I have this habit of getting back in touch. Does that make me an idiot?
I get bored on Saturday nights and reach out to men who have gone silent. I was so curious to know what happened to The Lawyer. I last heard from him in October. He asked me if our next meet could be in a hotel. And I said yes! And then… nothing.
I wrote to him at Thanksgiving. Silence.
I wrote to him at New Year’s. Silence. I began to wonder if he’d had a heart attack. I just wanted to know! I hate silence!
Maybe it was the Dayquil, but I started to wonder if the third time could be the charm? And wrote him again.
To: The Lawyer
Sent: Saturday, January 19, 2013 9:01 PM
Subject: checking in
Just checking in to see how you’re doing.
Hope your new year is off to a grand start!
From: The Lawyer
Sent: Tuesday, January 22, 2013 6:32 PM
Subject: Re: checking in
Hey sweetheart– my apologies– life has been crashing in a bit, and I am sorry for not staying in touch– how are you? hope your new year is going well, and that you’ve been able to indulge yourself and have lots of fun!! I deeply regret not having followed through, but lots of stuff came up and I ducked!
hope you are doing well and you don’t think too horribly of me! best, Tom
To: The Lawyer
Sent: Jan 22, 2013 7:26 PM
Tom!!! Thank you for taking the time to reply… I appreciate it! I’m so relieved to know you are alive and well and busy, dear man.
I learned a lot in the last four months. You were the only “normal” man I met, so you stick out in my memory. You know how perfect someone seems before you get to know them. 🙂
After Panties Man, Mr. Scat, Mr. Dom, two guilt kings, two email kings and a partridge in a pear tree, I am done with AM. It was “interesting” but didn’t produce the fun I had hoped. I am still there, helping my online pals fine tune their profiles, but I seem destined to sit on the back bench while others play. It was good to have tried, and met you. You were very kind. When life gets too bizarre, I think of the twinkle in your eye and my hand in your pocket. It always makes me smile.
I am home sick with a cold, so anything goofy I said above should be written off to Dayquil.
I hope life stops crashing in and 2013 is a great year!
Nice to know he’s not dead. But geesh.
I wrote back a sweet note with an undertone of “you jerk… you were the only normal guy I met and now I’ve given up.” Hope that guilts him a bit but I doubt it. He was such a gentleman and then pfft. But I do appreciate him responding!
I’ll be very surprised if he writes back. I’ve got my closure so I can forget now. Right? File him in the “too busy to cheat” pile and move on. Stop wondering what it would be like to be alone with him? Right?