Heavy petting hopes

September 27, 2017 Tuesday
From: Randy
To: Sassy
Sent: Tue, Sept 27, 2016 at 7:05 AM
Re: Connection
Hey great to hear from you,
Of course loved the pic.
I should apologize for my last email I shouldn’t write during political debates.  
As far why I work where I work, it is more that the city chose me.  The industry I work in has lots of offices there.  I love the field I am in as I love the idea that I could potentially help many people at once.  Yes I have been success and am one of the executive types,.  At my last job I had an administrative assistant who took care of tons of things for me.  I appreciated her very much because without her, I wouldn’t have the time or frankly ability to do many of the things I was able to do.  I hope you do get some appreciation where you’re at.
Where would I take you for a concert in all of all time?  That is a tough one, I would have to say Woodstock.  Perhaps that is obvious but it was a transitional time in American history that I would love to experience.  I really enjoy some of the music but that would be more about the experience.  I would have loved to have seen Johnny Cash, Ray Charles, the Sex Pistols, and the Grateful Dead.  It would also be tremendously interesting to seen original Shakespeare at the Globe (I know, not so much a concert, but more of a spectacle?). 
As far as geeky things, I like museums, I like all things mechanical.  I love trying to understand how someone identified a problem and figured out a solution.  Or took something seemingly mundane, such as how a wheat field is harvested, and turned it into something transformative, like the TV (Philo Farnsworth).  
So might I ask what kind of relationship are you looking for?  As for me I am looking for a LTR, a discreet one.  I basically have a roommate and I want much more.  (I will spare you the details)  I am a very passionate person who loves life and wants to explore much.  
Looking forward to your response with heavy petting hopes,
Randy
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From: Sassy
To: Randy
Sent: Tue, Sep 27, 2016 at 8:05 AM
Re: Connection
Good morning!  
Hope your day is going well despite the dreary weather.  
You’re email was fine, especially if you had that farce going on in the background. Tell me you are not a Trump fan.  
Aha…so you are in the city during the day.  How convenient!  Thanks for noticing admin folks.  It can mean more to hear “thank you” than most people realize.
That photo is me in so many ways…demure but sexy.  I had breast cancer five years ago, so I get to show them off now, right?  I am whole and healthy and want to live life to the fullest!
I have to drive now, will answer more soon but I wanted to give you a nice morning message with a big wet kiss with my hand stroking your cheek and my other hand woven into your hair!
-S
Sent from Yahoo Mail on Android
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From: Randy
To: Sassy
Sent: Tue, Sep 27, 2016 at 10:59 AM
Re: Connection
Hello,
Yes the city is convenient in many regards and may prove to be wonderfully convenient someday if things work out with you.
Music wise I do like folk music but I would be hard pressed to name any artists.  I like most music although I can’t really take rap. How about you – what would be your concert of choice?
I will admit that politically I lean to the right but I certainly am not a Trump fan by any stretch.
As far as admin folks I constantly thank them.  They make a world of difference.
Regarding your picture:  I love demure, I love the tease.  Getting through breast cancer is a huge deal and I am glad it is a life affirming experience for you.  I have seen many people go a different direction with those challenges.
Randy
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From: Sassy
To: Randy
Sent: Tue, Sep 27, 2016 at 1:30 PM
Re: Connection
Hiya! 
It’s lunch time at my office and I want to spend it with you.  Well… as best I can right now.  
The big question is can you touch an older woman with long gray hair and curves?  And let her touch you?  I know… there’s no way to tell online.  Chemistry is such a tricky thing!
When I mention folk, most people mention James Taylor. He’s probably the most successful one.  I like music I can sing along to – Broadway show tunes, a cappella, rock anthems.  But I also like classical and jazz… depends on my mood.  For my concert, let’s go to the Beatles in the mid-60s when the fans adored them and they were so pop and fun.  
I lean pretty far to the left, so perhaps politics is not a good topic to discuss!  
I was very lucky on the cancer front – I kept my sense of humor through being cut, poisoned and irradiated!  They found it early, I got in to the Yawkey Women’s Health Center at Mass General, was able to work straight through except for treatment days.  I don’t think about it much now – it’s just a time in my life I went to the doctor a lot, except when someone new is diagnosed and comes to me for help.  It did help me realize how much I want to enjoy life! 
You ask what I want?  Please don’t feel any pressure to help me with any or all this, but ideally I want a long-term thing so I can get off AM and find 
1) a confidante I can write to every day to share what’s going on, hear about their day, be involved and caring and flirty and send whatever great p0rn I find!  
2) someone to touch me and let me touch him.  I get nothing at home, so I am starved for the basics – someone to hold my hand and rub my wrist with his thumb, a back rub, a long hug.  
3) SEX!  PASSION!  I want a variety of positions… different things on different days… hard and fast sometimes, a slow conversation with sex here and there on other days. I like to be an equal – you do things, I do things, we do things.  My desires will probably broaden as I have time to get beyond longing for basics.  I know it tough to find time, but at least once a month would be grand and more if possible.  Is there ever enough? 
4) FUN!  I want to take a break from work and home and all that to laugh and relax and enjoy life! 
Any of that match up with what you want? 
I try very hard to stay anonymous.  I hope that won’t be a big deal for you.  It’s not about you so much as who might see your phone or your email.  I may tell you a lot in person but keep things electronic more narrow.  I am an expert on discretion.  My first fling was with an old flame from high school found me after 37 years.  He was military, married and miles away, so I learned how to entertain a man far away, and how to protect a man who would not only face a furious wife but the military code of justice if discovered.  He encouraged me to find a local option, which eventually led to AM.  I have also read a lot online – blogs from men and women using AM, and I was online in an IRC chat room for cheaters for years.  They are wonderful people just trying to make the best of it.  So I know how to keep men safe, and I’ve heard all manner of screw-ups and know the consequences which incentivize me to avoid them and help any guy I see avoid them!  Ask me about the bank robber someday when you are lying naked on my chest in a post-coital haze.  
Wow… I better stop before this turns into a novella.  What else would help you know if we might click?  Ask away! 
I’ll go eat leftovers and wonder how your skin will feel on mine… and how you taste!
-Sassy
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From: Randy
To: Sassy
Sent: Tue, Sep 27, 2016 at 8:39 PM
Re: Connection
People
Hello Sassy,
I don’t really think you’re older than me.  I love long hair and curvy women.
As far as politics go I like to think that people have the same goals just different ways of going about achieving that end.  I know this is a bit naive but for me I have to hope for the best in people otherwise I would become completely cynical.  I am very comfortable in what I believe and why, so I don’t tend to get emotional about political arguments. Also I respect that others may have completely different opinions.
Yeah I must admit seeing the Beatles and the fan reactions would be fun, also the famous “Elvis has left the building” concert, early Chuck Berry, Ritchey Valens love it – truly a changing time in music and would love to have seen or been a part of it.  I play a lot of instruments – albeit not very well but respectably.  I very much love music and would love to play in a band again someday.
Okay the tricky part.
1) I also would like a confidant, someone to connect with to tell my secrets to and hear theirs.  To share their joys and sorrows.
2)  I totally agree with you – I miss the touching caressing, flirting, stealing a casual feel.  Gazing into someones eyes and feeling a connection.  I want that again!
3) I agree about sex.  I am a very passionate person.  I very much enjoy pleasing and it stirs up huge passion within me.  I can cum about 5x so I like to enjoy sex for several hours.  I also like to give almost more than receive.  I have been told that I am a particularly good kisser and have a very talented tongue for oral. 
4) Yes I want someone I can date – yes I mean really date.  I want to have fun too and am willing to discreetly travel on vacation.
As far as discretion, I would like to know your name.  I am very good at keeping my secrets well secret.  My phone is locked, I have separate credit card accounts and secret email accounts.  I also try very hard to be discrete.
A little about me: I too was in the military a very long time ago.  When I got out I went back to college and grad school.  I do tons of volunteer work and like to give back because I have been very blessed. 

I had a girlfriend a while ago and we dated for several years.  She moved away and so we broke up.  I tried some of the dating sites but the people I met frankly scared me…. I simply wasn’t ready for that.  
You seem very down to earth.  I like your sense of humor and clearly you can write.  So I think we are a very good match and would very much like to get to know you better.
What do you say?
Randy


The Jester appears

September 27, 2016 Tuesday 
I heard from a new man today!  Wow.  Busy week for new contacts!  

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Ashley Madison Message
Date:Sep 27th – 3:56pm
From:Jester1968
Message
Ok so the line “won’t save you money on your insurance” is an absolute grabber. How long did that take you to come up with? it’s great. Are you in advertising? lol With that sense of humor we definitely can chat I hope. I’m also rather humorous, dark humor, often in a self deprecating way. 
Check out my profile. Let’s chat! And even if you don’t I’m coming back to that profile when I need a laugh…
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Jester huh?  That’s original.  

He likes my tag line!  Ha!  I went to look at his profile. 
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He knows how to spell discreet!  Yay! 
• Age: 48 
Hmmm… he’s probably 50 or so but.. I don’t do that well with younger men.  
• Location: [redacted]
About half an hour away in the burbs.  That could work. 
• Height: 6’0″ (183cm)
Oh!  Yes please! 
• Weight: 180 lbs (82kg) – Fit
Hmm… kinda skinny.  I like burly better, but it could work.  Kris weighed about that. 
• My Limits: Undecided
Really?  I don’t like this one.  Eh.  Pick something!  
• Status: Attached Male seeking Females
Good. 
• Gender: Male
: ) 
• Smoking Habits: Never
Good. 

He checked a few boxes about his preferences – good stuff, nothing scary.  He wrote some good paragraphs.  Says he likes a good conversation.  Oh please, let that be true!

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Seems worth an answer. 
He’s online right now!  I’ll write something quick so he gets a reply soon.  I sent out “don’t log off yet!” vibes.  
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Date:Sep 27th – 4:12pm
From:Sassy
Message
Hiya J! Thanks for your great message! I like to make you laugh. I can’t take credit… a nice guy saw my boring old greeting and told me I needed something more peppy and came up with it! It felt like “me” immediately! Though I did look a little like Flo from the Progressive commercials in my younger days! 
I like your greeting… there is nothing like a man who knows how to spell discreet! I am happy to talk. Though I should say that unless you have a thing for older women, I’m probably not your gal. I have my best luck with older guys who don’t mind my long gray hair and curvy body. But I didn’t want your message to go unanswered. 
Best of luck to you! Hugs with groping! -Sassy
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Date:Sep 27th – 4:19pm
From:Jester1968
Message
That was a good laugh. 
And hopefully it’s not too perverse but I do like slightly older woman on the larger side. Is that freakish? So to be honest I love big boobs….that should at least give you a laugh!
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Date:Sep 27th – 4:26pm
From:Sassy
Message
Here’s to more laughs! 
So you want to talk? Explore? See if we click? It’s not perverse… just like to be honest so I don’t waste your time. I certainly have the boobs thing going on! I can make a “boob man” very happy! Mmmm…. 
I should also warn you that I am almost as curious as I am Sassy… hope you like answering questions! You are welcome to ask a lot too! 
Hugs with groping… and an ear nibble… just because. -Sassy


Witty Randy retorts

September 26, 2016 Monday

I wrote directly to his gmail account.  A first for me… going over straight to email with a new guy.  Hope he isn’t a creep!

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From: Sassy
To: Randy
Sent: Mon, Sep 26, 2016 at 9:41 PM
Subject: Connection 
Tap… tap.. is thing working?  Are you that guy from that web site?  This is that gal from that web site. You cleverly embedded your email in your sweet message to me.  And let me see your handsome face.  So here I am.  Tell me what you’d like to know.   Hugs with groping! 
-S
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From: Randy
To: Sassy
Sent: Mon, Sep 26, 2016 at 10:26 PM
Re: Connection 
Hey there,
Like your witty retorts.   
It looks like you are from Boston.
My profile has me there but I live elsewhere.
Do you have any pictures you would like share?
Also do you chat? Email can take a while for a response.
Would be nice to get to know you better.
As for me I enjoy theatre, running, playing music and geeky things
For work I am in an office.  Too much.  
Hugs with deep kissing?
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From: Sassy
To: Randy
Sent: Mon, Sep 26, 2016 at 11:35 PM
Re: Connection
Hiya! 
How are you this fine evening? 
Great to hear from you.  I am in Boston. I like to go to elsewhere too.  Have you always been in MA?  I was raised in upstate NY but came to MA for college and stayed.  
I do have photos… I’ll attach my favorite below.  
Let’s email a little and I can switch to a gmail account to chat if we hit it off. 
For work I am an office manager, that efficient woman in the back cubicle no one notices, who takes care of the mundane administrative tasks so the senior staff can focus on their work.  I also help run a community project in my spare time.  
What sort of music do you like to see live?  I mostly get into folk types – recently saw Christine Lavin and David Wilcox.  They are both great story tellers, song writers, guitarists and singers!  If you could take me to any concert in history, where would we go? 
What are geeky things?  
Mmmm… deep kisses… yes please!  More hugs with groping… and an ear nibble… just because. 
-S
[Attached “the famous photo of my cleavage in the black bra]


New Randy Man writes

September 25, 2017 Sunday
I got a message from a new Ashley Madison guy today!  

I still get excited seeing the notification email, even with all the crap I went through earlier in the month – getting to know a man and then having it not work out – TWICE.  Argh!  I keep thinking I can’t put myself out there again… why am I doing this?  Oh yeah… talking to a nice men…being touched… sex… *sigh.  Okay.  I’ll go read it.  Can’t hurt to read it, right? 
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Ashley Madison message

Date: Sep 25th – 5:49pm
From: Randy
To: Sassy
Message
Hey there, Loved your profile. 
I am a full size, happy guy, I’m 6’4″ and love real women (BBW). 
I am well educated and can hold a conversation. 
I would like to exchange emails and get to know each other better? 
I am [email address redacted] at gmail dot com. 
Looking forward to your response, 
Randy
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Hmmm… brief.  Kinda sweet. Always fascinated and sort of repelled by men who say they like BBW (Big Beautiful Women) but better than him saying he doesn’t!  I went to look at his profile.
He says he’s 50.  Probably means he’s at least 52.  Whatever.  I don’t usually do well with younger men, but it’s worth trying? 
He’s tall!  I like that.  Makes me feel a little smaller.  
And he’s burly.  That’s good.   
Want’s something long term.  Hunh.  Nice of him to say that, even if it rarely works.  Better than “undecided!”  
And he’s attached.  That’s a must.  No single men. 
He checked a bunch of boxes for his preferences.  Eh.  Some I don’t want to deal with… but mostly fine.  
Refers to his wife as a roommate.  I know that feeling!  
He wants the basics… kissing, holding hands.  I know that feeling so well!  
Ooh!  He sent me access to his photo!  Awww… such a nice smile.  Though it’s a cropped family photo with the top of a little girl’s head beside him.  Don’t do that guys!  Use that mobile phone, smile and snap a photo.  Geez… 
He put in his email… maybe I’ll use it instead waiting a day or two and dithering on AM. 
Okay.  He deserves a reply.  I’m writing back.  But not until tomorrow.  I want to see if his words and his smile stick with me.  
 Time to get back out there!


One last try

September 22, 2016 Thursday
From: Sassy
To: Usual Man
Sent:  Thursday, September 22, 2016 8:33 AM
Subject: Thursday thoughts
Good morning! 
Happy Fall!  Did you notice this morning?  So beautiful. 
How was your weekend away?  Hope you had a grand time. 
Wacky week for me…Uncle died Monday, Hubby’s dad on Saturday.  Feels strange that life rolls on anyway but it does.
Have a great day hot stuff!
-S

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I really wanted to see this guy again.  Thought it was worth one last try… *sigh 
I read back over all his emails, thought about everything he said… looking for where he changed his mind.  Do you see it?  I can’t figure it out.  If he was looking for a quick blow job, he would have gone silent right after that.  What happened to go from “spectacular” to silence?!

Polite to Mr Truck

September 21, 2016 Saturday

From: Mr Truck
To: Sassy
Sent: Wed, Sep 21, 2016 at 8:34 AM
Subject: Hey

How’s it going girlfriend? Summer winding down, just like my watch!

Been having some fantasies and ideas about our photo session…

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From: Sassy
To: Mr Truck
Sent: Wednesday, September 21, 2016 8:36 AM
Re: Hey

Good morning hot stuff! Mmmm

Life is rolling along…been having fun with toys! ; )

What do you imagine? Do you evet see video of a man taking photos of a woman?

Mwah!

-S


Sent from Yahoo Mail on Android

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From: Mr Truck
To: Sassy
Sent: Wed, Sep 21, 2016 at 11:31 AM
Re: Hey

This video has some moments, but they don’t take the photographer conceit very far, it’s too phony

[there was no video attached]

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I started to write a response… but I could not deal.  I try hard to keep the door open… but he has gotten a bit too “out there” lately.  And he never figures out how to see me. Today I was thinking what is the point?  Why do I bother?  *sigh  Hope I get over this phase soon and get back to my Sassy self!  

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Polite to Sneezy

September 18, 2016 Sunday
I finally gathered the energy to reply to Sneezy about a day after he wrote.  I want to be polite but not much more. 
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From: Sassy
To: Sneezy
Sent: Sunday, September 18, 2016 1:15 AM
Hiya G!  
How are you doing?  Hope life is treating you well and you got out to enjoy the gorgeous weather today.  
Life has been a bit wacky lately with work being crazy, and then both my only uncle and my husband’s father died in the past week.  *sigh  Lots to do on the family front.  
-S 
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From: Sneezy
To: Sassy
Sent: Sunday, September 18, 2016 12:58PM
Re: Friday
Hi Sassy-
Yes, I am out and about today enjoying the weather.  Sorry to hear about your losses.  I was off Friday and remember that you often take Fridays as well, and thought we could play.
Hope you are well.  Let me know when life settles down for you.
G

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With Brett in my mind

September 18, 2016 Sunday

From: Sassy
To: Brett
Sent: Sunday, September 18, 2016 1:12 AM
Subject: The week that was
Hiya Brett,
Hope you’ve had a good week – such beautiful weather! Did you have a good visit with your kids?
It’s been a strange time for me.  My uncle died on Monday morning, so that means a trip in mid-October for his memorial.  And my husband’s father died this morning.  Hubby doesn’t feel like he can make the trip to the midwest, so we will grieve from here.
This makes FIVE deaths in my close family in the past six months – Hubby’s brother, my dear friend from church, Mom, her brother – my only Uncle – on Monday and now Hubby’s dad! *sigh All senior folks, all expected… but *sigh
In better news – we got our new couch!  We spent three nights moving furniture and cleaning – Tuesday to make a path for removal of the old couch, Wednesday to clean up under that and prep for the new couch, then Thursday putting everything back around the new couch!  No one warned me about all that!  I took the opportunity to recycle the ancient magazines that had accumulated under the coffee table and side tables.  Whee!
When things get rough, I go away in my mind to a lovely room with a nice man who has amazing hands and a hot mouth and a super sexy cock – you!  I so appreciate having those memories to draw on.  Thank you!  Mwah!

-S


Sneezy chimes in

September 16, 2016 Friday

It never fails… when I am desperate to hear from a certain guy… I get an email… my heart soars when my phone pings and then… it’s from another guy! 

Here’s an AM pal from way back chiming in for the first time since October 2015. *sigh
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From: Sneezy
To: Sassy
Sent: Friday, September 16, 2016 9:31 AM
Subject: Friday

Hey Sassie-
What are you up to on this beautiful day?

G

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I can’t deal with this today… I’ll hope to do it tomorrow. 

Sound of Silence by Disturbed

Not a word from the Usual Man since midday yesterday.  No answer to three messages.  No response to the perfect blow job video?  Hmmm…

Why wouldn’t he write?  He’s traveling.  Driving.  Busy with family.  Right?

No time for a quick text?  He can’t pop into the men’s room and send a sentence?  Nothing?  Really?  He managed to keep in touch last weekend…

I am not panicking.  It’s only been 24 hours.

Okay… I am panicking… a little.  Okay… a lot.  He wouldn’t just go silent after telling me our time on Monday was spectacular and writing every day since?  Would he?  The universe wouldn’t take away two men in less than a month, men I thought I had a special connection with?  Right?

I’ll wait to really panic.  There’s plenty of time over the weekend to panic.  *sigh

Argh… I hate silence.

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Disturbed – The Sound Of Silence

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