from my private journal
Friday, May 4, 2012
He sent a bunch of FB messages… making it clearer and clearer that there is another woman.
I wrote back asking if I need to worry about my health because he slept with me without a condom. And that made him very defensive. Said he had not seen her in years when we were together.
He called me at work! I had not heard his voice in two months. It was glorious to hear him… but his words crushed me. I had about three minutes before a job interview with summer student. I listened to him for 13 minutes… all about how he didn’t know what he was going to do but he had started talking to the woman he left his wife for 4 years ago and it was looking like he would finally have the courage to leave his wife now and might go be with the other woman. But he didn’t know if he’d have the stones to do it. Even though the chaplain had said he was risking his health and his marriage sounded unsalvageable (and they never say that!)
My dreams were dying… but I couldn’t tell what he was saying exactly and I had to go back to work. I asked him to call me tomorrow. He said he would. Arrrrgh!