in the ribs.  
He stopped half way down the hall and opened the door to his room.  

His room was very neat.  His bag sat open on the luggage rack, but nothing else was amiss.  He tossed off his shoes then turned back to me, smiling.  Part of me felt really shy.  The rest wanted to grab him.  
My feet were worn out, so I sat in one of the chairs and put my feet up on the edge of the bed.  Philip sat on the bed, took off my shoes and started rubbing my feet.  
“Be careful with the left one… I broke it 3 months ago and it’s not quite healed,” I said.  He kissed it gently and stroked it in a very comforting way.  Ooh… that felt so good.  I closed my eyes and reveled in the magic of his hands.  He worked the kinks out, then massaged my ankles and calves.  He shifted on to the floor and put his hands under my skirt, rolling down my underwear and kissing his way from my knees to the top of my thigh.  
“I want to put my mouth on you… are you okay with that?” he asked.  
“Oh, yes… please…” I answered.  He stuck his tongue inside me.  My hips rolled toward him and I moaned softly.  He stopped for a moment.
“Oh, girl, you taste so good.  I remember… mmmm… always wanted to do this the right way.  I want you to come…. relax… let me…mmmm….set you on fire,” he coaxed me.
He kissed the inside of my knees, spread my legs and put his hands on my ass, pulling me toward him, sucking gently.  I put my hands on his head and ran my fingers through his hair.  He bit me and my hips bucked toward him.
“Ohhh, Philip…you are making me burn,” I told him.  “That sets me off.  Aaahhh… mmmm.. ” Words failed me as his tongue flicked my most sensitive spot.  I took deep breaths but couldn’t catch up as he set every nerve in my body ablaze.  
“Oh, man… you… mmmm… a little slower… yeah… that’s…. oh… so good.”  I started to feel incredibly hot.  He squeezed my ass, and sucked as my juices began to flow freely.  My hips went crazy and he moaned…such a sweet sound!  I could feel the tightening of the muscles inside me, and knew that I would peak any moment.  I felt flushed… and started twisting in the chair.  He stuck his tongue inside and I was lost in the sensations pouring over me as I came… soaring… panting… moaning and trembling.  He stopped to watch me… I opened my eyes and I thought his look would burn right through me.  
“There… that’s what I was talking about,” he said, smiling.  He climbed up my body and kissed me, giving me a taste of my own juices.  Mmmmm….  he seemed very impressed that I didn’t balk at that.  
“Oh, Philip… that was… hmmmm.. amazing!” I told him, trying to get across the joy I felt.  He took off his shirt, and then wiggled out of his jeans and underwear.  I ran my hands down his chest and marveled at his beautiful skin.  He got busy taking off the rest of my clothes and teased my nipples.  Oh!  He knew just how to twist to get a reaction!  My hips popped up toward him.  I slipped to the floor and encouraged him to take the “hot seat” in the chair.  His smile when he figured out my intentions could have lit up half the city!  
“Oh, girl… I dream of you to touching me,” he sighed.  I put my fingers around him and started to explore his beautiful equipment.  It looked like something from a Playgirl centerfold!  I ran my finger around the edge of the head, then across the slit… then circled him and stretched the skin up from the bottom.  His hips rolled toward me.  I explored the underside, testing various spots, seeing what caused a reaction.  He watched me intently for a bit, then put his head back and closed his eyes, breathing a little heavier.  I put my other hand under him to stroke his balls and squeeze them gently.  He moaned.   
“Tell me what you like…” I asked.  
“Mmmmmm… I like what you’re doing.  Go a little faster,” he replied.  I pumped him at a slightly swifter pace and he sighed.  
“Lick me… suck me, please,” he whispered.  I licked the tip and circled it with my tongue, then blew a big puff on air on it.  He moaned and I put my mouth on him and he moaned louder.  “Oh…mmmm… I never thought you would…mmm…so good…” He stared in my eyes, watching me carefully as I pumped him into my mouth, his hips twisting to get further into my throat.  I sucked him gently and pressed him even further.  He moaned and closed his eyes, lost in the pleasure.  I started humming, hoping the vibration would please him.  He sighed appreciatively.  
He shifted and pulled me up to kiss him, then started to stand and pull me up with him.  
“Bed… now,” he said with a sense of urgency.  We stumbled back onto the bedspread and rolled together, enjoying the luxury of our naked bodies sliding together.  We curled up side-by-side, and he toyed with my right breast, squeezing, tweaking… I played with his nipple.  I took his cock and pressed it the long way down my slit.  He rubbed back and forth… teasing me.  
“Do you want me to take you back to your sister’s flat soon? Or do you want to stay with me?” he asked.  
“I’ll stay, if that’s okay.  In the morning, maybe? How long are you here?” I said.  
“Fine with me.  I’m supposed to take a noon train.  Will your sister worry?  Do you want to call her?”  he asked. 
“Yeah… I probably should do that,” I sighed.  I had forgotten about the outside world.  He handed me the phone and went off to the bathroom.  I rummaged through my purse for my address book to find her number, then dialed the phone on the nightstand.    
“Hullo?” she answered.  
“Hi. It’s Sassy.  Just wanted to let you know I am going to stay in town,” I said.  
“Oh!  So it’s going well?” she asked.  
“Very well.  He is a very nice guy,” I told her.
“Oooh! I want to hear all about it!” she said.
“Sure.  Later,” I promised.  “Gotta go.  I’ll see you midday tomorrow,” I said.  
“Have fun!” she said and rang off.   Philip turned down the covers and urged me to crawl in beside him.  
“Now where were we?” he asked, chuckling.  
“Something about you rubbing me just the right way?” I reminded him. 
“Ah yes…” he smiled and went back to teasing me with his hard shaft.  I moaned quietly.  
“I want you to roll onto your stomach…and I’ll pull you up on your knees…and…”
“Do it,” I interrupted him, rolling over.  He growled, grabbed my hips, pulled me up onto my knees and pulled me back onto his cock.  He moaned as he sank inside me.  It was incredible how far  inside me he could get doing it this way!  
“Oh, girl… this… mmmm… so good,” he murmured as he started to move.  I slammed back into him and he made an incredible sound low in his throat.  I could not stay quiet with him moving inside me this way.  The sound of him slapping against me, the pressure inside me… I let out a series of moans and then something like a shriek, grabbing big handfuls of the sheet.  I wanted to prolong peaking but it just wasn’t possible… he was setting off every nerve in my body!  My inner muscles tightened around him, trying to hold him inside me and drain him.  
“Yeah, baby, let it all out,” he told me.   I started trembling and rolling toward him.  His hands on my hips held me as he slammed into me one final time, and filled me with his juices.  He collapsed next to me on the bed, breathing heavily.  
I looked over and he had the most amazing smile on his face.  I probably looked the same.  
“Damn, girl.  That was crazy hot,” he whispered.  “I love you so much!”

I smiled and kissed him on the nose, “I love you.” It felt so incredible to be able to say it out loud after all these years!

He folded me in his arms and we lay side by side until we could breathe normally again.  I kissed his cheek and then each eye.  and his neck.  I started idly playing with his left nipple, then shifted down a bit so I could get my mouth on it.  I pulled it into my mouth through my teeth, nipping it gently.  His cock popped against my tummy.  I kissed the inner part of his elbow, then across his stomach.  I shifted down again and kissed the back and front of his knees, then down his leg to his instep.  I sucked on each of his toes and he chuckled.  

“Do you need to sleep?” I asked.  
“It would be good to rest a little, though I don’t want to…” he answered.  I returned to lay beside him and he curled his front to my back with an arm over my mid-section.  He kissed my shoulder.  
“I should take a quick shower,” he said.  He rolled off the bed and disappeared to the bathroom.  He was gone about 10 seconds when I realized I could not be that far away from him for that long.  I heard him turn on the water.  I followed him, knocking gently on the partially closed door.  
“Mind if I join you?” I asked.  “I can wash your back,” I offered.  
“I was hoping you would…” he said, reaching a hand out to pull me into the shower stall.  He handed me the soap and I dutifully soaped his back.  But I couldn’t stop there… I did his ass and then reached around to work on the front.  He was smiling and sighing, letting me know this was a good thing.  I rinsed him gently, then knelt and took him into my mouth, pressing him against the side wall.  He seemed surprised, but held my head and moved with me as I sucked him deep into my throat.  
“Oh, girl… you… you make me burn… I… oh,” he encouraged me.  I stroked his balls and he moaned sweetly… I began to taste his juices as the pre-cum flowed.  It was sweet!  
“You….I am going to cum in your mouth if you don’t stop….mmm,” he warned me.  I had no intention of stopping.  I put my finger in his ass and he bucked toward me, screaming wildly.  “I mean it, I…arrrrr,” he said.  I squeezed his hips and he started to shake… then I could feel the pulsing and he shot cum down my throat.  He was gasping, breathing raggedly.   I swallowed dramatically.
“I…you… damn, girl,” he said as he regained his senses.  He pulled me up and kissed me, pressing me against the wall and sliding against me.  Our wet skin together made me swoon.

He grabbed the soap and started cleaning me, focusing on areas of my body guaranteed to drive me wild.  I was writhing and twisting.  He finally pulled us under the water for a rinse.  He shut off the taps and grabbed towels, drying me off and then himself.  I dried my hair a bit.  I stared at us in the mirror, naked and comfortable with each other.  He was so beautiful.  It struck me again how incredible it was that we had found each other and managed to figure out what we wanted and act on it.  He wrapped his arms around me from behind, put one hand on my breast and the other on my stomach.  
“Look at us,” he said.  I put my head back on his shoulder, and pressed my hands over his.  He kissed my shoulder.  He put his finger inside me and I closed my eyes.  He moved in and out, flicking my clit until my hips were backing against him.  I opened my eyes to watch the look of fire on his face in the mirror.  He pulled out and dove back in with two fingers.  I moaned.  I started panting and he went faster, and faster until I was shaking in his arms and coming again.

There seemed to be no end to the ways he could take me to the highest peaks! 
He washed his hands, and took me back to bed.  We lay flat on our backs and he held my hand.  He dosed off and I listened to him sleep.  I felt sleep overtaking me and I drifted off.  I’m not sure how long I was asleep, but before it was light I felt his hand on my breast and he was rolling on top of me and inside me before I was completely awake.  I rubbed my hands up and down his back, then grabbed his ass.  
“I can’t… sleep with you lying there.  My hand touched your leg and the electricity came on again and I have to….” he explained as he moved in and out.  He kissed me, his tongue matching the rhythm.  My hips popped up to meet his thrusts.  
“I thought you’d be tired of me by now,” I sighed.  
“No… not by a long shot,” he confirmed.  He started to move a little faster, then rolled up and put my heels on his shoulders and slammed into me, deep and hard.  We both peaked very quickly.  I was astonished at how easily we set each other off.  He collapsed again and lay beside me.  We stared at the ceiling. 
“Come to Cornwall with me tomorrow,” he asked.  “Stay with me, let me show you around… it’s beautiful down there,” he added. 
“Oh, I would love that.  But my flight home is tomorrow night,” I told him.  I was very touched by his offer.  “Can you take a different train?  Go back to her flat with me?  My sister is making a special farewell lunch for me.  She got a bunch of treats from the food halls at Harrods,” I explained.  
“I can’t.  I have to go back. Will she… can she keep a secret from your husband?” he asked.  
“Yes… we’re fine on that front,” I replied.  I kissed him.  I meant to make it a quick peck and let him sleep some more, but he held onto my head and twisted his tongue in my mouth.  We kissed for a long time, savoring, tasting, exploring.   We finally stopped to breathe.  I put my head on his shoulder.  I ran my tongue around his ear and blew gently.  Then made some little sucking sounds, like I would if he were inside me… ‘’’Sassy… mmmmm… ahhhh…. oh, yeah….” he sighed.

He shivered and looked at me.  “You vixen… you’re fucking my ear now?” 
“Nothing is safe,” I whispered.  He chuckled and rolled over to sleep.  I drifted off as well.  
The next thing I knew, he was behind me, cupping my breasts in his hands and whispering in my ear.  “Good morning, girl.”  
“Good morning, kid,” I replied sleepily.  He pressed a finger inside me, slowly.  My back arched and my ass slammed back against him.  He was already hard.  
“I want to fuck your ass…” he said.  “Can I be inside you that way?  I’ll be careful,” he said.  
“Yes…” I replied.  He hugged me.  He took my juices and wet his cock, then gently pulled me onto it.  I closed my eyes to focus what he was doing.  He went very slowly, giving me time to adjust. 
“Oh, baby… you are so good to me… listening to my fantasies, letting me…” he stopped as the pleasure overtook him.  
“Mmmmm…. Philip… I want you to feel good.  It makes me feel good.  And what you’re doing is… very hot…” I assured him.  He moved slowly in and out, moaning each time he sank inside me.  
“I want to fill your ass with cum,” he told me. 
“Do it,” I answered fiercely.  He pressed deeper and held my hips and trembled.  Then he was pulsing and moaning.  I could feel the warm moisture…. wow.  What a way to wake up!  He lay there inside me for a long time.  
“Shower? Breakfast?” he asked.  
“Sure,” I replied.  He rolled off the bed and offered me his hand.  We raced to the bathroom.  I heeded nature’s call while he started his shower.  I jumped in with him and tried for a quick shower, interrupted only a couple of times when we couldn’t keep from kissing and groping.  I dried off and watched him shave.  We dressed and headed off to a shop across the street to grab food.  We sat in the sunshine on a bench in the park, nibbling each other in between bites of of breakfast sandwiches and sips of juice or coffee.  
We went back to the hotel so he could get his bag.  I looked out the window while he finished packing up.  He came up behind me, and turned me into his arms to hug me.  
“I want you again, so bad,” he murmured.  “But there isn’t time,” he sighed.  
“I know,” I kissed his cheek.  He kissed me hungrily, then walked me backwards to the bed.  He rolled me down onto it, pressed me underneath him, reached under my skirt, pulled off my underwear, tore down his jeans and was inside me in less than 10 seconds!  He grabbed my ass and fucked me hot and hard.  I clawed at his back and then pressed his ass, bucking up to meet each thrust.  We were moaning and screaming and peaking… I clenched him inside me, and he filled me, growling, and then collapsed onto me.  
“Wow… no control whatsoever around you,” he marveled.  
“Mmmm… that was… incredible,” I mused.  He rolled off the bed, dressed, handed me my underwear.  I straightened myself up and went to the bathroom to brush my hair and put it up.  I looked in the mirror.  Still looked the same, even though my life had changed in a huge way.  Strange.  
We headed out.  “I’ll get a cab to take me to the train station and then go on to get you back to your sister’s, okay?” he asked. 
“Sure.  That’s great,” I said.  I tried desperately to hold off thoughts of our impending separation.  I held his hand tightly.  
The doorman got a cab for us.  We piled into the back and explained the two stops.  Philip kissed me most of the way to Paddington Station.  When we got there, I asked the driver to wait and got out with him.  He pressed me against the side of the cab for another long kiss.  I pulled one of my business cards out of my purse, wrote my home info on the back and put it in his pocket.  I gave him another and a pen to write his info.  
“Email me when you get home, okay?  I want to know you are safe,” he insisted as he scribbled. 
“Okay,” I promised.  
“I will find a way to see you again… we’ll figure it out,” he promised. 
“I know.  You can come to Boston anytime.  Or tell me where to find you and I’ll be there… I can  travel,” I assured him.  
“Okay,” he answered.  “I love you, Sassy.  Don’t forget that,” he said, staring into my eyes.  
‘I love you, Philip,” I replied.  I hugged him, gave him one last kiss and turned away.  I gave him my best smile.  He smiled back and then was gone into the crowd.  
I got back into the cab.  “On to the next stop,” I told the driver.  I tried to concentrate on the fabulous London scenery as we made our way out of the city.  All the magic of the past few hours washed over me as I replayed my time with Philip.   I knew the crushing loneliness would hit me again soon, but for now the memories were enough to keep me smiling.  I could not believe how much my life had changed in the past 24 hours.  
“Fine looking bloke,” the driver said.  I smiled, knowing he was very curious.  
“Yes, he is that,” I agreed.  
“How many years have you been married?” he asked.  
“Oh, well… we were school sweethearts,” I answered cryptically.  
“Warms my heart to see people still so in love,” he said.
“Yes… we’re very lucky,” I agreed.  And realized how incredibly true that was!

What If In California

From: Sassy Girl
Subject: 2000 in Santa Rosa
Date: April 15, 2011 12:48:10 AM EDT
To: Phil

HI, Philip,
I finished a story – “2000 in Santa Rosa.”  
I tried something new – this one has photos of a winery, an elegant meal and a whirlpool tub!
Enjoy!  Comment?
(You should be able to see it in the gmail documents folder.  It’s the 5th story (1975, 1977, 1980, 1990, 2000).  If it doesn’t work, let me know.
Have a great weekend! 
-S
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September 2000 in Santa Rosa
It was a perfect late September afternoon in the California wine country.  I was lounging by the hotel pool of the Fountaingrove Inn, looking out at the vineyards of the Paradise Ridge Winery up the hill where a friend got married yesterday.  
Paradise Ridge Winery 
http://www.prwinery.com/

Paradise Ridge vineyards

I stayed an extra day to relax after the festivities, spent the morning driving around the Sonoma hills, and then relaxed at the pool.  I was leafing through a AAA Guidebook, trying to decide where to have dinner, when a dark-haired man sat down on the next chaise over.  I noticed his handsome shoulders in a football team tank top, and his wild floral trunks, then went back to my guidebook, not wanting him to catch me staring.  But he was definitely staring at me.  I wished I had on my more modest swimsuit. 
The waiter came by and he ordered a scotch.  He turned to me.  “Gorgeous day, isn’t it?”
I looked over, nodded and smiled to be polite, then went back to reading.  
“It is you, isn’t it?” he asked.  I looked at his face.  He smiled.  I couldn’t place it.  I had just turned 40, and wondered if my memory was going.  Maybe he’d been at the wedding? 
“Pardon me?” I replied, wondering if this was a new pick-up line angle I hadn’t heard.  
“Sassy?” he said my name.  Oh, dear… this was someone I should know.  I concentrated, staring into his beautiful brown eyes with a very cute twinkle in them, but nothing came to mind.  
“I’m sorry… you are?” I asked, hoping the name would jar something loose.  
“Phil…” he replied.  When I still didn’t reply, he added, “Philip…. from high school,” and suddenly a rush of memories flooded over me.  Flashes of a tall boy with long brown hair, laughing, singing, kissing me…my first grown-up kisses!
“Oh my God,” slipped out as I clapped my hand over my mouth.  This was no wedding guest.
“It is you…” he said in wonder, looking me up and down but returning to my eyes.  “I’ve been standing over there for ages, trying to decide if it could possibly be you, trying to figure out what to do if it was and…damn,” he said.  
Here sat my first high school sweetheart.  We dated… 27 years ago.  Yikes.  For a very intense three weeks.  We didn’t go all the way, but just as I decided I was madly in love with him, he told me he was in love with someone else and wanted to be friends.  So I was his friend and kept my feelings to myself for two years.  Then he disappeared to the military.  Twenty-five years ago.  Holy cow.  
“What are you doing here?” I asked, making it clear I knew who he was.
“I’m here for a military conference.  I decided to tour a winery before I go back,” he said.  “What about you?” he asked.
“A friend got married here yesterday and I took an extra day to relax,” I answered.
“So you’re still in Boston?” he asked.  I was surprised he knew that.  “I read the home town paper,” he said, naming the incredibly nosy newspaper from our little hometown in upstate New York. 
“You’re still in the military?” I asked.  
“Yes, ma’am.  It’s been a good life for me, taken me all over the world,” he said.  “What do you do for work?” he asked.
“I’m an office manager,” I answered.
“Are you married?” he asked, looking down at my left hand with the tell-tale gold band.  
“Yes, four years ago next month,” I said.  “And you?”
“Oh, 20 years for me,” he said.  “You remember Sally?  We have two kids,” he added.  So he married his girlfriend from high school.  And was still with her.  “You have kids?”  
“No kids, two cats,” was all I could think to say to that.
“Where’s your husband?” he asked.  
“At home.  He doesn’t fly,” I said.  He looked surprised, but changed the subject. 
“I’ve thought about you a lot over the years,” he admitted, lowering his voice a bit and leaning closer to me.  That puzzled me.  
“I remember we dated when I was a freshman, and you broke my heart, but it all seems like a long time ago,” I shrugged, trying to make light of it.  
Luckily, he let that go and went on to, “Please have dinner with me?” with the sweetest look I’d ever seen.  I wanted to.  I felt completely comfortable.  Not sure why, because I wasn’t much for keeping up with high school friends or even thinking about that time in my life, but there was no hesitation.  He’d been a good kid, and seemed like a nice man.  He was easy to talk with.  
“Sure, I’d like that,” I answered.  He looked incredibly relieved.  
“I know a great seafood and steak place, just up the road,” he said.  
“I can meet you in the lobby in half an hour?” I offered.  
“Sounds good,” he replied.  
I got up and threw on my big t-shirt and flip flops.  He rose, too.  I had forgotten how tall he was.  He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me, whispering in my ear, “It is so good to see you again.”  
I felt this electric charge go through me.  I thought that was only in the movies or bad romance novels.  I glanced up and I swear he was feeling the same thing.  He smiled and said, “Go put some clothes on before I…” I didn’t let him finish, taking off to my room.  I could hear him chuckling as I ran away.  
I washed up in record time and stood looking at my clothes.  I never think much about what I am going to wear, but it suddenly seemed very important.  I thumbed through everything I’d brought… then decided I was being silly, and put on the dark blue blouse and floral skirt I’d worn this morning.  I put my hair up as always, then looked in the mirror and took it down again.  I was never going to get downstairs at this rate.  I grabbed my purse and took off.  
Philip was leaning against a pillar in the lobby, and looked up the second I came out of the elevator.  He smiled.  He has a beautiful smile.  I could see the kid I had loved so desperately when he smiled.  He had changed into a crisp blue and white striped dress shirt and charcoal slacks, managing to look casual yet elegant at the same time.  
He offered me his arm and asked, “You have a rental car?  Want to drive or should I?” giving me the chance to choose.  I didn’t own a car at home, and didn’t drive much, so I was always glad to have someone else do the honors.  
“You drive,” I said.  He led me out to a gold Chrysler Sebring convertible.  I whistled.
“It was on special at Hertz,” he said, shrugging.  He opened my door and guided me into the seat like a very proper gentleman.  I had not seen that for awhile.  
He started the car and glanced over at me, smiled and drove off down to the road.  He turned on the radio and a 50’s tune poured out from the speakers.  We started singing along.  I watched him drive, marveling at how handsome he was, still trim and tan.  I listened to his silky tenor voice and flashed back to magic evenings I spent listening to him sing with a quartet at church.  I always wished he was singing to me.  
In less than 15 minutes, he pulled into the parking lot of the Villa Restaurant.  He looked over at me and smiled. I thought he was going to kiss me, but he got out and came around to open my door.  He took my hand to help me out of the car, and closed the door for me.  
He didn’t let go, but stood holding my hand and staring at me.  I smiled at him, and he pulled me toward him.  He wrapped his arm around my waist, put the other hand behind my neck and kissed me, very gently, pressing me close with his hand on my back.  He twisted his head and stuck his tongue in my mouth, moaning softly as he flicked my tongue.  Oh my!  He tasted so good!  I added my tongue to his and ran my hands down his back, squeezing his ass.  He gasped and drew back, panting.  He gauged my reaction.  My face probably held equal measures of surprise and lust.  He pressed his forehead against mine.  
“I…wow… that was incredible.  You always were the most amazing kisser,” he said.  “Sorry to spring that on you out here, but I’ve waited 25 years and I couldn’t hold back another moment,” he admitted.  I stared at him, astonished.  I could barely recall anything about us, and he had been pining for me all this time?  Wow.  It was a great kiss…
“What do you want?” I asked, trying to figure out what this was about.
“I want you…” he stated very simply and clearly.  “I want to finish what we started as teenagers, and do it right this time.”  I stared at him, not believing what I was hearing.  
“That’s crazy,” I whispered.  “We’re old, married people…” I pointed out quietly.  
“I know…but this feels separate,” he said.  “Doesn’t it?” He rubbed my back and pressed me back against the car.  There was no mistaking my effect on him.  It made me ache inside.  That had not happened to me in a long time.  In fact, I had thought those feelings were over for me.  
“It does feel… amazing, but I don’t know…” I trailed off.  
“Do you remember how good we were?” he asked.  
“No, I…” I started to say, but then some long-dormant area of my brain piped up, “there was chemistry.”  
“That’s right.  Don’t worry… we’ll figure it out.  We’ll eat, we’ll talk… I won’t do anything that makes you uncomfortable,” he assured me. 
He stepped back and offered me his arm again, guiding me into the restaurant.  He spoke with the hostess, and we were seated at the white leather banquet in a quiet corner near the window, beside each other at a circular table, with a spectacular view of a vineyard and the hills in the twilight.
  
She handed us the leather-bound menus, then retreated.  A waiter came over to get our drink order.  Philip ordered a beer and I got iced tea.  
He glanced around the restaurant, checking to see if anyone was watching us.  It was still early, so we were mostly alone and the others were facing the windows.  He turned and kissed me quickly, putting his hand on my knee under the table.  “I don’t know how I am going to get through this dinner,” he whispered.  “All I can think about is being alone with you…” he sighed.  
He played with my hair, twirling a lock of it around his fingers.  “I can’t believe you still have your gorgeous long hair,” he said, his eyes glowing.  “I remember…” he trailed off.  “I’ve thought about you…what we did.  What might have happened.  When I’m alone… when I touch myself… I think of your hands on me,” he admitted.  “I wanted to find you, see if we still have the chemistry.”
“You… used me as your jumping off point all these years?” I asked, flattered and astonished.  He nodded. “I’m amazed that you’re still interested now that you’ve seen me… I feel like such a chubby old lady these days,” I confessed.  
“Hey, we’re all a little thicker in the middle!  It’s you… I can see the same sassy girl, easily,” he said.  “And most of the appeal is in your attitude, anyway.”  His eyes glowed with the truth of it.  “Your husband is a lucky guy,” he added.  
I closed my eyes, trying to decide if I could tell him one of my biggest secrets.  It seemed completely natural to tell him, even if it would make me look bad.  “I don’t know why I trust you to tell you this.  I haven’t told anyone else.  But…we don’t, I mean he doesn’t…want me anymore.  He says I’m not attractive.  He won’t let me touch him or…anything.”  I looked down at the table.
Philip let out a snort.  “What?! He’s an idiot!” he exclaimed forcefully.  “You are one sexy woman… you deserve better than that!  And you can touch me whenever you like…” he offered.  “Wherever you like,” he added, winking at me.  “My wife and I never clicked in bed.  We’re good friends, we do it out of habit but it’s not… like we are,” he explained.  I shook my head sadly that neither of us had what we needed at home.  
He got a very devilish look on his face.  He ran his finger up my leg under my skirt.  I trembled and crossed my legs, trapping his hand.  He grinned and gave me a saucy look.  I relented and spread my legs for him.  He ran a finger along the edge of my underwear.  My eyes grew wide and he paused briefly.  I thought he was done so I let out a relieved sigh, but he stuck his finger inside me!  He held my gaze as he dipped in and out.  I suddenly felt so warm, I thought I would set the tablecloth on fire!  He took his hand away and licked his finger!  
“Oh, girl.  You taste so good… just like I remember,” he sighed.  I searched my memory for when he might have touched me like that before, but nothing surfaced.  
“The school bus,” he whispered.  I gave him a blank look.  “We were returning from a field trip, cuddled in the back row?  You were leaning back against me, with a coat over your lap, classmates all around us… and I put my fingers inside you.”  I shook my head.  I had no idea I had been such a hussy!  “You were so hot…so wet,” he sighed. 
The waiter coughed at his elbow.  “Are you ready to order?” he asked.  Neither of us had cracked the menu.
“Two minutes more,” Philip told him.  He picked up the menu.  I tried to focus on mine, but the text swam in front of my eyes.
“What about starting with the Oysters Rockefeller, Caesar salads, then the filet mignon and lobster tail?” he asked. 
“Sounds delicious,” I said, too keyed up to care.  But I wasn’t surprised that he chose my favorites. 
“And some red wine…hmmm…” he said, flipping to the other menu.  
“Oh, I don’t drink liquor, but you go right ahead,” I said.  The waiter reappeared and Philip ordered, pleasantly chatting and making a new friend of the server.  They conferred about wines while I took in the view.  
“I love lobster,” he said wistfully.
“Oh, yes,” I replied.  “I like it the simple way – steamed and dipped in butter!” 
“Oh, yeah.  Though I eat it any way it comes – bisque, stuffed, fra diablo, sushi… Whenever I get to New England, I eat it every night.  And sometimes a lobster roll for lunch,” he admitted.  
“I go through spells like that, especially in the summer,” I agreed.  “One year I had three lobsters in four days over my birthday weekend!”  
“I remember your 14th birthday… your dad sent me to help you out with odd jobs around the Fall Fair at church… we had a great time! I think it was the first time I noticed how cute you were, and how much fun you were,” he mused.  
“I loved it when the fair was on my birthday… felt like the entire event was for me!”  I remembered. 
“My birthday is coming up.  So this could count as my birthday lobster!” he said.  “Can I have you for dessert?” he whispered.  I looked at his face, so earnest, maybe even a little nervous.  
“We’ll see,” I said, smiling.  It began to seem more and more possible.  Though it was hard for me to believe he’d really want to do anything when he saw how much my body had changed since we were in high school.  The waiter brought the oysters appetizer.  We savored the crispy bacon and spinach mixed with delicious oysters.  

I wondered if he’d ordered them for their aphrodisiac properties.  As if I needed anything to increase my attraction to him!  
“I want to make love to you, every way we can think of,” he whispered sweetly.  “I want you to taste you.  You never let me do it right,” he said.  
“I thought nice girls didn’t allow that,” I explained. “So strange what we could and couldn’t do.”  
“And I want you to touch me,” he said.  “You never touched me,” he mused. 
“I didn’t?  Hmmmm… probably more of that ‘don’t be a slut’ stuff,” I pondered.  But I wanted to do it now.  
“But you’ll touch me now, yes?” he asked.  I reached under the table and pressed my hand at his crotch.  He inhaled suddenly, closed his eyes and worried his lips with his teeth.  I very quietly unzipped his fly and his eyes sprang open.  He stared into my eyes as I pressed my fingers inside and touched his skin, running my finger up and down his hard shaft.  
“That may be the most direct and satisfying answer I’ve ever gotten in my life,” he joked.  I decided to tantalize him even more.  
“If you ask me very nicely, I’ll put my hands on you, find that special spot on the underside and make you throb until you think you’ll explode.  And then I will put my mouth on you and suck your cock so far down my throat…” His eyes grew wide, and I winked at him as I ran my finger around the tip of his cock and licked my lips slowly.  
“Wench,” he whispered fiercely, looking very pleased.  He pushed my hand away as the waiter set our salads on the table.  I sat there wondering where on earth those sentences had come from.  He certainly inspired a very different side of me!
I munched my way through the Caesar salad, marveling at the garlic and creamy dressing. 

I somehow “lost” a crouton down inside my blouse, so I had to unbutton a couple of buttons to retrieve it.  The look on Philip’s face when I revealed my ample cleavage was quite rewarding!  I had never done anything like that before.  He generously offered to help me button it back up, and touched me in a way that made me resolve to get sloppy with my food more often!
He told me about amazing meals he’d had all over the world.  He had a way of describing a meal that took me there, filled my senses with the sights and smells and sounds of another place – Italy, Turkey, St. Thomas… he had definitely taken advantage of the places the military had sent him!  I told him about my favorite restaurants around Boston and my travels in the U.S.  It was incredible how far we both had come from our small town origins!
We fed each other bites of steak…perfectly cooked.  And the delicious stuffed lobster.  

I twirled a spear of asparagus into my mouth in a certain way that made him smile and roll his eyes.  He held my hand, and kissed me several times when we just could not resist a moment longer.  I could not believe how comfortable, and sexy, he made me feel!  
Finally, the waiter asked if we were ready for dessert.  Philip asked if I wanted anything.  I wondered aloud if we had time.  He said we did.  So I asked for the chocolate raspberry cake, and he ordered the affogato with espresso, and a scotch, the Glenmorangie 10 year.  
“Would you like coffee or tea?” the waiter asked me. 
“No thanks,” I responded to the waiter.  He headed off.  “I don’t do hot beverages,” I explained to Philip.  

We savored the sweet tastes, and he told me about trying Highland versus Lowland scotch, and how great it was to find a restaurant with his favorite.  
He asked the waiter for the bill.  My mobile phone rang.  He looked surprised – they were still a rare thing in many areas.  I grabbed it from my purse and answered it quietly.
“Hi, hang on a sec,” I told my husband.  I looked at Philip apologetically, and he shrugged as I took off toward the ladies room.  I popped into the phone booth in the hallway and closed the door.   We caught up on our day.  He told me about our cats’ latest antics, and how much he missed me.  I told him about the beautiful weather, and the pool, and running into an old boyfriend from high school and my incredible dinner.  I did leave out certain details about where my hands had been during that dinner.  He agreed to meet me at the airport tomorrow.  I expected a wave of guilt to pour over me.  But it never surfaced.  
Philip was paying the bill when I returned.  “Everything okay?” he asked.  I nodded and smiled.  He took my hand to lead me out of the restaurant.  
“How long have you had that phone?” he asked.  
“Since April.  I’m not usually an early adopter on the technology front, but my husband had surgery and I had to be reachable, trying to balance working and taking care of him,” I explained. 
“Do you have a computer at home? Email?” he asked.  
“Oh, yes…been doing that for ages… let’s see… almost seven years now,” I remembered.  “I met my husband on the internet,” I told him.  He raised an eyebrow.  “He moved to Boston from the Midwest to be with me,” I told him.  That was getting more common now, but back then it had been unheard of.  
“So I could email you?” he asked.  
“Sure, as long as you don’t send me those awful forwards,” I joked.  He groaned.  
“So… you’re room or mine?” he asked as we reached the car.  This was it.  I had to decide.  Except I had already decided.  It seemed completely natural to be alone with him.  
“My plane is at 10:30 am, so I have to be out of the room by about 7 am,” I said.  
“Yeah…mine is later.  So your place.  Are you flying out of SFO?  I could drive you down there,” he offered.  
“Yes… that would be lovely.  That means I could leave a little later,” I said, wondering how big a mess I would be trying to say good-bye to him by that point. 
“There’s no one around the hotel to cause you a problem if they see us, is there?” he asked, being very courteous to think of that. 
“No… I don’t think so.  But that’s a good question,” I complimented him.  
He opened the car door for me, but held me for a long kiss, pressing his body against me, so I could feel him hard against me.  He kissed his way down my neck and put his hand on my breast, squeezing gently.  “I ache to be inside you,” he whispered.  “It’s been that way for years, and I thought it was a bad as it could be, but seeing you has made it ten times worse.”
He pushed himself away and tucked me into the seat, then strode around the car and jumped in, taking off to drive back to the hotel.  I put my hand on his knee and made little circles while he drove.  He smiled over at me.  It was such a luxury to be able to touch a man!   He parked and turned to me, taking my hand.  
“You okay?  Want to change your mind?” he asked.
“I feel better than I’ve felt in a long time,” I told him.  I stroked his cheek and kissed him.  He popped out of the car and raced around to help me out.  We went in, straight to the elevator.  He held my hand, stroking my wrist with his thumb.  
I got out my keycard and opened the door with him pressed against my back.  The moment the door closed, he turned me around and wrapped me in his embrace, kissing me deeply and starting to take off my blouse.  He unbuttoned it in record time, pulled it off my shoulders, then unsnapped my bra from the back with both hands and took that away as well.  He stared at my chest, lifting each breast with his hands and putting his mouth on one nipple while tweaking the other.  I thought my knees would buckle.  The electricity shot straight between my legs.  
“You still have gorgeous tits,” he said in awe.  It was hard to believe he could find them attractive, but the look on his face was convincing.  He wrapped his arms around me and put his hands inside my slacks, grabbing my ass.  “Oh, baby…I always had a thing for your ass…” he admitted.  “It looked so hot in the tight jeans your wore… and I’ll never forget the overalls you had on at camp… how easy it was to get my hands down the back of those!” he sighed.  I couldn’t believe the details his mind had retained!  I squirmed as one of his fingers found its way around to the front and inside me.  My hips rolled toward his hand.  
“Oh, girl… you are so wet…” he reported.  I was relieved that my body still knew how to react. He pressed me against the wall.  He rolled my slacks and underwear down as he knelt and put his mouth on me.  I gasped.  He bit me gently and started sucking on me… using his tongue on my sensitive spot to drive me absolutely crazy!   I was surprised that he would pleasure me first…
I thought I was going pass out.  But he held me up, teasing me until I could feel the muscles inside me start to react.  I clawed the wall.  I knew I should be talking, telling how he made me feel so fabulous, but my brain refused to do anything but take in his every move and make my hips buck toward his tongue.  I put my hands on his head and drew him even closer, running my fingers through his hair and moaning softly. 
“I have wanted to do this for so long… you are so hot… I remember your taste… let go, girl… come on my tongue,” he urged me and I relaxed, letting the waves of heat pour over me.  My breathing was out of control and my body twitched, my head thrashing against the wall.  
“You… are… driving me… crazy,” I managed to say.  “So good…” then only little squeaks and moaning, as he increased the pace and I exploded, shaking all over as every nerve reacted to his work inside me.  
“That’s the way…” he told me.  “Damn, you are so gorgeous when you come…” he sighed.  He drew back, smiling and I panted, smiling back.  He rose and kissed me.  I tasted my juices on his lips.  I held on to him and started aching for him to fill me.  
“Mmmmm… very good start,” I managed to say at last.  
“Yes… you… it’s easy to tell that you liked that,” he chuckled.  
He stepped back and looked around the room for the first time, noticing the huge whirlpool tub.

“Oh, wow…” he whistled.  
“Yeah… the joys of California,” I giggled. 

“Can we try it?” he asked.

“Sure,” I replied.  I turned on the water.  He took off his clothes. I ogled his beautiful body… he had obviously kept working out all these years.  It made my fingers itch to touch him.  And I could see that I was having a certain effect on him.  He caught me staring and smiled.  

“Like something you see, Sass?”  I had forgotten that he called me that.  He was the only one in the world.  It made me tingle!  I smiled at him and he helped me finish taking off my clothes.  He hopped into the tub and offered me his hand.  
He settled in on one of the molded shelves and pulled me down on top of him.  He kissed me and I kissed him back as the warm water swirled around us.  The feel of our bodies, wet and sliding together, was incredible!  I marveled at how we fit together… and suddenly remembered that it has always been that way.  
“I planned to do all sorts of things first, but you have me so hot, right now I just want to be inside you,” he said.  “I can’t get you pregnant… had a vasectomy.  And I’m clean… no diseases.  But if you worried about it, I have condoms,” he said.  It suddenly became very clear what we were about to do.
“It’s okay.  I’m clean, too, got tested recently for life insurance,” I was amazed we were able to be so practical at such a moment, but very relieved he’d brought it up.  “I’m just… out of practice,” I admitted.  
“I’ve heard it’s like riding a bicycle… it will come back to you,” he advised.  I moved him over a bit, so one of the warm water jets pounded his ass.  He moaned.  He pulled me up so the jet landed between my legs.  I let out a sigh of pleasure.  We both turned so our shoulders got pounded.  
He turned to sit on the shelf and pulled me up so my knees were on either side of his hips.  He put my hand on his cock and I circled him, pumping him gently.  He smiled as I pressed gently on the underside and pulled a bit. 
“Sassy… I should tell you why I… mmmmm…. I love you,” he told me for the first time.  My eyes grew wide.  I had always wanted to hear those words from him!  He added, “I’ve always loved you,” and I thought my heart would explode out of my chest.  I was taken aback.  It was time to tell him another big secret I had kept for years.  
“I love you, Philip,” I replied.  It felt so good to finally tell him.  His smile was so bright!  
“And…” he prompted me, teasing my nipple between his fingers.  
“And I’ve loved you since I was 14 years old,” I admitted.  
“I knew it… I was counting on that,” he said.  
“I thought I hid it so well!” I sighed.
“You couldn’t hide how you looked at me, how you reacted when I touched you, or how you touched me,” he explained.  
“I’ve forgotten a lot, but not the most important thing,” I assured him. 
He moaned…and I pressed him up inside me.  I sank down until he was deep inside.  He stared into my eyes.  I had this strange and wonderful feeling, like a missing piece of my life had clicked into place.  The water was pounding around us, and we started pounding each other, me rising and sinking down over him, his hips rising up to meet me… thrust after thrust.  
“Oh, girl, I have played this over in my mind hundreds of times, but it was never… I didn’t know how good… damn, you were made for me,” he said so beautifully.  I was beyond most deep thought, with only three words playing in my mind.
“Wow.  We fit…,” I whispered, shifting slightly, coming down with him even deeper inside me.  His head rolled back against the side of the tub, and he had the most fabulous smile on his face.  He breathed a bit faster. 
“You are so tight…so good around me,” he sighed.  
“You are so hot…so hard…” I murmured.  It seemed very important to make him understand… “this is…by far… the best… ever,” I told him.  I started to melt… I couldn’t think anymore, with all the blood from my brain rushing lower.  I squeezed his hips with my knees and could feel the muscles inside me start to contract.  He felt it, too, and took it as his signal to go wild, bucking against me.  I arched my back and drove down one last time.  He shuddered, and thrust up and pulsed inside me.  The jets from the tub stopped as we did… timing out as we reached our climax.  We sat panting and smiling.  I was stunned.  
“That was…incredible,” Philip told me.  “You okay?” 
“Oh,  yes.  I’ve never been better in my entire life,” I said, so filled with joy that I had to laugh.  I hugged him and kissed him, nibbling on his lower lip.  
“Bed?” he asked.
“Mmmm… sounds good, kid,” I answered, stretching like a satisfied cat.  
“You do make me feel like a kid again, in the best possible way,” he mused. 
“Good,” I sassed him, tweaking his left nipple. 
“Come on, girl,” he said, lifting me up and out of the water, setting me gently on the floor.  I grabbed a couple of towels and started drying him off in a rather provocative way.  He returned the favor until we were both dry but overheated!
“What next?” I asked.
“What do you mean?” he asked.
“What do you want to do… what do you dream about?” I explained. 
“Oh… I have a vivid imagination,” he said, winking.
“Tell me… “ I coaxed him.
“I dunno… I have some pretty wild ideas,” he demurred.  “I don’t want to freak you out.”  
“Say it…you know you can,” I assured him.  “Complete this sentence: ‘I would love if it you would….” I said, trying to make it easier.
“Anything to do with my ass drives me wild.  Don’t know why, just always wanted it…” he said.

“Well, let’s see what I can do about that,” I answered playfully, winking at him.  
I lay down on the bed and he started to stretch out beside me, but I guided him to roll over on his stomach.  I straddled him and massaged his shoulders, kissing the back of his neck on each side.  Then I rubbed his back, taking handfuls of muscles, kneading and pummeling.  He relaxed, breathing deeply and sighed.  I worked my way down his back, until I had his cheeks in each hand – lifting, separating, rubbing… he moaned softly.  
I moved down his body, sliding my breasts against his back, making my way down until my head was between his legs.  I licked my way down the crack in his ass and his hips popped off the bed.

“Hmmmm….. that was interesting,” I sassed him. 
“Ahhh… Mmmmm…” was all he could manage with my mouth on him.  I bit him very gently on either side of the crack and he squirmed.  I put one hand under him to stroke his balls and he moaned again.   I took a couple of deep breaths and blew on his ass.  Then waited a couple of moments to make him wonder what would be next…  he twitched.  
I stuck my tongue in his ass and twirled around, dipping in and out.  
“Oh!”  He bucked up, squirming.  “I love it when you read my mind…” he sighed.  
“I’m going to put my finger inside me…” I told him and he moaned.  “Then put it inside you,” I added.  He trembled.  I carried out my plan, using my juices to wet my finger, then pressing it inside him.   I established a rhythm, then stopped when he was about to peak.  Then started again.  He was panting and rocking against my finger.  
“Damn, girl, that… that is so hot,” he complimented me.  I carried on with it for a bit longer, then shifted around to get my face between his legs and pull him up onto his knees.  I stroked his balls and licked them, and he moaned sweetly.  I put my hands on him and pumped him into my mouth.  He gasped and shifted to give me better access.   
“Oh…that feels so… so good..mmmmm….” he encouraged me.  I licked and teased the tip, then pressed him deeper into my throat.  I sucked on him, tasting sweet pre-cum.  Seems like everything about him is sweet!  
I moved up under him, and put his cock between my breasts, using my elbows to press them around him.  
“Oh, yeah… been imagining this, too,” he told me, twisting his hips to move up and down my chest.   
He sat up against the headboard and urged me onto his lap, with my back against his chest.  He put a hand on each of my breasts and pulled me back against him.  He kissed and bit his way from my neck out to my shoulder on one side, then did the same for the other side.  
“You are the most incredible, generous…I can’t believe what you’ll do with me…I…I want to…mmmm… be inside you again,” he said and pressed against me, testing and teasing me.  
He licked my ear, and tweaked my nipples, then pressed inside me, spreading my legs to get a better angle.  He moved very slowly… taking his time, massaging my right breast with one hand and fingering my clit with the other hand.  My head lolled back against his shoulder and I arched my back as the heat began to pour through me.  What an interesting position!  
“You like having me inside you?” he asked. 
“No…” I said, in a sassy way to let him know I was teasing.  “I adore having you inside me,” I stated.  
“Vixen,” he cooed. “Dark-haired…busty vixen… with a fabulous ass!” he chanted, moving in and out, bouncing me up and down to the same beat.
“You turn me into a big bundle of want,” I told him.  “And then you satisfy me… like no man ever has,” I told him.  “But you make it… fun!” I added, smiling and shaking my head in wonder.  I shifted my hips a bit and it gave him more access.  “And then you make me want you again….” I added, realizing that was an entirely new sensation for me.  Sex had mostly been a chore for me in the past, and that was changing fast at the hands of one man.  There was something really incredible about talking with him inside me…comfortable and sexy and wild in an entirely new way.  
“I love how you tell me how me how you feel… how you show me that what I’m doing affects you… tell me what you want…” he told me, rolling his hips around under me.
“Yes… you… talking… very good.   It makes it better…much better,” I confirmed, twisting to meet his latest thrust.  “I’m so glad you talked to me at the pool,” I told him, running my fingers across his face and into his hair behind me.  
“Yeah… that has worked out better than even I could imagine,” he chuckled.
“I wish you had found me earlier…” I sighed.  “Before I had so much time to make a fool of myself with other men… and get married to a…”  I stopped that train of thought before it got out-of-hand.  
“Life is strange,” he mused.  “But I’m here now… and we’re going to make the very best of it!” he crowed, shoving even deeper inside me.  
He rolled me off and onto my side, curling around me and kissing me deeply.  I put my leg over his hip and gently pressed him up and back inside me.  He grabbed my ass and squeezed each cheek.  I reached down to grab his ass, pressing him deeper and running my finger all the way down the crack and circling his most sensitive spot.  He growled in a very sexy way.  
“Mmmm…. girl… I can not talk when you do that…” he said.
“That’s okay,” I assured him.  “There are times for talking and there are times for fucking.”  He slapped my ass for that, and started moving like a wild man, thrusting deeper and deeper inside me, then rolling me onto my back and pulling my heels over his shoulders.  My hips popped off the bed to meet his, and the feel of him pounding inside me sent me off into outer space!  I watched his face… listened to the sounds of him slapping against me, and his moans… then I couldn’t anymore… my head was thrashing and I was shaking and clenching around him… and feeling like a woman as never before!  Wow… 
He thrust twice more and grabbed my hips as he reached his own climax.  His jaw tightened and he trembled… such a sight!  There is nothing sexier. He came inside me… pulsing over and over.  I could not believe the stamina of this man!  He took great gulping breaths then settled back on the bed on his back.  He held my hand and we stared at the ceiling. 
“Do you feel guilty?” he asked.  I wondered where that thought had come from.
“No.  To be completely honest, I haven’t thought about it, which surprises me.  I am usually such a ‘goody-two-shoes.’ You?”  I asked.  
  
“No… and same for me.   It’s odd, but nice.  This feels… right,” he stated.  We stayed there there calm and peaceful… with him making little circles on my wrist with his finger.  
“Will you tell him?” he asked.  
“Probably.  He’ll find it exciting and be happy for me,” I said. 
“That’s unusual…” he commented.  I don’t think he believed me.  
“I assume you can’t tell Sally?” I asked.
“Ah, no.  She’d be furious if she found out.”  He sighed.
“Well, she won’t hear it from me!” I assured him.  I rolled over to kiss his shoulder, and made little circles on his chest with my fingers.
“I want to see you again, Sass,” he said.  “I don’t know when or where, but…we’ll eat lobster!”
“I’d like that,” I told him.  
“You won’t forget me again, right?” he teased me.  
“I promise,” I said, hugging him.  He looked at the bedside clock and sighed.  I knew that meant it was time to get ready to go.  
“Shower?” he asked.  
“Sure!”  I rolled out of the bed and raced him to the bathroom.  There was a huge shower stall with three heads at various heights, and a shelf running around two sides.  I had never seen anything like that.  He turned on the water and extended a hand to me to drag me under the water.  We had a fun time with the soap, teasing and poking and laughing and rinsing.  
Suddenly the mood changed.  He pressed me against the shower wall, kissing me long and deep.

“Once more…” he said.  “I need you again,” he sighed.
“Aren’t you tired of me yet?” I kidded him.  
“Oh, girl, I don’t think that will ever happen.  I’ve never felt this way,” he whispered.  He moved me onto the shelf, lifted my legs around his waist, then pressed into me again.  We rocked together in the steamy air.  I tried to savor ever second, every moment, every sound… I knew would need these memories to keep me warm for a long time.  Then I pushed those thoughts away as his thrusts made my hips respond and he took me to new heights.  I stayed in his arms, panting, rubbing his back…he finally moved and pulled me under the water for a final rinse, then rinsed off himself.  We got out and he handed me a towel.  I dried my hair and then my body.  He watched me brush out my hair.  
“I’ll go get my stuff.  Back in a few, okay?” he asked.  He kissed me and went to the other room to dress and disappeared.  I finished in the bathroom, then tossed my stuff into my suitcase and got dressed, trying to keep busy, be sure I was ready when he returned, and not think.  
He returned just as I was zipping up my suitcase.  He looked so handsome in a football shirt and worn jeans.  He set down his bag and grabbed me for a long kiss.  He had shaved and smelled amazing.  I held his face in my hands, and stroked his skin.  He grabbed a paper bag from the bed and pulled out an orange juice for me and a coffee for himself, and two ham and cheese croissants! 
“I hope you like ham and cheese croissants,” he said.  I grabbed it from him and hugged him.  
“These are one of my absolute favorite things!”  I told him.  
“It seems like you like what I like, so I took a chance,” he explained.
“Very good thought!” I told him.  I sat on the edge of the bed, savoring the taste of the warm pastry.  He sat next to me, sipping his coffee.  
I checked around to be sure I had everything.  I pulled a business card from my purse, wrote my home info, email and mobile phone on the back and gave it to him.  He put it in his wallet behind a photo.   He grabbed a pad from the nightstand and wrote his info down for me.  I folded it and put it in my purse.  Then we we wheeled our luggage out to the car. 
“You only brought that little suitcase?” he asked.  
“Yes, I travel light,” I replied.  
He piled the suitcases into the trunk and settled me into the passenger seat.  We cruised down the coast, singing to golden oldies and marveling at the view of the ocean in the morning sun.  I thought he would drop me off, but he parked in the short term lot and insisted on rolling my bag in for me.  He used his ticket to get through security with me and walked me all the way to the gate!  
He pulled me behind a pillar and hugged me tight.  
“You had a good time, didn’t you?” he asked.  I didn’t answer right away, lost in the incredible memories of the past few hours.  How could it be less than 24 hours ago that he first spoke to me?  He pulled my chin up so he could see my face and I realized he was concerned that I had not answered.  “Sass?”  
“Yes, kid.  It was incredible,” I assured him. I squeezed his ass, and slipped a mushy note into his back pocket.  He patted it and smiled.  I hoped he’d remember to take it out before his wife did the laundry.  But I had not signed my name… 
“Me, too.  No regrets.  I’ll be in touch when I can,” he promised. “I love you,” he whispered and hugged me tightly again.
“I will always love you,” I told him.  I kissed him.  The pre-boarding announcement started.
“Go now.  I’ll be okay,” I said.  
“I wish…” he started.
“I know.”  He kissed me and stepped back.
“Bye, girl.  Have a good flight,” he wished me.  And he walked away.  
I watched him go up the concourse, smiling at his gorgeous butt.  Then turned to get in line to board.  I thought I’d be crying, but my heart was filled with so much love, I smiled and smiled.  I pondered why God would send me such a bright shiny love and sexy man, only to take him away again so quickly.  But it had been 35 years… I couldn’t hope to make sense of it so quickly.  Patience… patience… all good things come to those who wait?  
There was a tap on my shoulder, and Philip was hugging me tight again.
“I just couldn’t go without…” he whispered in my ear, “touching you once more.”  
“Oh, you wonderful man,” I told him.  I rubbed his back and kissed his neck.
“How can I stand it?  Being away from you?” he asked in the most agonized voice. 
“You do what you have to do.  You know how to do that, right?” I asked. 
“Yes, but this feels different,” he said.
“Call me.  Email me.  Send post cards,” I suggested.  “Look for a time to get together.  I can come to you.  Or you can visit me whenever.”  
“Yes, yes… I know that with my head.  But my heart… my body…” he said.  
“We’ll figure it out. You have all sorts of good, new memories. And you gave me back some very interesting old ones.”  He smiled at that.  
“Yes…true,” he said.  That seemed to calm him down a bit.  
They announced my row to board.  I hugged him tightly and stepped away.  I smiled at him.  He squeezed my hand.  
He stood back and watched me until I went up the gangway.  I turned and blew him a kiss.  He smiled and waved.  
I felt like the luckiest woman in the world.  

What If In a Boston Bar

From: Sassy Girl 
Subject: 1990 at a Boston Bar
Date: April 1, 2011 10:45:22 PM EDT
To: Phil

Hiya, kid,
Here’s another story.  You should see it by going to your “documents” folder when you’re logged into gmail, as I’ve shared it with you.  
This one is called “1990 In A Boston Bar” and keys in to a story you told me about being in Boston.
As usual, recommended for reading while alone.  
Enjoy! 
-S

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1990 In A Boston Bar
– In the bar
The place is packed!  Another Thursday night at Houlihan’s, the big bar and dance club near Quincy Market in downtown Boston.  But this week is special.  Thousands of tourists are in town for July 4th celebrations, including soldiers from all over, and sailors and marines off a big aircraft carrier docked in the harbor for “Fleet Week,” so hundreds of military men are out on the town enjoying the city on this humid evening.  Nothing like watching beautiful men in uniform shake their booty on a summer night!
I’m taking a break from dancing, settled into my usual spot at the corner of the bar, watching my friends dance.  Most nights there are nine women for every man in the place, but tonight it’s almost even.  I’m the tall girl with glasses, so it’s a rare night when a guy asks me to dance.  I don’t drink liquor, so I’m the one who helps my friends shed men who get too friendly, and make sure they get home in one piece if they drink too much.  I end up chatting with the bartender, or the “designated driver guy” from a group of men.  I don’t mind.  I have fun dancing with my friends and chatting when they take a break.   Beats staying home watching TV!
A very young guy in uniform stumbles up to the bar, asks for a glass of water and an aspirin.  I smile at him sympathetically while the barkeep digs around for his first aid kit.  The kid sits down next to me, holding his head in his hands, and looks at me between his fingers. 
“It’s loud in here, ma’am,” he whines slowly, in a distinct Southern drawl.  I love how he makes “loud” into a 2-syllable word.  
“Yes, you’re right,” I agree, at the lowest volume I can manage but still be heard over the music.  I ask the bartender for a towel and ice, and hand it to the guy to put on his head.  He presses it to his forehead and sighs in relief.  
“My name is Billy.  What’s yours?” he asks.

“Sassy,” I reply.

“Thank you for the ice, Sassy.  How do you stand the noise?” he asks morosely.

“It’s quieter in the corner,” I said.  He leans closer.
“Did you grown up in Boston?” he asks. 
“Nope.  Upstate New York,” I answer. 
“Thought so.  You don’t sound like Boston.  You talk like Phil,” he said.  “He’s from some small town upstate.” 
He points to a table of men near the center of the room.  They’re tossing back a wide range of beers and liquors, and several of them have a woman on their lap.  He gets up gingerly and weaves in that direction, turning back to me and instructing, “Don’t go away.  I want you to meet him.  Good guy.” 
This ought to be fascinating.  How will the guy take to being pulled over to meet the dry woman at the bar?   A lot of guys from my high school enlisted in the military, but most of them are not someone I’d want to run into here.
I watch the pair thread their way back through the crowd.  The older guy is tall, dark and handsome, with beautiful shoulders.  I’m a sucker for big shoulders.  He’s patiently trying to help the kid stay upright.  As they get closer, the look of tolerance on his face changes to one of astonishment.  He smiles broadly, and takes off toward me, leaving the kid in the dust.  As he gets closer, I read his name bar.  I nearly faint.   It’s my first high school sweetheart.   This is someone from home I don’t mind seeing!  
“Sass!” He booms and stops very close to me.  He is the only person who has ever called me that.  It makes me tingle.  Memories flood over me – singing, kissing, laughing, his hand on my back when we were… He sticks out his hand.  I take it.   “Philip… what a surprise!”  We stare at each other. 
He was the first boy who kissed me in a grown up way.  We dated for three weeks when I was 14 and he was 16.  He broke my heart when he asked me to be his friend.  But we stayed friends for a couple of years until he left town for the military.  Years ago.  I don’t remember much about it.  Just that I would have done almost anything to make him smile.  
He stares at me, smiling.  He has a beautiful smile!  I stare back, smiling.  He’s still gorgeous!  He’s still holding my hand.  I try to remember the last time I saw him.  It must have been 15 years ago.  He kissed me good-bye at church right before he left.  I remember wondering why he did that.  He looks like he wants to do it again right now.  I haven’t seen that look on a man’s face in a long time.
He finally lets go and sits on the stool next to me.  He leans in very close, so he doesn’t have to shout, and says, “It is so good to see you.  I thought you lived in Boston.  I can’t believe you and I ended up in the same bar!”  I smile, but can’t speak.  I take in his crisp uniform, his broad shoulders, his wonderful smile.  Yikes, I’m in trouble.  Just like always around him.   
“Are you here with friends?” he asks, looking around.   I’m stuck on how handsome he still is. 
“Um… yes,” I reply, waving in the general direction of the dance floor.  Brilliant.  What’s wrong with my brain?  
“You hold the fort for them?” he asks, accurately assessing my corner perch in a very efficient manner.  I nod and he says, “I’m doing the same for my guys.  I try to keep them out of trouble.”
“Ah, the keeper,” I said, using a term I’ve heard military men use for the guy who keeps the men out of the brothels and jail.  
“Yup, that’s me.  You’ve chatted up some service men,” he said.
“Yes… the keeper and I are usually the ones at the bar drinking soda together,” I reply.  There.  I managed to say an entire sentence! 
“Been to the old hometown lately?” he asks. 
“Yes, Memorial Day weekend,” I tell him.
“Parents still there?” he asks. 
“Sort of.  Dad retired and they moved, but in that same area,” I reply. 
“Oh, right!  I heard that,” he says, correctly naming their new town.  “Nice area.”   He casually puts his hand on my arm, making little circles with his index finger.  It sets off sparks up my arm and into my brain.  He was always able to do that.  Nothing has changed, except we’re older now.  Know what to do about it.  And all the reasons not to.  My eyes meet his and I can’t look away.  The music changes to a slow dance.  He tilts his head toward the dance floor. 
“You want to dance with me?” he asks.  But his look makes it clear he is asking more.  He touches my hair, twirling a lock around his finger.  
“Um… no thanks,” I reply, trying not to shudder, completely panicked at the idea of being in his arms in public.  He doesn’t take the hint, but goes for broke. 
“Can we get out of here?” he asks, changing tactics, “go somewhere quieter to… talk?”  The slight hesitation isn’t lost on me.  I think I know what he’s asking. 
He looks completely innocent, not leering at all.  I look over at my friends, to see if they’ve noticed us.  No.  They’re all dancing.  I look at his table, wondering if he could leave them unsupervised.  I realize I’ve made up my mind to go with him without an internal debate.  
“Can you abandon your post?” I ask, not sure what I want the answer to be. 
“Yes.  Before I go, I’ll tell them, in no uncertain terms, what they’re supposed to do and not do,” he says, chuckling.  “They should be able to get it right just once without me,” he confirms, not sounding very sure but determined not to let that stop him.  “And I have more important things to do,” he says closer to my ear. 
“I have to tell the gals,” I say, sliding off my stool and motioning to the bartender to watch their stuff.  He smiles and wiggles an eyebrow at Philip, since I’ve never left with a man before.  I shrug and head onto the dance floor, pull two of my pals aside, watch their shocked faces as I tell them I’m leaving with a guy.  I wonder what on earth has gotten into me, and the look on their faces says they’re thinking the same.  They worry for my safety.  But I don’t.   He never pushed me, unlike most of the high school boys.  I wonder if that’s changed.   
I make my way back to the bar, and smile at Philip.  We head for the door.  He puts a hand on my back to guide me through the crowd.  Electricity courses through me.  Damn.  I’m in big trouble.  
– On the street
The warm night air is a shock after the super-cooled club.  We stop at the curb and he says, “Where to?”  I look up at him, realize how tall he is.  I try to decide between the coffee shop at the next corner, or the café across the street.  Or my bed.  I want him to kiss me.  I wonder if I’ve misread the situation.  
He leans in close to whisper in my ear, “If you want me to hail a cab and take you home to bed, I can do that,” he offers, reading my mind in a way that’s oddly familiar.  We used to laugh about his telepathic powers as teenagers.  I stare up at him, trying to look offended.  But relieved that he is interested.  
“Hey!  You were thinking it, don’t lie,” he comes out with, chuckling.
“I was hoping you wouldn’t be able to read my mind anymore,” I wished aloud, smiling.   
“Now, what fun is that?!” he chides me.  He puts a finger on the side of my face, caressing my cheek.  I close my eyes and take a deep breath.  I remember his scent.  It reminds me of those first electric kisses we shared. 
He puts an arm around my waist and pulls me close, whispering, “I want you, very badly.  I’m not going to push you.  I know it’s too fast.  But I promised myself, if I ever got the chance with you again, I’d tell you.  We could always talk.  Do you remember how good we were together?  It feels the same right now, like it always was, except I want to finish what we start this time,” he sighed.
My eyes snap open and I’m caught in his beautiful brown eyes.   He closes the gap between us and kisses me gently on the lips.  I forget where I am.  The sounds of the city fade away and there is nothing but his arms around me, and his mouth on mine and the faint taste of scotch.  
He presses his tongue between my lips, exploring, tasting…deeper and deeper.  I add my tongue to his, and he moans soft and low.  I put my arms around him.  I can’t believe I am necking with this man on a city street, but it feels right.
He presses his forehead to mine, stroking my cheek, my neck, my lips, my hair… as if he can’t quite believe I’m real and has to touch me to convince himself. 
“Oh, girl… you are the best kisser ever.  I’ve wanted to do that for so long!  Tell me there’s no man at home,” he says.  
“There’s no man right now,” I answered, telling him more than he asked.  I am so glad that I don’t live with my sister anymore.  I bought my own condo earlier this year.
“What about you?  Are you married?” I ask.  He doesn’t miss a beat or loosen his hold, simply replies,“Yes.  Ten years ago.”  Did he sigh just a bit? I can’t be sure.
“Are there girls all over the world?” I ask, trying to sound less interested than I am. 
“No,” he states firmly, “I’ve always been a good boy,” sounding slightly sad, but not surprised, that I would assume he fits the stereotype.  He rushes on, “but you’re different…special.  I’ve regretted, always wondered… thought about what we might have… um… been like together.  My wife doesn’t, I mean, she isn’t… a passionate person,” he rambles, trying to explain.
“Children?” I asked, feeling more and more in over my head.  He definitely sighs this time.  “Yes, a girl and a boy,” he recites. “They are very important to me.  But so are you.  This feels separate.  This feels right,” he says, sounding desperate in a way I’ve never heard him talk.
“This is nuts,” I tell him.  Being with a married man is not my style.  
“I know.  But… you feel it, don’t you?” he asks, looking unsure for the first time.  Giving me an out, like the gentleman he’s always been.
“This is a very bad idea,” I can’t help saying.  “But it sounds like fun!”
“Maybe it’s the best idea you’ve ever heard,” he suggests.  He presses me against him, and I can feel him rock-hard.  It makes me want him even more than I did as a teenager, and that is saying a lot.  But won’t he be gone soon?  Won’t it just rip my heart out again?  
I don’t care.  I want him for as long as there is.  
“We ran into each other for a reason,” he states.  I can’t argue with that. 
I know this is absolutely crazy.  But I’m going to take him home with me anyway.  It’s my turn to sigh.  I take his hand and lead him over to the cabstand at the corner.  He lets out a little squeal of joy and swats me on the butt.   “Always adored your ass,” he says, winking at me.  
– In the cab
He opens the door of the top cab, in true gentleman-like fashion, and hands me into the back seat.  The cabby is someone I ride with regularly, when I leave work late.  Which is a lot.  “Hiya, George,” I say, to clue Philip in to that fact.
“Sassy!  How nice to see you again so soon, doll!”  He gives Philip a tough look, then asks, “Where to tonight, miss?” with more of a question in his voice than usual, never having seen me with a man, and certainly not one in uniform. 
“Home, George.  This is Philip, my high school sweetheart,” I add by way of explanation. 
“Well, I’ll be damned,” he chuckles.  “You behave yourself, young man, you hear me?”  he says, turning to look directly at Philip.
“Yes, sir,” he replies, saluting smartly.
“Cause iffen you don’t, there’s a lotta cabbies be looking to break both your legs, you hear me?” he says.
“George!” I chide him, astonished at this display of concern.
“I hear you, sir,” Philip replies respectfully, smiling at me.  “I know how special she is.”  He keeps his distance in the cab, but sneaks his hand onto my knee below George’s line of sight.  But even that contact has me squirming as my body responds.  I comment on various sites we pass, trying to keep my eyes pointing out the window and my mind off his effect on me. 
He snakes his hand under my skirt, teasing his way up my thigh.  I open my legs for him and turn to stare into his eyes.  He leers at me.  I close my legs, trapping his hand.  He winks.  I open them again, and he traces the line of my panties.  He licks his lips.  I have to look away to keep from kissing him.  He slips a finger under my panties.  My head snaps back around to look at him.  He smiles, presses his finger into me.  I squirm, angling closer.  His smile widens.  I close my eyes and take a deep breath. 
“Remember the school bus?” He asks quietly.  I stare at him, shaking my head.  I wonder what crazy high school antics I’ve forgotten.  He takes his hand away and licks his finger, grinning mysteriously.  
We finally pull up at my building.  Philip hands over a $10 bill for a $7 fare, and says,  “Keep the change,” as he guides me out of the car. 
George says, “Thanks!  You want me to come back for you?  About 2:30 am?” obviously familiar with the curfew times.  Philip isn’t surprised.  He leans into the window and says, “That would be perfect, thanks,” as he shakes George’s hand.  He takes my hand as we walk up the steps to my building.
“So you have get back tonight?” I ask. 
“Yes, ma’am.  Before 3 am, leaving at first light,” he confirmed, sounding wistful.  That gives us about 6 hours.  It doesn’t seem like long, but it will be the longest time we’ve ever been alone together and the first time with a bed as an option.  My mind races ahead to all the trouble I can get into in that time.  I can’t wait!  
– In my condo
I fish for my keys, and he takes them, unlocks the lobby door, waves me inside, following close behind me.  He grabs my ass.  I grab his hand and lead him into the elevator, pressing the button for the 5th floor.  He presses me against the side wall, connecting us from shoulder to hip, staring into my eyes.  He kisses me quickly on the lips, then starts nibbling my neck.  
The doors open and I take my keys back, almost running to my condo door, unlock it with him pressed against my back, and reach for the light switch.  He catches my hand, tugs me inside and closes the door, pressing me back against the door, covering my entire body with his. He puts his hand behind my head and kisses me.  I wrap my arms around his waist, as he sticks his tongue between my teeth and starts exploring my mouth gently but firmly.  I let him control it for a few moments, but then meet his tongue with mine, pressing into his mouth.  He squeezes my right breast.  He moans and I’m afraid I’ll melt into a huge puddle at his feet.  He pulls his head up just in time.  He undoes the barrette holding my hair, and runs his fingers through my waist-length dark locks.  
“Oh, girl… I always loved your hair… I’m so glad you still have it long,” he tells me.
  
“You are hotter than I remember,” he gasps, pressing his forehead against mine and breathing heavily.   
“I’ve learned a few things,” I whisper.  “I want to make you happy.”  
“I’ve dreamed of this moment,” he admits.  “I can’t quite believe it’s real.”
“Philip, you don’t have to say that,” I chide him, not believing he’s being anything other than romantic.
“No, I’m telling it like it is… I have thought about you.  A lot.  When I was, well… alone.  I, um… thought about what we did, what might have happened.  I use it to… you know, get me excited,” he admits.
“Oh, my.  You… you really jerk off thinking of me?”  I’m astonished and flattered, that he remembered me in that way, and that he’d tell me the extent of it.  He looks taken aback that I took it so well. 
“Yes.  A lot, “ he confirms, sighing against my lips as he starts to kiss me again.  “You are the only woman I’ve ever felt this close to, that I can talk to,” he says.  “I want to touch you, and lick you and… make you come over and over,” he whispers.  My body jerks toward him, betraying my feelings on the subject.  “I don’t have a lot of experience, but I have a great imagination,” he says.  “You probably know a lot more than I do,” he adds, looking a little uncertain about the difference in our experience levels.
“I’m sure you’re a good learner,” I replied, not wanting to talk about the men in my past.  And the fact that it’s never been very good for me.  I know what to do to make a man happy, but none of them made any effort to do the same for me.  Except him. 
I wriggle away and lead him toward my bedroom.  We walk through my living room and he stops, noticing the view through the balcony windows.  He follows me over to the sliding door and we go outside.  
– On my balcony
“Spectacular!” he says, scanning the view.  I point out the sights in the distance, then look up at the stars.  
“Did I ever tell you about how much I’ve wanted to do it outside?” he whispers, taking me in his arms.  
“Do it,” I reply.
“What?” he asks.
“Fuck me right here, “ I suggest, wondering what he’ll make of the dirty word.  He growls and starts to take off my clothes, but I squirm out his grasp.  The closest balcony is 20 feet away, but I pray none of the neighbors decide to come out in the evening air.  
“Let me get a blanket,” I say, and take off into the condo.  I dash to the bedroom, grab a blanket off the bed and a couple of pillows.  When I get back, he’s naked, pulling cushions off the sofa and making a love nest outside!  I never saw him completely naked… he is so gorgeous! Tan… trim… mmmm.  I want to touch him.  I want him to touch me!  
We laugh and collapse into each other’s arms on the newly padded balcony floor.  
“Do you think it’s soft enough?” he asks.  
I pull him on top of me to test it, “Oh, yes…this will do nicely.”  He kisses my neck in just the right spot and then takes off my clothes in a flash.  He pulls the blanket over us, and off goes my dress.  He starts kissing my shoulder, pulling the bra strap down and then rolls me slightly to unhook it and cast it away.  He gets the most amazing look on his face when he sees my breasts.  I’m self-conscious, knowing they’re not the same as when I was 14 years old.  But the look on his face tells me they’re still something he likes the look of.  He kisses his way down my chest, taking one nipple in his mouth and fingering the other.  I feel a pull deep inside me and moan, my hips bucking up toward him.  
“Mmmm…. that had a nice effect,” he says, smiling against my breast, then licking his way lower.  He rolls off my panties and looks me up and down.  
“You are so beautiful…,” he says in awe.  I smile at him, basking in the glow of his admiration.  “I have played this out in my mind so many times,” he whispers.  “You never let me go down on you… you’re okay with that now, yes?” he asks.
“Oh yes, please…” I answer emphatically.  It is so sweet of him to ask!  
He kisses my navel, then dips lower, sticking his tongue on my most sensitive spot.  My hips go wild and I’m afraid I’m going to break his nose!   
“Oh, man… you know how to set me on fire!” I whisper fiercely.  He increases the pace, making the sexiest sucking noises.  I start to feel flushed and see fireworks as my brain brings forth the most explosive image I know.  Wow… it suddenly dawns on me that I might be having my first ever orgasm.  I have read about it, but never felt it in the classic way.  The men I’ve been with were  inexperienced or selfish or both, and I have gone along, thinking that’s how men are.  
“That’s it, baby…cum on my tongue,” he coaxes me.  My head thrashes, hips thrusting… I feel like I can fly!  I peak and open my eyes to take in the stars, and the sight of his head between my legs.  He looks up at me and grins.  
“Now that’s the stuff dreams are made of, eh?  You taste so good…” he crows. 
“OH!  MY!” I pant…. “You…wow…” I can not form a complete sentence.  I know I have to come back to my senses, that there’s something I need to say… I take a deep breath. 
“You may not believe this, but… you just gave me a great gift,” I say, knowing I have to admit what had just happened, hoping he’ll be pleased. 
“What’s that?” he asks, curious and puzzled. 
“Well… I haven’t… I thought I had but, with what just happened, I realize that I’ve never had a real orgasm before tonight,” I explain.  
“What?” he stares in disbelief.  “You mean from someone going down on you?” he asked.
“No… I mean ever,” I specify.  
“WHAT?!  You’re 30 years old,” he says, astonished.  
I shrug and confirm, “It’s true anyway.”  “You are… different.  Special…,” I add.  
“Holy shit,” he whistles.  
“Yup,” I concur. 
“Wow… I… damn, Sass, we have to fuck right away, make it happen there, too!” he insists.   
“It can wait a little longer,” I sigh.  “There’s something I want to do.” 
I urge him up further on the cushions and announce, “Your turn!”  He looked at me curiously, not yet sure of my intentions.  
I move down his body, kissing his chest, sucking a nipple and biting it slightly.  He gasps… and starts to squirm.  When I reach his navel, he senses my destination and sits up on his elbows to watch me.  I settle between his legs, kissing each hip before honing in on the center of his manhood.  He was perfectly formed… 
“Have you ever come in a woman’s mouth?” I ask.  I realized this means divulging something about his wife, but ask anyway.
“Nope,” he replies.  “My wife has… a lot of hang-ups,” he explains.  
“Okay, then, it’s time,” I state. 
“Damn, girl,” was all he had time to say before I take him in my hands, and lick the head with quick flicks.  He moans.  I put him in my mouth and he moans again.  I started sucking and he makes this hissing sound, like all the air rushing out of his lungs.  
“There… is… no finer… sight… than the one I see now,” he says.  “A beautiful woman… sucking my cock… mmmmm,” he stops talking as I pull him deeper into my throat.  
“You better stop that or I won’t be able… to hold back,” he warns.  I stop for a split-second, then start again.  I stroke his balls gently.
“You wench,” he says, as I up the pace.  “I mean it, if you don’t want cum in your throat, and all over you, you’d better…ah, ah….oh, man,” he gasps.  I start to taste the sweetness.  
“Mmmmm…you taste so sweet!  I mean it, I want you to cum… tell me what to do,” I request.  
“You know what to do, you’re doing it,” he replies.  His hips start thrusting to meet my mouth, and I take him as deep as I can and suck hard.  He holds my head and explodes in a series of spurts…1, 2, 3, 4, 5…. I count and swallow.  Then he pulls back and shoot twice more on my chest!  Wow.  
“Woman… you are… by far… the most sexy, generous….damn,” he says.  “I never thought I would find someone who could…damn,” he repeats, clearly astonished.  I expect he need rest or might want to clean up, but he rolls me over and is harder than ever!  I have heard about men like this, but never witnessed it.  I feel his heart pounding against my chest.  He kisses me, and the taste of my juices mixing with his was incredible!  
“Quite a magic mix we make,” I say when we came up for air. 
“Oh yeah, baby…” he coos, as he kisses me again.  
“I want to be inside you… let me get a condom,” he says, reaching for his wallet.  We are getting down to brass tacks now.  He fumbles for his wallet, then I heard the foil rip and watch as he covers himself.  I am so glad he’s prepared! He kisses me again, long and deep.
“Oh, Philip…I could kiss you forever… you… your tongue… so hot,” I murmur.  “I love you…” slips out.  I bury my face against his shoulder, thinking he doesn’t want to hear that.  
“Love you, too, Sass,” he replies easily.
“Yes?  Really?” I ask.
“Always did,” he admits.  “Just like you,” he adds.  
“What?” I asked, confused. “I never said.  You just wanted a friend,” I remind him.
“I knew anyway…” he says.  “I screwed up, ending it too soon, but I never stopped wanting you,” he explains.  “You are the only woman who turns me on this way,” he assures me, pressing against me.
“Put me inside,” he says. I touch him and gently put him up and inside me.  He presses just a bit and says, “Hey… wow… you are so tight.  Just how long, exactly, since you did this?”
“Um… well… ah…five years,” I admit.
“Hunh… what is wrong with men in this town?” he growls.  He gently moves further inside me.  “Are you okay?” he checks.
“Yes… yes… very fine,” I coo.  He starts to move, out a bit, in a bit, then further and further each time, adjusting slightly until he gets to the deepest point.  
“Oh, girl.  We fit… feels so good!” he exclaims.  “Ordinarily, I’d do different things now, but being out here… I don’t want to cause more a scene than we already are,” he said.
“You want to go to my bed?” I ask.  
“Yes, but not yet,” he replies.  “I want to do it all outside, as long as we’re this close!”  
He starts to move more quickly…rising on his elbows to watch what’s happening.  He establishes a rhythm, then varies it, watching my face.  I watch his face when I can, but my eyes close and my head rolls back as I stop thinking and start feeling all the ways he is pleasuring me.  I want to prolong the joy but it’s too sweet… too hot…. 
“Sweet… hot…” the words escape my mouth.  He agrees with a low moan.  
“Do it, Philip.  Fill me,” I beg.  
“Let go, girl” he says, obviously waiting for me to go first.  I concentrate on what he’s doing, feel  him moving inside me, hear the slap of his balls on me, and his labored breathing, smell the scent of cum and sweat in the warm night air.  I have never felt better in my life!  I feel the clenching start… he feels it, too.  
“That’s it, let it flow, baby,” he coaches. “Oh, Sass, we were made for each other!”
I wanted to scream but decide that’s unwise… I bite my lip and moan softly and whisper, “You’re making it happen again.  Wow.  Give it to me.  DO IT!”  
He goes wild, pounding deep inside me.  I meet his thrusts, my hips sliding against his.  He stops and I feel the pulses inside me.  We’re both trembling.  I open my eyes to watch the ecstasy on his face.  He collapses on me, but rolls a bit to the side, nestling his face on my neck.
“Incredible,” he whispers.  We lay there marveling at the magnitude of what we’ve done, the sounds of the city and our breathing mingling in the night.  
“I wish I could tell the 14 year-old girl that you find her again.  She wanted you so desperately,” I muse. 
“She knows…” he whispers.  He kisses me again.  I wonder if he’ll leave soon, having gotten what he wanted.  A car horned blares, and a guy shouts, and we giggle.  
“You know, when I thought of making love to you, outside, it wasn’t in the city,” he chuckles.  “It was in a big field, out in the country, maybe at camp… with the crickets chirping…” 
“A little different with cars and people and city lights, eh?  But there are still a few stars…” I offer. 
“And you… that’s the important part,” he whispers. “I keep thinking I am dreaming all this… that I’ll wake up alone any moment,” he adds.  “But this is better than anything I dreamed up…” he sighs.  I hug him.  
“Shower?” I suggest. 
“Sure!” he answers.  We dash inside, and head through my bedroom to the bathroom.  Philip stops  when he saw the cats on my bed.  
“And who have we here?” he asks, leaning over to pat them on the head as I tell him their names.  They roll over and purr.  Good judges of characters, cats.
– In the shower in my ass
We go on to the bathroom.  I turn on the radio to the oldies station, then turn on the water and step in, offering Philip my hand.  He takes it and hops in behind me.  He grabs the soap and the loofah, proceeding to drive me wild cleaning me back and front and um… in between.  I do the same to him.  There was something about the water and the music and two of us… magic.  We get each other clean but completely overheated in the process.  We sing raucously along to the tunes we used to dance to at school events.  
I am rinsing my hair when Philip puts his arm around my waist from behind, tweaking my right nipple.  He is rock hard against my ass.  
“I can’t wait anymore… I need to be inside you again,” he whispers in my ear.  “I want to try… well, if you want to… could I be in your gorgeous ass?” he asks tentatively.  “I’ll go slow… be careful,” he adds  I smile at his asking so sweetly.  I try not to think of my last boyfriend, who hurt me so badly in that area.  I know this will be different.  
“Yes… if you’re careful,” I answer.  I’d better clue him in to my past.  “I was hurt there…bad.. but I trust you,” I explain.  
“I don’t have to,” he states.  “I don’t want make you uncomfortable.”
“It’s alright… you make everything feel good,” I assure him.  I want to please him so much.  
“If I hurt you, you stop me, promise?” he says. “This is for both of us, or it’s no good.”
“Of course…” I reply, taken with his consideration.  
He pulls me out from under the water, presses me against the shower wall, bends me at the waist and sticks a wet finger inside my ass.  I feel the pressure and it sets off a reaction elsewhere.  He moves slowly in and out, and my hips press back toward him.  My breathing grows ragged.  
“This is so hot… being inside you in a different way,” he marvels.  
“Mmmmm,” is all I can manage with him touching me this way.  My brain is completely addled. 
“Do you have any lube?” he asks.  I strained to think…
“Yes… under the sink, lower right, near the…um…lotion, KY…” I murmur.  He leans over to open the vanity door and snatches it.  I hear him applying it to his cock, and feel it on my ass, then he presses against me, pulling my hips, pushing slowly inside me…moaning softly.  
“Oh…girl… I have thought about this…wondered…it is…so… so… damn hot… your ass is…  mmmm…” he tries to describe it for me… share how it feels… but the pleasure is too great for words.  I twist a bit, and he moans even louder.  
“I….am… on fire,” I manage to tell him through the haze.  He moves in and out, slowly, twisting, pressing.  He reaches around me and puts his finger in my slit, flicking my clit.  That sets off explosions inside me.  
“I want to fill your ass with cum…” he says, moving a little faster, starting to tremble.  
“Do it,” I growl.  He holds me very tightly and presses deeper… in and out, over and over, then he’s still.  I feel him pulsing inside me and he lets out a different sound from deep in his throat… sort of anguished, but a release of air and emotion.
Suddenly we are back under the warm water.  And he’s kissing me deeper than ever before.  I wonder if I will ever be able to shower again without remembering the look on his face and the feel of his hands on me.  
“That was…incredible!” he crows.  “Are you okay?” he asks, concerned at my silence.  I smile and nod, still overcome with all that has happened in the past few minutes.  We towel each other off, and I head for the kitchen.  
– In my kitchen in his ass
I grab a pitcher of water from the fridge, and he snags two glasses from the cabinet.  We stand next to each other, hip-to-hip, leaning against the counter, slurping down water and smiling at each other like loons.  
“Want a sandwich?  Or eggs?  Ice cream?”  I offer.  He turns toward me and kisses me, wrapping his arms around me, pressing our bodies together.  I wrap my arms around his neck, playing with the hair at the back of his neck, pressing my chest against him.  He runs a hand down the length of my hair.  
“Aren’t you tired of me, yet?” I ask, when he lets me catch my breath. 
“It doesn’t seem like that will ever happen,” he replies, pressing his forehead against mine.  
“Where’s all your stuff?” he asks.
“Hunh?” I reply, genuinely confused. 
“I mean… your counters are clear, your desk is organized, you don’t have a lot of books, cosmetics, perfumes..” he tries to explain.  “I bet you have room in your closets?”  
“Oh.  I’m not a collector.  And I like things…neat.  and I’m not very girly…in that way,” I giggle.  “Why?”
“Just…wondering,” he says.  He asks questions about my life – how long I’d lived here, where I work, where my family is now.  And he tells me about his life.  He is trying to figure out when we can see each other again, and not knowing how to get there.  He kisses me and whispers, “I don’t ever want to let go.  But I have to leave soon.  And I don’t know when I…”
“I know.  Don’t think about it now.  Now is for fun!  The rest is what it is, yes?” 
“Yes… I can’t believe you’re so calm about this,” he sighs.  “Most women would be asking for promises, plans…” he marvels.  
“We can ruin it, if we get too far ahead of ourselves,” I point out.
“True.  Just… unusual,” he muses.
“Well, we already know we’re that!” I shrug, smiling.  
“Sass…stay very still, ” he whispers.  He runs to grab another condom, puts it on and lifts me up onto the counter, entering me in one swift motion.  I wrap my legs around his waist and pull him further inside.  He grabs my hips and I grab his ass, and we make love right there in the kitchen!   Part way through, he whispers, “Put your finger in my ass,” so I lick my finger and twist it up inside him.  He matches the rhythm I set.  The look on his face was amazing!  Sweet how something so simple could up the pleasure!  I will never be able to chop an onion on that counter again without hearing the sounds of his body pleasuring mine and seeing how happy he was.  
– In my bedroom doggie style
When we’re done and holding each other, trying to breathe again, he lifts me gently down and pushes me into the bedroom.  I flop onto to the bed, thinking I’ll rest on my stomach for a few minutes.  He follows close behind me and before I take three breaths, he pulls my hips off the bed, gets me to my knees, and enters me from behind.  It is incredible how deep he gets this way!  Wow… I thrash and moan… clawing the comforter, totally out of control, slamming back into him.  He pounds and pounds… I wonder if we’ll ever stop and hope we don’t!  Not my usual frame of mind… I can’t believe how I’ve gone from “when will this be over?” to “please let this go on forever” at the hands of one man.  I start clenching around him and he thrust three more times, then stills, pulsing, moaning.  I am shaking… overcome with the heat and the passion.  
He settles beside me, panting, smiling.  “I hope this isn’t too wild for you.. too much…”
“No… not at all… you should tell me more of your dreams.  We can do more…” I offered.  
“I can’t believe how open you are… how you touch me… and let me touch you,” he marvels.  
“That’s what it’s about when you care about someone,” I said.  Though we both know it’s more than that for us.  We have that magic, that chemistry that makes every touch both comfortable and explosive.  
“I promise it won’t take me 15 years to find you again,” he swears.
“If you can see a way to be alone with me, you let me know.  I will be there,” I promise.  “I can fly or drive.  I can be around the corner, or down the road, or in a hotel anywhere you go,” I pointed out, trying to explain how easy I can make it for him.   He hugs me tight.
“It’s complicated,” he whispers.
“I know… no pressure. Just making it clear.  Seems like I should try to do that, since I didn’t say what I should have all those years ago,” I state. 
“That kid wasn’t ready to hear it,” he muses. 
“Yes… strange how things change,” I reply. 
“Now I want to hear it over and over,” he says.  “And I wish… oh, you know,” he says.
“Do you ever think of leaving your wife?” I ask.  
“No, not really.  Sure, everyone had their bad days, but, I make a promise and I stick to it, you know?”
“Oh course.  I understand.  I think I’d be that way, too, if I ever make the big promise.  But if you change your mind… if you would be interested in me for more than, well, this… you tell me this time, okay?”
“Even if you’re married then?” he asks.
“Yes… you never know what is going on…things change…” I try to explain.
“Okay.  I get it.  It’s just… the kids, the family…” he sighs.  “Though my mother would probably like you better…” he muses.  
“Don’t think about it now,” I suggest, hugging him.  I scoot up a bit and kiss him.  He rubs my back.  I mean to be comforting but the moment he touches me, I start to burn again.  I stretch a leg over him and straddle his hips, sitting up, and he smiles.  
“I want to ride,” I tell him.
“Sounds good to me,” he says, putting his hands on my hips and bucking up.  I touch him and press him inside me, then arch my back.  He tweaks my nipples.  I lean over and tease his chest with them.  My hair falls all around us, like a dark curtain, closing us into our own world.  
He bucks again.  I rise up, then sink down on him and he moans.  I stay still for a few seconds, and he twists under me.  Then I start to move, up and down, taking him deeper and deeper, riding him like a cowgirl on a Western saddle.  I feel so hot, so powerful, being on top of him, in control, seeing the pleasure on his face, the surprise when I vary the rhythm slightly.  His breath grows ragged and he moans.   
“Oh, girl… just when I think it can’t get any better…you.. mmmm… hmmmm… you do… it… ah… so good…” he pants.  
“You inspire me,” I tease, stopping high up, waiting for him to open his eyes, then sinking down on him.  His jaw gets tight in concentration and he holds my hips, bouncing up.  I start to lose my focus – the pleasure was so intense!  I feel like every nerve in my body is on fire… so electric!  I am cumming again!  Incredible!  I squeeze him with my knees and stop.  He shoves up once more and then is still, pulsing over and over.  I collapse on his chest and stretch out.
“I love you… so much,” I confess.  
“I can tell,” he chuckles, smiling.  “I love you, Sass,” he adds, hugging me tight.  We lay there, cuddled together.  I want to stop time.  Yesterday I would not have been able to imagine him here, and now I could not imagine him gone.  “Stay in the moment,” I could hear my groovy friends saying.  I take a deep breath and try to do that.  
– Another shower
Philip looks at his watch.  He rolls over and goes off to the shower again.  I let him have a few moments, then follow, going in behind him, washing his back.  I tickle his ribs and he chuckles, turning to do the same to me.  We giggle and poke, and then it dissolves into kissing and touching.  I shut off the water and grab towels.  I grab a big t-shirt to throw on, as he starts to toss on his uniform.  
Saying farewell 
I looked out the window, and George has his cab parked out front, true to his word.  
I pull a business card out of my purse and circle the toll-free number on the front, then wrote my home number and address on the back.  He tucks it into his breast pocket and pats it.  “You may not hear from me,” he says, “but I will be thinking of you.”  
“Thank you for…. everything,” I say, grabbing him for one last hug.  We hold onto each other for a long moment.  He squeezes my ass.  Then I step back.  He grins.  
“I love you.  I’ve always loved you.  Don’t forget it,” he says.
“I love you, Philip.  When your day is bad, or the night is cold, remember there’s a dark-haired woman thinking of you!” I smile.  He kisses me on the forehead and goes out the door.
I sit down on the floor in the foyer.  My cats climb into my lap.  I stay there for long time, trying to make sense of the last few hours.  Running each moment over and over in my mind.  Feeling more loved and more alone than I ever have in my life.  But armed with the fresh knowledge that it was possible for me to make a man very happy in bed (or on the kitchen counter), and that the right man could do the same for me! 
I go pick up my clothes and all the bedding from the balcony.  I take off the t-shirt, crawl into bed and start writing in my diary.  The phone rings!  
– On the phone
“Hello?”
“It’s me,” Philip’s sexy voice wafts from the receiver.  “I had to hear your voice one more time.”   
“Where are you?” I asked, not having anything better to say. I’m almost overcome that he called.  So sweet, this man.  
“Pay phone.  Cab just dropped me off,” he answered.  “Where are you?”
“In bed,” I answer, using my “sexy voice.”
“Mmmm…. naked?” he asks.
“Yes,” I reply.  
“You don’t usually sleep that way, do you?” he guesses.
“No.” How could he know that?
“But you feel different tonight,” he whispers.
“Yes…because of you…” I admit.
“Do you touch yourself?” he asks.
“Not usually…” I answer.
“But you might now?” he suggests.
“Maybe…” I consider it. 
“I’d like to watch that,” he says, “hear you moaning,” he adds. 
“Hmmmm….Philip…” that image sets off quite a reaction.  I breathe a little heavier.  
“Yes?  Is it too weird to talk about this on the phone?” he asks.  
“No… we’ve had sex every other way tonight, might as well christen the phone, too?” I giggle.  
“Yes, ma’am,” he replies, chuckling.
“I am so wet,” I tease him with that. 
“Mmmm…good,” he sasses back.
“And it’s all your fault,” I sass a bit myself.
“It drives me crazy to think you lying there, naked…hot and wet…I am stiff as a stick again!” he marvels.  
“Tell me what you would do about it if you were here?” I ask.  
“I’d suck on you… and then pound that pussy until you beg me to…”
“Philip…,” I sigh.

“Oops.  Gotta run.  Sorry!”  He says in a rush.  
“Take care of yourself, kid,” I tell him.  
“You, too.” and he’s gone. 
What an amazing night!