Had a cigar and scotch last night alone with my thoughts. Tried to think of good things. Thought of you, work. Try to imagine what the future holds but I just don’t know. Just want to hold someone and cry till I’m done. Never cried in front of my wife and hugging is not an option. She’s not a hugger.
I have friends who are like me, it’s ok, it’s not bad, you go through life. I have other friends who are screwing in hot tubs, back yards, the beach, and are always touching each other and obviously so into one another. I am so jealous of those people. I have friends who are swingers, They do the whole Hedo thing. I have been naked with them in a hot tub on numerous occasions. Nothing happens because the deal is it needs to be a couple but we have spent many nights side by side naked in the tub sipping scotch and smoking cigars or skinny dipping in their pool. I’m not real shy about being naked. Been in a pool with them and 12 naked gay guys, in a hot tub full to overflowing with naked bodies. That’s an interesting thing. Never gonna happen with my wife. It was a blast though and very much me. ^_^
Thinking of you always brings a smile. That’s a good thing. I’ll be ok. Just need to get past this and I will. I’m pretty resilient. Glad you enjoyed the photo. I had a crazy morning in the office. Going to go for a swim in the pool. I need to blow off some steam and I’ll hit the elliptical for an hour later on. It is a healing process for me. Always loved being in the pool. Wish I could pack up for a week and go to Key West but I’d be miserable. The beach, the music, were our thing, still my thing but this going to take awhile before it stops bringing back sad memories. Ah well. Very sexy kiss video!