That first hug

February 20, 2015 Friday
From: Jim
To: Sassy
Date: 02/20/15 at 3:05 PM
Hello From Chilly Boston!
Hi Sassy,
I feel like there is something missing in my life today. ūüôā
I hope you are out having fun today. Maybe you are trying to figure out how to stay there?  I certainly would!
It occurred to me that your lust for life is even greater than, er, your lust. I think I understand the reasons why.
Smooch!
-Jim
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From: Sassy
To: Jim
Date: Fri, Feb 20, 2015 at 7:25 PM
Subject: Re: Hello From Chilly Boston!
Hiya! ¬†Sorry today got away from me. ¬†Nice to be missed but I didn’t mean for you to do it.¬†
What did you do today?  All business?  I hope you stayed warm Рmy Facebook feed is full of people talking about low temps and thermal tights and ice damns.  Makes it very tough to think of going home.  But I am ready to be home, other than that.  You provide a powerful incentive to return.  Please let me get home uneventfully.  
My esteemed traveling companions went off on another excursion – to Tulum and Xel-ha – and I¬†stayed in the¬†hotel. ¬†I ended up sleeping late, doing some work on the payroll, going to lunch at¬†the beach and then falling¬†asleep! ¬†Tough duty but someone had to do it. ¬†I did think of you.¬†¬†Your hands… your mouth… mmm. ¬† I look¬†around this hotel room and wonder if I will see you in¬†a hotel room sometime and what we will do. ¬†
Any big plans for the weekend? ¬†I was hoping for low key room service with my niece but we’re¬†going out again¬†tonight at my niece’s request. ¬†She likes dinner with a show. ¬†Heh. ¬†I¬†am flying tomorrow. ¬†Sunday¬†there’s a birthday lunch for one of my project peeps. ¬†Remind me to tell you about my work and fun on a community project.¬†
Let’s think about a hug. ¬†A long hug. ¬†Holding on. ¬†Breathing each other in. ¬†To anyone looking, it¬†seems like old¬†friends meeting after a long time, but it is the first time. ¬†The long-awaited¬†culmination of a long process of¬†searching, an intimate conversation and a trust building to the¬†point of reality. ¬†That first hug. ¬†So simple yet so¬†so important. ¬†Mmmm…
Keep misbehaving J.  
-S
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From: Jim
To: Sassy
Date: 02/20/15 at 8:28 PM
Re: Hello From Chilly Boston!
Hi Sassy,
Wonderful to hear from you!
First of all, soak up these Halcyon days with your niece. I still remember sitting on a deck at¬†in Maine maybe 44 years ago. Eating cereal outside, watching the seals on the¬†water. Mostly I remember the people I loved that are now long passed. None of us knew that¬†would be our last summer together. I really do not mean to sound melancholic. I don’t know what¬†I would do without those memories!
That first hug‚Ķ will¬†we really appear to be relatives or friends that have not seen each other? If somebody shouts¬†“get a room” I am sure it will be due to my eagerness!
I believe you will see snow falling tomorrow in Boston. Brace yourself for the cold!
Today I did some office work and chores around the house. The wind has been very destructive, but I think the worst is behind us now.
This weekend we are moving some furniture around in the bedrooms. Wifey is moving into the¬†master bedroom and I am moving into the bedroom that is now my office. With any luck I’ll be¬†fully settled in my room next week. I can’t wait!
I’d love to hear more about your project. ¬†
Safe travel and sweet dreams. I look forward to seeing you when you are settled in.
I will do my level best to keep my hands above the sheets tonight.
Yours,
-Jim
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From: Sassy
To: Jim
Date: Fri, Feb 20, 2015 at 11:12 PM
Subject: Re: Hello From Chilly Boston!
Hiya Jim! ¬†I opened your message at dinner and my sister asked, “Why are you grinning like¬†THAT?” ¬†I closed it to read later, afraid of what my face would show. ¬†I am not the great poker¬†player.¬†¬†
Ah yes… the memories. ¬†I am storing them away by the bucketful. ¬†The ones from 30 years ago¬†have kept me warm on some very cold New England nights – it is wonderful to have a new set.¬†¬†Though I didn’t have a foursome this time. ¬†Heh.¬†¬†
I sense so many stories between the lines of your message tonight. I want to hear them but I¬†want to see your face, hearing your breathing when I do. ¬†I am bursting to ask… but will wait.¬†
I abide by the “nothing in public” rule vis a vis PDA’s. ¬†Except when I don’t. ¬†Heh¬†¬†
Let’s hope I can get the in-flight wifi working tomorrow and send you my salacious thoughts. ¬†I am trying¬†to hold off the “what ifs” of tomorrow and just help my sister deal with whatever befalls us as it¬†occurs, but it is tough. ¬†We have heard so many bad travel stories this month – people stuck in¬†L.A. for four days, or having to drive home from Newark or NYC in the snow, missed flight and¬†cruise connections. ¬†I don’t want to add to that pile! ¬†We do have a direct flight, which may help.¬†¬†I am trying to bundle up the sunshine and bring some home for us all!¬†¬†
We don’t have to be sneaky if you go with me to a project event. ¬†Imagine that! ¬†I have never gotten an AM man to one, but¬†people are very open about greeting my friends and not very inquisitive. ¬†My¬†cheating pals are terrified, “How do you introduce him? ¬†How do you say you met?” ¬†Here’s what¬†I do. ¬†“This is my friend Jim.” ¬†That seems to cover it. ¬†My mother met my last beau. ¬†She¬†invited him to lunch! ¬†And told him secrets about me while I was in the bathroom! ¬†We were¬†always a family that “brought home strays” so everyone is used to random extra people at lunch.¬†¬†They enjoy getting to know people. ¬†She asked him how we met. ¬†He said, “Online.” ¬†My friends¬†ask, “Does she know about you two?” ¬†I don’t know. ¬†Sometimes I think she must know, must¬†see how we look at each other. ¬†And in another way, I am the good girl, such things are simply¬†not done, so it might not even occur to her.¬†¬†
My sister talks about “my shirt”, i.e. the way people see me. ¬†She thinks my shirt says, “Talk to¬†me and I’ll make it better.” ¬†Her shirt says, “Fuck you.” ¬†Heh. ¬†I wonder what your shirt says?¬†¬†Perhaps… “Smarter than you.” ¬†Or something I can’t see without seeing you.¬†
Why do you not demand photos like every other man?  It is refreshing.  
What is your favorite dessert? 
Please don’t bottle up your sexual urges. ¬†Get into a pattern of letting them out! ¬†I hope to you¬†will pitch them at me… and I will catch them and fling them back (in honor of spring training¬†starting today!)¬†¬†

-S


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