Here’s my question for today: Can I “fish in my own pond?”
I’ve faced so many questions – seems like every time I get approached by a guy there is some issue or kink or something that has to be pondered. Can I deal with that? or this other thing? Is sex worth dealing with it? Beyond the whole “being with a married man” thing that I talked myself through in the first weeks chatting with Philip, I’ve run into so many wrinkles! Most of which most people say are a bad idea. Or I haven’t done them and don’t know if I want to start! What matters? What doesn’t?
A guy who smokes weed all the time?
The guy who is into olive oil massage?
A guy who is a sub?
A guy who is a dom?
A guy who wants to listen to me poop?
A traveling man?
A single man?
A guy wearing women’s underwear?
The guy who wants me to ride his motorcycle?
The guy who only wants to write to set up meets?
The guy who wants me to visit his house?
The guy who can’t spell?
I’ve crossed a lot of lines, tried a lot of sexy stuff, broken rules, contradicted conventional wisdom… but I have never dated anyone I worked with. Never had an offer to do so!
So can I meet someone who works where I work? I keep thinking of course I can. And then thinking I absolutely can’t! Help!
It’s not a pond exactly… more like a Great Lake! And he is on the far shore. Not in my office, not a supervisor or even in my chain of command.
But still… is it worth the risk? What can happen? Could I lose my job? What if I break it off and he’s mean and tells people? It’s usually the woman who gets canned when these things come out. Ugh. That would really suck.
Okay… I admit it… I googled him. My Google fu is strong. If you give me two or three pieces of information about you? I can usually find you. So I know his first name, probably, and where he works. And what he does. It didn’t take me long to find a guy who could be him, and then find enough info to know it was the same guy.
Oh my… he’s a BIG FISH! Yikes! Does that change the question? Can I meet a Big Fish?
I had a moment of pride that I managed to attract someone so distinguished! Then I had a moment of terror imagining what might happen to him or to me if we were discovered. I usually have to worry about a guy’s wife finding out, but this is much bigger. If I am going to stop, I should stop now, right?
I realize I am getting ahead of myself. We may not even click in person. I should at least see what he looks like, listen to him… right? I have a special feeling about him.. a kindred spirit. *sigh* We can work this out, right?
What should I do?!!!