Naked sushi

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

10:13am Phil
I was doing great.  An ok day.  Pulled up The Beach Gal’s Facebook because I can’t help myself, not much there.  I see she is hidng new phoots from me and I am sure almost all of her posts. Means those are photos of her and Mr. new.  Again, just hurt, opened it all up all over again. I’m so damned stupid.
10:55am
Hiya, kid.  Did you sleep?  Eat?  First… you don’t know what you’re not seeing.  Second… stop looking!  I know… that’s tough.  But let the damn wound heal.  Stop picking at it!
Go talk to some subordinate, make his or her day.
11:12am
So what does your wife think is going on with you?
11:21am
It’s 53 degrees! Daydreaming about you here… going for a walk on the beach in Gloucester, eating chowder and lobster, smiling in the afternoon sunshine.  If only I could walk!  
11:56am Phil
Slept a little, still not eating.  I know but I can’t help myself.  My wife has not even picked up on the fact that I have been so miserable, so withdrawn.  She is not a particularly sympathetic person and probably just thinks it’s a work thing, not that she would ask. I guess it’s nice out here too.  I don’t much care.  I’m not even interested in football this week.  Could care less.  Parties galore and much merriment and I don’t want any part of any of it.  I am usually such a Christmas person. Sucks.
2:21pm
Done with the weekly staff meeting. Whee!  We had a guest speaker.  I was thinking that you’d like to pick his brain.  It amazes me all the research being done and no one is changing based on it.  
My mind boggles at how different I am from your wife.  Course you’d probably say I notice too much, am too sympathetic and want to hug you too much!  I do hope the Christmas spirit and other people’s merriment will infect you.  I’m very glad to hear you’re not leaning on alcohol… that could be very bad.  It’s good you have a mask to put on.  
Not interested in football?  Get to a doctor STAT!
3:59pm Phil
I would never do that with booze.  I drink cause I enjoy it not to get hammered or avoid life.  Life is too short to take that route.  Not my style.  I will ache and slowly the ache will fade.  I will remember and smile.  I will always regret not doing more. I love that free spirited girl.  She would have been horrible as an Officer’s Wife but she’s amazing fun and we would have had so many great times outside of the military. I like to sit on the front porch naked.  Not worry that anyone might notice.  Just hang out, sip a drink, laugh.  My wife would not do that if I held a gun to her.  I used to love to skinny dip in my pool.  Only in the pitch of dark for her. I’d do a nude beach in a nano second, climb in a hot tub with other people. So would The Beach Gal.  I am going to miss that so much and I’ll never get it again.
4:02pm
Ah… the days you’ve had!  I do not believe you will never have fun again.
4:12pm Phil
I’ll have fun, I manage to find it but damn that girl was something. Every day is a little better.  This afternoon was horrible but now a little better.  Goes in waves of miserable depression, nausea, etc to just a heavy heart. I need to will myself to have better days. I can do that.  I’ve done it before. Swam for forty minutes today, feels like my arms are going to fall off.  That’s a good distractor.  Lost more weight and still dropping.  Takes me a couple of months to get back on track from this and I will end up 30 lbs lighter which is ok.
9:39pm Phil
Lots of discussion tonight. Nice. Probably won’t amount to much but nice
9:40pm
Oh?  With whom?
9:41pm Phil
The Beach Gal
9:41pm
Wow.  I was expecting that.
9:42pm Phil
You were?
9:42pm
Yup.
9:42pm Phil
Why?
9:43pm
Common pattern.  And you are irresistible. 
9:43pm Phil
Chatted most of the afternoon and evening
Common pattern?
Do we end up naked on the porch for the next 40 years?
9:45pm
Ha ha
9:46pm Phil
Irresistible, no but I do think I’m a good man
9:46pm
Gist of the chatting?
9:47pm Phil
I love her, almost at the end of military tour, free to make moves. Kids will get over it
9:48pm
Her reaction?
9:51pm Phil
At first, too late, I won’t hurt this good new guy. Won’t do this again. Tonight very different, very loving
9:51pm
Interesting
9:51pm Phil
Hm?
9:52pm
Told ya… irresistible!
I am proud of you for fighting for what you want
9:52pm Phil
Emotional tie has always been so strong
9:52pm
I understand
9:53pm Phil
Always done for every one else, never me
9:53pm
Hide the knives
9:54pm Phil
Don’t know yet what happened if anything but it was so nice
Huh?
9:55pm
I hope your roller coaster ride is over… that you can swing up and stay up with her!
9:55pm Phil
What’s that mean?
9:55pm
When you tell my wife…hide the knives. 
9:56pm Phil
Oh, yeah no shit. Don’t want anything from here. Just my clothes and tools.
9:57pm
and the plants
9:57pm Phil
The Beach Gal is a pretty wild roller coaster. Need a harness for that one but worth it
Will grow new ones
9:58pm
Fun to plan, eh?
10:00pm Phil
Been planning. Have all these ideas but got so bogged down with work, I have not been sharing.
10:01pm
Do tell!
10:02pm Phil
Much to do. Have to rebuild our trust in each other. Doable but takes time, work, love
10:02pm
Sure
Did you mention naked on the porch?
10:04pm Phil
The house. Knockout walls, expand, put in tiki bar, hot tub, bigger kitchen. And naked on the porch. It’s a stoop so you are right there by the road, cars going by
It’s very cool. I pretty much wander around naked any way
10:05pm
So back to the Beach.
10:05pm Phil
It’s wrong on every level but so hot and so much fun
10:06pm
Not wrong.  Your house, whatever!
I am so happy for you.
10:07pm Phil
Will be at the beach for awhile. Where The Beach Gal’s place is. Mile from the beach. Great waterfront bar, nice uncrowned beach where you can also be naked
10:08pm
Wow
You have a one track naked mind tonight!
10:08pm Phil
Wow?
We never wore a lot of clothes around each other
10:09pm
Nice
10:11pm Phil
Ha ha. I’m not particularly shy about that. Why I work hard in the gym
10:11pm
Sorry… I got lost in thinking about that.  Back now.
10:12pm Phil
What? Me naked?
10:12pm
la la la….
10:13pm Phil
LOL.
I can get that way pretty quick
10:22pm
Tempting…
10:23pm Phil
Ha ha,
10:24pm
Trying to behave.  Not confuse you further. 
10:26pm Phil
Ever had sex on the beach? Not the drink? Wow! The threat of getting caught, the sound of the surf, then run into the water
10:27pm
la la la…not listening! 
10:28pm Phil
Lol
Really don’t get sand where you think
10:30pm
I promise… if a guy offers, I will do it.
10:31pm Phil
It’s amazing! We were on a beach were we not?
10:39pm
Were we?  Other than Cancun in our minds…
10:40pm Phil
There was a beach in gloucester
10:50pm
Mmmmf…. sorry… got lost again. 
11:36pm
   
Very interesting sushi party photo! Always did want to try this on you with lobster maki… Bet you could get into this.
11:37pm
Sleep well, sweet man. I mean it… sleep.

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